Harmony342

Near London, England

I'd recommend making a rule for yourself to only smoke when you go out with mates or whatever. Otherwise a vape is a great alternative

@traveler Amazingly put

Beautiful, it's a shame it's so difficult to wrap your head around

@Leilani Thank you! Lovely post

Mercury poisoning is definitely not worth the risk. It's borderline imo, but know methyl mercury poisoning is sheer hell with no end

Alternatively, approach it by cutting out any foods that may be messing with the systems in your body like fertilisers, mould, or gluten

Try anything high in polyphenols, low in lectins, high in healthy fats, and nutrients. e.g. berries, coffee, avocados, eggs, olive oil, broccoli, etc.

Excellent question. From my experience, everyone has a unique personality that flourishes if one is healthy. You might imitate others that surround you but there is always a part of you you can go back to if need be. It's impossible to put your finger on because you essentially have to get the finger to point at itself which is impossible, ie you're invisible to yourself. You might evolve and adapt but 'you' will always be there, however illusory this 'you' is

I know how hard it can be my friend, I truly feel for you. I have gone through something very similar myself, others tend to think it's likely to be psychosomatic but you'll know if there's definitely something wrong with you because of the physical symptoms. In my experience, it's likely to be some underlying systemic cause that is out of the scope of modern medicine. Don't give up, keep exploring, people are there for you if you need. Good luck, there is a solution - even if just partial - if you keep going.