The0Self

I feel like I should be an authority on this topic. I have narcolepsy. Words cannot describe the terror I've experienced from sleep paralysis nightly from age 19 until age 24 or so. Every single night. There's literally no way you can understand... But I just don't know what to say. I didn't really work through it, it just happened. After quite a few awakenings, the negatives stopped happening. So I'm of absolutely no help. I went through hell, and eventually, it just stopped happening. If I could give any advice, it's this: absolutely everything is a blessing. No exceptions, whatsoever.

I would also like to see what people have to contribute on this topic. In my opinion though, sadness is not a huge shadow side aspect. Sadness is beautiful. Anxiety, and also manipulation, seems to me to be a stronger focus area for this work. Just my opinion, held very lightly.

Depersonalization is generally not one of the steps to enlightenment. Depersonalization (often concurrent with derealization) is a very unpleasant and scary disorder in which the sufferer is made aware of the aspect of experience that the mind almost-primarily functions as the concealer of. It's impossible to describe, but it can probably most closely be described as the centerless-ness of personal experience. In depersonalization, a person is aware of voidness; in enlightenment, there is only void.

Honestly I think Jim Newman already had all of that but at this point even if he didn't, there's no one left to do it. Kind of reminds me of Jed McKenna. Sometimes depression can be so intense that it turns into depersonalization, and sometimes depersonalization can be so intense that it turns into enlightenment.

I'm fairly certain that Neo-Advaita is a construct found more in some "teachers." Teachers like Mooji, Papaji (perhaps), Ramana Maharshi (though he was a bit more than just a teacher), Rupert Spira, maybe Paul Hedderman, maybe Adyashanti and Eckhart Tolle, and perhaps Gary Weber, etc. Most of them are "advocates." Advocates of self inquiry, to be specific. Jim Newman is almost certainly in an entirely different category -- a category that, to me, seems to be comprised of characters like Richard Sylvester, Andreas Muller, Tony Parsons, and maybe even U.G. Krishnamurti... and perhaps Jed McKenna. A category completely beyond "saintliness." None of them are teachers, and if some of them somehow are, it's completely "under the table," as it were (though in many cases they just simply aren't "teachers" in any capacity whatsoever). In a way, they're talking about ultimate liberation, which is probably what Nisargadatta was talking about, it's just that Nisargadatta also was an advocate for self inquiry, so idk if he fits in here. Hell, I'd consider myself in this category, if it weren't for the fact that I myself occasionally advocate self inquiry, but only when questions or misunderstandings about it arise, since I've performed it to its apparent conclusion.

Nice! A pretty awesome plateau-busting meditation pointer is "meditate poorly."

Here's how it's done: Who is experiencing what is happening? I am. That's a thought. Who is the subject aware of that thought? Feel into it. Constantly refocus again and again on the one who seems to be experiencing. It's always there, but forever beyond your reach, since you are it. This is an intense activity that takes quite a bit of practice and diligence. Continuously catch the I, realize it's not the I because you just experienced it and so it's not the I -- "what you can see, that you cannot be" -- and refocus over and over again, ignoring every experience because experience is not what you're looking for. You're looking for what's beyond experience. Eventually what may happen, is a particularly transcendent state that many have called The Witness; Witnessing; the spacious mind; The Vastness of Awareness. It's like experience flips inside out and you're looking in at experience, rather than out, and there's a seeming barrier between you and experience and you feel untouchable and god-like -- completely and blissfully absorbed in pure I-AM-ness. DO NOT STOP HERE. Keep going further. Treat that experience as any other -- not what you're looking for. What happens beyond this is beyond description. First, mountains are mountains. Next, mountains aren't mountains. And then, mountains are mountains again.

The ego is importance itself. The ego-construct is simultaneously the formed past, and the forming future. It isn't really there. It's what provides context for the empty NOW so that what's happening can appear to matter to an individual.

Many often go through a transcendent phase before they reach the imminent. Every honest teaching can be roughly summed up as: “there just simply aren’t any limits whatsoever.” This is everything and nothing. And no it can’t be understood. It’s just absolutely tragic. It can be understood in a way that matters, but ultimately, it can’t be.

Good call. Happy travels!

I really have no clue.

^^ Yeah. It's tough in the USA. At least at one point in the past, 1P-LSD was a viable option but it's quite like LSD-25 so not all that versatile -- long duration; massive tolerance; etc. DPT I think may be technically, conditionally legal as well, but if you order on the clearnet it's insanely expensive, from what I remember. Do some research.

Facts. I was informed it would be a 4 hour trip. False. It is definitely quite a bit longer than 4 hours. I would say it still lasts about 10 hours but with almost all the intensity concentrated in the first 5 hours. To OP... You need to dissolve it in warm water (in some kind of spoon/etc) for some time, and then plug it though. Don't just stick the tab up there. I've had several correspondences with people irl and online asking how it worked for me and not for them (including on this forum) -- they had stuck the tab up there with no water. Plugging is best for most psychedelics but I honestly feel like the oral bioavailability of LSD is at least on par with plugging -- note: this is unusual.

Potentially more powerful than 5-MeO-DMT? Could be anything. My guess would be ketamine, salvia, ibogaine, or datura. Perhaps peyote/mescaline. Or some dissociative/psychedelic combo. Datura probably should not be used under any circumstances, in my humble opinion. It’s extremely unpleasant, and dangerous.

@Bulgarianspirit I used to have some wicked HPPD and the only thing that helped was pregnenolone 100mg (Life Extension brand). It actually worked so well it was like cotton balls were taken out of my ears. And the visual snow completely went away. And the effects lasted for almost 3 days.

The belief that distance doesn’t exist is untrue. The belief that distance exists is also untrue. Distance is just what it is — an empty perception that can be rendered meaningless once the apparent context for it is absent. Where exactly is the visual field? It’s exactly where it is. Where is that? Exactly where it is. The whole thing. So where is distance? You can’t find it. It appears to be where it is, but is it actually there? You don’t know.

200mg dissolved in tea chilled me out way too much even with the caffeine. I think it’s quite anti-serotonergic, so SSRI’s could have easily blocked its effects.

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No idea if it’s permanent, it’s not really a state though. There’s just what seems to be happening. I can get into some pretty awesome states if I choose to but I usually don’t these days. I did the other day though — inclined my mind to have an experience of nothingness, for instance, via the 7th jhana. Many different kinds. Started meditating 20 minutes at a time, then did The Mind Illuminated, then some of Kenneth Folk’s teachings, then read Rob Burbea’s Seeing That Frees (probably my favorite). I’m not enlightened. It’s all just experiences. There was an apparent collapse of the individual but I can’t say anything I did caused it to happen, and I can’t even tell you when it happened. Oh yeah and I forgot to mention self inquiry. That probably provoked the most change.

Probably just bad mushrooms, though it could be a medication you're taking. Seroquel, SSRIs, and quite a few others can pretty much stop trips from happening.

Yes. Contemplation, meditation, seeking, suffering, psychedelics, etc.

Not an object that is perceived subjectively, which is the only object worth talking about. There's nothing objective. Not to mention all there is is consciousness (or whatever you want to call it; it certainly isn't an object by any means though).

Hmm. I don't know. What arises dependent upon conditions does not actually arise though. They only appear to. But those quoted phrases don't mean anything to me. An object needs consciousness. Consciousness needs an object. They have no independent existence. Everything is leaning on a vacuum of nothing.

Sure, you could say perception is all there is, but the perceiver is merely implied. The perceived is perception. No perceiver required.

All I know is bitcoin is likely here to stay. There will probably be blockchain apps that completely replace Uber and Lyft.