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I think that consistently practicing what you want to get good at is much more important than being in peak performance during your practice session. It is quite conceivable that you are simply getting tired after doing so much in one day. In my opinion as long as you keep up with your work consistently then you can achieve what you want. If you really want to see your life from a bird's eye view, I would recommend journaling every day and writing down your thoughts about your life. This will give you time to really think through what you are doing and how you are doing it. The other thing you can do is travel (if you can). Getting away from what you are doing for a short time can allow you to see your life from a new perspective and make certain things much more clear to you in regards to how you should live your life.

I think as long as you are honest and the new values you are adopting are your highest values, it is healthy to change them. From what it sounds like to me you may be going from stage green to stage yellow. 6 years is a long time. Generally I find myself to be a completely different person from who I was just 5 years ago. Your values changing is a sign of growth. Also, I don't know why you would have to give up connection and honesty in order to have excellence and mastery. They could go hand in hand.

Can I ask what you need better ideas for? What kind of creative thing are you perusing? Also, I think traveling is a great way to think in new ways. It puts you in a new environment and break you out of recurring thought patterns. It's very psychedelic-like in my experience. Especially traveling to national parks or other places away from society. Make sure to journal a lot whatever you decide to do. Creativity requires both brainstorming/thinking and experience/practice.

I'm an undergrad getting a degree in physics and math. I'm sorry to say that it takes longer that 1 or 2 years to get to a point where you can do physics professionally even if you are some kind of super mega genius. I think that shouldn't stop you though if that's really what you want to do. Learning math and physics is very rewarding in its own right even if you don't get to a point where you have mastered it. I don't know what kind of financial obligations you have, but I would recommend enrolling in a university and participating in a research lab if you want to work in physics. You could probably make some good contributions to science within 7 years. Unless you find some super quick way to make lots of money, the only way you could do philanthropy is to do volunteer work or something of the like. In my personal experience this is much more satisfying than donating money.

How amazing! According to general relativity, time is just another dimension and the curvature of all 4 dimensions (3 spatial and one temporal), gives us the illusion of gravity. It is only our brains that are perceiving it in this flipbook type way. This video about the concept uses literally the exact same analogy you do here:

Mushrooms could help you a lot. They helped me. I would talk to friends, family, therapist, coworkers, anyone you can. Find a way to help others. This is what gives me meaning in my own life.

I made a post on this forum a couple months ago called "I awakened and I don't like it". I say some similar things as you. I felt so crazy. Now though, I think I understand the insights a little better. Just give it time and it will start to feel not insane again.

This is a video that I believe brings up valid issues with Actualized.org: This is my comment under the video: [I'm going to sound like an actualized (get it) internet soy brainwashed wojack by saying this, but Leo has had a big positive influence on my life personally. I'm going to try to justify some of his actions in this comment. First thing I should say is he is entirely unequipped to handle the problem of THREE PEOPLE committing suicide as a direct result of his videos. His whole attitude towards the topic is atrocious, and he absolutely needs to come up with a more effective means of preventing such events in the future, along with protocols to follow if suicide is a possibility for one of his followers. He changes what he says all the time about how life and spirituality works and whatnot but rarely acknowledges such contradictions in his videos. He also blames his followers for not accepting or understanding properly what he his saying which is absolutely the WRONG thing to do. He justifies this attitude by saying he is simply not tolerating people's ignorance but even if he is the all powerful enlightened master of the world, this is still an unwise approach. I also don't like his views on dating and the whole manosphere side of him. This is something that can be done away with I think. That being said, I am here to propose that not only are his teachings correct (when understood properly), they also have a huge potential for positive impact on the world, and already have helped many people. For me personally, it was his videos that got me OUT of the "athiest vs. theist" mentality that Thunderfoot pedals in his videos, which I watched a lot of. He gave me a new perspective on spirituality, religion, and a new way to think about life in general. He also instilled in me a very serious sense of open-mindedness and cognitive discipline (as I would call it). An ability to question beliefs of all kinds to a level that is not normally even thought possible among most people. I have taken a few doses of magic mushrooms at the inspiration of Leo and have had have had huge benefits (I will not go into the specifics). I did outside research on the affects of psychedelics on the human mind, potential negative effects, and was very careful while taking the doses to ensure nothing tragic would happen (which is a very real possibility if the right precautions are not taken, and is something I believe Leo should emphasize more). On the apparent pedophilia justification and mother fixation: Pedophilia is used as an example in his work because it is pretty much the most appalling topic he can think of. He uses this to try to back up the point that morality is human-centric and created by humans, and there is nothing universally objective about it. He does not make his assertion about the made-up nature of morals simply to justify pedophilia. He definitely was very rude and immature to Kevin, and I have no idea how he expects that behavior to convince more people of his own assertions. IDK what the pedophilia symbol thing is about though. I definitely hope he did not do that on purpose. If he is a pedophile that would make me very sad. The mother thing is also him using the topic of mothers to make one of his points. Most people hold their mother very near and dear to them in their hearts. He is encouraging people to question even their most sacred of beliefs in order to stop being attached to the ones the hold that are false and holding them back from further spiritual understanding. As far as the whole enlightenment, "I am god" thing is concerned, I would encourage anyone reading this to not instantly reject such statements merely because they are wacky and outrageous. Take the attitude of "It's probably false, but I'm going to try to at least understand what he is saying". It won't hurt to just consider new ideas, and you can always go back to the sane mainstream once you are done. For those who's lives have been negatively affected by Leo's teachings, I want to say that while they can be positive, he definitely is irresponsible giving such black and white, life altering statements to such a wide audience that could include children and people with mental illness. Especially the topic of psychedelics. That stuff is way more dangerous than he says. He needs to be much more responsible with his platform. He always says to take his teachings with skepticism and not accept them blindly, but he should have realized by now that this is not enough to prevent people ruining their lives using his ideas.] Let me know your guys' thoughts.

This is actually exactly what happened with me.

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My main insight is that I'm actually a normal person, and if someone says I'm weird then that is their own misconception. Another one is that taking a genuine interest in someone else is the surest way to get them to talk to you.

"Life is A Dream" Totally flipped my world upside-down. This video single-handedly began my spiritual journey.

Read "How to Win Friends and Influence People" by Dale Carnegie. Super good advice that I think you will find very useful. Basically what you will read is to take a genuine interest in people. Also some good advice is to find friends to hang out with outside of work (they can be from your work) and hang out with them regularly. Also, eat well, exercise, keep up with your hygiene, get a good haircut, and wear clothes that fit. These things will all make you feel more comfortable in your own skin and confident. I had issues with social awkwardness and the thing that really solved it for me was the things I just told you. The friends were the most important thing for me. They taught me that I'm actually a normal person and I just have to think of myself as a normal person in order to be one.

I am assuming you don't like an office environment because it's creatively restrictive and unproductive. I assume that you are fine sitting in one place for a long time, or staring at a book or a computer screen for a long time, as long as it is an interesting subject. I would suggest becoming an academic because you can often find a way to be fairly independent in your work while still having a fairly financially stable job. That or maybe something like a writer or philosopher, but this isn't really a good source of income most of the time.

Currently a university student studying physics and mathematics. I want to go to grad school and get my Ph.D. but Idk if I will get in to one. Plan B is to become a machine learning engineer by building off of my current programming skills and using online resources to learn. Currently I live off of money from my parents and a couple part-time jobs. I'm pretty happy with my current trajectory. My advice is to follow something that you find interesting and challenging so you can be invested and grow into a better person. You don't have to know what your life purpose is right now, but chances are you know the general direction of where you should go. Follow that direction and more ideas will come later on.

https://www.indeed.com/career-advice/finding-a-job/meaningful-jobs https://www.goodgoodgood.co/articles/meaningful-work From my research it seems like being a surgeon is the most sure-fire way to help a ton of people in a really meaningful way. If you want a job that helps people, make sure you are directly involved in actually impacting their lives. You can't really help people from a distance like some engineers, academics, lawyers, or politicians think they can (not to say that it's impossible to to help people directly with these skills). I'm pretty young and have not started the career I want to yet (I'm still in college), but I have been tutoring for a while and I have found that very rewarding because I get to directly help people with their course work and with succeeding in college. It's happier and has heightened my self-esteem a lot.

You should remember that you can learn programming in like 6 months for 4 hours a day or 1 year for 2 hours a day. That is enough to get an entry level position if you have a good portfolio and/or maybe some coursework in a bootcamp or online course to back it up. You can start learning right now, committing as much time as you can manage. Once you get into the industry, it will be hard because you will no longer be an expert in your field and you will have to take that hit to your ego. It will be well worth it though. Because you are passionate about python but not marketing, you will grow to much greater heights than you have in the past 8 years. Keep in mind that this journey will be good in the beginning, good in the middle, and good in the end because even while you are a beginner, you will be perusing what you love and getting closer to your dreams. While your mind and ego will be in shambles from starting over and becoming a beginner again, your soul will be rejoicing. Here is a bunch of guides on how to become a developer: https://github.com/kamranahmedse/developer-roadmap

As someone currently in university, I say go to university if you can. For some people it is not right for them because they are not academically inclined, or school is not the right environment for them. For those people I would say go to trade school for something or start a business or find another way to make decent money and practice your values. If you are a person who does not value intellectual capability, or college does not seem to have a tangible benefit in the form of a desirable and marketable skill to you, then do not go. I would say college is the right choice for about 50% of people. On the other hand, if you are curious, have ambitions that involve any sort of cognitive skill, or are otherwise smart, then go to college. I hear a lot of people say that if you don't know why you are going to college, then don't go to college. This is not good advice. Some people think you need to have some grand life vision the moment you start your first semester. This is not possible for 99% of people. You go to college to broaden your horizons by giving yourself opportunities to grow and earning credibility. I did not want to go to college at first because I saw that I could learn the skills I wanted to (software development) without going to college. My parents pressured me into going however. Now I am very happy I did so because I have become much more independent and I have discovered a new path that much more closely aligns with my passions (physics). I can honestly not see myself becoming the person I am today without going to college. I have become much more mature and respectable adult, and I honestly do not believe I could have done so at the age I am with out going to university. From what I have read from you, it sounds like college is absolutely the correct choice for you. You are curious, need mental stimulation, and want to follow the path (which academia is a good place for because it's full of contemplators, which is kind of what the path is). It's not a start all over for you. You are not going backwards by going to college, you are going forwards. You don't need to have an after university plan right away, it just needs to be something on your mind while you are in the process. You could work during college too if you need a job. I personally am a math tutor and I love it. Even though It doesn't pay very well, it's very rewarding because I get to help people. You are going to fill your mind up as you put it, develop a sense of identity, independence, and maturity, and be able to achieve things which were impossible before.

This is my personal experience This work is about understanding. Contemplation is really a synonym for meditation; The difference is you ask questions during it. The only way to make sure you keep making progress is to keep asking questions.

Hard to believe there is currently such injustice and suffering in the world. I agree, if there is any reason to work hard and not squander our opportunities, it is to make the world better for others.

One insight I had relating to this is that 1 second of suffering is equivalent to 1000 years of suffering. This is because with each circumstance you are still suffering in the present moment.

Write it all down. If everything makes sense to you right now, that is an illusion. Personally when I get these insights that recontextualize my whole life and make everything clear to me, it turns out that I have not considered the new insight long enough. You just have to write down your thoughts right now in order to make them less abstract and also to record them so you don't forget them. Going into the future you will have to think of specific ways to live your life differently and incorporate this new way of thinking into your old worldview. Becoming confused once again is not the same as falling back asleep. It simply means that you had too much faith in your initial insight and you are now in trough of disillusionment. You will eventually reap the benefits of the insight but it will take time. This image is analogous to how new ideas are adopted in your mind. The Expectation curve is the same and the Adoption curve is analogous to how much mental effort/bandwidth is taken up by adopting the new idea.