Breakingthewall

Evilness comes from fight to survival. Fighting means destroying your enemy, and this is a must in life. If anyone is in the circumstance of real fight and is absorbed by it, they will enjoy causing pain and death because means that it is you who die, not me.

It's impossible to control your emotions because they are the expression of the deep structures of your psyche. Well, you can control them in the sense of not letting them overwhelm you, but not in the sense of preventing them from arising. What you can do is embark on a true inner journey in which a deep understanding of what you are, what your basic structures are, and why they create the vibration they do, is gradually revealed. In this process, you will see that emotional structures are embedded in your being, in your body, in your cells, but if you see them, you can radically change them. You can change completely, from being an anxious or depressed person to being at absolute peace with yourself and with reality. There are no shortcuts for this work; you have to go to the root.

Greet her politely if you find her and never show any emotion. Act as if nothing she says or does affects you. Become a soulless robot to her. If that doesn't work, move.

It took 4 billion years of evolution to create a brain, trillions of generations of living beings competing, killing each other, and fighting to survive. To destroy it, a single stone is enough.

We could know that we are, or that reality is. We can't know the infinity, but maybe it's possible to understand the structure of the reality. You don't need to know everything, just how reality happens. Lets wait a millennia of scientific evolution, then who knows.

Who knows where the intelligence that the universe creates will arrive. If it's possible to arrive from an atom to a brain, maybe it's possible to arrive from a brain to a god. In the materialistic sense. An evolutive being that encompasses all the universe. Doing some scifi, a mix between life an ia that spreads for the galaxies using the energy of the matter creating an intelligent net that encompasses all the universe to revert entropy and transcend this dimension. It's not impossible

Well, are different. You could kill life easily but you can't create it. Birth is the beginning of a process that self preserves and perpetuates. Death is just dissolution. Death is very simple, birth is incredible complicated.

We really know nothing or very few about the deep physics of the universe. Where does energy come from? What is a particle? Supposedly, a local excitation in a field of reality that has energy. What is a field of reality? Why does the cosmic void have constant fluctuation? Why are the laws of the universe precise and seemingly immutable? Is it possible for energy to appear from nothing? Although, as far as we know, nothingness doesn't exist, there is always virtually infinite fluctuation. Is a big bang a fluctuation of the void? Last theories affirm that the energy of the universe is zero, because gravity would be negative energy, and that everything that exists is a mathematical equation that happens because it's possible. Lets say that we are like in the time of Galileo but with more information. Maybe Galileo had the 0,0000001 and us the 0,00001, to say anything

Maybe some weak minds will believe that.whot those high doses, but this doesn't means. That it's the truth

You will be still conscious of yourself in deep meditation, high dose of psychedelics of anything that you could do, it's not the same than being dead.

Sure, but how is being the totality when the form disappears? Is something let's say, that knows that is? That is conscious of itself? Then the totality would be an individual. The totality is beyond consciousness or unconsciousness right? Its not infinite consciousness, omniscience, etc , it's just unlimited being. Disappear in the bottomless abyss of the unlimited must be done with total surrender, happiness and faith imo. Faith not as a belief in a future but as the certainly that you are disappearing in yourself.

We will disappear. What we are is a process that is happening, the reality in the form of a process that is conscious of itself and has an identity as an individual who knows that is. When the process finish, bye, no more you. The reality will exist for ever of course, but not you, or at least it seems the most logical possibility. You could say that you will exist as anything else, as me now for example, but not as you. In other words, the separation will collapse and with it, the consciousness of yourself as a separate being, then you will return to the totality, but the totality is not someone who will say: fuck, now Im the totality! No, the totality is unlimited and is the totality now, with and without you. Then, what will happen? We will expand to infinity and disappear as a conscious individual who knows. But same time we will exist, because now we are the totality expressed in a process. If fact we will not go nowhere, just here and now, like always.

This is correct except for the term emptiness. The foundation of reality is the absence of limitations, that is not something, but neither nothing. It's the fact of being unlimited, or having no limits, but the word "nothingness" or "emptiness " doesn't point to the real nature of reality, "everything" would be much more accurate. In spirituality the word emptiness is used due Buddhist tradition, where an empty mind is considered true and a full mind maya, but this is just Buddhist bias. An empty mind is a pre requisite to open oneself to the unlimited, that is full because it's absolute potential. Then using the word empty is just confusing and really it's false, because it doesn't point to the true nature of reality. Unlimited would do much better.

I also experienced that with 5-MeO-DMT, exactly the same as with NNDMT, and also with marijuana and meditation. It's absolute emptiness, and it's perceived as if reality were a multicolored hologram, an appearance beneath which there is nothing. The first time I had this experience, it took me a year to dare to do psychedelics again. It's truly unsettling, sad. Later, I went back to doing 5-MeO, and it was always the same, so I thought: this is like advanced Buddhist meditation but with a booster; the point is to get used to the emptiness. It's extremely challenging because it truly is emptiness, and it feels like an absolute revelation. It's so horrible that the mind tries to erase it, searching for things to fill the void. Once I did 5meo and I had that experience again, and I thought: again the horrible shit, well, seems that this is what reality has to show me again today. Automatically I put a lot of 5 meo in the pipe without weight it, I put flame and I absolutely true thought: show me the truth or kill me. Then reality opened up. It was absolutely obvious, was what I am. Unlimited life, unlimited being, the absolute that is. It's not something that is possible to think, just being open to it This very moment started a real change, it's like something that was closed in more or less extent from my birth was totally opened for a while. That's everything, anything else is nothing, shadows. Being open is the only way. After that I did psychedelics sometimes but not high dose, over all small dose of THC for meditation, getting expanded states very often, absolutely empty of interpretation, free, but not totally absolutely open except in punctual occasions, maybe 8 times very short moments, maybe more in the middle of the night. After that i perceive where are the closures and little by little I polish myself to be able to greater openess. It's something that happens naturally, like if anything attracts you and you just have to let it happens. I started again because I feel that it's time to break some barriers and I find that DMT is a good tool and it doesn't feel unhealthy. Im not seeking realizations, just seeing my lack of surrender, perceive my fear. It's not like I want that psychedelic do the work for me but show where are the closures. Imo It's extremely useful. It's very important don't seek visions, realizations, etc, just a tool for openess . Yes but the point is that here and now the absolute is ready to be revealed in all it's glory. Before for me was a matter of self help. I wanted to stop suffering. Now it's a matter like, it's real, it's what I am, it's not something like a myth or a future possiblity, here and now the totality is being manifested as me and being veiled to it seems a mistake. Pursue anything else is pursuing shadows. Right now my state is like a miracle in comparison with 2 years ago, seems impossible, but anyway I want everything. Just because it's everything, it's what we are. If the doors of infinity can be opened, it's absolutely crazy don't do it. Of course as we said the existential horror of the dead void is a frontier that has to be stared and accepted before . If you are not totally open it's always this thought: if it at the end , when everything is open, reality is just void and everything is an illusion, and me and all the mystics were wrong, just suggested, deceived, stupid, and I'm the one who will discover the absolute horror of the absolute nihilism of what reality is, without scape? That's what one have to accept before to go. I'd say that you understand how scary is this, even if you had openess before, if it's not happening now doubts arises immediately. Openess is not a matter of knowing , it's actual, right now. If not it's like it was just a deception

Ralston's problem is the problem of many schools of Buddhism: they don't understand love as a path to openness. For them, love is a mammalian feeling, and ultimate realization is empty consciousness. This is a total mistake. Empty consciousness is a prerequisite, not the final realization. Love is understood as devotion or the absolute surrender of the individual to reality. The empty mind is still closed; total surrender is necessary, and this surrender is an act of total love. In it, emptiness opens, and in doing so, it reveals the totality. The totality is enclosed in your heart; it is your heart. Not in the sentimental sense, but in the sense of that which lives, that which is. Ralston is closed to glory, and like all those who are like him, he doesn't want to listen. Precisely because he is closed. As a Christian would say, they lack faith.

It could disappear, but I can't disappear. Open your heart, in it is everything. Reality lives.

It's a line of profound contemplation, much closer to reality than invoking a dreaming god as a deus ex machina, but the fact is that if there is a "substance" to what appears, it is the fact of being, and this being is a consequence of the limitation that reality is. You could say that being is not something concrete, but it is. Reality cannot not be because it is not limited, so relative motion occurs without origin. You could say that the ultimate substance of this relative motion is emptiness, nothingness, but the fact is that this limitless relative motion is substance itself. It is the totality. Absolute emptiness is the ultimate door to absolute fullness; it is not something rational but an opening that occurs within you through which the totality is revealed. And for this to happen you have to open yourself to the absolute void.

Empty space or blank screen are something. Nothingness is non being, no space, no process, no relationship, no change. Saying that unlimited relative change is nothing make no sense, because it's relative change. Nothingness is non existence, and precisely doesn't exist

Well that's just your opinion about what is false or true. Anything that exists is a process, nothing is stable. If for you process are false, then what is true? Nothingness? Nothingness is precisely nothing, it's impossible, because there are not limits, then reality is precisely everything Nothingness means just absence of anything, and it doesn't exist, because there is something: unlimited relative change. What reality is is being, that has not opposite, and it's manifestation is relative change. In fact being is relative change.

That's just an hallucination that happens in psychedelic trips. Thinking that it's the absolute because you saw it tripping is wrong. The absolute is unlimited, then to realize the absolute you have to become unlimited. If you are a god with a will who does things you are limited. It's not easy becoming unlimited, if you are not ready for it you could take a lot of 5meo or anything that the limited self will remain. Inflated as a god that wants things for example . The absolute and the reality are one, and it's unlimited, absolutely free.

Why a process is false? It's real, as a process. Anything that exists is a process, reality manifest as change, without change there is nothing. Nothingness or emptiness is not the container of the reality, it's just an idea that doesn't exist. What reality is is unlimited being, that is manifested as permanent change, very simple.

Thanks for the suggestion. Today I spent some time reading about the life and thought of Ramakrishna. He was a true mystic, vital, humble, joyful, who loved people and life. A man open to the absolute. That sounds like real openness and a serious path that has reached a point where things are no longer just a possibility, but a reality. I suspect that if you've gotten this far, it's because life has put you between a wall and a sword . We, the civilized, are not like those in Ramakrishna's time, when mystics sometimes flourished in environments where depth and the sacred were palpable in everyday life. Today, those of us who are drawn to mysticism do so because at some point life places us in a desert where there is absolutely nothing authentic, beautiful, or valuable. Like rats in a maze, we search for the way out. In my case, more than form or formless, what I would say happens is that my system loses its contraction, and reality is perceived as alive, limitless, joyful, luminous. But I want to go further. The thing is, I've managed to go from a, let's say, horrible state to an expansive, clean joyful stable state, without rumination, with a high capacity for connection, in something like 5 or 6 years of real focus on inner openness. But my intuition tells me there's more, that here and now reality is available to reveal its deepest face. Last week I started using psychedelics again; it had been more than a year since I'd done so. Specifically, DMT. The experience with DMT for me is quite horrible: reality becomes an empty black hole. There is no hallucinations, no self, nothing at all, just emptiness, nothing, for 10 minutes. It's not a living nothingness; it's simply nothing in the sense that there is just black without limits a d without any form and without any life. Then at night I return to that state of total emptiness several times. I do this several days in a row. Before, this was profoundly destabilizing, but now not so much. It seems to me a way of softening the perceptual field, of making the energy field more tenuous. In the end (at least it used to be this way in the past), on one of those trips, the void opens and the totality is revealed. It's something that can't be thought or remembered; it's another frequency of perception or being that I can't evoke. Violating the gates of heaven seems somewhat arrogant and violent, but on the other hand, it's too tempting to don't try to do. Lets see if It can be useful to make easier the openess to the absolute or not. In the past my goal was over all breaking my sick structure because if felt bad. Now it's to open my self to what is, because I want to.

Sure, for them enlightenment is knowing that reality is one and it's consciousness, then they go to meditate, get empty their minds and think: this is pure consciousness, then I'm enlightened. It has absolutely no relationship with enlightenment, it's co crazy that is funny. Enlightenment is being open to what reality is, not knowing that you are pure consciousness. This is just an idea disguised of a realization. "Realization" is also an idea. Being open to the unlimited means being the unlimited, not knowing that you are unlimited. It's like if you vape a huge dose of DMT, you don't know nothing, reality loses it form, it's absolutely empty, without borders, but then what is manifest itself, it's everything, it's the fact of being that implies everything. It's not one, two or anything else, it is, period. "One", "duality", are just mental structures. The unlimited is not an structure. Then you can be in your normal life as open as it's possible, seeking the real connection, and giving your best anytime, enjoying the moment as it were magic. That's the point of spirituality

How do you know that? What is consciousness for you? Some thing that is the foundation of the reality? Maybe a creator who is dreaming?

All of that is a lie; it's just things people think to feel safe. All this spirituality that's being promoted is nonsense and doesn't liberate anyone. On the contrary, spiritual people are more trapped and more narcissistic than a materialistic atheist. Let's see, if it were true that we're here to learn, wouldn't we be going somewhere from somewhere else? Where would we be going? If there were no limits, we would never have started, and we wouldn't be progressing toward anything, nor would we be dreaming things for a reason, since we would have done it an infinite number of times, and we would be a psychotic god on a demented circular mission. Forget everything and open yourself to your nature. Your nature is not an structure like being a dreamer, it's what reality is, being without limits. That's everything, there is nothing to know, just open yourself totally now. That's all.