Leilani

@Leo Gura If you are imaginary than who or what is imagining you

@Leo Gura this is all horrible. Horrible. What's the point. Why does reality have to be like this? Who the fuck wants to be God. How horrible. To be all alone. You say you won't care that there are no others but you really can't say it wouldn't be better to have a God that loves you. That created you. That you are safe and never alone. That there is many in existence not just one. That we have others to be there with us? You have to be lying to yourself. This is horrible absolutely horrible

@Leo Gura and why would i want to create imperfection? To better appreciate the perfection that I am?

@Leo Gura then why choose to create this dualistic reality. Why not remain in the perfection that I supposedly am?

@Nahm no I love them with my whole heart in a way I haven't experienced before. I love her in a healthy way where I just want her to be herself I need nothing from her.

@Leo GuraGurayou don't wish that it could be any other way? Do you have emotions any more?

I hav a kid. I have also had similar thoughts and experiences. Put me in psychosis and cost me my relationship with a person I really love.

@Loba did you have a near death experience?

If this were true then I would you use the "other" in my experience to create who I imagine myself to be. Or who I want to experience myself as. Be the best mother I can be. Be the best person I can be. Be the best dog owner I can be.

@Leo Gura when did this awakening occur? How is this different from realizing everything is infinite mind? That Everything is God's imagination in play forever and that you are the imagined and the dreamer

@Leo Gura you think there is anything beyond this awakening?

@Leo Gura kind of makes me feel like I dont have any control on anything anyway. I also feel like you have talked of this before. Scared me at first but doesn't diminish my joy or love for the people in my life even if it's just me.imagining them. How beautiful I love holding them and laughing and talking with them. I love the feel of there skin. Now I just don't feel attached to them

@Leo Gura were you scared during this awakening?

@Leo Gura you also said you are conscious that you are imaginary?

@puporing your fine I just was a bit confused.

@puporing I'm genuinely curious how that is relevant to what I was saying?

@BenG lol

I am going to post NDEs here that may be helpful in your journey of understanding some of the finer details of things ❤️

https://youtu.be/tgYHxrBn5Ao

@Egodeathrow but these NDES dont even always have a character many of the ones I post talk about God realization.

https://youtu.be/Lo2JW7kN5DI

@Leo Gura Please ban me from this forum. Leo is a full blown narcissist who pretends to be the authority on all things. He is way off base on so much but won't admit it even to himself. Not all women are how you portray them to be. Enlightenment has cost you your humanity.

THE REALITY BEYOND DEATH Rainbow Awakening member Daemon tells his story of how he experienced his true nature while on a Way of Love and Rest retreat: We were into the second moon cycle, so about week five. The body was completely nourished by love and rest. I was sitting in meditation on the grass beside our nature hut one afternoon, when the innermost chamber of the energetic heart opened. The illusory mind-consciousness in the head was drawn back into its source. With the innermost chamber opened, the soul was able to manifest itself. In a healthy body it appears as a rope of solid white light from the crown of the head that extends down through the opened heart and on down to the sex organs. So by this time we were able to make love with each soul nourishing the energy of the other person’s soul. One afternoon a few days later I was sitting in meditation. I the soul was pulled up through the crown of the head through a translucent tunnel. I could see galaxies whizzing by as I travelled faster than the speed of light. I passed many souls who rejoiced at seeing me again. I saw that there is a Soul Plane where all souls congregate. From here they return again and again into human form. Yet I travelled further and faster through that see-through tunnel. I approached a massive Light at the centre of the universe, brighter than a hundred suns. I knew that I would be annihilated in that light, and so it was. Like a little puff of rain cloud meeting the surface of the sun, ‘I’ the individual soul evaporated instantly. In the absence of that soul I realised that I am the Light. The Light is the true nature of all of us. There was no separation, no separate deity. It is an infinite and eternal ocean of light. It is composed of infinite compassion, infinite knowledge and infinite love. I realised that not only is this whole universe a dream that is manifested by the Light, but also even the individual souls on the Soul Plane are part of the dream. Only the Light is real. Nothing in this universe was ever real, and nor will it ever be. Eventually a human being has experienced enough lifetimes to realise that life in a human body can only be suffering; any happiness can only be superficial and fleeting. The happiness in the Light is ten thousand times greater than the best orgasm you ever had. This sexual union is a taste of the divine, and making love is the energetic nourishment required to return us there. This temporary experience made my life seem meaningless. All my career goals for being a lecturer at the University of Canterbury were pointless. This world is a dream, and my only desire was to awaken permanently. I took a vow in front of Tenzin Palmo, the Buddhist nun who spent twelve years in solitary meditation retreat in a Himalayan cave, that I would complete a three-year couple retreat during my lifetime.

@Tyler Durden thinking "they" are seperate from you causes the loneliness.