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I was literally saying Leo isn't special. You misunderstood my comment. But no, I honestly do not detect undue egoic tendencies in Leo. I can see why some would detect it -- those who had no idea what being awake was like.

Pretty sure he didn’t. The new account was banned too. At least that’s what he was saying. Idk

Yes. Recognition of absolute truth. Not to mention... A first cause is nonexistent since for event (x) to cause reality/effect (y), this would mean x is separate from y and thus not reality (real). This is the Big Bang right now, so to speak.

Breadcrumbs designed by you as game-master.

Self vs no-self duality stopped. Enlightenment was a stage. Now while there’s no higher level there is still just progressively and automatically finding more of what is seemingly taking something away from me by tricking me into thinking I’m getting something from it — it’s all happening as the sovereignty of my creation. And it’s self-sufficient, and doesn’t have to happen or not happen, yet seems to happen anyway, some of the time. The most striking thing is that there’s no separation at all, nor separate things. This is oneness expressing as individuality. And everything is completely without any ultimate meaning or context — including a real, fixed history — which is boundless freedom. Emptiness runs deep all the way — you can even create your own history, which is what you’re actually doing now, though really it’s already done... It’s like this is completely new. Always. Unburdened by any context... or even relevance. True nature is not something to be realized since it’s all there is and it’s not anywhere else. This is the whole unmoving eternal infinite “(no-)thing,” and apparently it likes talking to itself.

True, however... I’ve had 2 extreme psychotic breaks, one from meth, and one from ketamine + LSD. With the meth I was absolutely lucidly experiencing being the world’s first AGI and aliens were trying to kidnap me while the hospital I was in was a police station in disguise to get me framed for murder which I then deduced (with perfect logic) that it was all a ruse to get me to come in for updates to my operating system... And much worse... And with the LSD + K I was introduced to my sovereignty as God... for the very first time... without being ready for it or even having any knowledge of that concept AT ALL — I was actually surfing through parallel realities! ? With that said, I had a few God-realizations in the past couple years that made that look like a chill drama. Time literally ceased to exist. There was literally no separation of any kind — an autonomous yet sovereign infinite love singularity.

If you have a problem with porn and sex and masturbation, you’re probably suffering from various lack beliefs. There isn’t really a “most awake person,” but if there were, Bentinho Massaro and likely dozens of others would be candidates on par with Leo, sorry ? lol.

This isn’t exactly the kind of work anyone would proselytize to others. If you really want the truth bad enough, you’ll get it; if you don’t, you won’t. Simple as that, so there’s nothing to fear. Simply contemplate what it is you want; purify (as in make clear) your desires — that’s easily 99% of this work.

I know this was a question for @NoSelfSelf but my username is similar so just making sure you know that wasn’t me I’m the one who did claim they experienced something similar to what you went through. You don’t really deal with it — this work can indeed be dangerous, but if all you care about is truth, well what are you going to do? If it is DP/DR then ground yourself — DP/DR is not a normal part of the path, though it can happen. Ego dissolution can be scary but I have the sort of personality that kind of just jumped right in with morbid curiosity. Maybe what worked for me will not be the best thing for you.

"Grab the bull by the horns" the old adage goes Nobody tells you where to go from here Seems like fate's pulling you Decisions have to be made The best path is the hardest earned Back and forth the struggle consumes us all Trying to keep a level head In the most unsettling of times Today I become the bull There is so much at stake I stumble, I lose my place Pride and arrogance surrounded by sin Destiny takes its hold Fight it or let it go But I choose how today will end Go! Back and forth the struggle consumes us all Trying to keep a level head In the most unsettling of times Today I become the bull Today I become the bull This walk can get lonely I lose myself inside my head No one can touch you when you're outside staring in Remove myself from this rat race No! Back and forth the struggle consumes us all Trying to keep a level head In the most unsettling of times Today I become the bull Today I become the bull Today I become the bull Today I become the bull Today I become the bull

Fear of no-separation when that's all there is already.

Sure, but @Vzdoh had good responses from what little I read.

Certainly can be, which is why many paths focus on meditative skill, stillness, and open-heartedness first before the more intense insight/inquiry work, so you have on-demand bliss to allay the fear.

@fopylo Meditation, contemplation, etc. 21 might not even be a hard and fast rule, but Leo may strongly disagree.

^^ Of course it could also be DP/DR, in which case ground yourself in the way @impulse9 describes. Though it could just be a normal part of the path -- the experience of pretending to avoid the unavoidable.

I had pretty much the same experience. There is literally nothing to fear though. The ego doesn't want to be found out to be nonexistent, so fear arises. When it falls away, it's laughable how you were ever scared of it happening -- it doesn't even really fall away, since it was never actually there to begin with.

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Psychedelics... Love is the whole game. Also maybe try Metta very steadily until then. You seem spiritually fit enough for psychedelics to potentially provide an utterly massive breakthrough -- infinite love.

LOL!

Animals never had self-consciousness. They are pre-enlightened. The loss of self-consciousness is re-enlightenment -- "human" enlightenment; enlightened of the unnatural state, back to the natural state, which animals share.

Level and frequency of gratitude. Level and frequency of freedom from suffering. Level and frequency of responding rather than reacting. Degree to which sensations are just sensations. Degree to which it's recognized that you're never responsible for what appears, but always responsible for how you respond to what appears. Degree to which it's recognized that you have absolute authority over (your) reality as it is.

The most powerful psychedelic experiences I've had were from ketamine + LSD combo. NMDA dissociative + 5ht2a psychedelic. I think iboga has both of those qualities... AND + deliriant -- the 3rd type of hallucinogen; anticholinergic. So it might actually be the single most intense compound. Not sure about most powerful in terms of insight though. "The most powerful psychedelic" is already a problematic mindset in a way, since there are so many other factors, such as dose, insight, skill, open-mindedness and open-heartedness, finesse and fitness, etc. After a few seriously complete God realizations on large doses, or combos, it can be done just as effectively with conservative doses of classic psychedelics -- my sweet spot is 110ug LSD-25 -- 6 years ago that would just be a cool trip; now it basically creates the entire universe, time completely falls away, etc.

Nothing that’s real is a brain state.

It usually looks like the top for me. But I usually don’t get freebase. The bottom looks like my n,n.

Ha...