Breakingthewall

Consciousness is simply the reality appearing in a dual structure that register time and differentiate the self and the other. Why it's a problem? It's very obvious

It's in the brain, as everyone knows. It can be located by a brain scanner, it's quite simple. Read this to understand what the self is and maybe you could abandon that obscurantist neo advaita ideas invented by some people What we call the “self” is not a fixed entity or an independent essence. It is a dynamic construction of the brain, a model that emerges from the interaction of multiple neural systems whose primary function is to ensure survival, coherence, and social integration. At its core, the brain is a prediction machine. It continuously builds models of the world, and of the organism itself, in order to guide action. The “self” is one of those models: a functional representation that organizes perception, memory, and behavior around the idea of “me.” A key component of the self is the narrative layer, largely associated with the Default Mode Network (DMN), including regions such as the medial prefrontal cortex and posterior cingulate cortex. This system constructs personal stories (“I am this kind of person”) links past experiences with future expectations maintains continuity over time It creates the sense of a stable identity, even though that identity is constantly updated and reconstructed. Also it is the Emotional Core (Limbic System) The limbic system, especially structures like the amygdala, adds emotional weight to the self. It tags experiences as threatening or safe, links identity to feelings such as shame, pride, fear, or belonging. This is why beliefs about the self are not neutral. They are charged with emotion, and therefore strongly defended. A threat to identity is experienced as a threat to survival. Also it is the Body-Based Self (Proprioception and Interoception) The sense of being “someone” is also grounded in the body. Proprioception gives awareness of body position and movement Interoception provides internal signals (heartbeat, breathing, tension) Together, they create a felt sense of presence, the immediate experience of “I am here.” This layer is pre-conceptual and continuous, forming the foundation upon which more abstract aspects of the self are built. Also memory and Coherence (Hippocampus) Memory systems integrate experiences into a coherent timeline. events are stored and linked patterns are extracted identity becomes a story over time Without memory, the continuity of the self collapses. The brain constantly reconstructs identity by selecting and organizing past experiences into a consistent narrative. And no less important, tribal and Social Identity. Humans are deeply social organisms. A large part of the self is shaped by tribal belonging. The brain encodes group membership (“us vs. them”), social status, shared values and narratives. This creates a powerful mechanism: identity is stabilized through alignment with a group As a result beliefs are reinforced social and deviations from the group are felt as threats. individuals may distort reality to preserve belonging. This is why identity is often defended collectively, not just individually. And the most delusional, the defense of the Self, so common in spirituality. Once established, the self-model is actively protected. The brain filters information that contradicts identity reinterprets events to maintain coherence, externalizes blame when necessary. This is not a conscious strategy but an automatic process: the system prioritizes stability over truth. Changing the self-model requires destabilizing these mechanisms, which can trigger anxiety, confusion, and loss of orientation. Ultimately, the self is not a thing but a process, a constantly updated model shaped by memory, emotion, body, and social context, maintained through ongoing neural activity It feels solid because it is continuously reconstructed. But look, you could say the same about the body .

Those are convoluted ideas from mystics that, given their era, lacked scientific foundation. From a current perspective, things are much simpler: I am a relative expression of reality and, at the same time, total reality itself. My form is real as a relative form, and my total essence is the essence of everything. The total always manifests as relative because manifestation and relative are synonymous. I can shift between perceiving myself as limitless, as a totality, or as limited, as a form. Form is absolutely coherent with the totality, and perceiving it in all its perfection is as "divine" as opening yourself to the totality.

The ego has many layers: social identity, identification with the body, and so on. But when all these layers fall away, the last and most difficult one remains: the feeling of centrality, of being a point that receives experience. This last layer is a fortified door; behind it lies the open totality. When centrality falls, duality disappears, and the total manifests. But if, instead of breaking down this last wall, you elevate it to the status of a dream-creating god, all you will achieve is psychosis.

This is exactly the opposite of enlightenment

Nobody is imagining nothing, there is not an entity making anything. That would be a center. Just a magnification of the ego. It's very obvious, if you think: wow, the others doesn't exist! First you have to make a map of the "others", then a compasión between existing or not existing, then a map about what means that you are creating them, then a duality between you as creator and the creation, etc etc. All this is just ego, you could believe in orus if you want, would be the same, just mental structure, no relationship with enlightenment

The Iranian regime can accept a high level of destruction, but they cannot be defeated by force. The US can cause chaos and famine among the civilian population, thus legitimizing the regime forever. Then, why saying that stupidities so ashaming like a civilization is going to be terminated tonight? Trump and hegset are so ashaming and retarded that seems impossible that anything successful or positive for west can happen in this war

There is separation as an actual structure, it's how the reality is manifesting itself now. Denying it as an illusion is a closure. Spiritual narcissism. If you fall in that, you are closed. If you go to the sea and put some of the water into a glass, would you say that the water in the glass is not separate from the sea, that it is an illusion? Why would you need the idea "illusion" to point something that is happening?

Its not illusory, it's real, but you can dissolve the separation expanding your mind without limits then being limitless. If your mind is limitless is one with what is, there is no difference. But same time, you are a separate individual . So you could say that doing it the reality perceives itself from the dual structure of a living organism, that is an universe that operates in another universe, separate from it but same time being part of it. There is nothing mysterious or mystic, it's just the reality unfolding

I break down the separation between the perceiving center and what is perceived, the capsule of the self, the subject-object duality, the limitation and the foundation of the self, as often as I can precisely to maintain sanity. If too much time passes in contraction, madness lurks.

Sure , keep watching videos, everything is going to be ok Sure . The op explained a personal history, quite interesting btw. Why a genius like you need to try to humiliate him?

There are a huge number of people who don't feel real empathy. They don't rape children or murder because that would define them as absolutely unacceptable, but if you put them in an environment where it's acceptable, they would do it without hesitation. Most people function exclusively to achieve acceptance. Everything revolves around their self-image; every word they say in a conversation, every laugh, every sexual encounter, is self-image regulation. If they don't commit mass murder, it's because of the consequences and because it would define them as monsters. Very few people operate according to an internal compass separate from their self-image.

Fear of more consciousness? That's not it, my friend. The fear you perceived is the fear of the dissolution of the self. There is no "more consciousness" if there is no self; there is only that possibility within the self/center/dual perceiver. When you break it and there are no limits, there is no "more" and no "less," there is totality. Totality mean open. Limitlessness. It's very difficult to break the self, and most psychedelic users expand the self, but it's still the self. The step is to break it, not to seek higher levels. No level is superior to the total level.

The point is to be able to open yourself to your unlimited nature from within the form, whereby the form loses its character of "essential " and your emotional system changes completely; you cease to be totally attached to the form, you cease to be trapped and you are freed, so that your existence ceases to be a nightmare and becomes a pleasure

There is no creator; it's quite simple and obvious. You are a part, as a form, and the whole, as let's say substance. The whole is limitless, therefore it cannot be limited to being stable, empty, undifferentiated. Fluctuations arise, contrast, change relative to other change. Given the limitlessness of what is, limitless changes arise, overlapping in stable, coherent patterns related to each other, creating realities that endure because they are coherent with everything that appears. Everything is created and destroyed, like the avatar dance I have in my profile, without limit. You, as a part conscious of yourself, can become conscious of yourself as the totality. To do this, you must do something difficult: break the centrality, the self, like a soap bubble that bursts and is no longer the bubble, it is everything. Without form or definition, without edges or ground, but you are still you. You are that. This movement is very difficult, and it's easy to fall in traps. I'm consciousness, I'm god, I'm anything. You are unlimited, period. And to be conscious of that you have to become unlimited, really, not in your mind. It's an action, not a realization. An energetic shift.

It's not that you desire things, but when you realize you created them, you stop desiring them. The movement is different: you must disappear. You as the center. Then the whole opens up. It's extremely difficult because the "you"/center is genetically encoded. But it's important to understand this and not fall into basic errors like you= creator

I see no mystery; reality has to manifest itself in some way, and this is one of them. It's inevitable that coherent relational patterns form; they emerge and disappear. Something as complex as a brain is a set of stable relational patterns superimposed in a perfectly coherent way. Its substance is relationship, and relationship is based on the absence of limits. Without limits, a fluctuation occurs at any given moment. "A given moment" is always, and the number of fluctuations is infinite; therefore, a sinusoidal wave occurs.

What is called enlightenment could be defined as total clarity. Total clarity is the absence of opacity. It is extremely difficult to achieve this absence of opacity; when it occurs, reality loses its boundaries and perceives itself as open, totally unlimited, and this implies everything, you realize what you are, and it means the end of the lack. The lack is in our experience all time, but we don't perceive it because precisely, it's is all time. But perceiving is not the correct term because you realize it being it. You have to release the barriers and be unlimited, not contained, it's a total change, and energetic shift. Achieving a moment of total openness requires the relaxation, for a moment, of all your barriers. When I spoke earlier of not transcending the psyche but aligning it, it's because I believe that transcending the psyche is impossible, at least for me, but you can align it in such a way that it allows for moments of total openness.

I don't do any semantic game, if you didn't get it I could explain what I mean

Sure, working hard and overcome obstacles is great, but that satisfaction is always egoic. It's fine to do if you need it, but doing it like ," it's my way to feel good", means that you are closed, isolated into your barriers, then your only satisfaction is achievement. Your are always testing yourself and comparing. As you said it's natural, it's a survival mechanisms. But this is what closes us in the jail of the ego. It's important to see it I also appreciate you old friend

Enlightenment isn't that; it's the dissolution of the barriers that make you perceive yourself limited, so you can perceive yourself as the totality. But not as "the whole" in the sense of: "Ah, I am the whole, not an individual" , but as the opening of your mind and heart to what the total is, to its unfathomable depth and boundless vitality, to what you are, not as an idea or concept, but truly. It doesn't means that you have to transcend your psyche, you have to make your psyche aligned enough to stop being a barrier. It's very different

Yes but like 1,5 years ago that tendency, or whatever it was, disappeared. If I see a boxing match, or someone free soloing, sailing in Antarctica, or anything dangerous/painful, I think: what a stupidity, man. Whereas before I used to think: give me more poison, please. Sex is fine, but compared to a fight, what a joke. Then at some point, all of that completely vanished. I haven't read a novel, watched a movie, or sought out anything outside of what it is now. And risking breaking bones and becoming paralyzed seems like the stupidest thing a human being could do. It's much better flow with the flow, open your heart, enjoy the breeze and the beauty. But when you have, let's say a barrier of fear in your psyche that is vibrating full time creating a separation, the only thing that you want is breaking that barrier, because it's keeping you far of yourself, exiled in the desert, in the dry dead and lonely prison.

I have not that tendency anymore. It wasn't something like: I want to prove I'm capable and feel valuable. It was more like: I'm afraid of many things, and that fear traps me. I feel trapped, and if I don't face my fear, it will become impossible to confront, an eternal prison that will trap me in hell 😅. My parents were very neurotic, and since I was about seven years old, I had that idea absolutely clear. If I watched movies where someone was being tortured, I would get an erotic feeling. But now that's not the challenge anymore. I'm not attracted to danger, pain, or anything like that at all. Zero. Now I'm attracted to connection, to what lives and what flows.

Three years ago, I had surgery where they had to remove screws that had been put in my tibia and fibula, drill a small hole in both bones, pass a special thread through, fix two small plates to each side of the bone with screws, and secure the thread there. I already knew the surgeon from the previous operation; he was a young guy, we talked about some topics in the previous visits and have good feeling Right at the moment of the operation, I thought of asking him to do it without anesthesia. The anesthesiologist said that was impossible. I told him to try it and that if I moved even a millimeter, he should anesthetize me. The guy accepted the challenge. When he started, I thought: let's see, if they anesthetize me, they're going to do exactly the same thing, so there's no threat or anything to avoid, just the sensation, and a sensation is just a sensation. The whole thing lasted about 40 minutes, with the sounds of a drill, screws grinding, the guy with blood on his hands and forearms, but I didn't move a millimeter , as my leg was dead, and it didn't hurt that much anyway, because 90% of pain is the feeling that you should run away, that this shouldn't be happening, but if you absolutely convince yourself that it should be happening, the pain becomes just a feeling. At some point, its negative component fades; it's just a feeling, period. Of course I'm not comparing with being burned alive, but it's the same mechanism. If that monk is absolutely convinced that the fact of being burned is exactly what should happen, then the pain changes of frequency. It doesn't have relationship with being enlightened, zero relationship. It's deactivation of the psychological mechanism of pain from the physical sensation. The psychological is stronger, the physical is just a sensation

When we talk about absolute truth, the point is the total absence of structure. If there is any structure, it's relative perception. Absolute truth is total openness to what is. Structures, whether psychotic or not, occur within what is. So, the idea is to empty yourself completely of all structure and all limits and be without limits. If you think, for example, that absolute truth is that you are God, or that reality is a dream, or is love, or consciousness, you are in the realm of relative structure. The total cannot be thought or spoken; you must erase all limits until the total manifests.