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It could just be related to spiritual practice. If it is on one side only, that could be a neurological issue, but if it's just basically like a background sound, that's just how reality actually is. Most people just don't notice it. Ignoring it is probably the best way to deal with it but that's just a guess -- I don't know how it is for you. If it actually feels like a single high pitched tone, that's likely an eardrum perforation but could be neurological. If it sounds like white noise then, while it could be neurological tinnitus, it could just be the sound of silence (the nada sound), which just seems to come with the territory of spiritual practice and psychedelic use, in my experience.

He is. You've inspired me to make a post about him on High Consciousness Resources.

Now that he is deceased, I'm surprised his identity has not yet been revealed.

Cheers

Perhaps keep in mind that all existential questions ultimately aren't real questions, but veiled declarations. For example: Why is there something rather than nothing? The question essentially assumes there is a real difference between something and nothing. "Your experience" is reality as it is, appearing as it isn't. Endlessly pondering these questions is not what actually answers them. Even meditation itself can be mere bliss-consumption and not conducive to answers. Keep staying where the rubber meets the road, once you find that -- perhaps via meditation, then investigation (or noting) meditation, then inquiry into what you know absolutely for sure / how you might actually not know what you thought you knew for sure. Any awakening that happened in the past, and isn't here now, can be said to be incomplete. Let's define "an awakening" just to be sure what we mean here. An awakening = an irreversible shift in perception, on the level of identity (what you take yourself to be). The true nature of your self, and the cosmos, is exactly synonymous.

^^^ Definitely. @iboughtleosbooklist Jim, Tony, Kenneth, Andreas, Ariana, Tim, Richard, etc do in fact transmit nondual realization. However, not only is that not as far as enlightenment goes, but for most seekers, actually hearing the message by just consuming (let’s call a spade a spade) nonduality meetings is like winning the lottery... and even if that happens it is frankly a long, long way from enlightenment. Don’t pretend the ball isn’t in your court. Whatever you think nonduality (and enlightenment) is about, it’s not about that — it is utterly beyond anything conceivable. Probably the most common mis-hearing (understandably) of the nondual message is “there’s nothing to do and nowhere to go” which is simply not true. When nonduality is recognized, identity is over (it has finality to it, unlike basically any other awakenings) — the experiencer apart from reality stops happening. It’s not that choices don’t happen anymore, it’s that there’s no chooser (or material universe) separate from choices. Saying anything about this is still just a story though. But waking up goes so far beyond nonduality, even though nonduality has finality to it. Paradoxically. As soon as you authentically want to wake up... you don’t need to read or watch or listen to anything ever again — you’ll have everything you need right here. Perhaps find a real teacher — one that you resonate with — such as Adyashanti or Angelo Dillulo MD.

Yeah anything above 70-80mg is amazing, but the hole kicks in at a little over 140mg with me, so yeah Lilly's 150mg bottom range makes sense! Perhaps an extremely brief (momentary) k hole peak with a little less (maybe 125mg), but holing for any length of time takes 140-170+ mg, in my experience. As far as extending the peak duration with higher doses... I'll illustrate, with basic pharmacology, the extent to which that is the case: 1. both r and s (and racemic) ketamine are very short acting and rapidly cleared -- 30 minute half life. 2. it has an intranasal tmax (time to peak concentration) of 15 minutes. Therefore, if you took exactly double the amount of ketamine required to very briefly (momentarily) k-hole at the peak (as in took around 125x2=250mg), you would be coming out of the k hole right at 15+30= T+45min. I've gone over 200mg in one dose and the hole still never lasted up to the 60 minute mark post-dose. Used 400mg in a sitting once, purposely avoiding actually falling into the hole or completely losing bodily control, while getting as close as possible -- extremely hard non-holing trip that lasted a few hours. For shits and giggles, if you took quadruple the dose that would theoretically give a momentary k hole peak, 125x4= 500mg (NOBODY EVER TAKE THAT ALL AT ONCE , as if it would even be possible to absorb that much intranasally all at once... and you wouldn't be able to spread it out since you'd be incapacitated), you would be coming out of the k hole right at 15+30+30= 75 minutes. One additional half life (30 minutes) worth of duration per each doubling of the dose. Maybe some got stuck on a dry spot of your nasal lining and absorbed later? Lol that would be unheard of though. Perhaps a significant amount of the drip was absorbed orally -- that may be what happened as it would have a longer duration than IN, and especially long if gastric emptying was slowed due to recent food intake... <-- If you laid down on your back right away, that could have easily happened -- you always want to keep your head leaning slightly forward after IN administration for as long as is safe (before you must lie down lest you risk injury). If there was still complete lack of possession and control over your completely-still-and-incapacitated material body past the 60 minute mark... I would highly doubt whether it was ketamine... But beyond 2 hours of clock-time?....... If the whole dose was insufflated in one go (or at least within ~10 minutes) I would bet it was a longer acting ketamine derivative -- DCK has been really common, especially around half a decade ago. Unless you have some kind of genetic modulation of how you process ketamine, or had taken something that interferes with its clearance. 140+ mg definitely can be quite a harrowing reset. I usually only took around 40-100mg (intranasally). Though I did k hole several times with well over 140mg. Sometimes 400mg in a sitting, but over the course of a few hours, certainly not all at once. 70-100mg is a nice dose for insight, without quite the craziness and potential danger of k holing (140-200+ mg) -- though you still need to lie down... after a significant amount of the stuff absorbs of course (for >2-5 minutes or as long as is safe) while sitting up first with head angled slightly forward or straight (if head is angled back, it drips to your stomach real quick). Before I got into spirituality, the k hole was completely different to how it presents now. It was like an alien astral projection world with divine entities then, but now (as of a year ago) it's completely indescribable -- infinite; timeless.

Repost it (or rewrite it) while taking the feedback into consideration maybe. Sounds like a valuable contribution.

In all seriousness though, for onlookers, I'm fairly certain it would not actually work (though it may potentiate psychedelics once they're already absorbed into the blood via whatever standard effective means). Concurrent oral administration of both the tryptamine and the MAOI is probably necessary (probably even better if the MAOI is consumed ahead of the tryptamine), as I'm fairly certain the MAO enzymes that degrade the DMT actually do so in the stomach... And I don't think it would work if you ate the tobacco either, as the MAO-A/B inhibitors in tobacco are active when smoked but not when used buccally or sublingually -- leads me to think they might not be orally active either. Just use Syrian Rue or something lol. And just as an aside: In general, it's probably best to avoid potentiating psychedelic cacti with MAOI, as they contain significant tyramine -- as do many foods, and especially cheese which which can contain over 2mg tyramine per gram (and has actually been associated with documented fatalities in combination with prescription MAOI's). As little as 6mg tyramine can cause serious hypertension in the presence of MAOI, and some psychedelic cacti can contain up to 1mg/g -- so it would therefore be prudent to at least never consume anywhere near 6g of cacti with MAOI... However, psychedelic cacti contain other tyramines (not tryptamines; cacti are phenethylamine psychedelics) including dimethylTYRamine (not dimethylTRYptamine), which are not included in that "up to 1mg/g" figure... And those additional tyramines might interact with MAOI as well... So I'd just avoid that combo outright

It displaces the essential mineral metal core in key antioxidant enzymes, among other things.

Like anything else, it simply is what everything is. Relatively speaking, the creation and consumption of entertaining content is a distraction from non-being; amusement for and as consciousness; love.

It was quite a profound experience for me as well. Later when I first entered jhana, I immediately recognized: the last time I felt almost precisely this way was on MDMA. So yeah it's definitely achievable without drugs, but drugs are a nice reference point to have -- guess it's not really that useful until you can manifest it yourself and then remember the drug introduced you to it, in a sense.

Interesting! Shorter than that. For intranasal rs-ketamine 150mg: onset in a couple minutes, peak at about T+15min (k-hole begins by this point, sometimes as early as 8-10 minutes, if dose is high enough), comedown begins by about T+45min, with fairly strong after-effects persisting until about T+2hr. By T+60min I'm never ever still k-holed, just tripping very hard. Deschloroketamine on the other hand lasted 2-3 hours with after effects for like another 2-3.

I wouldn't purposely take anything with fluorine atoms, but that's just my holistic intuition. But I have used DCK (deschloroketamine), and it was nowhere near as fruitful, clean, and insightful as ketamine, particularly rs-ketamine. Though there was one research chemical called MXE (methoxetamine) which was apparently the cleanest dissociative ever made, so RC's aren't necessarily worse than regular k.

You don't even really need to k hole for the infinitely expanded state, you just have to get close. Really it will basically be a k hole, just not a catatonic k hole. I actually can't remember the exact doses I took, unfortunately, but I definitely would generally use between 30 and 200mg intranasally in a sitting, not necessarily all at once. I think at 70-100mg (at once, and actually more like 110mg rectal as the bioavailability is backwards with this) it would be teetering on the edge of opening up the timeless infinite, but the definite k hole kicked in after around >140mg intranasal. >200mg for an absolutely catatonic k hole fwiw but that's not needed at all, and I'd never go that high on purpose. By the way... Every time I k holed (or got very close) without the intention to lie down the entire time, I'd somehow end up with a gash in my head. Absolutely lie down.

I laughed out loud when I read that !! Oh man... You'd be very intrigued by the k hole. Or just higher doses. If you've experienced god realization on just LSD (or any psychedelic really), the high dose ketamine infinite state will present much differently to you than it does to those who haven't. For ketamine's infinitely expanded state or "god realization equivalent," you don't even necessarily need k hole (full anesthesia and bodily sensory disconnection), just fairly close to it. It's quite safe in high individual infrequent doses. If you use ~75-150mg once every 2 months I find it hard to see any downsides, but you'll have to do your own research and decide for yourself. I plugged and insufflated a lot of substances, and plugging was better in all applicable compounds... except ketamine. For some reason it works better with me intranasally. Just looked it up and apparently, while the research is all over the place, the trend I've noticed can be summed up as at least this pro-intranasal: "The bioavailability of ketamine administered via an intranasal route has been reported to be between 25–50% (36). A study in healthy volunteers comparing administration methods found intranasal ketamine bioavailability of 45%, higher than sublingual, oral, or rectal administration and found no significant differences in pharmacokinetics between preparations, including injection (37). Additionally, this study found conversion to norketamine was more similar between intranasal and injection than the other administration methods, suggesting that first-pass metabolism is relatively absent with intranasal administration." https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4185009/pdf/nihms582382.pdf Some quick googling often with "ncbi" in the search terms is how I generally determine what a compound's pharmacokinetics are. Some studies put the intranasal bioavailability even higher, but ime, it's not just the bioavailability, so maybe something like that increased norketamine conversion is in play somehow. I have actually IV'd the stuff too and it was indeed the most powerful and quick ROA (50-75mg k-hole I believe), but snorting can get you to the same place just a little slower and with >2x the product -- IN peaks (tmax) in 15 minutes. These days I would never IV anything -- bit crazy back then. Datura apparently uses the same mechanism as DPH, which I have tried at deliriant doses. It was well before I started actually getting somewhere in the exploration of Self and god consciousness, but it's still fresh enough in my memory for me to definitely feel it's not worth the miserable dysphoria that pervaded the entire trip -- The dysphoria was utterly horrendous (though the hallucinations too were dark and sinister yet completely lifelike, they were nowhere near as challenging as the dysphoria)... Actual psychedelics are more enlightening anyway. Psychedelics aren't the only class that can be used for ego death; god consciousness; timeless-infinite. Dissociatives do that too (in their own unique way) if psychedelics also do it for that particular character.

Purposely doing only-concentration meditation can also move things along at an intolerably slow rate, relative to including noting, etc. Investigating what's true, vipassana, noting, etc can move things along very quickly.

Incredibly apt. Same.

Yeah, it does. I would not say it tops it. But dissociative god/unity is definitely quite powerful in its own unique way, and somehow essentially the same ultimately (infinite) but still very different in character from psychedelic god/unity. Basically, ketamine's infinitely expanded state (k hole) is infinitely more powerful than its lower doses, in the exact same way that a psychedelic's infinitely expanded state (God realization / unity) is infinitely more powerful than its lower doses. (Obviously there is no ketamine or psychedelics in those states anyway, but you know what I mean.) I'm curious what you would say about k hole or near k hole, if anything. Make sure you're laying down the entire time if you aim for such -- I would not even sit upright. And I would definitely not take more than 0.5-1.0g within 5 days ever, as I noticed bladder pain only when consuming at well beyond that rate (and boy did it fucking hurt; haven't used it again since). I haven't used as much as ravers/etc or anything. Probably less than 5 grams in my life.

Indescribable. You are omnipotent, but the you that identifies as you is not You. Collapse of finite identity doesn't even necessarily have to be associated with the obviousness of omnipotence, but it certainly can be. In a sense, you could say it's like the entire universe is working through you and your individual agency is completely out of the way. Except 1. there is no universe because the creation/imagination/intelligent-construction of the universe is the only thing the universe is working through you to do, and 2. there is no you separate from the universe. The actual structure of reality is the simplest and most efficient possible, to the point of there being no structure at all. There is no separation between anything; no things at all, except for in the mind, so to speak. Just as Ego is far smarter than you, You are far smarter than you.

I don't think I mentioned that, but yeah something similar almost certainly presented at some point. I probably just ignored it if it wasn't the primary sensation, or if it was the primary sensation and particularly unpleasant, then I just tried to "find" or clearly objectify each sensation that it was comprised of.

I am very much familiar with this. Conscious of how I'm manifesting everything -- including every little detail such as how I'm making it appear that a wall is on the other side of a room rather than everywhere, etc. Sounds ridiculous until it happens. The amount of times you've taken it don't mean anything. I took psychedelics well over a hundred times before age 23, and at age 23 (ish) it all completely changed. First of all if you still have even a modicum of the materialist paradigm running in your mind, these omniscience states will be completely blocked from view. (Absolutely not criticizing, if it seems that way. Just relaying my experience.) Before the inflection point, ketamine (30-150mg intranasal) trip was like an astral projection realm where I've fly around -- stuff like that, quite spectacular. After, it was completely indescribable, but immeasurably more intense. 30mg and god mind would open up, 70mg and it was completely indescribable. It's not as if I, this character, was omniscient -- this character is just something that what I really am (that which can't be identified with since it is absolutely everything and nothing) is imagining. It's not a state that you own. Your finite identity collapses and then it's impossible to be not-omniscient, automatically. And @Leo Gura -- ime, snorting works best for ketamine, even though plugging is better for nearly everything else. I'd say if you try this, you'll see. Or you can just up the dose... doesn't matter, at least rectal is a little quicker. Ketamine somehow seems to have an unusually low rectal bioavailability or something, idk what the deal is with that.

That's how it used to be like for me, give or take. There was an inflection point I hit at age ~23 (I'm 28 now, so ~5 years ago), well before I even tried 5-MeO-DMT. After this inflection point (on LSD), all psychedelics began to have almost the same effect, albeit with slightly differing durations and flavors. It happened on an LSD trip -- it was basically my first "experience" of the infinite or "God-realization" / time completely collapsed and even just before it went completely nondual it was clear that I'm the only thing that exists and the ego-mind was dead and unable to do anything because there was only the infinite, basically. Solipsism / unity consciousness / absolute infinity / unconditional love / etc. Before that point, N,N-DMT trips involved incredibly amazing and wacky experiences such as contact with divine entities and aliens... After that point, all psychedelics, including N,N-DMT, provided no visuals, it was just timeless oneness at high doses, and an incredible boost in consciousness at low doses. 110ug LSD-25 was a virtually guaranteed God-realization / life-exit-and-reenter. Daily life started to feel basically like a trip too -- I immediately recognized this, because the same exact thing had happened earlier when I started Mahasi (really Kenneth Folk) style noting meditation with a strong background in TMI and concentration... before I chickened out for years because I was awakening too fast... <--Hopefully, whoever is on the fence about whether they should try noting, reads that -- It's probably the 3rd most heavy-duty practice there is, placing right after 2. using psychedelics with focused intent for truth and consciousness expansion, and 1. manually peeling back the experiential overlay of learned delusion... But take that with a grain of salt -- the essence of practice can't be condensed into any single technique, much less "the top 3 most effective techniques" i.e. practice is a totally holistic game. Anyway, before that psychedelic inflection point is reached, trips are nothing like they are after. Apparently Leo was already there when he first started using psychedelics, from what I gather, so he doesn't know anything about entity contact, etc. Trips go from "fun and amazing," to "infinite." I later tried 5-MeO-DMT and then used it quite a lot (once used a half gram inside of a week or so) and still to this day feel it's the cleanest psychedelic (that I've used), but all psychedelics feel quite a lot like 5-MeO to me now (haven't tripped in over a year though). But after that inflection point, the character of the ketamine trip would change as well -- approaching k-hole now (though it's been probably a year or so) is very much like god realization on LSD-25 or 5-MeO-DMT (but of course with a very different character), which was not possible until that inflection point, in my case... That's just how it was for me. I've had god mind and absolute omnipotence and omniscience experiences with ketamine after the so called inflection point I talked about above. It definitely can happen. If you have a body it is probably not k hole. But even well below k hole doses, and probably even before the so called inflection point (if it exists for a particular character), it can still provide ego death and solipsism and unity. The describable-ness of trips completely evaporated. I can't describe them. In fact anything you can describe is not absolutely true.

If you can’t get that with 5-MeO-DMT, you probably can’t with ketamine either. If you can though, then you probably will. Ketamine has its own timeless breakthrough ultra-high-consciousness thing too, if you’ve been going to war deep into consciousness work / have insight into suffering, concentration, reality, etc. If someone is just k holing for fun, and the infinity window just hasn’t been opened so to speak, it’s not remotely the same experience as what I’m referring to, which is a total collapse of center, time, and finitude.

Not quite, but it can induce psychedelic-related states, ime.