Leilani

@Leo Gura and why would i want to create imperfection? To better appreciate the perfection that I am?

@Leo Gura then why choose to create this dualistic reality. Why not remain in the perfection that I supposedly am?

@Nahm no I love them with my whole heart in a way I haven't experienced before. I love her in a healthy way where I just want her to be herself I need nothing from her.

@Leo GuraGurayou don't wish that it could be any other way? Do you have emotions any more?

I hav a kid. I have also had similar thoughts and experiences. Put me in psychosis and cost me my relationship with a person I really love.

@Leo Gura this is all horrible. Horrible. What's the point. Why does reality have to be like this? Who the fuck wants to be God. How horrible. To be all alone. You say you won't care that there are no others but you really can't say it wouldn't be better to have a God that loves you. That created you. That you are safe and never alone. That there is many in existence not just one. That we have others to be there with us? You have to be lying to yourself. This is horrible absolutely horrible

@Loba did you have a near death experience?

If this were true then I would you use the "other" in my experience to create who I imagine myself to be. Or who I want to experience myself as. Be the best mother I can be. Be the best person I can be. Be the best dog owner I can be.

@Leo Gura when did this awakening occur? How is this different from realizing everything is infinite mind? That Everything is God's imagination in play forever and that you are the imagined and the dreamer

@Leo Gura you think there is anything beyond this awakening?

@Leo Gura kind of makes me feel like I dont have any control on anything anyway. I also feel like you have talked of this before. Scared me at first but doesn't diminish my joy or love for the people in my life even if it's just me.imagining them. How beautiful I love holding them and laughing and talking with them. I love the feel of there skin. Now I just don't feel attached to them

@Leo Gura were you scared during this awakening?

@Leo Gura you also said you are conscious that you are imaginary?

@puporing your fine I just was a bit confused.

@puporing I'm genuinely curious how that is relevant to what I was saying?