The0Self

The impenetrable illusion covers over the reality that arms moving (seemingly intentionally, moving "your arm") is happening just as automatically (and without purpose, for that matter) as wind blowing through the trees.

Succinctly: The irreversible destruction of the illusory sense of personal doership. Or: The end of the dream of separation and being the seeker. End of "I am <definable or finite thing>." End of the dream that there is something other than wholeness.

It is, but only directly and automatically. Not by reading someone else's pointers, even if they themselves achieved it. Good luck doing so without stupid amounts of meditation -- not that it's impossible. Or really just experimenting with many ways of seeing reality, provided the mind is quite calm -- very steady self inquiry can be quite helpful for this, as can psychedelics. The I that you can't find is identical to the entirety of everything -- there's no separation. Everything is undefinably nothing... Pure love; boundless energy; wholeness; the needless void which is whole and complete. Experimenting with ways of seeing like that can be associated with rather terrifyingly awesome glimpses. So-called infinite self understanding is not going to come without a cost -- the cost is everything you want to control... Yet when the cost is paid, nothing is lost, but from the other (pre-liberation) side of the door, it will look like death.

But they have a lot more to go on assuming you've already talked face to face. Online they only see what you look like and what you say -- what really matters is how you say what you say.

If you're very masculine and dominant or at least very aroused in sex, 5.5 inches will likely seem big to most women. Mine was about the same. A little bigger now (well, much thicker, and maybe 6.1 inches long) from jelqing, which takes some time but actually works. I eventually stopped jelqing and I had totally forgotten that I used to be very self conscious about it. Now if anything it seems to be the perfect size. Apparently the bathmate works even better than jelqing -- basically those who tried bathmate and jelqing found bathmate to work a lot better. Derek from MPMD did a video on it. It actually does work so don't listen to people saying you can't change the size lol. Never tried bathmate myself but jelqing definitely worked for me and all I hear is that the bathmate thing works even better. I could make women squirt over and over without even using my hands, even when well under 6 inches, so I really don't think that's functionally small -- it just looks small relative to pornstars. Just be grateful you don't have a 10 inch, which is probably too big for many women to enjoy. My intuition is that the shape matters, especially a larger head, which jelqing actually grows the most. Being very sexual and masculine, or having a confident mindset, or just being generally good at sex, are each (even one by itself) far more significant factors than having a large dick. Now if you were like <4 inches idk that might be an impediment but even then it's nothing that can't be overcome. Not to mention when penetrating deeply a 5.5 is probably going in almost 7 inches anyway. If I pressed the skin around the penis toward me it was about 7 inches, but just over 6 when just measuring normally from base to tip. Girth is more important so if it's an issue for you, that can be worked on as the girth is the main thing jelqing and bathmate improve. Someone with a 4 inch penis is like a year and a half of daily diligent jelqing away from your size, which I'm pretty sure is exactly the national average in the USA, so cheer up. But yeah, if the size really does bother you, you actually can grow it a significant degree. It's not something like height that you basically just have to accept. I'm surprised more guys with small or average size (who are unhappy with their size) don't know about this.

For me, they got stronger with more awakenings, but after a point when there wasn't much left to find (at least in terms of liberation and the need for answers), they got way, way weaker. Because there was basically nothing left to elicit the "A ha! So that's how it is!"

What exactly did you expect? lol A perfectly logical solution that condenses infinite reality into a nice little package wrapped with a pretty little bow?

I can personally verify that the higher jhanas can blow 5-MeO-DMT out... At least in some sense. YET, if one has the ability to enter jhanas, and they use that skill on 5-MeO-DMT, it's hard to imagine that it wouldn't be more intense in most cases. But the skill required to enter higher jhanas can take a long, LONG time to develop. And it seems not everyone can do it.

Party pooper ? There is only the goal; the sought; wholeness; allness — that which has no other obviously has no escape, and no better.

Enlightenment is searching for enlightenment, just for the hell of it. Nobody is enlightened. Yet, when the self dies, there is only life.

Simplest pointer: imagine the scenario “I forgive you”; “And I forgive you” couplet is as equally valid as anything else for every single possible 2 person duo in every apparent circumstance.

Rock your head from side to side lightly like a sort of hinge. It can start to happen automatically and it becomes obvious that it’s happening without a doer, kind of like auto-breathing — not surprising... What is literally unbelievably surprising, on the other hand, is that even the most complex and most (seemingly) personal actions, functions, and activities are all happening (really only appearing) completely on their own — each always with absolutely nothing separate that’s guiding/controlling it or even aware of it... And seemingly tangential to that... There literally isn’t anything outside of this! ? It’s simply the infinite. It is utterly the great and perfect beyond-understanding. When I say there’s no solidity, it’s right after I’m essentially about to say something else (that for a brief moment illusorily seems to be speakable in some way) and simultaneously unceremoniously it is clear that it simply can’t be said. So it seems there’s just no logic to ultimate reality — and no context. And ultimate reality is all there is, which is relative reality, which doesn’t exist, yet is existence, and not even that. No, this won’t help. No, don’t stop trying. No, don’t keep trying. No, don’t try to listen to any of this. No, not even that. Haven’t logged-in in a while. This is just what wanted to come out apparently. Have a nice day. Not that anyone would get the impression, but just in case: I’m not negating the value of meditation any more than anything else including reading this message.

❤️ Yeah that’s why it’s a pointer though. After liberation, forgiveness in the deep sense of the allaying of personal judgement is seen to be an illusion — it’s as if the delay between an action and its forgiveness collapsed, and upon its collapse, forgiveness in that sense doesn’t make sense anymore because it’s obvious there’s no personal action, and no one, to forgive.

Women’s department store like TJ Max or Ross can work especially if you’re rather attractive, as basically all of even your coworkers for God’s sake will be female. But that’s a rather low paying job and I can’t quite really recommend it.

Or that could be in their situation, of course

Yes. It’s eternally, necessarily just out of reach for whoever tries to grasp it. Perfectly so.

Then you’re blind.

Basically none now because I learn from everyone I know of. But overall I’d say Ramana, Culadasa, Rob Burbea, and Leo. But really just everyone. They almost all blend together. Not just people that are obviously wise either... everyone. And plain spontaneity too, though not a person.

I am apparently very attractive but even so, I never got laid easily until doing quite a bit of meditation and mind transformation away from neurotic and insecure tendencies. Then I could “come out of my shell” (? seriously though) and just be a good guy who isn’t intimidated by anything and can very comfortably “be myself.” But I would say, “game” is damn intuitive. If you still need to get the pickup phase out of your system, I highly recommend it, from experience, but not exactly to the degree I believe many others have — though it’s not what you probably think... Imagine going from having no game to then practically merely sticking your toe in that world, getting what you want surprisingly fast, and then miraculously finding super early-on that it’s already enough... That is what happened to me. But I’m certain that I’m extremely “lucky” in that regard. And there’s still more to learn. But the natural game-skill or at least game-mindset was somehow uncovered from a fair amount of experience working in a women’s department store (it wasn’t strictly a shoe store, Leo ).

And the basis of desire (or love) is... nothing i.e. blindly, itself (love/desire). There is nothing with any basis — the ultimate basis is nothing, so there is no real basis or context. That this was or is created, is one such imaginary context; meaning; limit on the unimaginable boundlessness that is everything and nothing.

God is a knowing / awareness. Awareness is a function. But it’s not a function of something in the sense that it’s done by something. It is literally just what appears, without context, and for no reason — meaning is entirely within the story, which isn’t real. There’s just boundless energy, unconfined by meaning or context or control. The unreal aspect of the appearance is simply experiential duality — me and you are not two; aren’t separate things. Can’t get this wrong, but can’t get this right. In a funny way though, it’s a total story but it’s like there is God in a sense — God (I AM) is doing its very best to avoid recognizing that there is no God. Either through belief, or by actually apparently being God in direct experience or direct intuition, or through any other kind of seeking, for that matter.

PSA: Redistribution is caused by falling blood levels of double-thiol chelators (the kind that work). You have to take ALA every 3 hours or more often, otherwise blood levels will fall between doses. DMSA must be taken every 4 hours or more often (I just took it every 3 hours with the ALA). If that's too inconvenient, you can take DMPS (NOT to be confused with DMSA) every 8 hours, which may sound like an attractive option, but DMPS only chelates lead, not mercury (arguably the most problematic metal)... and DMPS is quite a bit more expensive than DMSA and ALA, if that matters to you. Rounds need to be at the very least 72 hours -- that is the bare minimum. Longer is better, within reason, as it reduces the ratio of: time spent in redistribution or damage-mode (which occurs any time blood levels FALL) / time spent in chelation or healing-mode. There is nothing you can do to avoid the falling blood levels when you stop taking the chelator -- it is inevitable. But you can minimize the number of times this has to happen, by... 1. increasing the length of each round 2. taking doses on time and not missing doses. There is nothing wrong with using ALA-only, but it must be taken every 3 hours. It's just faster with DMSA+ALA, and ALA doesn't chelate lead, only mercury. Redistribution completely negates healing. This is why studies on DMSA with an e8h dosing schedule show no benefit other than less heavy metals in the body. DMSA must be taken every 4 hours or more often, for at least 72 hours straight, for cognitive benefits to be a likely result.

Not quite. For a baby there is only what appears. No knowing; duality; better/worse. Just boundlessness appearing. At about 18 months, duality comes online, and at death or enlightenment, it goes away again. Yeah it's complete free fall. Nothing compares because this could not be better, unlike an experience which could always be better.

I don't use it as a synonym for enlightenment. I use it to refer to the effortless blissful state that results from unifying the mind -- Culadasa uses the term Samatha for this.