Leilani

@Leo GuraHere is the thing I experienced that insanity state. Even at the age of 6 I wondered when I would wake up from this dream. I have cried to my boyfriend about him not being real way way before I ever heard of you. I do understand what you are talking about but im telling you your missing a big big part of the experience. Its not all about truth and once you realize "truth" your still here. You are still a human having a human experience and your teachings do have consequences. Who gave you this job of waking people up to this realization? Also why oh why would God create all of this this separation all of these people just to wake himself up. Why? Why would you come from the formless to the form just to try and dissolve the form. You don't know how high I have gone and it really doesn't matter. How loving are you to your wife,how loving are you to your dad,sister etc? How much joy do you have while here? We are here to experience this.

@Drake72 I totally agree, it's very dangerous to follow someone blindly. Also isn't it weird how in the bible it states that in the end times many will declare "I am God" would if its deception. I've had many psychedelic experiences that showed me I was God way before I ever heard of the idea. When I came down I did question it though so I think it's odd to believe an insight like that without fully examining it.

I really fucked up. I lost a good friend because I thought he didn't care about me I had convinced myself he hated me. I have always struggled with this. I push people away because I feel so hated,.so unloved. A lot happened in my childhood it really hurt growing up you guys. Now I fear that feeling all of the time. Sometimes I think the most loving thing to do would be to kill myself. I keep hurting "others" and myself.

@gswva you can see it either way I guess. I like to see it all as a miracle.

I just had an experience that I feel I need to share. I know that when you hear you are alone you feel a lot of fear but I want you to know that that means you are only getting it with your mind, your ego, your human self etc. It would almost be better to say you are not alone for the sake of the mind to understand. But at the same time there are no "others" Where as you feel a heart break when you hear things like you are alone and the story's of others is just a story it's really the opposite feeling of a broken heart. When you "die" it feels the opposite of alone yet again there are no "others" there are not two meaning these are story's being made up for experience. When you hear this you FEEL the real beauty of what Jesus did. He became human and went through all of that suffering for "us" for you for the all. You know how suffering feels You did that also, You experienced that nightmare (no not you mind, not the human self). You beautiful selfless love. But guess what None of the bad stuff ever happened. You aren't touched by this at the same time you are completely whole untouchable perfect and free. You still feel compassion and honor this experience though when you feel it with your "soul". This is where we come too experience every experience possible and it's damn hard there is so much pain, suffering and seperation. It's absoustly heroic of us to do this. It's so damn beautiful. When you see that love shine through this heartbroken place THAT is what you call God. It would be better to say love is God. God really isn't the best word for it. I hope you can feel this message. I see you. I love you. Come home and see this. It's so beautiful. I promise you there is NO fear in this. None. The minute you feel fear you aren't getting it. Please understand that and feel this. Love became you! You are so special that love became you! Just so you could feel sperate and lonely and scared and less than, so you could experience Not being love not out of fear of being Love/God but because it is love and love just does "this". LOVE became you out of LOVE. It's a gift to be YOU it doesn't have to include suffering. This "life" this story, this experience is sacred. It's so sacred. The mind will not get it. It has to be felt and the feeling is the opposite of fear. It's feels as if your heart came back together for this first time and you didn't realize how fucking broken it had been. Eternity and a moment all at once. Don't be afraid of eternity either it's the same as just a moment.

@Harmony342 @Johnny5 of course. I hope it helped ease any fears

For years my mind has been trying to make sense of it all. I was terrified of the oneness, the merge being lonely. I mean you guys like It was debilitating. Years spent crying and trying to figure it all out. I had an experience at 18 and I saw it all in a vision. It was a metaphor. All cells constantly regenerating going in and out creating and being created by "God" no loneliness whats so ever. I later looked on the internet to see if anyone else has this realization and started reading fearful descriptions of what I had discovered and took them on. You guys I was a mess I lost the relationship with the love of my life. We were together for 8 years but I would just be locked up in my room trying to make sense of it all. Then last night something shifted. I remembered with my heart. With my "soul" a oneness so whole there is no I to feel lonely. I was "there" for the briefest moment. Just love always love. Not isolating it's hard for my mind to even remember but my heart got it and that was grace. I feel like I can breathe for the first time in years. Crying happy tears, tears of relief. The magic is back and I can feel the gift of this. The peace it was like the light was there the whole time but it was shrouded in darkness, all of my fears and doubts. So afraid to look but like a splinter in my brain I couldn't stop and last night it all made sense. It wasn't for nothing.

I felt infinite tenderness. I understood that the kind of love closest to divine love in this life is that which we feel for a small child. As this wonderful feeling came over me, I heard within my heart a voice that said, 'Through love you will understand everything. The essence, the essence, the essence...' This was followed by a feeling of great peace mixed with joy within my soul. I sensed that my life would change for the better, and this has been the case ever since because I have a greater understanding of my life's true meaning. I then turned to see the light in the sky. A telepathic force poured a series of codes filled with millennial wisdom into my mind about creation, the world, my life and that of all other beings that inhabit all universes, everything being eternal, spiritual life, everything belonging to it and that the distinctions or differences that we make in this life are done out of ignorance or because we have forgotten this truth. As if by a giant magnet, the light drew me to it and I was submerged in its interior where all there was, was light. I forgot I had a body and felt fused with the light. In that moment, I experienced a feeling of 'plural unity' and understood everything with extreme clarity. I discovered what reality is, and saw and understood with my consciousness so alert that it allowed me to comprehend everything with infinite perfection, without any doubt. From my heart sprang an 'Aha!!!!’ feeling, as if there were something I had always known but had forgotten, and that I can't explain with words or human language. I felt like a co-participant of creation. A PART OF WHAT I UNDERSTOOD AND REMEMBER TODAY IS: ***We live in a 'Plural Unity' or 'Oneness'. In other words, our reality is 'Unity in Plurality and Plurality in Unity’. ***I was everything and everything was me, without essential differences other than in temporal appearances. ***There is no external god, but that god is in everything and everything in god, just as life itself. ***There is no God outside ourselves but is, rather, in everything and everything is a part of God, as is life itself. ***God is everything and nothing at the same time. ***Everyone and everything, or temporal phenomenon within this dimension, is where it should be because it emanates from the blueprint of a shared dream (if we can call it that) that is repeated indefinitely until we understand what is essential or real. ***Everything is part of an essential game of life itself, and that to the degree that we live by true love, unconditional and universal, the closer we are to an understanding what life truly is, which is true happiness and perfect wisdom. ***Everything is experience and that this life and the next are essentially the same because everything is god. Nothing is outside of god just as nothing is outside of life itself. ***Death is a metamorphosis of time. One more illusion from our mental concepts. Essentially, time does not exist, nor does space. They are illusions of our creative mind that plays a game of self-deception in the creation of events. ***'I' includes 'We' and are like a mirror where we perceive the reflection of our reality in its many facets and illusions. ***The 'creator' is eternally creating, and one of the creations is the practice of conscious love. 'One learns to paint by painting'. That's why this 'temporal human illusory creation' exists as though it were a matrix within another matrix and this, within another - multi-dimensionally until we wake up. ***I experienced something that can't be transmitted with words but that can be expressed as 'The Essence of Life is its Total Nothingness’ (please understand 'Nothingness' as something that has no intrinsic substance, but is rather constructed by a multitude of phenomena, which in turn are formed by other untold multitude of phenomena to the point of infinity). I understood that intangible, indescribable life is all that exists. There is no death (it's only a description to show the polarities in the world of phenomena). ***Consciously living by love is the essence of life itself and is made manifest or materializes in this plane of existence as a cohesive force to recreate itself in multiple forms as a game in which nothingness recreates itself in temporary, illusory events. ***The known universe is a fraction of infinite reality that by love has become finite pieces in our temporal 'hands'. ***I learned thousands of other things without end, and it is difficult to express in words because words are insufficient, they can't describe what I experienced in this other state of consciousness that was much clearer than this one. When I returned to this life, I felt I had fallen into a very heavy space, and that my body was as lead and my mind was the same and very slow. I saw my loved ones, family and friends as if they were nothing to me. They were only reflections in the great theater of life, and each one voluntarily agreed to play a part in order to learn more and better how to love. I spoke with them to tell them of my experience, and they looked at me as though I were crazy. I realized they didn't understand what I was saying to them. Little by little, my experience grew faint, but there appeared many new special experiences of telepathy, intuition developed between others such as voluntary out of body experiences and involuntary bi-location. I especially cannot control the latter, and I would like to know using conventional language how this phenomenon happens. I only know that everything is eternal, pure consciousness and that we are in a mental dream that is permanently being constructed as a dynamic of consciousness that knows itself and recreates itself through each one of us. That we are the 'point of emptiness' where the void or nothingness of the universe becomes aware of itself. It is really hard to explain this. I know that everything I saw originates from thoughts, or the Universal Mind. It is projected in images and events that interact with lucid consciousness as an experience, and that this whole experience is a part the infinitude of that which is real on every plain or level of existence that we want to invent or divide into pieces so that our temporal mind can decipher it despite its limitations. I believe I understood that what we call God is the silence of indescribable life that is in everything, and everything is in it. As an analogy, we could use the image of steam, converted into water, then into ice. Once it is in that state, ice forgets that it is steam with its capacity for expansion. This is what happens to us in this plane of consciousness. I believe I understood that what we call God is the silence of indescribable life that is in everything and in which everything exists or is within it. A marvelous, loving and conscious eternity. Note: I feel that all the images that were created in my mind during this experience, before entering into the light, are symbolic thought forms of something perhaps more profound that could serve in support of a translation of that which is essential experience. It is impossible to explain with our limited human language, yet I am now trying to decipher it little by little.

Also it's not a being. It's beyond thoughts or anything like that. We have thoughts here.

@dyslexicCnut its not training itself to do anything. You are free and whole and perfect. This life is short you get to be a lonely human for a while and have limitations. It's so hard to wrap the mind around but it's the most beautiful thing.

@dyslexicCnut both can be true. The beautiful gift of this is looking and seeing and remembering that those sick hurt people ultimately are free and perfect. But you are here as a human you understand suffering and you feel even more immense compassion when non duality is realized because "they" just like you became this. Love became this for experience and it's so honorable. Its so incredible and beautiful. You became seperate just so you could be you! There is no, whatever your name is there because you are everything and nothing. You are hot and cold you are all opposites. here you get to experience what it's like to be a little piece to feel seperate from the rest to say I am bigger, smarter, funnier etc it's a gift. It's an honor. You look around and you see the sacrifice everyone "else" is making and you realize that's you as in love.Here you get to create yourself and be seperate from the whole. You get to know a small aspect of yourself. The seperation really does feel like a broken heart but in the oneness it's as if for the first time your heart came back together. It's so beautiful on both sides.

@Johnny5 isn't that just beautiful.

Love you all

experience of the void that eventually moved on to the light: As the death journey continued, I found myself flowing into a space of abject darkness that can only be called the Void. This band of energy is completely absent of everything. The only thing brought into it was the last lingering onion skin of my personality, as yet to be unpeeled. It felt as if this place went on and on forever. I had no where to go, no one to see, and all that remained was the excess baggage of personality things that go bump in the night and went round and round in an endless loop. Any shreds of the personality Mike I’d carted along for the ride were agonizingly collected into a focused state that wouldn’t allow the benefit of any rationalizations. The Void is ravenous and feeds on collapsing over inflated priorities which need be shed to move beyond its reach. It is merciless. It is necessary. I discovered that only by uncovering the masquerade of my own man behind the curtain could my true Intent be revealed and brought to Light. The Void strips the me-me-me out of all the stuff I imagined could fill my holes and make me complete. The Void crushes, melts down the dross in an alchemically oriented reduction process, polarizing the dichotomy of all the reasons for living into a singular, prevailing need. And, with far more a whimper than a bang, I came to my knees and cried out in the darkness, “All I ever wanted to do was Love.”

@Frenk yes I love that one also!!!! Here is another great description of the oneness that we are. Soooo comforting and for me helps me really get it beyond the mind. https://youtu.be/cHrWiUaTyF0

https://youtu.be/cHrWiUaTyF0 This description of the absolute or God or whatever we want to call it really helps me "get it" it's so beautiful and it helps me get it in a way that is not intellectual. I hope you can FEEL the beauty of it and hopefully it will lessen any fear you may have regarding death of self.

How do you feel about this quote from a famous NDEr by the name of mellen Thomas Benedict. "Stop trying to become God, you are already God and God is becoming you" He says, and he went all the way that the body without spirit is a wasteland and the spirit without a body isn't all it's cracked up to be. That here is where we can truely have heaven on earth. He also mentioned how Creation isn't an intellectual process. The body has more wisdom than the mind. Also that God is not lonely. It's beyond all of that.

@Leo GuraGura When I give this all up will there be any rest. Will it feel like a balance between love and torture? It's so much to give up. I have to give up everything to gain everything in a sense. Does infinite love when you give it all up does it feel lonely?

@erik8lrl is it lonely when you merge with infinite love? Like when you fully become the one?

@Bulgarianspirit I loved this lol so true. I'm picturing a monk running around screaming ahhhhh help solipsism. I'm so scarrreeed lol. Sometimes I think Leo might be causing more harm than good with some of the stuff he says to be honest. Lots of very young people on here who already have emotions they have very little experience managing. Good intentions I'm sure but it's really important as a teacher to really try and be careful with the delivery of your message.

@Nahm me too!!! It has been a long road. Now I can create and just be me.

@traveler im done looking I can rest in this now. Finally. Now to share.

A poem I wrote inspired by insights and experiences I have had. Freedom Do you see the gift within your soul? If you could you would never again gaze upon yourself and see anything but Glory. For you are magnificent. Whole and free. Free to be you or not to be. Nothing in life is certain so that everything possible CAN BE. Can you see your reflection in the heart of another? If you could you would never again gaze upon someone else and see anything but Glory. For we are all made of love, as solid and mystical as can be. All at once. You are wholly free.

@Artsu in a way I am saying that. Its more you are already whole and love and freedom. We come here to experience what being a human is to revel in the experience of life. God is seeing through you and everything else. There is a process for sure but you realize you were "God" love the whole time and here is where we get to experience our unique selves.

@Fran11 thank you for reading. Love to you ❤️