Breakingthewall

That seem a total dissolution. Could you explain how was more deeply? For me not so. The barriers are very subtle. Maybe a barrier could be implying some things about the reality due other trips or realizations that are accepted by the unconscious as ontological Truth. For me totally dissolving the mind make me see how the mental structures close and how difficult is being totally free of them . Im achieving little by little that my mind be a hole, without psyche. Just openess. It's not repressing the psyche but dissolving it. Sometimes the psyche arises of course, but not like something that drag me totally in the need of belonging, bonds, success, "glory", and over all trauma, as was the usual. Now my mind is empty, I can do any psychedelic and trauma doesn't arises even a bit. 2 years ago mind was still full of hate. Real hate for some parts of my family, in a level that I was worried about getting sick. I honestly thought that would be impossible to be free of that, and I am totally free of that, it's absolutely deactivated. Maybe it's possible to be totally free and open now, totally aligned and transparent. I don't know what is possible. I agree that it's essential to be as free as it's possible when death arrives. Not only for the suffering but let's say, for respect to myself and life as an expression of the reality that has this possiblity I think that it's a matter of lets say energetic alignment. Purifying your psychological structure until it's totally transparent, without density. It's not a matter of be good or puritan, but about your inner structures that creates a self image that need belonging, acceptation, permanece, and fear annihilation and lack of control. This seems very obvious but it's difficult, those structures are deep and strong

It's impossible that god is alone because it's unlimited. "Alone" only makes sense being limited. Alone implies others as a possibility, and for this the reality must be limited. The unlimited is not closed, then alone is not a possibility, even just teorically it's not conceivable. God alone implies that god is an individual, what implies that it's just you, the individual, thinking that you are god

he already has cancer, there was nothing to do. If a doctor would appear saying: I have a pill that will make disappear your cancer, do you want it or not? What would he answered?

Ramakrishna was visited by many doctors and he didn't like at all can't talk and get weak. There are many transcriptions of his talks with a doctor. He was in good mood for the circumstances, but without doubt he wanted to get better

It's worse when they say you're God, who is infinite, exploring the experience of being you out of love. Being infinite, he would have explored that experience and infinite other similar experiences infinite times, and if he were creating this specific experience now for some reason, he'd be a psychotic god trapped in hell.

Ramakrishna and more mystics who had cancer absolutely sure they would prefer didn't having it. They could say anything but they perceive cancer as bad.

The fact of saying that something is good implies that something is bad, so saying that everything is good makes no sense; you could say that everything is, but "good" is only a subjective perception, which lacks meaning without its opposite.

Evilness comes from fight to survival. Fighting means destroying your enemy, and this is a must in life. If anyone is in the circumstance of real fight and is absorbed by it, they will enjoy causing pain and death because means that it is you who die, not me.

It's impossible to control your emotions because they are the expression of the deep structures of your psyche. Well, you can control them in the sense of not letting them overwhelm you, but not in the sense of preventing them from arising. What you can do is embark on a true inner journey in which a deep understanding of what you are, what your basic structures are, and why they create the vibration they do, is gradually revealed. In this process, you will see that emotional structures are embedded in your being, in your body, in your cells, but if you see them, you can radically change them. You can change completely, from being an anxious or depressed person to being at absolute peace with yourself and with reality. There are no shortcuts for this work; you have to go to the root.

Greet her politely if you find her and never show any emotion. Act as if nothing she says or does affects you. Become a soulless robot to her. If that doesn't work, move.

It took 4 billion years of evolution to create a brain, trillions of generations of living beings competing, killing each other, and fighting to survive. To destroy it, a single stone is enough.

We could know that we are, or that reality is. We can't know the infinity, but maybe it's possible to understand the structure of the reality. You don't need to know everything, just how reality happens. Lets wait a millennia of scientific evolution, then who knows.

Who knows where the intelligence that the universe creates will arrive. If it's possible to arrive from an atom to a brain, maybe it's possible to arrive from a brain to a god. In the materialistic sense. An evolutive being that encompasses all the universe. Doing some scifi, a mix between life an ia that spreads for the galaxies using the energy of the matter creating an intelligent net that encompasses all the universe to revert entropy and transcend this dimension. It's not impossible

Well, are different. You could kill life easily but you can't create it. Birth is the beginning of a process that self preserves and perpetuates. Death is just dissolution. Death is very simple, birth is incredible complicated.

We really know nothing or very few about the deep physics of the universe. Where does energy come from? What is a particle? Supposedly, a local excitation in a field of reality that has energy. What is a field of reality? Why does the cosmic void have constant fluctuation? Why are the laws of the universe precise and seemingly immutable? Is it possible for energy to appear from nothing? Although, as far as we know, nothingness doesn't exist, there is always virtually infinite fluctuation. Is a big bang a fluctuation of the void? Last theories affirm that the energy of the universe is zero, because gravity would be negative energy, and that everything that exists is a mathematical equation that happens because it's possible. Lets say that we are like in the time of Galileo but with more information. Maybe Galileo had the 0,0000001 and us the 0,00001, to say anything

Maybe some weak minds will believe that.whot those high doses, but this doesn't means. That it's the truth

You will be still conscious of yourself in deep meditation, high dose of psychedelics of anything that you could do, it's not the same than being dead.

Sure, but how is being the totality when the form disappears? Is something let's say, that knows that is? That is conscious of itself? Then the totality would be an individual. The totality is beyond consciousness or unconsciousness right? Its not infinite consciousness, omniscience, etc , it's just unlimited being. Disappear in the bottomless abyss of the unlimited must be done with total surrender, happiness and faith imo. Faith not as a belief in a future but as the certainly that you are disappearing in yourself.

We will disappear. What we are is a process that is happening, the reality in the form of a process that is conscious of itself and has an identity as an individual who knows that is. When the process finish, bye, no more you. The reality will exist for ever of course, but not you, or at least it seems the most logical possibility. You could say that you will exist as anything else, as me now for example, but not as you. In other words, the separation will collapse and with it, the consciousness of yourself as a separate being, then you will return to the totality, but the totality is not someone who will say: fuck, now Im the totality! No, the totality is unlimited and is the totality now, with and without you. Then, what will happen? We will expand to infinity and disappear as a conscious individual who knows. But same time we will exist, because now we are the totality expressed in a process. If fact we will not go nowhere, just here and now, like always.

This is correct except for the term emptiness. The foundation of reality is the absence of limitations, that is not something, but neither nothing. It's the fact of being unlimited, or having no limits, but the word "nothingness" or "emptiness " doesn't point to the real nature of reality, "everything" would be much more accurate. In spirituality the word emptiness is used due Buddhist tradition, where an empty mind is considered true and a full mind maya, but this is just Buddhist bias. An empty mind is a pre requisite to open oneself to the unlimited, that is full because it's absolute potential. Then using the word empty is just confusing and really it's false, because it doesn't point to the true nature of reality. Unlimited would do much better.

I also experienced that with 5-MeO-DMT, exactly the same as with NNDMT, and also with marijuana and meditation. It's absolute emptiness, and it's perceived as if reality were a multicolored hologram, an appearance beneath which there is nothing. The first time I had this experience, it took me a year to dare to do psychedelics again. It's truly unsettling, sad. Later, I went back to doing 5-MeO, and it was always the same, so I thought: this is like advanced Buddhist meditation but with a booster; the point is to get used to the emptiness. It's extremely challenging because it truly is emptiness, and it feels like an absolute revelation. It's so horrible that the mind tries to erase it, searching for things to fill the void. Once I did 5meo and I had that experience again, and I thought: again the horrible shit, well, seems that this is what reality has to show me again today. Automatically I put a lot of 5 meo in the pipe without weight it, I put flame and I absolutely true thought: show me the truth or kill me. Then reality opened up. It was absolutely obvious, was what I am. Unlimited life, unlimited being, the absolute that is. It's not something that is possible to think, just being open to it This very moment started a real change, it's like something that was closed in more or less extent from my birth was totally opened for a while. That's everything, anything else is nothing, shadows. Being open is the only way. After that I did psychedelics sometimes but not high dose, over all small dose of THC for meditation, getting expanded states very often, absolutely empty of interpretation, free, but not totally absolutely open except in punctual occasions, maybe 8 times very short moments, maybe more in the middle of the night. After that i perceive where are the closures and little by little I polish myself to be able to greater openess. It's something that happens naturally, like if anything attracts you and you just have to let it happens. I started again because I feel that it's time to break some barriers and I find that DMT is a good tool and it doesn't feel unhealthy. Im not seeking realizations, just seeing my lack of surrender, perceive my fear. It's not like I want that psychedelic do the work for me but show where are the closures. Imo It's extremely useful. It's very important don't seek visions, realizations, etc, just a tool for openess . Yes but the point is that here and now the absolute is ready to be revealed in all it's glory. Before for me was a matter of self help. I wanted to stop suffering. Now it's a matter like, it's real, it's what I am, it's not something like a myth or a future possiblity, here and now the totality is being manifested as me and being veiled to it seems a mistake. Pursue anything else is pursuing shadows. Right now my state is like a miracle in comparison with 2 years ago, seems impossible, but anyway I want everything. Just because it's everything, it's what we are. If the doors of infinity can be opened, it's absolutely crazy don't do it. Of course as we said the existential horror of the dead void is a frontier that has to be stared and accepted before . If you are not totally open it's always this thought: if it at the end , when everything is open, reality is just void and everything is an illusion, and me and all the mystics were wrong, just suggested, deceived, stupid, and I'm the one who will discover the absolute horror of the absolute nihilism of what reality is, without scape? That's what one have to accept before to go. I'd say that you understand how scary is this, even if you had openess before, if it's not happening now doubts arises immediately. Openess is not a matter of knowing , it's actual, right now. If not it's like it was just a deception

Ralston's problem is the problem of many schools of Buddhism: they don't understand love as a path to openness. For them, love is a mammalian feeling, and ultimate realization is empty consciousness. This is a total mistake. Empty consciousness is a prerequisite, not the final realization. Love is understood as devotion or the absolute surrender of the individual to reality. The empty mind is still closed; total surrender is necessary, and this surrender is an act of total love. In it, emptiness opens, and in doing so, it reveals the totality. The totality is enclosed in your heart; it is your heart. Not in the sentimental sense, but in the sense of that which lives, that which is. Ralston is closed to glory, and like all those who are like him, he doesn't want to listen. Precisely because he is closed. As a Christian would say, they lack faith.

It could disappear, but I can't disappear. Open your heart, in it is everything. Reality lives.

It's a line of profound contemplation, much closer to reality than invoking a dreaming god as a deus ex machina, but the fact is that if there is a "substance" to what appears, it is the fact of being, and this being is a consequence of the limitation that reality is. You could say that being is not something concrete, but it is. Reality cannot not be because it is not limited, so relative motion occurs without origin. You could say that the ultimate substance of this relative motion is emptiness, nothingness, but the fact is that this limitless relative motion is substance itself. It is the totality. Absolute emptiness is the ultimate door to absolute fullness; it is not something rational but an opening that occurs within you through which the totality is revealed. And for this to happen you have to open yourself to the absolute void.

Empty space or blank screen are something. Nothingness is non being, no space, no process, no relationship, no change. Saying that unlimited relative change is nothing make no sense, because it's relative change. Nothingness is non existence, and precisely doesn't exist