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@The Buddha Dude, what are you talking about? I came out as the dumbest kid from school. No knowledge is gonna get inside this melon head... Besides, I read a blog post that the eye of Horus will protect me from evil. I don't believe it but just in case I put it as my avatar

Now that i am almost 5 months sober after i realized that my alcohol consumption became a problem for my well being. I haven't yet arrived to the conclusion that i should quit for good but hopefully i will decide to do so soon. I wondered if there any other ways to get a feel good spike or maybe even deprogram myself from wanting a kick? I have to mention that i got pain in my body and migraine. Alcohol was a stupid way to self medicate that i learned from my culture. Now i have got a short term paracetamol-codein prescription. It is way better than alcohol as it reduces the pain but doesn't get me out of my mind. I do not know if i ever get it prescribed again so maybe there is other solutions. I have tried to feel good by doing the keto diet. I've read here on the forum that the reason i feel good is the stress hormone from the adrenal glands. In that sense it is not a long-term solution. Also tried a clean Vegan diet twice but always got a good amount of weight gain from that. I am doing workout 3 times a week and eating normally. I automatically consume caffeine to surpress my nervous system to avoid the pain. I didn't realize that my mental/physical pain was so chronic until i tested the paracetamol-codein blend.

@Leo Gura Thanks for your response. I realized anything else besides the stable white light of presence that seemed to be everywhere. If it is only the beginning then I need to observe it again and probably go deeper(?). I want a direct realization of it instead of thinking of it. I'll come back when I realize more.

That interesting. This seems like a very good idea. Thanks for sharing!

Burger King is way better. They got flame grilled patties and also sell beer! You can get drunk and get cancer at the same time, what a deal!

I just wonder what's happening with this forum? An hour ago i could attend a gambling website in the Korean language. Now i can buy sawn timber in bulk from Africa. --------------------+++++++------------------ Anyway, We manifest our own reality, what we focus on that is what we attract and create into our world. Gambling Website from Korean girls = $$$ CameroonTimberExportSarl: ?????? ???????????? ?? ???????? ???? Musical Instruments Writing Instruments Furniture Flooring Yachts and Boats A week earlier: Connect the dots. "The present is the reflection of our past" - Bentinho Massaro

I remember a woman asked me to help her out with her shouting boyfriend at the bar. I didn't help as it felt like i should allow it to happen. That situation reminds me of the karmic idea that some things are permitted to happen and we can't do anything about it at the moment. That is the rare case. However i think we will not be this metaphysical when we see such a occurrence as rape. Most of us will intervene if we are not depraved by or own metaphysical jargon at that moment. I asked if such things could be manifested for some reason and this might be a good relatable answer if such thing occured:

We should ban it globally and see how it goes.

I see this topic popping up lately on other discussion sites. Must be something in the air. People are probably more open minded to these ideas of being disconnected from their Higher Self. This reminds me of previous century when we didn't have the modern technology but took it at step further now with modernisation: https://blavatskytheosophy.com/loss-of-the-soul-and-annihilation/

Ok, i always wondered if my caffeine consumption has a harming effect. Probably will try out a month without it to see how I feel. That only after my coffee subscription runs out. Tried it out, it created permenantly some jumping effect in my eye vision since last year. Not touching it again. Yeah, fortunately i used paracetamol for a short time. Probably something to do with the stomach as it also hurts there. I did some deep gut healing a few years ago and probably will do another procedure. My doctor talks about doing an mri test but that will be later if the symptoms will persist. Ok, i will look into Kava and see what I can do. Paracetamol is a short term solution at this moment. Yes, i know that paracetamol use with alcohol is harmful.

Have to say that i have felt exactly the same as you on most points. Enlightment and Awakening would probably help out. Honestly, i do not think it is something with the brain only but with the ego vehicle that's ingrained in your body. As long you got the seeking impulse then everything should be fine. That's the most important thing. Some people are ignoring the seeking impulse by shopping, drinking and fucking around. Then no wonder that some call us soul-dead. I ignored the seeking impulse to much and got my emotional body turned to stone. I felt nothing. I suffered so much that one day i gave up completely and first time disedintified from the mind. That how i found spirituality. I remember sitting on my sofa and reading Eckhart Tolle his books. It connected with me first time with this deep sense of peace. I didn't feel anything besides this peace by being in the present moment. It was like a coping strategy for me. After a few years i finally had the transcendental emotions like peace, joy and happiness. Which i think we're all beyond the animal desires-emotions. Although i still had this anhedonia which i think is when the false self is repressed or dying. After years of healing. I decided to fuck up myself with weed. I got back some emotions buried deep in my freudian uncouscious. That ended up weirdly but that's another story.

Or at least they could change the name from "hide" to "exterminate"

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Well, only two examples comes to mind about the psychological tension in the stomach. I remember Eckhart Tolle Said that when his counsciousness was raised, he would feel the pain-body being triggered specifically in the stomach. Might be a thing to look into. Another is the "We love mass meditation group" wrote that there is some implant/crystal there that hinders kundalini energy to flow from the sex organs and unite with the hearth. Basically a practice would be to write "Sex is love - Sex is not Love" to confuse the psychology and feel into the emotions for 10min daily to dissolve the spot. There are more excercises for this though. Personally, it felt like a ball somewhere in the solar plexus for me. One day i had enough and smashed it open with my focused WILL. It was very emotionally painful for a few months to reintegrate it.

I remember i was watching Jordan Peterson psychology stuff for a year before i found Leos content. I was meditating on a beach in Helsinki and instead of light, i saw this bald head with a black shirt appearing regularly in my third eye vision as if a calling. Afterwards i started watching his videos. It was tough to start to embody the teachings but it was well worth. It helped me balance out from falling to deep into JPs whale belly. And a big thanks for the mods here for their support, ideas and contribution. You all deserve a Rolls-Royce. And also for not kicking me out as i have this intuitive fear that it can happen anytime soon lol

@Seeker531 Is it a real dojo or is it just a place you call "dojo"?

@ilkjnkh It is ok, they are just scam accounts so nothing important as long as we ban them. @Holygrail Say, is that monkey trying to simp the blonde lady in the picture above?

@parks394 Why did not the asian girl picture suit as a profile ? I was thinking that she tried to get a free pass to europe through this forum

Okay, I think i have it already. Is it called Ashwagandha? At this point no, it comes and goes. Sometimes i can do over an hour and sometimes like 3 minutes max. At this point i have not much interest in meditation or spirituality. Just trying to change my medication habits for my pain seems optimal at this point.

@Nahm You are very helpful here on the forum and you probably know that already. @Kalo Yeah, maybr my awareness hasn't reached understanding of God yet. @snowyowl Haha, you should have said that to me a few years ago! Honestly, after a plenty of spiritual experiences i do not see any desire to self actualize or do self-help. These experiences (soul, reincarnation, karma, astral body etc.) don't even matter maybe? How high on the SD should one be to want to know GOD and not care about theses types of experiences? Is this like stage Green spirituality and stage Turquoise spirituality. Fortunately, i am not declining to go self-actualize. As i viewed my experiences through the lens of how to gain money from it. Like fantasizing of becoming a teacher and aquire my survival needs through it. Might be in the red/orange mindset area. Would be nice to view it as it is like a Love-Oneness perspective. Is God a precursor to counsciousness? Then how do we know God?

Technically they are not mine but i have taken care of them so much so they feel like mine. It feels horrible that these innocent animals are going to be killed just so the government could prove their point. What is worst there is nothing I can do. I feel helpless in the wait for their decision and useless that i cannot figure out anything that would change the situation.

Maybe " other ways to deal with pain" would be more suitable title

I agree. I will keep doing the work and just add some basic self-help stuff from now on.

@Leo Gura Gotcha, it seems like my spiritual work is fruitless without having a solid basic-self help foundation. Does anyone know what would be the wisest choice to continue with? Like maybe changing my life a bit, move away where i want to be and starting a new career perhaps? Add some Tony Robbins maybe

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