Breakingthewall

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  1. According that reasoning, if i see a guy stabbing another and I tell him that he is a murderer, it is because I am a murderer. strange reasoning. and your words do not shake me, I just see them as inappropriate for a forum in which we try to get closer to the truth. They are more typical of more competitive places, where there is a winner and a loser, all that. all the time you try to be above others, and for this you push them down. are you a bully maybe? contemplate this, you may see facets of yourself that you are not aware of.
  2. True. Everything is a complex mental construction that is happening right now. Do you realize this everytime that you meditate? Btw, your life sound great. What kind of books are you writing?
  3. Good description of the how truly hard it is to face the void. really, it shouldn't be since there is nothing bad in the void, nor good. it is to realize that under the thin surface of appearance, there is an infinite ocean of nothingness. It is terrifying because you disappear diluted in that infinity and there is not the slightest thing to hold on to. there is no opinion about that nothingness, no fear, only lack of all life. the self, as soon as it returns, is horrified and wants to get out of there immediately. This is why whoever wants to access that state while sober has to educate himself with years of intensive meditation. a psychedelic can get you there in a moment. you just need courage to face it many times. there is a point to understand. there is something in the void, the consciousness of the void. then you see that the void is one more creation, exactly the same as watching a sunset, or the awareness of yourself as an individual. and there is also resistance. really, you are perceiving the emptiness, and resisting it, even though it seems that there is no you. as soon as you completely abandon yourself, the revelation takes place. the revelation more than a revelation is the total rupture of the limits that you impose on yourself. your perceiving the emptiness is limitation. you have to merge with it and encompass the infinite, then the void is revealed as absolute power, absolute love, intelligence and total freedom of the inexplicable: god. you. the obvious, what always was. how did you forget this? then all your energy channels stop forming curves, bends, paths, and become straight beams that reach infinity. all your energy is released.
  4. In this post you look like a candidate in an electoral debate trying to crush your rival, leaving him without arguments, humiliated, thus demonstrating your superiority. using the phrases that he has said and twisting them, demagogy without any interest in the truth, only for victory.
  5. wishing it with the maximum intensity and acting accordingly
  6. No, just my perception. Maybe I'm totally wrong so apologies in advance . but I have the clear perception that there is something wrong
  7. seen from the outside it seems that you are addicted to psychedelics to a level that you cannot go even a week without consuming them. How about a retreat of a couple of months to find the point again? Because seen from the outside, more than doing a work, what it seems is that you are looking for happiness by consuming substances
  8. I understand what you're saying. There comes a moment when you realize that this moment is being created and within it is the past, the trauma and so on. but I think that to get there you have to have gone through the hidden trauma, and this is usually very well hidden. lsd shows it to you at a level beyond the mind that no verbal therapy can. a realization of a second is worth more than a thousand hours of analysis. once all that weighs less, is when you can realize that it was not real from the beginning
  9. Exactly, that is our reality. just pick up the glove and start
  10. Yes, If you meditate 8 hours a day for 3 years in a monastery, perhaps the absolute emptiness of the mind can occur long enough for the revelation to take place. but perhaps that will never happen since the barrier that you are is very solid. it is much more practical to do a moderate meditation practice, say 2 hours a day, and do psychedelics, 5 meo on the one hand, lsd/mushrooms on the other, in order to permanently reconfigure your energetic structure. 5 meo will take you to a maximum level zen monk meditative state. LSD will open the doors of your subconscious wide open. a day of lsd can do more introspection than years sober. the revelation occurs in the non-dual state, when the ego disappears completely and there is no content. you wanna get this sober good luck, many have tried and dedicated their lives to it without success. you will say: there is nothing to achieve. Mjstake. practices are aimed at that result. they are work for a purpose. After that, meditation is enough.
  11. all that you raise in my humble opinion are enigmas impossible to understand from our human mind. First of all, reality is eternal. this means that it exists from infinity. everything that happens has happened infinite times. can you understand this? not. no one can understand infinity, neither leo nor anyone. maybe he can understand it while he becomes infinite, but once he becomes finite, he loses that understanding. from the finite the infinite is incomprehensible. I see more and more clearly that the effort of the mind to understand is an obstacle. the finite mind must let go.
  12. interesting and accurate. This present moment is a mental construction of enormous depth. psychedelics can reveal this by temporarily stopping the past-present-future construction that we constantly builds. when this stops perception ceases to extend on the surface level and penetrates deep down. the surface level is a false conceptual construction, like a set in a movie. the narrower the horizontal level is made, the more vertical penetration becomes possible. all of reality is this moment, and the entire horizontal level is being created at this moment. the goal of meditation is eliminate the attachment to the horizontal dimension of the mind to be able to sink into the vertical, in the timeless present, and capture it in all its depth
  13. OK, when you refer to the self you mean the energy it controls. I agree, enlightenment is partly the dissolution of this energy, which when controlled separates between you and not you.
  14. empty or full is the same. when you say that you experienced nothingness, it means that there was conciousness of nothingness. So, there was "something". nothingness is just another experience, the same as writing now. What is common to everything is the conciousness of what is. without that there is no existence, but the fact is that there is, and since there is, there always was and will be, since its limits would be the non-existence that does not exist. therefore, it has no limits. that is why reality is identified with consciousness. what escapes me is how consciousness creates the content. that is, if it creates, it is not just awareness, it is something else. So the right word would be infinite mind, not conciousness
  15. Do you remember our conversation 2 years ago about this topic? I remember that you had this experiences with high doses of LSD. I had had similar with 5 meo Now I can give you the answer. the absolute void is the necessary condition for the revelation to take place. It may or may not occur. you have to return to the void, again and again, until you can bear it. it's certainly awful. absolutely empty. absolute death. If you haven't lived it, you don't know what I'm talking about. there is no you, there is nothing. only consciousness of nothing. This is a meditative state that is extremely difficult to achieve without psychedelics since your self will fill that void with whatever. if the psychedelic forces this, it is normal for you to find it horrible. Well then, in absolute nothingness, revelation takes place. the void "opens". it manifests itself as infinity, and infinity is an unfathomable well of existence, the singularity of infinite glory, the unthinkable. that is what you are looking for, what you really are. enlightenment, since you were in the dark, and now there is light. before and after. look for the void, it is the key
  16. there is. the infinite void is a source of intelligence and love. the reality is. "behind" the absolute void is the unthinkable, the absolute that is. the total glory that exists infinite. the source from which unlimited love flows. That is what we are. In your opinion, this is a history, right? But it couldn't be because you can't think or perceive it, you just can became it.
  17. So you mean the ego. But if you completely empty that of content, until only leave unlimited emptiness, there is still a sense of existence. as long as this is so, there is self
  18. In several Native American tribes, torture was an established custom. I read an relate of a missionary who was in one of those tribes. He said that the prisoner was happy to be tortured since that way he had the opportunity to demonstrate his courage to the great spirit. First they tied him outside and the women and children burned him with small red-hot sticks all over his body, they also cut off his ears and nose. at dusk they would take him to a tent where the elderly experts would torture him all night. it was important that he did not die before dawn. At the moment the sun came up, they inserted a hot thick piece of wood through the anus and then they cut off his head. As the prisoner had been brave and at no time did he show weakness, the next day they held a party in his honor.
  19. I think the best word to describe reality is infinity. infinity implies consciousness, unity, existence, intelligence, power, and god. There can only be one infinity, but at the same time it can be divided, each division being the same infinity. not another equal, but the same. Infinity is nothing and everything same time. if you contemplate infinity long enough, the ego relaxes. Understanding that everything is infinite is the key
  20. Yes, but in that garbage that you look at there is consciousness being conscious, intelligence creating an experience, will wanting this to be with all its nuances. I'm just talking about semantics. the word consciousness evokes being aware of something and no more. the word reality, on the other hand, encompasses everything. although if someone can explain it better, I would appreciate it, since in most spiritual literature that word is used, it will be for a reason, maybe
  21. The word consciousness is confusing because it implies being aware of something. then, there is consciousness on the one hand and form on the other. existence is consciousness, without consciousness there is no reality. but this consciousness takes forms. this is more than conscience, the word god fits better
  22. most people suffer by default. in humans, survival is guaranteed by the acceptance of the tribe. this is always conditioned, human love is defective, and in our complex society it is a real labyrinth. the ego is made up of layers and layers of lack of love, or anxiety, are synonymous. we are dysfunctional, disharmonic constructions. the only way to correct this is to drink directly from the source, for this you have to dismantle the ego completely. a work within the reach of few
  23. I think what you are looking for is possible. but extremely difficult. you have to polish yourself throughout your life until you turn the mud of human nature into a transparent glass from which the light of god filters. each action must be aimed at it, and there is no well-trodden or defined path, only intuition works. once you have seen the light of pure existence, everything else is stupid. It doesn't matter to never have sex again, to be poor, to lose your health. Only the light of God is something, the rest is nothing. I would say that the paths are defined as we walk them, but it is difficult to have the courage to walk them to the end. but not doing it is stupid.
  24. of the billions of humans who have ever existed, all have suffered once they have reached adulthood and their egos have developed. It would be said that the ego is a suffering machine. animals suffer little. nothing to do with the refined torture of the human ego. there is only one way to stop suffering: detachment. but as a human you are attached by nature. it is a kind of challenge, a game. if you study a little human history, you will find terrible amounts of suffering. torture, genocide, disease. human being is jesus on the cross. millions of different crosses, each one his own, with the aim of transcending attachment. each a blow in the forge. Almost not a human is happy. what they call happiness is misery.