Breakingthewall

life clearly indicates the way forward: total transcendence. you have to reach the complete dissolution of your ego, to purify yourself completely. no trace of preference. you have to die completely and be completely empty. I would forget about psychological treatment and any attempt to heal your personal history. you have to leave it behind, change the skin like a reptile. it is fortunate since any personal story is a burden, but almost no one is capable of transcending it. I would use psychedelics without a doubt, any means at my disposal. nothing to lose. None of us have anything to lose, except mirages, but in your case that is more evident, that is all. embrace your suffering because it is the door to infinity. the last will be the first, you know

watch a fly. an energetic pattern that places trillions of atoms in an exact place performing a series of perfect functions. This fly is in a field surrounded by other millions of insects, exchanging matter, which in turn is another energetic pattern, in a constant way with the "outside". All this occurs in an atmosphere of matter that is inside a planet that rotates in virtue of perfect laws around a star that is one of 10 raised to 100, to say a number, all formed by atoms that divide to infinity, since inside each atom is infinity. and this is nothing to God, it is what he creates in an instant. This is you, the infinite fluid, the infinite intelligence, far beyond anything we can imagine.

try to be with her 24 hours a day, whatever time she has left. you will be grateful for the rest of your life for having done it

reality cannot be defined because it is everything, and being everything it has no opposite, it is one, without limits, not dual. dualities are illusion. There is no you or me, that is an illusion. there is no beginning or end, or birth or death. they are illusion. So the way to distinguish between real or illusory is to ask yourself: does it have the opposite? if it has, it is illusion

Humans have a peculiarity, a piece of software that makes them special: the ego. or what is the same, the ability to create a mental image of how reality should be. for example, reality should be without disease, and that is why we fight disease. This gives us great powers, the ability to evolve, to defeat nature, at the cost of becoming disconnected, anxious, miserable and frustrated, since reality is pure eternal joy and due to the lens of the ego we cannot perceive it. when buddha says life is suffering, he is referring to the ego. life is glory. but it is undifferentiated glory, there is no good or bad. these are ego concepts. reality is just what it is, but although the ego cannot understand it, no matter how hard it tries, it is infinitely richer, deeper, than the image of the ego should be. the detachment you speak of is detachment from good and evil, from any comparisons, to return to the garden of Eden. The poem hsin hsin Ming begins with these words and sums it up perfectly: The Great Way is not difficult for those who have no preferences. When both love and hate are absent everything becomes clear and diaphanous. However, make the slightest distinction, and heaven and earth are infinitely distant.

you're wrong, you need a second. I tell you from experience, it is something real. I come from a family that is a penance, and now I see it as a gift since it has not allowed me margin. either all or nothing. or transcendence or suffering, I suppose your case, from what you say, is similar. is what this work is about, deactivating the ego, but the ego is not deactivated little by little. you can try to modify it in 10 years, with psychology, and maybe it will work, but deactivating it is in an instant. Suddenly, you are gone, there is not you, only the experience that occurs, and you are free, although since you are no longer there, there is no you to be free, there is freedom. This happens, I think, as a result of the accumulation of this work, but it happens suddenly in an instant. then the ego returns, but it is already touched. because the ego is just an idea. the self that gives us so much war is nothing more than the idea of how reality should be. It is a virus of madness that comes as standard in the human mind and helps it to move forward as a species, and to embitter the life of the individual

@Endangered-EGO it is possible completely. in fact the strange thing is shame, but it is something very common, and traditionally encouraged. The first time I fully transcended shame was on a bad mushroom trip. I began to remember trauma and could not stop, the most intense. suddenly, there was emptiness, and from emptiness something manifested itself, experience. like a perfect gem in the void, a miracle of glory. and here was "me" judging that experience as incorrect. I saw the absurdity of the matter and everything was floating around me like slow, without any force ... i was free, completely. Obviously the shame returned with time, but that realization had undermined it, it was crumbling, and today my suffering is quite low, I would not say that it was non-existent but on the way. in the end it is something very simple. things are as they are, and you, imaginary ego made up of thousands "should be", you separate yourself from them creating an imaginary parallel world of the should be. this world doesnt exist. only what is exists. focus on what it is, do not deviate a millimeter. it is neither good nor bad, it is the glory of existence

Of the feelings you have listed, there is one that is king: shame. other feelings are repressed and trapped by shame. Shame the deep feeling of not being fit to exist. a complete nonsense, since everything that exists is suitable to exist. without shame everything flows. Shame is the certainty that things should have been otherwise. it is a distortion between what is and what you interpret as it should be. the "should be" is pride that our ego exhibits, believing that it must correct reality in its manifestation. The solution needs humbleness, to get the equalization between should be and what it is and the end of shame, the end of anxiety, and the beginning of the dissolution of personal history. if nothing is identified as good or bad, history loses its poison, remains irrelevant.

there is nothing to pursue, no sensations to experience, no states to achieve, but there is impurity to clean. large amounts of garbage stuck to you, or rather, that are you. we are a doll made of garbage that is stuck on nothing. so if there's a job to do, throw out the trash

I tried again, this time 40 minutes, it seems to me a fascinating practice. Not giving in to the impulses to move, scratch yourself, has an almost sporty component, gives a feeling of dominance, of not being a puppet. mental cleanliness is enormous, being focused on maintaining physical stillness, mental stillness occurs spontaneously. I have stopped when the pain has started to get serious. Anyway, I think I can not stop doing this masochistic practice, thanks for sharing

Ufff even 10 min without moving a millimeter is challenging. I just don't see the usefulness ... strengthen the character maybe? Know that if you move your back one cm it will eliminate your discomfort and pain and not doing it is the most unpleasant

thanks for sharing. I did not know this practice. My legs and back hurt after reading your report. I find it extremely interesting, I am going to try it, although given my undisciplined nature I foresee ridiculous results in time, although perhaps interesting

In most European countries, psilocybe, 5meo, lsd analogues, are legal, but almost no one is interested in them. hardly anyone knows that they are even legal. Even the most intelligent and cultured people don't even know what the ego is, the transcendence, the mystique. If you try to explain it to them they will look at you as if you were retarded. If you talk to them about psychedelics, it will be as if they tell me about a sexual practice that consists of pissing me in the face. they live in their world of instagram and Netflix, and there is no way to make them understand anything

the voice of the mind is me. and I am not something but an activity. separation activity between me and what is not me.what the voice says has no meaning or sense, it is only activity of separation. there is nothing to know , i know the same as a bird, nothing. but I'm more separated. If I were not separate, my apparent being would merge with everything and would cease to exist as such. the impossibility of stopping the mind occurs for fear of ceasing to be. and indeed, if it stops, the separate self ceases to be. therefore the separate self, which is separating activity, cannot stop the mind. its nature is activity, not stop. But the self can realize its nature and accept its place, relax and surrender, at least in specific moments. there will always be activity and voice of the mind, until the apparent being ceases, but it may only be the essential imo

@impulse9 refreshing attitude. All we are dumb

the important thing is the big torch, to flambé desserts. If you heat with a small one the substance will take time to vaporize, part will be condensed on the walls of the pipe, and you will not inhale all

I think the same. If you are, for example, a rat, programmed to survive, you may be afraid of being eaten by a cat, so you run away. If you are human, survival is completely linked to social acceptance. if they expel you from the cave, you die. to perceive rejection is to perceive death, but unlike the rat you cannot run away. the feeling of separation is unbearable, in extreme cases it can lead to a breakdown of the mind and psychosis. in normal cases the mind creates these knots, blind spots of enormous anxious energy that are established at the core of the system created by the mind creating separation. once you see what they are, they can be unleashed, especially if you have had some liberation experience in which you have mixed with the whole (psychedelics for that)

the mind is a survival tool. humans have to remember things and plan for the future to survive. we also have genetically encoded language, which makes us build a very complex social system. the mind that remembers and projects is very focused on social relationships, since survival depends on them. These relationships have verbal communication as the main vehicle. the mind focuses entirely on this and creates a system of self-worth that depends on what we think we represent to others. a movie of loves, grievances, betrayals, comparisons, attachments, fears, adjectives is created. a kind of soap opera that becomes our only reality. This anxious and half-crazy mind that clings to a world and an identity created by itself, cannot stop, because if it do, the movie collapses, so although there is no one around to interpret the theatre, it interprets it itself. The imaginary self talking with itself. A kind of madness that affect whole humankind I believe that the virulence of the soap opera is proportional to the rejection that you have received or believed to receive. if it becomes unbearable, it is when you seek enlightenment. It can also be for other reasons I suppose, but this is one of weight

@Someone here Yeah it is, is a kind of loop that humans enter and from which to exit is very difficult, but if you don't go out there is no rest, since your substance is anxiety. spirituality is an instruction manual to get out of the loop. Going out is liberating, it means abandoning everything, but if you realize that "everything" is anxiety, you can abandon it without any problem. Really painful and stressing, It's surprising that humans can endure 80 years with that stress, I guess we've evolved for that @Javfly33 thanks friend

I deleted because I thought it was a nonsense...each person's experience is very different. however, courage is very important and it is something that can be cultivated. fears are completely overcome, the metaphor of the elephant is good.

I think that the more times you get out of the egoic mind, even if you come back, the easier it will be to get out again. you have already seen its unreality, you know the magician's trick, as you say, even if you fall a thousand times again. I see it as you are stuck in the mental tangle of events, traumas, ideas, and suddenly you have a eureka moment and instantly all that castle falls and you are in the present naked. the tension that you didn't even notice disappears and there is a feeling of total liberation. there is no separation between you and what you see, it is obvious, it always was, all that you wanted to overcome was a mirage, nothing at all. you sail in freedom, reality is paradise since nothing prevents it. Suddenly, for example, you think: how wonderful, but if I had had this freedom before, it would have been better. It was because of what happened, etc ... and enter the labyrinth again. You have been involved in this for many years, it is a habit. I do not think that it is a matter of a moment as eckart tolle says, it is a game of chess against yourself

I find it strange that completely materialistic people are not seriously depressed. I think they use subconscious mechanisms to avoid facing what they see as reality: a world of fragility where existence consists of a struggle to remain lost beforehand. a true dystopia

Well, there are different voices, they talk to each other, they argue, there are also images, situations, theaters, memories, they provoke emotions, even supposedly pleasant sensations, but deep down their substance is anxiety. when they speak there is always a kind of knot tightening. the problem is that you do not notice that knot because you always have it. If they shut up, it is like a soap bubble that explodes and there is no longer self, there is only the naked experience without separation, but after a while they return, they are the most persistent, and you cannot silence them because you are them

@Mosess refers (I suppose) to the self as an imaginary separate entity, which is a psychological resistance to the flow of the now that occurs out of the need for survival / acceptance and that becomes a phantom entity that creates a fictitious separation between you and what it's not you

imagine that "before" there was no existence, but "after" there was existence. So when did existence begin? for example, right now, since "before" there wasn't. but that before never happened, since it did not exist, instead the "now" exists, so logically, it was always now, since there is nothing else