Shubhanshu san

From what I have seen, blue has an upper hand over orange and green when it comes to matters involving physical intimacy. You see, I come from a very bluish family with some tinge of orange and also with some aspects of purple passed onto us, because blue often puts some aspects of purple on a pedestal. Blue does repress sexuality but really encourages love. Only when the love blossoms, which means emotional intimacy and even spiritual intimacy increases, does sex happen. Not sure about the west, but those that indulge in sex too much usually do not achieve much in life and develop neurosis, especially when doing it with multiple partners. These people are not powerful unless they are driven by love, faith or some other force and even if they do, they are not even close to one who has mastered sexual energy. In the early phases of a relationship, rather than building an empire, a couple would prefer settling for less, because they want to live together and they feel they already have everything they need in life, a fake sense of peace has been developed which is nothing more than validation. Blue cherry picks what serves it's ego from all the stages. Sex energy can be used in other things, like art, spirituality, imagination and creativity. Even a thought of sex or physical expression puts you at jeopardy (not really, but it's like you have chosen your fate to find physical expression of this force sooner or later when one thought emerges). Of course blue doesn't know this, but it surely knows that through elder's teachings (A.K.A. Sanskara ). You don't have to cut yourself off of this chore totally unless you seek to change the whole world. This repression is probably caused from shame or what the neighbors will say kind of mentality. Would you prefer fucking someone in the public or in privacy? In privacy, right? (I would prefer this.) Why is that??? ..... Blue mentality is just an exaggeration of this.

You are epic, Rilles. Thank you

Seems like some aspects of purple and turquoise are similar. Which made me question if I am developing sixth sense and other abilities or they're just coincidences and illusions. Yeah, there are no coincidences, I know. Please give me the link to that video. Thank you! It's impossible to rise to such a level without encountering such intuition? subconscious power? Infinite intelligence? I wonder why Leo doesn't talk about these, are they a distraction?

Don't employ people through this model, individuals are widely scattered in several stages. Instead of classifying a person through colors, you can rather decide what kind of person you need for the job. The person should match the energy of your organization and the energy of the work he or she is supposed to do. I am using energy here because relying upon distinctions in personalities would certainly miss out some aspects that are too esoteric to put out through words especially when it comes to human psychology and body language. A keen observation is a must. Totally depends on the job, yellow, green might do well in creative projects. If you want a loyal person, the best option would be blue. If you want a person who leads them all, it can be a person with aspects of orange and blue mixed in him. We don't have an abundance of turquoise individuals, but from the principles of spiral dynamics they can take any role, the only question is, will they?

Thank you for all eye opening answers. Really appreciate it!

I haven't tried therapy, but yeah I have done sort of a therapy on myself. I felt shame through visualization on levels that made me squeeze my facial muscles and cry. I understand it from an evolutionary and a survival view point. I can see it through an existential view point too (maybe vaguely) but it doesn't seem to disappear from my actions, or maybe it is disappearing but very slowly.

Hi, I have had an unfavorable past, that downed my self esteem, like being beaten by bullies, crying on stage in front of the audience because I didn't know what to say, punished by teachers because I always forgot to do the homework, I am a highly emotional and sexed guy (I used to do weird things in the childhood because they appealed my sexuality(not the physical expression)) parents thought I was cursed lmao, girl that I liked as a kid always laughed at me when I went on stage to speak something (Things changed later ) and many more. I have worked upon my self esteem quite a lot, until I saw what really caused me to behave in certain ways up until now was my fear of shame. This fear made me fear awkward situations, abandonment and rejection. How I tried to fix it: I triggered this emotion through visualization of my past or even things that didn't happen that trigger shame in me. I made myself feel as ashamed as possible. I have stopped running from it, but I really really REALLY seek to master this, because this has been like the source of every thought (on a subconscious level).. means every thought in me is driven by this fear of shame (when I am in certain situations). I try to suppress this fear in situations like speaking to the audience, but I still feel reminiscence of it all the time. How do I liberate myself off of this fear on a subconscious level? Thank you!