The0Self

It's not meditation per se that pushes you along from a manic state to a more even state, or a depressed state to a more elevated state, etc. It's mindfulness. Consider objectifying your current mental state and various sensations and feeling tones happening in the moment, with relaxed diligent disinterest... like you're viewing the mind of another. Perhaps view these sensations through one of these lenses: the sensations are... momentary, inconstant, undeniably visceral (unsatisfactory), spontaneous, uncontrollable, or empty of their essence as being knowable. Anything you can see is not you. You are untouchable.

Yes zero? Yes two?

@BipolarGrowth Perhaps try checking in on your mental state frequently until it's a habit. Look for things to be grateful for. If there isn't anything, perhaps complement yourself on your ability no notice that, and on your remembering to do it -- thank yourself for being kind, as you're doing this in order to be happier, more loving, etc, which will help yourself and others. Even when you're very happy, there will still often be alternating mental states like sadness, uncertainty, hope, anger, calm, etc -- this is mindfulness.

Fearless humility. Relax, and let it take you wherever it will. Surrender either happens or it doesn't. If it gets too real, lean into it with benevolent energy and an open heart -- experience is empty of being the way it appears. Ego death is not scary when it does occur, but the preceding steps can be. Fear is empty as well. In my experience 110ug is the sweet spot.

Event 1 / glimpse / awakening: Emptiness is seen to be all there is, subject and object are the same emptiness, and the apparent subject stops being assumed to exist. When it's recognized there is only emptiness, there's nothing to put down because there's nobody holding anything. This can appear to be caused. Event 2 / liberation: Emptiness is seen by no one to be so empty that it's empty even of itself, emptiness, and is thus full. That fullness, or unconditional love, is all there is, and at this point it's over for the individual because it's seen that it was never there; there was only ever fullness. This is utterly uncaused.

The perceiver isn't deceived. The perceiver is deception.

Let me disarm you I'm not trying to own you I just want to know what it feels like To have your body so close Let me absolve you Of the past that controls you I just want to know what you look like Without a weight on your soul I know somewhere we could get away If you want to find another place, like Disappear and never leave a trace I'll take you anywhere you want So let me disarm you There's an army I'm finding around your heart Let me disarm you 'Cause baby I just want to love who you really are Who you really are So let me disarm you So let me disarm you Spoken in silence Plays in like sirens I can bring you out of the darkness Into the fiery light I know somewhere we could get away If you want to find another place, like Disappear and never leave a trace I'll take you anywhere you want So let me disarm you There's an army I'm finding around your heart Let me disarm you 'Cause baby I just want to love who you really are Who you really are Something's wrong, but I don't know what Wondering how, with all the things I've got Life is good, but the pain don't stop 'Cause I'm holding on, so I give it up Cheer up, cheer up (cheer up), put a smile on your face Wake up, wake up (wake up), take me out of this place Rise up, rise up (rise up), we are the human race Cheer up, cheer up (cheer up), put a smile on your face "So if you really go the whole way and see how you feel at the prospect of vanishing forever." "Have all your efforts, and all your achievements, and all your attainments turning into dust and nothingness." "What is the feeling? What happens to you?" "It's a curious thing, that in the worlds poetry, this is a very common theme." "The earthly hope men set their hearts upon turns ashes - or it prospers, and anon, like snow upon the desert's dusty face lighting a little hour or two - is gone (is gone...)." Something's wrong, but I don't know what Wondering how, with all the things I've got Life is good, but the pain don't stop 'Cause I'm holding on, so I give it up Something's wrong (something's wrong), but I don't know what Wondering how (wondering how), with all the things I've got Life is good (life is good), but the pain don't stop 'Cause I'm holding on (holding on), so I give it up "So in this way, by seeing that nothingness is the fundamental reality, and you see it's your reality, then how can anything contaminate you (contaminate you...)?" "All the idea of you're being scared and put out and worried and so on, is just nothing, it's a dream (it's a dream)." "Because you're really nothing. (Because you're really nothing.) So cheer up! (So cheer up!)" Cheer up, cheer up (cheer up), put a smile on your face Wake up, wake up (wake up), take me out of this place Rise up, rise up (rise up), we are the human race Cheer up, cheer up (cheer up), put a smile on your face "All the sun and the stars and the mountains, and rivers, and the good men and bad men, and the animals, and the insects; the whole bit." "All are contained in void." "So out of this void comes everything and you are it." "What else could you be? (What else could you be?)" "But if somebody is going to argue that the basic reality is nothingness, where does all this come from? (Where does all this come from?)" "Obviously from nothingness, hehe (hehe)."

This. The apparent dualistic existence is a layered integrated whole with unlimited synchronicities to be noticed. This is a skill that can be developed with gratitude, focused intent, and mindfulness.

You could say that's already happening, you're just identified as someone who isn't doing that. Appreciating / having gratitude for deja vu, synchronicities, and little miracles and patterns is a gateway to higher consciousness.

It's not possible for someone to imagine what it's like to not be there, as they already aren't there, so it's just seemingly missed/looked-over. Everything simply appears, but the subject doesn't even appear, it is only assumed/misunderstood to be there -- in which case the appearance seems both exclusively real (rather than simply: what is / empty / not as it appears / unfathomable / neither real nor unreal) and actually happening, because it's happening to me. The subject is absent from the appearance. There's no underlying ultimate substance to anything and everything is only "is," which isn't, as "is" is not a thing.

Also realize, the I thought is constantly out of reach. Anything that can be recognized as the I thought is not the I thought. The I thought is the assumed-but-nonexistent subject or knower in dualistic perception — it’s constantly out of reach, because any apparent reaching only occurs to the I; it never actually reaches it. So if you feel you caught it, look at what you think you’ve caught, realize it occurs to the I, and refocus on the I. This can be rather distressing since the I can’t actually be focused on, but you work to do so anyway. This refocusing may take place every couple seconds, or even more rapidly, and if it isn’t happening that rapidly, consider: what exactly are you focusing on in the gaps between? It certainly isn’t the I thought, since the I thought cannot be focused on, you are it, in a sense. Questions define limitation/separation. The work to be done in inquiry involves no answers, only questions and their dissolution, unknowing any apparent answers.

What you want is anything that provides positive feedback loops. I.e. something that causes itself to be more effective by doing it. E.g. stillness produces joy and happiness, which make stillness more tolerable and more likely to take place, which causes more happiness and joy -> ... Consistent focused intent to do any of the following in a manner that builds on itself: Pattern recognition Self love Self compliments Gratitude (look for things to be grateful for -> see things to be grateful for -> feel better -> act better -> give love -> receive love -> even more reason to be grateful -> snowballing contentment and active participation in fulfillment -> ...) Thought replacement / metta

Childlike wonder; deja vu; significance; profundity; gratitude. Really it’s just a heightened state of consciousness. Your current state-level of consciousness is very highly correlated with how much gratitude your mood is pervaded by, and thinking something along the lines of “holy shit I’m alive,” or what you described, definitely qualifies as a manifestation of gratitude. Gratitude is also quite related to having a lower threshold for seeing miracles, and even synchronicities... and just plain recognizing more patterns with mindfulness.

Yeah it is the same space because there is no such thing as "not same." Your mind could essentially be an infinitesimally small neuron-like component of some unspeakably intelligent being who itself is still infinitely less intelligent than what you really are.

This is God. This is that. You are me. Reality happens in, and is dependent on, apparent duality. But there is no reality apart from God, and there is no duality, only love without opposite.

Finding the perceiver is always out of reach, because whatever occurs in experience, including an apparent finding, without exception, occurs to the I — so it can’t be found because it can’t be lost. You can do it all day — looking for the one who seems to perceive. If you get stuck, notice that getting stuck occurs to you, refocus on that you, which can’t be found. Just realize, the question itself (Who am I? or whatever) defines your limitation as a separate individual — you don’t know who you are, or you think you know something you don’t know. It will never be answered because it can’t be answered because there is no questioner.

Awakening and grief can go hand in hand. There is a tendency for awakening to produce more gratitude, but also more sadness.

@nitramadas Same.

We're all just long lost friends.

What a fuckin wild ride this life shit is huh?

@nitramadas

So beautiful

from a fellow who’s accomplished quite a bit in meditation/siddhis/etc. Unity consciousness, jhanas, etc. This may sound callous, but unless you are currently very callous, it’s of no concern, it’s a blessing. If Trump does win, imagine yourself as a conservative or at least a new atheist or even a fucking high school or college kid. Anyone who can gleefully laugh at the demise of the progressives and liberals. Get into character, try it on for size, and go crazy. It’ll feel wrong, like laughing at plane crashes, unless you surrender the ego. Oh yeah... it’s sacrilege, it’s unorthodox, it’s heresy. And it can work. Apparently coming into contact with lower consciousness when you’re at higher consciousness can lessen your resistance to lower consciousness, causing lower consciousness to fade from reality even further. Just a suggestion. No point in actually doing it.

@QandC Nothing special about it necessarily. Just indescribable. It's what's already happening.

@QandC That was a huge foot-in-the-door realization for me. No-distance hints at an incredible house of cards that can collapse at any moment