Breakingthewall

True in a way but not in other. You as individual exist in the same way that a thought exist. In the same moment that a thought appears in the nothingness, it exist. Call it illusion, or as you want, but until it dissolves, it is something. Not nothing.

Why itsnt itself a realization? Maybe it's the most important realization . When you realize the void you are the void, there is no one there, but how you can remember it? Could you realize the void with meditation? Or did you realised one time?

Really good description, but it isn't nothing. I understand that in deep it's a void. Absolute no-thing. But must be something, or that no-thing must have any creative property. But I didn't perceived nothing except void, and that I and all was a transparent illusion

I realized the void doing 5 meo, 2 times, no-thing and no time. But who was realising the no-thing? It's the deeper that I meant, but maybe I'm wrong. I realized the no time and after I realized how Maya was constructing. Who constructed Maya? There is more to see I think, maybe you are too fast thinking that you get the deepest realization

I ve read Coram (mostly )and I only found punishment, reward, and laws. And a bit of poetry. A simple text for manipulating simple people in ancient times. Really useful for Mahoma, Who reached big political power. Bible is the same, heaven and hell, but bit more sophisticated, at least Jesus wasn't a warlord. In other hand I ve read ibn Arabi, and I found very interesting ideas

100 years from now it will not matter but right now for me it is important to get the most out of this life, and not live in the misery of the concept. I consider it a duty, even if it doesn't really matter. and who knows if it matters or not, maybe yes. no one understands the reality

I have the same realization but it's a problem with that: the illusion. The illusion isn't no-thing, even if the base is the void ,the illusion exist, only as an illusion, ok, but exist in all his wonder. Realize the void, and later do walk In the country and realize the wonder. What is this?. So maybe you, and me, still need deeper realizations

you haven't broken yet, or maybe yes? . when your being disintegrates there will be no doubt. The first time for me was difficult, I need 16 mg perfectly vaped. I use a way of vaping that I read here with a flask. The one who published it had a nickname cobalto. it is perfect for calculating the dose. For me it's better start with 5 mg and after a bigger dose, because the first 5 make you softer to receive the next shot.

It seems like you are one step away from enlightenment, but your ego refuses to go away. who feels lonely, the infinite universe? I would continue meditating and going as deep as possible. Anyway, it doesn't seem like you have any other option. You said you don't see the point to your ego s petty life. This is the point I think. You are suffering because you ego , that you are feeling as "you" is refusing to go. Of course it's not easy but I think that the ego is getting used the idea little by little

Yeah yeah, well said. All is happening right now, right now for ever in the perpetual no time. But in the no time and the nothingness the illusion is happening!

I love boxing, absolutely spiritual sport

It's an illusion but it's real during it exist. It's like a thought, if you observe you could see that there is nothing, and suddenly a thought appears, with a shape, a character. That "thing" that you create of the nothingness is something during a while, before it dissolves. True, it couldn't exist without the thinker, same that the illusion or reality couldn't exist without the self, but during it exist , is real, there is a duality. The source creates a duality, and in this duality you , illusion or not, exist, and have free will. It's only a game? Could be, or maybe there is a need, an objective.

Who knows? The illusion is illusion, ok. But why the illusion exist? If you realize that it's a conciousness in the inmutable no time, you're going to realize that you are an illusion and the colored reality with time and space is all illusion. But illusion exist! Maybe the base of the illusion is the nothingness, but the illusion is something. It's duality? Maybe...not all of us realized the non duality, I m not doubting about it but it seems that some accept it like a dogma. About free will....In the illusion level it seems that you, as illusion , have a wall of concept that keep you isolated of the self, and you could break it or not... why? Who knows that. In a level seems that reincarnation exist, and a path of different lifes exist. How? Why?

Yeah at the end it's necessary to reach it because it's the real truth...or a closer truth . who knows how many levels are in the reality. But those who experienced it use to say that the absolute is all ,and there isn't anything except the self...let's see.

I think that they said that nothing changes in a deep level, because you are already enlightened, you are the self and you couldn't do nothing about that, even that reality is hidden to you in this moment, but in your ideas, concepts, feeling...I think all changes. Well, anyone could say: no, because there are not ideas, neither you...sure if you are totally enlightened it's like that , I'm talking about be more conciouss

Exactly, and no time , no change... difficult to integrate this reality

There are huge changes, not if you are enlightened, simply in the moment When you get conciouss that the reality isn't materialistic, your relationship with the death changes dramatically. It isn't a small change

Mind concepts. What is the difference between imaginary or real? Only self exist, because many perceived that. And this is the whole reality? Let me doubt about it. Small cell, stop concepting.

Good advice. The best way is to use the body for the porpouse that it is designed. Any difficult sport like rock climbing for example, makes you more conciouss of your body, and make you love it

From what you wrote, you have been able to do specialized work successfully. you have also been able to meditate for an hour a day every day for a year. It is evident that you can do more or less any activity that you propose. the problem is that the one you are doing now has completely lost interest for you. that in time becomes unbearable. If you have the chance, it might be a good idea to consider a time of rest and meditation, perhaps traveling for inspiration. I would completely discard any concern for the future, the opportunity will appear in due course

I have been conscious of it but im not sure if it's another illusion

A dream or a thought are different that nothing. Are real . Well, maybe if I awake I realize that I was wrong, that it's absolutely logical that it's a self , but for now it's a mindfuck

Today I did a small dose of 5 meo, i was between the frontier of the no-thing and the thing, the no-time and the time. In a moment I was in the no time, after in the time, in a moment the illusion shows like it is: nothingness, a moment later like solid reality. So the nothingness and the illusion are the same, are together, glued

Logically??? Why it exist? Who knows if there are more dimensions of who knows...if I were you I'd don't trust really much about my mental conclusions

But the wind in your face is infinite! The illusion is wonder.