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And because of this and many other contradicting statements ("you are the only being that exists" but also some Universe is working towards maximizing love for "others" (others?)) I just won't even continue listening. And why is it bad to have a human ego? Wtf? Why then even have this human experience if you are judged for wanting certain things or told that "you won't get your way because you are selfish". Lol. Okay? Show me a human who isn't? If you weren't selfish you would literally die in this human form. You wouldn't care about surviving. It's just a matter of not being overly selfish. I just deeply believe some truths are purposely not being spoken out, or are tiptoing around it, because some people would be able to abuse it if they found out.

I just notice this ongoing confusing, and at times, irritating, narrative and clever push-pull attitude towards "us striving to be conscious creators of our reality". It's like "you aren't, but also, you are" (even though it's been suggested multiple times throughout multiple episodes that everything is one giant SINGULAR MIND) And for a long time I sensed this distance and disassociation towards stuff of that nature altogether. Which irks me because I can deny the existance and truthfulness of, or diassociate with the fact that gravity exists, all I want, but that doesn't mean it doesn't exist or is not real lol. Oh, but "I don't understand it". Right. I just don't care. I will just come to conclusions on my own and based on my own life experiences and not let anybody tell me what is or isn't true.

So I am right now still single and working on myself and healing until I meet the guy I would wanna be with. Though I noticed I miss and crave great sex so much. I can work on self-love, spend time with myself, give myself compliments, even hug myself, but I basically NEED someone to fullfill my sexual needs. So what can I do to compensate for that need I have while single? P.s. Not into one night stands or having f buddies.

Truer words have not been spoken.

@Enlightement Someone who is willing to also put in the effort into friendship and also is willing to control their ego and not let it get in the way of our relation. Someone who is willing to admit their fault. (Ego thing) Someone who is understanding and forgiving. Those are all characteristics of a good friend and a good sign for long term friendship. Someone who can't get over their ego and is overall a negative/pessimistic person is a bad friend.

What happened was... We almost witnessed a destruction of the world as we know it before our very eyes. If the leader of Wagner were to succeed and take over Moscow, it would be 100000x worse than it already is in Russia. And since Russia is the biggest country in the world, it would have affected others awfully as well. When the crazy radical people take power, especially take such leading power as Russia, it's over not just for Russia but for everybody.

He ghosted you

Love to you too ❤️

Hahahahah how did you come to that conclusion? ? i give off male vibes? ?? I am a girl. Moreover, this is me on my profile picture ?

That's right!? Though there is still a lot of lust left ?

I don't know what have I donee lol

Sending love to all of you guys ? (I'm in a very good mood right now, felt strong urge to type this lol)

This is so beautiful ? You're on the right path

Funny that you mention ukulele ? Since my friend plays it. But yeah, I agree. Gotta see where to join. There was some nature camping I wanted to be part of but all places are taken ?

When I asked him why he behaves weirdly, he didn't wanna tell me, ignored me. My friend suggested that he felt deeply humiliated and embarassed that he showed me he cared, so he wanted to let me know that he doesn't. Cause feelings and showing someone they care are pathetic (to him) or whatever. I don't plan on attacking him if I ever see him again. I plan on telling him if he asks. I don't know will he get it. I am preparing myself for both scenarios - him willing to work with me, and him not caring. Thanks for your input.

I came across many life situations where I thought "I could use this to construct the reality I want to experience". These life experiences either made me realize what I absolutely don't want (and therefore made it more clear what I do want) or they made me want something even more. I want to report on these specific life situations that are happening to me that could be very useful if only I choose to look at it from a perspective of "How could I use this situation that is currently happening to me to my benefit?" //////////////////////////////////////////////////////// So... It's happening again. She's doing it again. We talked about this. I told S that I don't want this kind of (lack of) interaction and communication anymore. If she has something bothering her about me or something going on in her personal life etc. it's not okay to just flat out ignore me. What kind of behavior is that? It pisses me off. I'm so disappointed that this is happening again. I thought we got over this. I literally feel like she doesn't want us to be friends sometimes. It came across my mind a few times in the past. It's just her behavior that makes me want to not bother her anymore. I don't feel good about our friendship anymore. I don't feel excited/happy when I'm about to see her. I actually feel kinda nervous because I don't know in what mood she will be that day - will she laugh and smile and be all nice towards me and wanna do everything with me, or will she just go cold on me and go as far as to not even say hi to me, or even acknowledge my existence. It's flat out hurtful what she's doing. It's actually an emotional torture. I feel emotionally abused. She didn't even acknowledge me on Thursday. Didn't even say hi. Didn't even LOOK at me. I was observing her, she didn't make an eye contact with me at all when she entered the room. What kind of behavior is that? Wtf? Why would she behave this way? I literally didn't do anything to deserve this. You do this when you hate somebody or you want to hurt them. Even if she's having personal problems, an acknowledgement of my existence is a bare minimum thing to do when you're entering a room where your supposed CLOSE FRIEND is. I'm slowly giving up on this friendship. I think it has no future. What I'm doing right now is coming to terms with the fact that we probably won't stay close for a long time (as opposed to other friends I have). Because this is unacceptable. I already initiated the talk with her in the past regarding this issue and told her this was bothering me and that I don't like it. We promised each other that we will tell each other if something is wrong. She is still staying quiet, when there is clearly something going on with her. And I can bet on anything that she won't initiate herself the talk and tell me what's wrong. I literally cannot see that happening. Maybe this kind of behavior is why she stopped communication with several of her friends in the past. Maybe. It would make sense. This is unacceptable behaviour. A good friend doesn't behave like this. I am so triggered by this because it is hurtful. This is something an enemy does to you when they want to ignore your existance in order to hurt you. Or they behave like you don't matter. This is literally what an enemy would do. I will see, based on a circumstance and my mood, if this is worth the effort anymore. I will see. But my mind is made up I think - this won't last for years and years. It won't. There's no way with this kind of approach, that it will last. What I want: ✓friend who will be able to communicate with me when certain problem comes up (regarding me of whatever it is that bothers her) instead of staying quiet about it ✓friend who won't ignore me (even if I am not the reason they feel bad) ✓I want to be able to know where I'm at with someone, I want stability (I don't want surprises, frequent mood changes, instability, "one day I love you, next day I don't know you" type of thing) ✓I want to be able to tell them what bothers me about them without fearing they will take revenge on me for expressing my feelings.

I wasn't single up until 2 year ago, just a little side note ? But yeah, I don't know if I am up to it since I realized few days ago that I desire to fullfill some of my human needs lol. Like, these qualities I listed are ideal, but I am willing to take compromises and forget about some requirements. Just not crucial ones. As I said, I am willing to make compromises. Going to the gym is something one can do, I was referring to that. I wasn't referring to facial brauty you are born with. As I mentioned in earlier comment, I surprised myself when I found myself attracted to a guy who is totally not my type appearance-wise, but his authenticity just made me fall for him. So authenticity matters a bunch and can make someone more beautiful.

Triggered much? You can require all the qualities that you want. But you have to stay behind your decision and be ready to wait for the right girl with those qualities. Besides that, I don't see anything wrong or that I'm "asking for too much" with my requirements. I said things that a guy could even work on, only if he wanted to (being authentic, ambitious (so not a lazy ass person)). Being handsome cause that brings attraction in bed. All the stuff he can work on. While you mention tight vagina and big breast, something we cannot control. But hey, if that's what you want, go ahead ?

Not asking anything we ourselves don't offer ?❤️

This is crucial. Listen to this advice. We all do these harmful things because deep down we enjoy them or because they are serving us in some twisted way. Totally agree.

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By realizing your own freaking worth that you already have. Noone's gonna see your worth unless you do first. All the stuff that makes a guy attractive is everything that is within his reach and everything he can work for. Exit victim mindset and don't watch videos that make you feel powerless.

I don't want a nice guy, nor a macho type cause I don't want someone to disrespect me no matter how hot or popular he might be. I demonstrated that I dislike being disrespected multiple times with guys who are the "popular" ones, by leaving. I want a person who is authentic. Who expresses their true selves even if others might look at them weirdly. That's just attractive to me. Is adventurous, ambitious, loves life, has positive outlook on life. Is in shape. All while being respectful towards me and has strong need to take care of me.

@StarStruck I don't know why you find yourself called out by some of my statements. I didn't say "I don't wanna be with you!!". I said "nice guy". Do you identify yourself as nice guy?

@Princess Arabia damn... I deleted that comment cause I figured it was unnecessary information,and someone still managed to see ?