Breakingthewall

I think that the issue is not to make psychedelics or not, it is the reason why you do them. I do psychedelics because I want to deactivate my ego, I want my mind to be a mirror when I'm walking down the street, just flow without interpreting. This is a divine experience, no more is needed. psychedelics have greatly helped me understand who I am, as an ego, and as infinity, and thus be able to take a step back and shut up. Another thing is that with psychedelics you look for experiences. then you are strengthening the ego. You can become god 100 times that later you will continue to be your ego, only inflated by interpreting that you are God, that you know things that others do not, etc. what matters is to flow in the present without hindrance. well, what matters to me, you can also feed a spiritual ego if you want, but you will continue to suffer

I ve read your post of 2019. very interesting! I understand your point, you have been in spirituality for 8 years and your ego is still intact, no matter how much you have temporarily disintegrated it. my idea is that the goal is to weaken, or disintegrate the ego, to live in this world with joy, enjoying every smell, taste, pleasure and pain. that is, the truth is a tool, not an objective. the goal is freedom. I believe that deepening in the truth the ego weakens. mine at least does. but I see that yours does not, even with the most serious combined practices. What else can you do to stop identifying with thought? It is not enough for you to know that the depth is infinite so there is nothing to know, nothing to think about, just be? It is very difficult! but it is possible i think, it is a true game. Quite exciting, a challenge, you need all your intelligence and passion...let's see

seek awakening. When you are as fucked up as you say you are, you are cornered, there is no way out, things were twisted from the beginning and no matter how much you straighten them they will always seem crooked. When the idea of suicide crosses your mind, it is time to seek awakening. do your research, you are in the right place. If you awaken to your true nature, your problems will be fixed, since they will not be a problem.

sorry for the way i said it but i think op is a guy who is very serious about this and what you are saying is totally wrong and seems destined to sow confusion. I'm not saying it's intentional

you just talk nonsense, one after another. try to say something constructive

you are completely wrong, I speak of direct experience, not belief ... but it is your choice. people are afraid of becoming nothing / infinite, because it is the disappearance of what they deeply believe they are, of themselves, their reality, memories, their entire world. it's normal, right? You said that we want futile illusion...Look, I wouldn't even answer you because it is obvious that you only want to show how smart you are, but the op is in a delicate moment, which I know well, and what it does not need is that they come up with enigmas of what it is not and other nonsense . the death of the ego is real. the awakening is real. It is nothing you can imagine so it is better not to talk about what it is, but about how to surrender the ego, and that's it

Obviously it has never happened that your ego really dissolves, and the infinite that you are is revealed. otherwise you wouldn't say that. the ego are limits, if the limits disappear, infinity is revealed. This is not even remotely an idea or a belief, it is something inconceivable to the mind. infinity is scary because it reveals a truth: "you" do not exist, you are an illusion. what you are is totally impersonal and accepting it takes time. I'm on it

anxiety, insomnia, discomfort with life. In my case, the solution was to go on a trip by myself in South America without a fixed idea. I left the weed and entered a kind of depression from which I saw no way out. making that trip symbolized a before and after, a break

how do you know? because others have said it? for you god is an idea, and as such, it is ego. we are trying to dissolve the ego, so that idea is a hindrance that you surrender your ego without asking God in return. asking for something in return is ego. I have tried with mushrooms. it is something of incredible beauty but there is a lot of confusion. 5 meo is absolutely clean. just ego death, no more. have these near ego death experiences, meditate, contemplate on them. understand what is resisting and why, see the ego and understand it. little by little be willing to let it go

you are loved because you are. the fact of being implies that you are loved. you are loved by yourself, infinity, and that is why you are

When you seek ego death, seek that: ego death. not god, not infinite love, not the source, not anything. give yourself without asking for anything in return. For me the job is not so much to know, as to be able to let go of the ego. the suitable substance for the death of the ego is the 5 meo dmt. for me it is a huge challenge too. it has happened sometime and not others, always for a very short time, but when you became infinite, it is. keep in mind that every seeing that your ego screams on the brink of dissolution reveals itself. You take a giant step in understanding your ego, that is, you. the more conscious you are of your illusory nature, the more possible it is to let go. Your ego, now, hates the infinity. he sees it as death and recoils in horror. he has to educate himself to accept what he is

There is nothing better than an experience like this to see the face of your ego, that is, you. the last layer of your ego is to resist being infinite because that is disappearing. Any horror, panic, negativity ... is your ego holding on. It's fascinating to see how he does it, right?

First transcend your ego, or at least transcend it more. and after that you can really help others. Ask yourself: I want to help others for them, or for me? what do you think? I think that we must work on ourselves until we reach the point, if we arrive, where our engine is not the ego. then, it is time to consider an activity focused on others. meanwhile, helping ourselves is more than enough

Christianity is wonderful, without irony. On the one hand, there is yaveh. Hey, if you see him, change the sidewalk or kill the first-born of your entire city. be very careful with yaveh, don't even look at his face friend, I say it for your sake. Would you like to go to hell tu be tortured for the eternity? as he gets up in a bad mood, there you go in the second season we have the lamb of god. God is love, He loves you. and his son ends up neither more nor less than crucified between two vulgar thieves, after humiliating him in public. and this poor man who says more or less, loves others, carries a message, in some way, of enlightenment. and the world surrenders to that message! the Romans, neither more nor less, surrender. and the Vikings! Russians, greeks ... all surrender to love (well, maybe to the paradise, it's a confusing message). and under the cross of love, they begin the bloodiest and cruellest stage in history?

change my mind, we live in the best times in human history. or not? I don't know ... it depends on how you consider it. Humans are difficult

No, but sentence him to death maybe yes. Let's see, here we are all going to die, and to spend 35 years in jail, and die there alone, locked, the rapist saves him and society saves him. Killing someone is hard, but keeping them locked up for 40 years is even harder. Premeditated murder and rape: bye guys. nothing happens! We only save you a few very boring and sad years

@JoshuaBell find the source of your pain. you have been rejected and now you reject yourself. you have to dive into your pain, see it face to face, with courage. you deserve to be loved. you have been denied that love. It is not your fault, but now you have to delve into that wound. It is what there is, you are at stake, do not let them win the game. penetrate, face your pain. forgive yourself. break free. it is absolutely possible

@Endangered-EGO everything except psychedelics. have you ever completely deactivated your ego? there are substances that do it for you. Magic! you have to disable it at least once. It is very scary at first but maybe later it becomes a habit, for me it has been a revolution. Many could say that it's a shortcut, doesn't really works, etc. The traditional path is working for you? This other path really kill your ego.

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be alive, feel how life flows in me, wake up in the morning, see beautiful girls, see the blue sky, feel the cold air

@Endangered-EGO i have read several of your posts and it is clear that you are someone who has studied spirituality. you would have read a hundred times that suffering is a strategy of your ego to stay strong. It is exactly like that, you are creating suffering and when you realize it you will think: what an idiot I have been. the key is: understand what the ego is. There is only one way to understand the ego, deactivating it and seeing how it activates again. If you don't do this, it is impossible for you to understand it because it would be the ego trying to understand the ego, from a reality that is only ego. completely impossible. break the ego, then it restructures itself and you see it. do this a hundred times, a thousand, and you will understand exactly what it is. There are two ways. meditation and psychedelics. and that's it.

I told you in your past report: Maybe next time you will realize that the present moment is infinite. you did it! in record time by the way. freedom, beauty, glory! now the job, at least for me, is to live that reality without psychedelics. it is possible, I think

@Blackhawk the one who puts the label of pleasant or unpleasant is you. things are as they are, and only you are printing negativity or positivity on them. I'm not saying that you get to really live this like that, in a moment, but at least see the truth in it. I don't live it like that either, there are things that bother me, I'd rather have girls on my schedule than not having them, etc, but I know that any preference or rejection are my projections. The world is not bad or good, it is you (and me), the ego, the one who does not agree with the world. match your preference with what it is and you will be absolutely happy. the more you separate what is and what should be, the more anxiety and unhappiness there will be. be aware that you are the one who does it !! Seriously, try to see the truth of this, take responsibility for your reality. not blaming yourself, but realizing that it is you who is creating the negativity. it is very difficult to see this! It has been very difficult for me, but it is completely real. admits its theoretical truth, and tries to put it into practice

@aetheroar if you have done nn dmt multiple times, i would consider doing 5 meo dmt. my experience with 5 meo resonates with what you explain. many times, in doing so, I disappear completely and there is nothing. the core of reality is absolute emptiness ... and that's it. I would not call it I am not, but neither i am . nothing, nothing empty. the ego doesn't like it, I don't know how you can get there without psychedelics. Doing it as you have done, meditating, seems to me a huge achievement. If I do it again later, or the next day, this has happened: I disappear and there is nothing, but that nothing opens, it acquires an absolutely evident quality: it is infinite. I am absolutely emptiness, but that emptiness, in its infinity, is total. absolutely total, and then that emptiness is an absolute joy. it's everything, full, and that's what I am. it is the same emptiness, the same nothingness, but it reveals itself as the infinite source through which you flow. nothing that the mind, at least mine, can even remotely understand. As this has happened with chemist, I don't understand the process that makes it possible, but I would say that the difference between emptiness and infinity is: completely accept emptiness without any reservation or expectation. annihilate yourself by becoming nothing, fully accepting your disappearance