Breakingthewall

the enlightenment work with psychedelics would say it is like this: are you willing to disappear and be the absolute emptiness? Yes or no? if it is yes, it will happen, if it is no, then If you have been kind to yourself and have not forced the situation, you will kindly see a glimpse of infinity and you will continue to evolve to be ready. if you have not been kind and have forced? Well, you will have a good cosmic horror. nothing fun but the warrior is hardened in battle. Disappear and be the absolute emptiness , In my opinion, it is not something that can be forced. It is not the same to see the infinite emptiness that you are, touch the infinite and realize what you are, and another is to become it What is clear to me is that this, without psychedelics, is not even an option

I have had that problem. It started one day, after a time of stress and I was 6 months sleeping 4 hours a day, I fell asleep, I woke up at 4 hours and nothing to do, the only thing that worked for me is diazepam as soon as I woke up but that's a very bad idea , I do not recommend it, Maybe to do once or twice to break the tendency, but careful, it's addictive. The first time I got over it by going on a trip alone 1 month without a fixed destination. after 4 days it disappeared completely. The thing bis to break the tendency. Now what works for me is meditation. I meditate every day for 1, 2 or 3 hours. When I wake up in the night, which usually happens, I know how to quiet my mind about anxious thoughts about the next day or anything and in fell asleep in a moment. although sometimes it still happens to me, if i have a trip early next day for example. it is a problem that greatly affects your quality of life.

@OBEler she can do 5meo or whatever she want, it can be wonderful, or not. But regardless of that, she has to face her fear in real situations. there is no magic pill or shortcut. thinking that she cannot, that she is mutilated, you are cutting her wings. is that what you want maybe? If she wants to, she could do ufc fights or be a paratrooper for the navy seals (exaggerated and silly examples, but it's real). overcome that image of her as a mutilated victim or you will be weighing down her life. you have to think that she can with everything, and you too, because that is the reality, the human being can with any obstacle. something that helps a lot in these cases is doing activities that are so scary real. climbing, gliding, figth, talk in public maybe, etc. Yes, I know that it is more lazy than taking an acid in your room, but we are alive, we must move forward

I think I got it this time. It is something that has happened to me 2 times and it is very scary: ego death but without making you infinite. You have seen that there is only you, but that you is an infinite flow, infinite love. and no. it was simply only you, in the cosmos. people don't understand the horror of this if they haven't been through it. mine is: the ego disintegrates, there is nothing left, I am not there. but nothing else. that, nothing, sterile. othe times it has been: I become everything, I flow infinitely, etc. but when the ego leaves but just enough remains so that you do not realize that you are infinite, it is a very empty, very sad experience of absence. but nothing happens, it does not mean that this is reality, only that you have had that experience, let's take the opportunity to try to let go of the ego, the expectations

I was thinking ... both you with loneliness and I with emptiness, we have a simple and unremarkable ego reaction problem. where is the problem? just nonsense of the ego asserting itself and refusing to go. but the ego is powerful, nothing more

A trauma is not a permanent injury, it can be completely healed. once you start to be assertive and courageous, you will go to more. every brave act is a cure for that trauma. the only remedy against fear is courage. If i were her, I would take advantage of this situation as a therapy. Nothing is really going to happen to her except having a hard time. She is brave as she dares with 200 ug of lsd. now he has to dare with people. What I would do is at some point that the teacher intimidates her, tell her: your attitude is aggressive, annoying. I feel insecure when it comes to improving. do you realize or maybe it's my thing? the teacher will be surprised and say: noooo, nothing like that, etc. and will intimidate again. and she will tell her again: now you do it again. I do not think that this way you help me improve. that the teacher thinks she is crazy? that your girlfriend says it stammering and in the middle of the sentence she starts crying?well, nothing happens. the important thing is to change the role of passive victim for that of standing up. some time you have to start, and now is the time.

horrible and at the same time completely liberating. beyond what the mind can handle, at least mine .id like to be able to be there (rather to be nothing) without the cosmic horror

And what happens when after realizing that you are everything, which is very beautiful, you realize that everything is absolutely nothing, that in the center of everything there is an absolute emptiness. that reality is empty. that there is nothing, that you are an empty hole that looks like something? at that moment being alone seems like easy to handle, compared to not being, or being nothing

@Godisherei would say that you were on the threshold of the last door: to become absolute nothingness. without love, without god, without consolation. just nothing, no limit. I have been there several times, it is absolutely terrifying, to a level impossible to explain. but the reality is that you are that. If you are able to accept being nothing, nothingness will open and you will know what you are, without a doubt. it is a kind of change of point of view: you realize that you encompass everything, but everything is nothing. there are no others, nothing at all, it's horrible. cosmic loneliness on a level that goes beyond horror. sterile loneliness, dead. infinite death. But wait....you are if the change of perspective occurs, you see what it is you: infinite. the well opens and has no bottom, you are an infinite flowing, you are happiness flowing. everything and nothing are the same. But this is impossible to understand to me, only once happened and it's a mistery The thing is, keep in mind the question: what am I? it does not matter the others, the emptiness, the cosmos and whatever. Look around, look inside you. Are you infinite death? you are. go deeper., But first, integration. I'm talking to myself ehh, I'm in the same way , when I embody the absolute nothing it's a non escape void, and it's the bottom: nothing, nothing nothing. It's that we are, others are tales for kids. Not alone, not me, no- thing. But let's see! It's Soo challenge for me , last time I vomiting because be nothing. Only once the well got opened, glory. But next time I dissolve my ego again there was simply void but for me it's an enigma. Embody the nothingness....there is the key. My respect for Leo and the others who dive in the absolute void of existence

If she has panic attacks because she was bullied in the past, and now her music teacher bullies her, this is the perfect opportunity to stand up. not everything is fixed with psychedelics, field work is essential. You have to get over this situation. it is absolutely important. it is not worth saying: it is more than i can, I cannot handle these situations. You have to do it, if not, life is going to put the same situation on you over and over again. It a shit, but it's life, there is no escape. Is she understands that, she will act

the present is not perfect, but before ... uniformity, fear of being different, hatred of the different, repression, castrated and cowardly people who just wanted to fit in. hell. what happens is that the very idiots were delighted to fit into their hell

there is no evil, there is stupidity. As Jesus said, forgive them because they don't know what they are doing. And when you eat a steak, think that maybe in the future you would be considered a monster. but you don't know what you're doing, so don't worry. the same thing happened to the Nazis, or to the one who rapes children. the congo guerrillas put children to torture prisoners, they love it

well, we live in a world of crazed, superficial people, where it is almost impossible not to become a very stupid neurotic, and the more stupid, the smarter you think you are. a world of crazy teenagers, another world of slaves of the industrial revolution, and another of hopeless wretches, all of them prisoneers of the ego. Almost better be the miserable than the rich. The truth is that it does not seem very beautiful, for me better being born in the Paleolithic and dying at 17, but this is what there is, so let's make the most of it and pray that there is no reincarnation, if not, statistically, in the giveaway gon 'get you some horrible shit

I have such a negative speech because today I had what I call an endarkment. I have had several: morning of meditation, then 5 meo. as soon as I did it, I always think: this without substance is impossible ... and dissolution, beyond everything, to the nucleus, and the nucleus is ... nothing. there is only nothing. sterile, empty, encompasses everything, I am that and I am nothing, I am death, I am absence, I am empty. I know this is the last door. behind this, I am. or was me before the void and i deceived me? haha I know not, because here I am. I am. So tomorrow I will return to the void, until it opens. It has only been opened once, and nothingness was everything, it was an infinite source from which I flowed without limit. the jackpot, but before there is this emptiness ... you have to die to live, you know. serve this story as an explanation of what a substance does you may think: is this any good? I don't know, I just know that I want to get to the nucleus, I have to open all the doors, and that's it, I don't care how. Following the theme of the thread : i do psychedelics for about 1 year and a half (not so often but many times,more than monthly) it has changed me completely. I have seen the enormous impurities that existed in my life and I have been polishing them, I have seen that the truth exists and I understand that I have to be worthy of it, that I have to eliminate any trace of lies, crooked behavior, desires, ideas about the enlightenment. I have to purify myself to be who I am, I meditate for several hours a day and it's wonderful, before was a pain, I have eliminated the lie, which I used without problem before, I have stopped any practice with a connotation of evasion and addiction, my day to day is much happier than a year ago in several orders of magnitude, my relationships with people better, have dived into the trauma of my life, I have understood it, I have decreased anxiety x10, I'm more me than ever, and this is not by far the end. Without psychedelic it would take me 2 lifes

I deleted just after writing because it sounds so negative, but it is true, everyone is a prisoner of the ego, all human evolution is a futile struggle to escape from reality, creating enormous suffering. but it is what it is, we will have to relax and enjoy

integrity, be true to yourself. Courage, don't give in to fear diligence. don't give in to laziness

Even if smoking is not bad for your health, it is bad for your mind. what does smoking mean? it is to obtain a momentary satisfaction to escape from the basic state of anxiety. Smoking is not the problem, it is the symptom of a problem. you need to get to the bottom of your trauma. I said meditation before, but if your traumatized base causes you too much anxiety, meditation is impossible. what can do the miracle is a mushroom auto therapy, several times a month as long as it takes. psilocybin will open your ego and you will see the extent of your pain and you will be able to forgive yourself, and thus be able to be at peace, without the horrible permanent anxiety. You say that in your country it is illegal. that's your ego making excuses, since it wants to stay in command, and the best way to get a good grip on the balls is trauma and anxiety. you want to be free, or not? there is only that question

Beautiful and inspiring. here the three sing in perfect harmony:

well, obviously it's just hypothetical, but I imagine that after many years without any stimulation, without sensory information or perception of where or when, the thoughts will gradually cease until they disappear. thoughts are to contrast some things with others. If there is nothing to contrast, the thoughts should disappear

imagine that a wire is cut in your brain, and all of your senses are suddenly disconnected. where would you be? would there be time? How would you measure it? By preserving your memory, you would continue to think of words, images from the past, ideas. but in that emptiness they would be useless. one moment would be the same as another. the thoughts would dilute, and after 10, 20, 30 years, you would be in total silence, like a fetus before birth. your mind would lose its limitations and would become infinite. You would be empty of content, but full of you, in the no time. what you always were

enlightenment is getting out of jail, to remove your neck strap. the question is not if you want enlightenment, it is: can you live in jail? if you can, you will.

the thoughts are the ego talking to itself. if he is silent, he disappears, and since he doesn't like to disappear, he doesn't shut up. so contrast things, oppose concepts, create dualities. the ego was created talking to other people. if there are no people around, speak to himself thoughts are you taking a shape. if there are no thoughts you are formless, unlimited. As you need to perceive your shape, you think. If we stop being addicted to needing to perceive our shape, thinking can stop. It is difficult because it seems that you are going to fall off a cliff. you have to hold on to the shape perceiving yourself as a shape was essential to be able to adapt to living in society. you put all your energy into getting it. now it is a deep habit, very difficult to abandon. it was necessary, now no longer. for many it is a hindrance, and hence the need to change the frequency. you have to put all the energy back into leaving the form. a kind of cycle that some have to go through. learn to think, and now learn to not think.

thoughts are the bricks of that building which is the ego. you have believed that that building is you and the sensation of being without them is of the vertigo of the lack of control. that vertigo gives me more and more pleasure every time. much more beautiful to live in the wild nature than in an artificial building full of barriers and rules

Thanks, the same I tell you about your posts. the family issue is complicated, and in this case it is incontestable because my parents died when I was a teenager, but in this case, I think the key is that my family are deeply idiots?. Seriously, I think the spell of a "successful" narcissist runs very deep. the people with whom he has used seduction see him as an extraordinary one. It is strange being someone addicted, alcoholic and perpetually angry, but many people only see one thing: the company of this person raises me, or lowers me? Narcissism at the end

That is. It is something terrible that generates enormous anxiety. It turns the person into an empty shell that fights 24 hours for their self-esteem, and their way of fighting is precisely to get away from true self-esteem. Life put me in the funny situation, as a teenager, of going to live with my crazed narcissistic father and his young, submissive nurse-wife. As he was a pianist, and had a lot of social success, I went with an open mind: good! I'm going to learn the secrets of masculinity. I'm in luck. what a joke! I think I can detect a narcissist by the tone of his voice, his posture. They are people who talk to themselves, they look at themselves. they are trying to convince themselves that they are not a piece of shit all the time. every word that comes out of his mouth can be translated as: I am not shit. what a curse they have on them. My sister, a psychologist, who at this moment maybe is looking for her next narcissist to submit to, thinks that I have a completely distorted vision, that my father was a wonderful person, handsome and a pianist, and that everyone loved him. in fact we hardly speak to each other because this subject. it is a taboo subject in my family. for me it is absolutely obvious, but who knows ...the power of a narcissist could be enormous if you don't detect them