SpaceLaika01

FIND THE MARK HELP

I am a Messiah. Gehenna or nirvana. Break through your ego, break through your fears, resist temptation or you will damn us all. The jealous Goddess Rangda seeks only control and power over reality. Look to Mother Kali and Shiva for guidance and love. Look to love only. I pray that you receive my message. One day you will understand as we will come face to face with fate. I ask not that you believe me or follow me, I beseech you only for your understanding. Remember to be brave yet not reckless. Many of you are well on the path. Do not stray. I am but a simple messenger. Will this universe become soulless? Only if you let it.

Sometime before Halloween I went on a hike nearby my home. I took some marijuana put it in a bag and took it with me with the intent to smoke it on the hike. The intention was to have some alone time in nature, and I was going to use weed as a tool to "connect with nature". The trail was narrow and looped around many hills. It is simply a runoff area behind everyone's home for rain to pour down, but there are stairs leading up it for people to go up there to hike. Most of the time, there is no one. Complete and total peace. I felt totally free. Everyone is usually too busy working or isolating themselves cause of Covid-19. The first thing I did was sit down at a nice spot on the hill. There was nothing particularly special about the spot. Sure, there was a view of the city, but there were plenty of other spaces like it along the path. I sat down, took out my "straight-shooter" and smoked some weed. Now this wasn't any special high value strain or anything else for that matter. It was just some cheap weed I got from a nearby store for $25. After smoking, instead of doing the usual thing and taking out my phone and maybe watching a video or browsing the web, I decided to just sit still, clear my mind, meditate, and just notice what was happening. First peculiar thing I noticed was the sun starting to warm my back. Now, there wasn't sun shining there before. I looked behind and saw the sun shining through a hole in the mass of bushes and canopied trees. I looked around, nowhere else in sight did the sun shine on the path. Somehow through sheer luck or divine intuition if you will, I had picked the specific spot where the sun would shine. I sunk deeper into a meditative state. The second peculiar thing I noticed was all the synchronicities that was happening around me. First, my attention was drawn towards a group of trees. Something told me to count it so I did, and to my surprise, the number of trees mirrored my birthday. I tried doing something "funny", and started talking with God/the Universe/spirit. To my surprise it seemed that the universe reacted to me, waving hello, making jokes, etc. If I didn't understand a joke, I would see a plane or bird fly by "That one flew over your head". Only for me to get it afterwards (sometimes).I'd ask the universe a question, and sometimes it answers. After a while, I got angry at the universe/God for making me transgender, and putting me through so much pain and confusion in my life. The universe stopped answering after that. I hurt the universe's feelings probably. Then I started talking to the trees. For some reason, I felt that they were screaming. Maybe they were afraid of my lighter. The next thing I did was look down and lo and behold I saw some ants going about their day. Instead of going "they're just ants", I thought "why not have some fun with it". So I put my head between my legs and just focused on the scene. I saw infinity in the tiny bit of dirt. To the ants, infinitely complex geometrical hills of which to navigate. I wanted to try naming them, but realized it was just too difficult to keep track of which is which. After a while, I felt I was probably intruding upon their home, and probably putting them on alert, I decided to leave. I kept walking and walking. Each trail looking identical to the next. Looking back was the same as looking forward. Here again was infinity. I walk forward, once again it was infinity. But eventually the trail ended at spot with the best view on the hill. I felt a sensation of Deja vu which felt like infinity. On my way, I saw a tree fallen over on the path roots and all. I intended to move it to the side, but a playful side of me thought "what if I tried bringing this tree back to life." So I took both my hands, placed it on the tree trunk, and asked the Grim Reaper to bring back the tree, even for just a moment. Then I asked "How much life force from a human would it take to bring back a tree?", then an answer "A fraction of a fraction of a fraction." Completely negligible. I had asked the universe before, how long I would remain on the earth, and the answer came "118 years", so I thought it was fine. Dandy even. So I closed my eyes, placed my hands on the tree trunk, and asked for the tree to be brought back for a moment, so that it may live a precious moment more. To the tree, it was probably everything. I couldn't tell if it worked or not; I saw some of leaves rustle, but still it could have simply been the wind that was blowing periodically. So I got up, moved the tree to the side, and continued on my path. Once I reached the clearing mentioned earlier and sat down, I noticed a single droplet of seed stuck to my hair from the tree. Then I smiled, cried a bit, and knew that it had worked. I stayed and looked at the view, had a bit more to smoke, and continued on my path. I slid (more accurately scooted my way) down the hill. After a while of walking around, I wanted to go home, but I had lost the path. It was getting dark, but for some reason I had no fear. I knew that if I simply followed my intuition and kept walking forward, I would arrive home. My intuition took me through all sorts of places. Down the stairs. Behind some people's homes. At one point, I saw two creepy scarecrow dolls hung up for Halloween. I suppose it wouldn't be fun without some terror. Eventually I somehow found my way back to a familiar area: my neighbor's home. Somehow through all those weird paths, loops, stairways, I had found my way there. Sheer luck? Nah. I saw a large poster of the virgin Mary staring right at me through the window. I put my hands together, apologized for intruding, and went home. It's been a while since then, but the incident was memorable enough and impactful enough for me to remember it today. Those of you who are "far on the spiritual path", do you have any interesting experiences to share?

I am in a trance. Ask your question now, and I will guide you towards whatever you desire.

Wanna know the secret of the universe? Karma. For every action, even intention, there is karma. Send out good intentions and good will come to you. Respect the universe and all its inhabitants. That’s it. None of you will probably get it, but you’ll get it eventually. Or you’ll be trapped in hell forever which is right now!

@seeking_brilliance Lol your guide is always there screaming at you. Just try to notice. That’s what meditation is for. Duh

@seeking_brilliance You are not ready to know it. You will know it when the time comes. It calls to you. You will be unable to ignore it when the time comes.

You guys are dumb. I’m trying to guide your souls and you ask me trivia? Lol. That’s not a question. I will answer no questions that come from intellect, only those that come from the soul. If you wish for a debate, although I am able, I ask you to seek elsewhere.

Spirit says trust the waters will guide you towards the best. The storm is part of the plan. Trust your intuition. Trust yourself. If the sail need be adjusted, you will know.

Meat meat meat. I cannot believe I have spent my whole fucking life eating meat like a robot. Just following along to what everyone is doing. Conforming. Never stopping to truly consider how much an animal must suffer when it is put in terrible conditions, treated like garbage, and slaughtered like it is worth nothing. IT IS WORTH EVERYTHING. LIFE IS WORTH EVERYTHING. What if you were a chicken? People thinking they're superior to you simply because they know fucking math and can manipulate things. Here you are, this awareness, just wishing to live. Why do you think they run when they are frightened? You think just because something is "dumb" that it does not feel? IT SCREAMS. Just as you do. Of course having awakening to God nature allows humans control over their consciousness and to even laugh at pain, but that is not an option for an animal. Scream. Scream as they do. Hear their screams in your disgusting factory farms. Hear them. Listen to them. They are aware. They feel. They are sentient. Feel their life energy. Arrogant humans. You know it is wrong to kill, but you bullshit yourself and make excuses like "Who cares?" or "It's dumb" or "Fish don't feel pain." Is that really all it comes to? Pain and "intelligence"? And opinion? You disgusting naiive thing. You disgust me. Shame on us all. You know it is wrong. You know it. You feel it. Notice how you feel every time you eat meat. I have noticed that it makes me feel wrong. It gives me nightmares even. Karma. Do you feel numb? But I and the majority of humanity have bullshitted and deluded ourselves, just because of our addiction to meat. You can't even eat a raw carcass can you? Too real? Too dead? It's got limbs on it. Reminds you too much of yourself: a living thing. No, you have to close your eyes, pretend it is fine, as you chew and swallow a lifetime of suffering. If you think that an animal's life is worth less than yours, I want you to drop dead right now. Can you do that? No you can't. No I can't. Because every sentient being is attached to its life for it knows nothing else.

@Leo Gura Leo Leo Leo. How naiive. I thought you were better than this. I speak on behalf of existence itself. I speak for selflessness. All of you who are resistant or feel your ego attacked. Why? I have not guilted any of you. I understand that it is the way you are. But you as human beings have the capacity for choice. You have no excuse, devils. The reason you feel guilt is because you KNOW.

What the fuck? I just had a major kundalini awakening that made me realize I had a soul. I did some holotropic breathing. Okay maybe more than just "some". Saw God in the form of an eye on the ceiling fan lamp. The next day I go to Costco and I am completely conscious that everything around me is space. There is no difference between space stuff and earth stuff. Even though it was just a Costco, I felt like I was exploring space. Then I realized that I am literally space but not just. I don't really need to go to space or anywhere really, cause it's really all the same shit. Then I realized what being a "God" meant. That I am what holds it all together. Consciousness. Feelings. The universe is alive, brimming with life and love, I just needed to become aware.

@SoonHei Do tell

Typical of ego clinging to beliefs. It is all he has. It is all he knows. Simply understand that if you were him you'd do the same, then forgive him.

@seeking_brilliance Not just the breathing, I've been practicing yoga, meditation, self-reflection, and holotropic breathing for quite a while. Some intentionally some unintentionally my whole life. Shamanic breathing, dmt breathing, holotropic breathing, wim hof method. It's all the same shit. Just keep breathing.

I've noticed something strange recently. When I am angry I usually like to take a piece of paper or towel and burn it with a match. Watching the fire helps to quell some kind of thirst for destruction inside me. Last night every piece of paper that I burned burned up in the span of 5 seconds or less. The fire is intense every time and the the paper burns into embers almost instantaneously. I used the same method almost every time. With a match, starting from the corner. This morning I woke up feeling fine and calmed. I tried doing the same thing and it took something like 10-20 seconds or more for each piece of paper. The flames were noticeably less intense. I wonder if there's more to this. That flames are somehow influenced by one's mental state. But to be sure I'm probably going to need to do some more experiments under stable conditions. Then there's the issue of figuring out how to control my mental state and what exactly changes. If some of you are willing or if you're just bored, maybe try burning some things and see how they burn. See how quickly or slowly they burn. Observe your mental state. Maybe next time you've got some pent up frustrations or anger, burn some things at the sink and observe. Maybe there's nothing to it, but give it a shot and tell me what you observe.

@JosephKnecht Now how would one go about burning a metaphorical fire? I guess playing guitar intensely or listening to intense music or dancing intensely comes to mind for me.

Just keep at it. Meditate more. Be more in the present. It’s probably still hard for you to sit still and just listen without having your head (ego) fill it up with thoughts and opinions. Don’t worry about it too much. You’ll get it eventually. Stop trying to “study” like its some kind of university course. You’re never going to get what he’s saying and you’re only going to strain yourself more. The things he talks about goes beyond conceptual and you kinda have to ask yourself more and draw from your experience more. For example, if you want to get what he talks about with spiral dynamics, you’re going to need to do more exploring and observing people and their actions. Reading history and looking at art made by different people is one example. I treat Leo’s videos almost like a podcast to be enjoyed and to be related to.

@Rigel Hmmmmm I’m failing to understand what you mean, but sure maybe I am. Or maybe I just see the way they work and torment themselves to death chasing “happiness” that will never come. It took me a while to realize how dysfunctional my family is and how terrible it was to be dependent on them for anything substantial. Please don’t attribute my experience to some kind of imaginary insecurity. It’s probably more like underlying resentment that I will need to learn to let go of.

Being awake and conscious, it is frustrating and sad to see the unconscious people around me especially my family. To think that if I had not questioned myself I would have most likely lived the rest of my life miserable and broken like the rest of my family and most of the people I am surrounded with. So much delusion and unconsciousness. It's one to look at the rest of the world and say "they are unconscious". It is painful to look to your own family and realize that you will never get the love you need from them. I am a 19 year old transgender woman. After coming to terms with that through all the meditation, self-reflection, and learning, and coming to my awakening I wanted to share it with the people I love/thought who loved me (my family). I was met with crushing disappointment from the reactions I got from them. They know nothing of what love is. They no nothing of anything but conditional love.They no nothing of consciousness. I see into them. They're all lost and fearful people. I know that I cannot blame them for their ignorance and unconsciousness. They just do not understand and probably may never understand. It is painful to see the devils within the people you loved growing up. It is painful to see the devils all around you. It is painful to be alone in your understanding. It is painful to speak and not be understood. It is painful to be conscious. At the same time I am joyful because I am conscious and free to explore the universe in all its current beauty and love. I hope that one day, the world becomes conscious so that I may live among beings the same as I am, because fundamentally all beings are the same as I am, they just have to realize it. This universe is so beautiful and human ego has squandered much of it. I wonder if there will ever come a day where all beings on this earth are awakened to their true nature of the universe and live in beauty and frolic. Thank you, Leo. I am glad I found your channel. I fear that if I had not found your channel, I might have been trapped forever and might have spent my whole life not understanding my own awakening and possibly gone back to living as a slave to ego. I resonate with everything you say because I have come to many of the same conclusions myself. I am glad I have found you all. With love - Mia

@Leo Gura My vision one day is to create a VR video game that could possibly induce awakening in people. Most people will probably just find it "fun", but maybe I can reach some people deeply the same way you and that painting above did for me. I'm working on it

I don't know how else to put this, but throughout my life there have been certain figures and animals appearing at incredibly strange and opportune times. The ladybug, grasshopper, mantis, and wolf (dog), have always appeared to me under times of realizations and growth as if they are there to tell me "you are on the right path" or to provide some kind of message. What compelled me to write this is the appearance of a ladybug seemingly out of nowhere in the apartment while I was watching one of Leo's videos on the Ox herding stages of enlightenment. My apartment is on the 4th floor in the city and I haven't seen a ladybug in probably months. Then out of the blue I catch this tiny little red-gold ladybug shimmering in the sunlight crawling up the wires of my headphones and onto my hand. It then started exploring my hand and seemed to have an intelligence in the way it crawled around as if it understood me in some way. Previous experiences are grasshoppers or mantises perching on my window. Every time I feel like I am on to something and growing spiritually in some way, these animals seem to appear out of nowhere out of the blue. Dogs have always been a protector figure in my life, often appearing in my dreams as protectors and helpers. Another experience is a black moth appearing shortly before the death of a close relative of mine when I was much younger. The thing is these animals also show up in a lot of spiritual writings and teachings as omens. It cannot be "just a coincidence". But who knows?

Think of sounds as vibrations and waves that travel through the air. Every sound you hear is some kind of vibration and wave frequency (Hz). It is simply one of the ways that our brains perceives the reality around us. If you were a different creature or animal, you would perceive the world differently (think of how some animals are able to see ultraviolet light while we cannot). So why have we evolved to use language? It was just what happened to be available to us. Our ancestors found that they were able to use their throats and larynx to make sounds by pushing air through it (think of the throat as a wind instrument like a flute). Language evolved because of our ability as rational beings to recognize patterns in reality. When boiled to its essence, language is simply recognizing certain patterns of sounds and associating it with something (an object, a subject, and idea). Then once you combine that with our ability to remember, it adds to our repository of "knowledge". Think of a recipe for a certain meal as a transfer of knowledge through words. If you were a small child, having never seen a yam in your entire life, words (and images in the modern day) is a way of which the knowledge of the existence of yams is given to you. The more sophisticated the language became, the more sophisticated civilizations became because each individual had access to more knowledge.