Breakingthewall

@halfknots interesting. maybe do a test. I will surely do it in the future. For vaping I use 100ml flasks, with a cork with a metal stem inside for aspiration. quite effective

really? how is that? Although for me for now 5 meo is more than enough. It's amazing what this substance can do, I intend to go as deep as possible with it.

Yeah, I think from now on I can really go deeper every time. This time I have really understood. what I am. I am aware right now. If it weren't for the fact that I have a work trip tomorrow, I would continue. Another thing that I have learned: from now on my trips will be at night. the day is a great distraction

most people think so. from that point of view, the psychedelic experience is false, since it distorts reality. they consider themselves receivers who try to capture the external objective reality in the most precise way possible. they are completely wrong. there is no outside. reality is them. As long as they cannot see this, all they will do is widen the gap of their error. Until you realize that reality, you are deceived. When you realize that you are the reality and there is not outside, the real exploration starts

imo experiences are not false or true, they are experiences and that's it. It could be said that they are all true. the matter is: infinity. How far can you be open to infinity? Do psychedelics help you to this, to dissolve the limits? for this you need understanding. what you understand is not true or false in a conceptual sense, it is useful to dissolve the limits or it is not. deep understanding is not conceptual, it is the understanding of yourself from yourself, there is no doubt of its veracity because it opens you up.

it depends enormously. When I was 15 years old I smoked and everything was wonderful, later an unpleasant mental paranoia, ideas and more ideas about anything, so I quit, now I take two puffs and it may be that I stay mentally, or that there is an opening. more and more the second, but not consistent, fluctuates with staying in the mind analyzing, which is sterile and unpleasant. I guess it basically depends on your level of purity

4 in the morning, again. I'm a fucking sick, i know. I allow it to be. unlimited depth. limitless beauty. dance. understanding. release.

the vast majority of humans, once they leave childhood behind, settle into a life of suffering, to a greater or lesser extent. Memories, fears, complexes, rejections, frustration, decadence, depression. the only way out of that misery is to wake up, and hardly anyone is awake. if you wake up, you settle in the now, and joy arises. The issue now is to wake up deeper, to erase more of the disease that being human means.

I understand this story perfectly. awakening is opening yourself without reservation. 5meo promotes it hugely, but in my case, sometimes I refuse to do it, that's all. then you have the absence of cerebral activity and no opening, with which the experience becomes absolute closed, a black hole. Good thing I've been able to open myself completely 4 times and this doesn't scare me. It is a perfect exercise to see where your resistance is. sleep is resistance, awakening is total openness. I am looking for the total opening of 5 meo sober. why not? everything is possible, I'll keep working on it, I'm just taking the first steps

@Someone here Suffering is overrated, if you have to suffer, you suffer and that's it. If you expose yourself to suffering, you can endure much more than you imagine without much problem. what is difficult to bear is not being awake. It's not horrible, but it's sad, depressing. that is true suffering, because it lasts a lifetime

I suppose that human nature is built in such a way that at the first pinprick he goes from enlightened to deep asleep dreaming a nightmare, but theoretically, the other case could be the possible

@Someone here Well, neo's story is just a story, since he is not the creator of the matrix, it is something alien to him. reality is not like that. you are the neo experience in matrix, that is, neo and matrix, since both are imaginary, but the consciousness of it is not imaginary. You are the limitless reality that is creating that movie. infinity expressing itself. but it's you, that's the thing.

Just theoretically, there could be someone who is fully awake 24/7 and who doesn't care if he's tortured with hot irons or bathing in the Caribbean

Well, from what I have experienced is an energetic issue. you are built as an energetic pattern that processes reality in a certain way. it is not enough to deconstruct beliefs, this paves the way, but nothing more. a good analogy is the movie matrix. Neo knows that he is in the matrix and that it is all an illusion, but when Agent Smith beats him up, he hurts and fears him. Matrix construction is like this. you take a psychedelic and with luck, it happens to you like neo, you see that Smith is code, he can't do anything to you. In the case of real awakening, you don't see codes, you see that reality is infinite and that you are, and not just that, you see that you are everything, absolute freedom. You see how you are creating this current experience right now. but be careful, it can happen to you as it happens to me many times, reality breaks down and only a dead void remains. what you are is a mystery, you are absolute existence. You cannot understand this with your mind, it has to manifest itself. You can do things to promote this manifestation, like take 5meo, but it doesn't have to happen. when it happens, it's obvious, but it's nothing you can rationalize. can you rationalize that you are the total existence that has not been originated? it does not make any sense.

In some degree, yes , but total awakening it is a state radically different from the normal state we are in. it requires the violence of psychedelics, which block areas of your brain and enhance others and magic... you realize the obvious. btw i just had a very hard experience with it, its a very complicated thing, mastering it is an art. do not confuse awakening with softening your ego, accepting reality and assuming stories of god and love think that you are built as a blocker, to be able to have this experience. reversing your build is not a game

Well, it happened because I'm a bitch, i did and absolute and awakening but so subtle, so short. I put another 5meo in the pipe without measuring, to rape, to force, and...a slap in my face. Thanks! Make Love not war

I did again, absolute. Absolute horror. Well, i know that I can violate the gates of heaven because I have already done it several times, so I will continue with my torture. Hard work . But today, it's enough

Yes, being awake would eliminate your suffering completely and your existence would be pure joy, but no one is awake, some have awakening experiences, and then live in a semi-awake state, in which they perceive reality overshadowed by the unavoidable fact of being human.

@acidgoofy Speaking of which...I just had one of those experiences. Let's see, yesterday I did 5meo, breakthrough. empty, nothing, not horrible, just empty. Today I did it again, 20 mg vaped, total breakthrough, absolute void. nothing. death. the absolute ultimate reality is dead nothingness, the absolute is a funnel of horror. what we live in is a dead image on a background of absolute death. party!! ok, i do it again. Some time of awakening. I see it, the infinity that flows now. but he leaves right away, I did it too fast and the death ☠️ is still too fresh. Now I go down to the street to have a tea and see the sun. In an hour maybe I'll do it again, let's see if the fucking dead void opens. I know what's behind. I. Infinity. Now. it is absolutely challenging and exhausting but it's the price to open the illusion . all this is a hard work that I do for a reason: to perceive reality, the infinite flowing now. That is , me. every horrible break followed by a break where nothing opens makes my experience 24/7 clearer

Btw, i just read that 3 meo pce is a very dangerous substance. Maybe you should throw it and get some 5 meo

well done . I think you still have to go deeper. you are on the right path, you have to reach a point where infinity opens and total existence flows. all the intricate energy paths that make up your apparent being straighten out, control is completely relaxed. there is no you, only total reality, absolute joy. This kind of experience is very useful for two reasons. First, it opens the door to a joy, to a life, that was previously unimaginable. you lived in black and white and this is in color and 3d. and another, shows you that everything is here, in the present, in the only thing that exists. in you. this anchors you in the present in your daily life more and more, and this causes the traumas to be recognized for what they are, an energetic pattern that is happening now. the past is not real, it is now. and now you can fix it very easily if you understand what it is

@InfinityBeats Have you tried doing a complete breakthrough with 5 meo once a week approx? or alternate 5 meo and lsd, trip at night, so you have the day to do what you want, although with a little tiredness. Also, meditate for an hour every day. that is my project, although it is difficult for me to break through with 5meo, plugging or snorting does not work even if I do 35 mg. vaping yes... it will have to be vaped

Yes, I understand what you are saying, an experience is happening and that experience is perfect because there is no ego judging it as imperfect, and you consider that enlightenment. but there is a detail: you are the experience that is happening. you are the present moment. the experience is not happening to anyone, no one is the recipient of the experience. experience is movement, it is the infinite manifesting itself. you are that. spirituality=existence. The word work is very egoic, but in the end, the ego is the infinite manifesting itself. everything is a dance. You are not doing the dance, you are the dance.

For now it's always the same challenge, I do it, breakthrough and emptiness. it expands, encompasses everything, but there is nothing there, reality is dead emptiness. I am that. extremely negative. then I wait two hours, I do it again and the void opens. full awakening. I don't know why it happens like that. Sometimes the second is death too, a very challenging experience, but as i know, it's just a bad time Id say that the difference is that when it is death there is a self experiencing the void. when it is awakening, the self merges with the void, there is no body and there is an energetic discharge. Maybe i just have to increase the dose. 5meo is violent. It Uses violence to break your ego. if doesn't have enough power, you can't break it completely. though I'm not sure it's just this What about you? How did you get out of this? Happened again?

with mushrooms , reality is the infinite dancing with itself, making love to itself. everything is dance, harmony, beauty. It is perfection manifesting. it is an undulating, sensual, changing movement. Right now I am the manifestation of this, this dance taking shape. This perfect harmony is reality. intelligence, laughter, love. with 5 meo, reality is a well of endless depth. Everything is in that well. I am that. I am infinity, I embrace the totality, I have always been that. I recognize myself, my happiness is absolute.