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That's maybe what they'd say, but I wasn't coming from there. ( In a sense, enlightenment is further than nonduality, because while nonduality reveals there's just energy and no identity (and the seeker was the sought), there's a further deepening that reveals how that energy is still sort of a reflection of what can be revealed when the leftover perceptual filters strip away -- call it whatever; it's the infinite and infinitely efficient, beyond understanding, more logical than logic... And the way I see it, this is what Leo describes as being conscious of how you're imagining the entire reality as God. ) I understand @Consilience and what he said totally resonates. Basically what I meant is, while yes the jhanas and meditation/mindfulness are certainly valuable if not indispensable on the path (I probably was being misleading by not including the fact that it couldn't be any other way), there is an orthogonal or "backwards step" (happened with self inquiry + spiritual autolysis but not until I had done it for quite some time) that I was somehow able to avoid even while exploring jhanas with pretty good technique and even with lots of bliss in every day life. And that backwards step can open up glimpses into what's really going on, which is so intimate that it can be constantly overlooked even in the midst of very advanced practice. Maybe it isn't generally that way for everyone's path -- I can see that. I did not mean for it to come across that those practices were useless -- they were in fact crucial. In the grand scheme, there probably wasn't a single month where I wasn't "further along" by the end of the month relative to the beginning, even though in a sense there was something missing. But at least for me (again my practice could've had a subtle flaw so to speak, and actually, in a sense, in fact it did) it was possible to get really good at concentration and even mindfulness... all the while not taking what I now see to be a key step that I was somehow missing up until the point it began: Directly attending to the thought space (rather than raw sensations, as I had intuitively assumed until then was the right way -- and in a sense it was right for the time) in a discerning way, for the purpose of investigating which (and how) thoughts/fixations pull me back into illusory view, thought, and doership. Yeah, I actually managed to avoid that for quite some time! I would add that, intuitively, I think culprits may have been that I: 1. mainly just focused on jhanas and metta... and 2. didn't consult with a teacher. My practice was sort of well rounded, but in relation to how much metta and concentration practice I did, I was only really dipping my toe in what I now recognize to be at least a few of the prime movers of practice: 1. noting, 2. inquiry, and 3. in a way, "beyond practice," a very strong desire to wake up + the constant intention to break out of filtered reality and applying that passion to investigating the thought space and seeing everything discernible as a thought / thought layer / fixation / filter that creates the sense that I'm here and I'm separate from everything... or in other words clarifying enlightenment: what it actually is; how it truly isn't just another state... There's no it and yet at the same time it's an indescribably total shift in relating to experience. The process of waking up is kind of like this: you're leaving enlightenment, then once totally out, you're instantly back in again, but for real this time... Only now, instead of a separate you looking through the senses, something else is looking... and movement is absolute stillness.

^^ This is exactly where I was for years. One would think getting better at jhanas, and doing not just similar practices but a variety of practices even including some experience going up and down ñanas in noting practice, would necessarily result in at least some degree of progress along the path of awakening. But it apparently turns out it’s not impossible for the two to be more like almost if not exactly, totally parallel... Which is funny because I was aware of the potentiality of that being the case... the entire time ? — turned out to actually be the case, at least for me.

Check Leo's blog. He definitely posted about a university that does this. It's there on his blog. Maybe he can chime in and tell you how far back it was. I think it was around a year ago.

I see.

I actually only ever used a crack/meth pipe when inhaling -- if you have great technique this works just fine. I usually just plugged or snorted psychedelics though. Had the opportunity to get n,n-dmt in liquid vape form, but never got around to using that -- apparently that is the best way though, at least for n,n-dmt.

So for instance, Smokey's Chem Site (is a site that exists) Rare Chems (heard about this as well) I haven't used them but I know people who have. I just use darknet / TOR -- most effective. I'd love to hear darknet world market etc vendor reviews on here, but at the same time I don't think that would be good for this place. Mods, delete this if need be. But this thread was practically begging for someone to start with sourcing talk.

Very nice. Looks quite neat . I would just add: the key is really just turning toward the undeniable... Which can't be spoken, because it's too already the case: too immanent; too real to know.

I know what you mean. The cleaner ones in my experience are 5-MeO-DMT and LSD-25 (better than other analogues of LSD). 5-MeO-MALT seems to be similar, though I personally have never used it.

Perhaps. It is definitely the case though that people on SSRI's get less out of MDMA -- witnessed this first hand. But LSD might be different -- I've tripped with several people who were on SSRI's, and they at least definitely seemed to get effects.

Doesn't mix with SSRI's. Do some research and find reports of people who were able to take psychedelics after being on SSRI's -- see how long they took a break before dosing the tab. To my knowledge, the trip is a lot less powerful if one has been on SSRI's, because their serotonin pathways are less sensitive; dependent on exogenous ligands to stimulate the serotonin system effectively.

Basically no chance of getting caught if you're smart. Just put it in a book. Probably just place it in the book without foil, to be safe.

Just turn toward the undeniable truth. If the undeniable truth isn't clear, some things can get you there: inquiry, surrender, looking at beliefs -- again and again, very carefully.

Maybe trusted members could just pm one another, as has almost certainly been the case already.

Of note: The most compassionate and heart-centered beings tend not to talk about compassion.

I'd just be honest with him about what he does that turns you on. And show it when you are turned on, and especially show it more when you're extremely turned on. And yeah, follow his lead, if that feels right. Another thing I remember really appreciating was when a woman would tell me later, after sex, "You see how much you ['turn me on' / 'make me want you' etc] when you [do x thing]?" / "See how soaked I get when you do that?" She wouldn't even have to tell me what it was, I'd already know because I could tell when she was particularly turned on (among other things, and this may be TMI, but sometimes when a woman is suddenly intoxicated with a surge of sexual energy, she produces lubrication so forcefully that I can easily feel the surge with her), but it was definitely appreciated when a woman would say this to me anyway.

In my experience the best way to get anything is TOR/onion/darknet (World Market; in the past, Alphabay and Silk Road). But there are some standard URL sites that sell legal RC's and I'm pretty sure it's perfectly legal to discuss them. I've had conversations with head shop workers about current sites like that, and know a couple off the top of my head that are reputed to work, but I'd like to see if others have successfully used them.

@Preety_India Not sure how a woman should go about this, but if I wanted to spice things up, ime something that opens this up is a general attitude wherein phrases such as "that's a Good girl" (not good Girl, but Good girl, fwiw ) basically happen organically in sexual foreplay. Interesting how that dynamic is somehow baked into human psychology, but nonetheless it's straight fire!

Of course. Curious, what made you think otherwise? Liberation is not conceptual at all. If you're awake, then if Buddha himself (or whomever) told you you're not awake it just wouldn't even register because you simply are awake and the only one that you absolutely know is awake is you -- it's so absolutely obvious beyond doubt, that there's no need (or way) to defend it.

Definitely can be true. It greatly depends on the intensity of one's desire to wake up though -- If it's the #1 most important thing, then self inquiry can work even without super-high consciousness; advanced insights; deep meditative concentration skill. But you don't even have to call it self inquiry, that's just one way the path can manifest. It's a non-technique, as there's no goal to concoct experiences -- simply the intention to wake up to the true nature of everything by turning towards what can't be thought or described. There's a lot of ways it can go but they might get glimpses of no-separate-self and increasingly turn toward that -- the main conflict at that point will be the two opposing pressures of 1. fear of no-separate-self and 2. desire to wake up from untruth. The inquiry can be done at any time. It can be useful to regard it as a pointer rather than a technique. Enlightenment is right where you left it, which is exactly the last place you'd look. The intimacy of the appearance makes it incredibly engrossing and possible to get identified with a particular part of it, namely your body / materiality. But there's no evidence for a doer / individual existence / boundaries, it's merely claimed/assumed, so you just look for that one (which is doing something i.e. being aware) constantly, and strip away perceptual layers of thought / duality / other / knowing (same with Jed's "spiritual autolysis").

It goes for all routes of administration. Take the drops for the full length of time that it says.

Someone's been reading Ray Peat. I find his stuff to be pretty insightful but I would just use his work as a guide rather than the actual whole truth. Very impressed with most of what he says but sometimes he seems to make gaffes -- can't think of too many examples right now since it's been a while since reading him, but I know he thinks LSD is anti-serotonergic, which seems to be exactly backwards, but I'll give him the benefit of the doubt on that since it is a partial agonist.

If you do take them, make sure you take the full course. Essentially, halfway through a course is when all the weak bugs have been killed, so the strong ones are the only one's left to adapt and multiply -- at this point it's most crucial to continue the antibiotic, otherwise you're basically giving the bugs a breeding and training ground to potentially become more virulent.

Too much of anything can do that. I wouldn't say there's such a thing as too much happiness, but too much exhilaration, joy, and pleasure is sort of possible -- if it occurs it's generally very short-lived though. In fact, the transition from second to third jhana has the taste of the pleasure and exhilaration being so intense that it's uncomfortable, and so the exhilaration disappears and the pleasure sort of remains in a far less overpowering and more sublime form.

Nice. I've noticed water, protein, and exercise seem to thin out the fluid buildup in the middle/inner ear -- probably helps to fight any infection present too; less viscosity, so the macrophages and whatnot can travel and do their job quicker. Sauna may help too, but I'd stay hydrated.

I honestly can’t seem to answer that, even though I had extremely loving parents. My engineer dad used to draw me a diagram of whatever contraption that I was interested in when I was around 2-4 years old. Boat motors, etc. Explaining the stuff to me in detail just to the degree he thought and observed that I understood (I’ve been told things that lead to to believe my parents and their friends thought I was an exceptionally gifted child). Tons of other things but interestingly that actually sticks out the most. But it’s more the context this took place in. Just a air of something like non-resistance + open-mindedness.