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I'm sure you smoked it badly, I assure you that if it had worked you would know. It's not a bit drunk on substance, it's a train that runs you over. the method of vaporizing in the typical glass pipe sucks. I use a 200 ml borosilicate glass flask (resists 500c), covered with a cork and a tube that passes through it to aspirate. I heat the flask with a large torch, little by little for 15 or 20 seconds without actually burning the substance. you know you have burned it if a black stain remains on the glass that is difficult to remove later. As all the flask is hot, the smoke remains inside without condensing, for a long time, more than a minute I would say, so you can leave the torch in a safe place, take it calmly and aspirate. then you leave it in a clay cup so as not to burn anything, and you will see if it works or not. also with this system if you put 15 mg you smoke until the last molecule, with the normal pipe much of it escapes and another part remains unburned

Beautiful and inspired

@Buba i think you should leave all images of yourself. It's not an easy job. I'm sorry for your suffering, I understand that, when I was a teen I had that horribles obsession about my image 24/7, because my father always shows me despite and anger. I thought I was becaming like esquizofrenic. I had to fight very hard to go ahead. It's the only advertising that I can do...figth. but maybe it's not the best for you, idk

@Mirko The problem with being a salon finder is that there is something missing. To give up, it is not enough to think about it, you have to do it. Try, for example, to buy a 4000 s sailboat and with some small practices to cross the Pacific Ocean alone and without communication with the outside. it's just an example, but I think action is important. you really have to risk. the worst that can happen to you is death, and that is already guaranteed

Buddy, it's clear that something inside you is screaming for freedom, and I doubt it has anything to do with sex. I think you must be brave and radical. act, and fight the battles that life has put before you. You seem to have something important: honesty. I hope you have something also important: courage. You have to break your chains and be free .talk now about psychedelics ...who knows, maybe better later. you have a lot of work to do before that I think, a lot of real action. good luck, you have a nice adventure ahead.

What about psichodelics?

Just jump. and you're going to reduce your ego a lot. At the end you are going to do, so soon is better than late

you are like a jellyfish floating in the middle of the ocean. your path is always the right one

For concentrate in my opinion is much better 10ug of lsd. With 0,3 of mushroom you always feel like high. With micro lsd I'm much more focused, bit psicopathic maybe ( micro of mushroom I feel much more emphatic). I'm a go player. With 10 ug lsd I improve more than 1 level. And the effect is much longer than psilocibes

@Jonsey mostly of us have this instinct , and really strong.

@Jonsey yeah, I feel the same, but who knows, may be I'm wrong...or not. So ,if I find a woman, and I feel really deeply that I want to have a son with her, I will do. If it doesn't happen, no sons in my life.

Im a professional marihuana producer and lately I'm thinking that maybe my work is negative, that maybe the world d be better without weed. When I was a teen it opened my mind but later...it was a shit. Now I never use, make my compulsive thinking more compulsive. But I love to do the perfect marihuana

It depends. Oroc did and his life experienced a dramatic change. I think the change is always to better. I experienced a dramatic change. I was materialistic and I had fear to get sick, old, anything...after that I had 90% less fear, and my mind is 80% in the spiritual. I'm not sure if the last effect is good or bad but it is

Maybe you can't relax if you are alone, with anyone taking care of may be you could release easier. I had this fear too. to go more far I smoked a low dose, enough to see fractals and feel the fear of the ego. A while after my ego was like in anestesia so i dare to smoke the bigger dose. Maybe it doesn't work inhalating because it takes more time

I understand very well that of wanting or not waking up. To do so is to completely release the moorings that tie you to the ground, and almost nobody wants that. everyone wants to wake up "a little" while maintaining a certain egoic independence. Perhaps that is why the Indians say it as a requirement to submit your will to a guru, because it is a first step to abandon your will (for me not an option). something very difficult for us western individualists. I see the abyss, the enormousness of jumping into space, but I want to? They tie me some moorings, even seeing clearly that this jump is the only real thing I can do. Maybe any day , etc etc. For now I choose ego I'm afraid

@Jonsey maybe not slaves, but to find a couple of lesbians who needs money to grow up your son...well ,who knows, maybe it's a better deal than a lot of "normal" families. But the question is: why do you need to have a son?

Why does God manifest in the material? Why it evolves deliberately, precisely, like an arrow pointing at a target. is he the only god? are there more universes, more gods, more dimensions? He wants something? or is it simply its nature the creation, the pointing towards something, evolution. for what? Maybe not even God knows it, it just is. What is God looking for? we cannot understand it. or maybe yes...in fact , it seems that humans are here for a reason, an objective, not only be happy and love each other. Not at all

Yes yes and yes. Just recovering of a 5 and I have in my mind your words.

Maharshi, Ramakrishna and a lot of spiritual teachers. Why? Repression maybe?

It seems like a really intense and deep experience. How has it affected your daily routine? any major changes?

Maybe it was an apocalyptic paradise, where death is anywhere and the egos became a foolness. Much more close of the hell is any room in any hospital where and old person is fighting alone against the death. and many of us are going to visit that place in a while, being the main character

Maybe you should first find out where that need to transmit your genes comes from. it is everything except spiritual. Maybe when you are ready, you prefer to adopt a child from another country and help him to be a real and happy person, and not pay two lesbian slaves to breastfeed your son whom you will visit on his birthday to see if his progress is satisfactory. . don't you think?

Shamans, cleaner energy...I was in a shaman led and the only profit I got was histories to laugh with my friends. If I were you I d do with a couple of friends and I'd forget shamans

You have acted quite cowardly but I think you are brave. You started a process that causes fear and doubts to anyone, and you backed off. well, life doesn't end with that. you have the right attitude and you will go all the way. Maybe another 6 g in a while

I would say that it means that you have to use deep understanding, intelligence, to understand the mechanisms of the ego and the deepest reality, and to consciously select the latter. I find it interesting point of view, even having specific moments of consciousness, many times I choose the path of the ego. sex is an important factor there