The0Self

There's no one here who's conscious! And there isn't really even God! Unless you want to call God Heaven. There is Heaven -- it's all there is. But I don't know anything about Heaven. Heaven is just all there is. By the way, I'm not talking to you right now -- there is apparent speaking to and from the void!

Not enlightenment-related at all. Seemingly probabilistically connected, but only at first glance.

I've done it. There is no such thing as a psychedelic drug, silly... See?

It's not a process. It's a flash of death which can't be remembered or forgotten. There isn't anyone anywhere and there never has been. There's just nothing, which is everything.

ALL suffering comes to an end.

Well even here you could say there's apparent awareness, but there's no one anywhere who "has" awareness/consciousness.

I felt the same way. It was like his path led to an understanding of emptiness so complete, it didn't allow for liberation, because the understanding was just too much to allow the unknowing that emptiness points to. Turns out I was wrong about that lol but that's certainly what it seemed like in the apparent process.

Realized I was the devil a while back. There is no devil, because there's no I. There's no good and bad. Only Wholeness; what is and isn't.

Yeah I had psychosis a while back. They were simply appearances. No meaning whatsoever, though at the time they seemed to point to absolute reality. The fact that later it was recognized that it was a delusion seemed to lead to a process of deconstruction that led to complete unknowing. At which point, it was recognized the entire process was a dream. There is no process. Only nothing being everything. No understanding. No purpose. Just wholeness.

Simply try to find what isn't happening by itself. Find what is not simply given to and from the void. Failure is success. What seems to be happening is all that's wanted, but it's not you who wants it -- you can't want it -- you aren't there -- how could you want what's already happening, anyway? There is only pure, authentic innocence.

I largely followed Rob Burbea's path -- it felt like a massive gain, simply beyond belief. But when enlightenment apparently happened, it was the end of need, not the satisfaction of need.

Pretty much. It's only possible to want an idea of enlightenment. Actual enlightenment is absolutely unwantable -- it's this already.

30ug lol that would simply get me high as a kite. Just 110ug made God-realization apparent here a couple times, so just under a third of that would almost certainly be a one way ticket to wacky town lol. There's no real need to do it anymore. This is already everything. It's just BANG! This right here is it lol.

About a week ago it was recognized here that nirvana is actually what you most fear, but what is most longed for, and inescapable.

The Mind Illuminated got me there, for sure. It was just equanimity though, not enlightenment. Self inquiry seemed to get me to enlightenment, but the funny thing is when enlightenment is apparent, it's recognized there is no enlightenment... So nothing brought it about; enlightenment didn't even really happen. The idea that there's something called enlightenment is just a clever way of survival, because no one wants enlightenment -- literally nobody wants it. If you think you want it, you most certainly do not, by definition -- that's now 100% obvious here -- there's no certainty about that but also zero doubt... it's simply the case. You actually already know this.

Pretty sure he indicated he hasn’t had the experience, in several vids.

Absolutely. Not to mention, there’s an open invitation to enlightenment at all times. If this enlightenment is not apparent there, it’s simply because it isn’t what’s wanted — there’s still an apparent need to know things. Enlightenment is the end of knowing what’s happening. You already don’t know what’s happening. So liberation is always already.

Yeah I was merely thinking of the very strongest substance I know ? nvm!

Self Thing Time These 3 lean on each other. Relax the subtle attachment/clinging to one of their realities, and a cessation of all 3 can happen. There are sort of different types of cessation’s. One kind where it’s like you jump forward in time with no space in between, and another where time seems to disappear and “now” swallows up everything including even the present moment, so there’s just everything (not a thing) with no one aware of it. In both cases self, thing, and time, all 3, collapse.

I agree with all of that, except for the first sentence. There is no one here nor anywhere who knows consciousness exists. That would be an illusion. It is obvious here that no-thing is appearing to happen — if you want to call that consciousness, then fine, but still nobody knows that it is.

You can’t know others are conscious, because you can’t know anything, including whether you are conscious, or whether there is a you in the first place. When it’s recognized there’s no you, it is obvious there aren’t others. But no one knows that. It’s very different from solipsism or even idealism. It’s just plain unknowing. In other words, the moment where you get to knowingly say “there is no one” never comes. It just doesn’t... It just becomes obvious that all there is, is unfathomable perfection. ??

There is a subtle flaw in your technique. Do you experience a lack of thought? If so, turn away from that experience, toward the one who assumes it’s experiencing. That’s how you do it. It’s not necessary, but that’s how you do self inquiry. Keep on keepin on until there’s no questioner left to say “what is me?” If you were to notice you’re perfect the way you are, there would cease to be a you who notices it, but there is already only perfection, so whatever happens has nothing to do with you.

Psst... I have reason to believe the single substance that Leo says is so powerful (mentioned in god realization vid) is indeed ibogaine. No idea really though lol. Just popped into my mind given what he’s said etc. Actually probably not. I think that one is a bit dangerous but it’s ultra powerful.

Psilocybin provides a high conscious state with a lot of visuals, vibes, and loops. Never tried aya but dmt is kind of like mushrooms but not really... very powerful immersive hyperspacial visuals and geometry, and clearheaded. 5-MeO is very powerful and clean memory/context/identity-suppression, very often leading to ego-dissolution, which can be terrifying if you’re not ready to go there. LSD for me is a bit like ultra long extended release 5-MeO but far less powerful and with more visuals and vibes, fireworks, and past life experiences type stuff. The highest consciousness state possible for any given human is from any combo of NMDA antagonist dissociative + 5ht2a partial agonist psychedelic. For instance, ketamine + LSD. Perhaps even ibogaine, as it apparently has both of those actions just by itself.