The0Self

@Eren Eeager Wait, I think you may have misunderstood me. Connor was NOT banned. Iameternallife was banned.

The screen is only discernible by the pictures (all experience) on it. The screen is just an analogy; there’s no screen separate from the pictures on it. With that said, there’s an experience that you’re looking through your eyes, right? That there’s a subject? That’s an experience — a picture on the screen. Everything discernible is the self-luminous hologram/screen.

@levani What does this me feel like, and how is it separate from the screen? If whatever has any feeling at all, must be part of the screen, how is the me that feels like something not part of the screen? And if the me doesn’t feel like anything, well there you go...

Yeah he seemed a bit grandiose.

There aren’t 2 things happening. Only one thing happening. Not one in relation to another though, so not even really one.

This is the end, and also the beginning.

No one has infinite intelligence. Whatever intelligence someone has is limited, by necessity. If x has y, then neither x nor y are everything, and infinite anything (intelligence included) is nothing short of everything.

Lol did iameternallife get banned?

That’s “why“ ‘I‘ can’t die. If you know you’re dead, you’re not dead. If you don’t know you’re dead, you’re not dead.

@Cosmin_Visan It’s just the way it is. It can’t be proven logically, only directly experienced, but for me it has been undeniable for some time that there is infinite intelligence. There is intelligence, and there is no ultimate outer-bound on reality — outside your imagination, of course.

There’s only awareness, but there is no awareness. It’s always now, but it’s never now.

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Grandiose narcissism is a trait-construct that involves the inability to hear criticism and a commitment only to oneself. It is associated with Narcissistic Personality Disorder when expressed at a pathological level — one of the most dangerous personality disorders. Vulnerable narcissism is a trait-construct that involves the over-reaction to criticism and is usually a defense mechanism to protect low self esteem. It is associated with Borderline Personality Disorder when expressed at a pathological level.

More like similar to the 3rd jhana. A very shallow facsimile of it, anyway.

Yeah, seems mine went from INTP to INFP. But P and J are basically exactly even scores for me, so I guess it's more like INTx -> INFx. Of course, it's just a story.

Spirituality is knee-deep in experiences. Some of these experiences are had on drugs. I can neither recommend nor denounce them.

You can do this with eyes open. Use little effort. 1. Notice there is only hearing, seeing, feeling, hedonic tone, mental state/mood, and thought. 2. Imagine you're standing on top of a planet in space -- realize there's nothing to do here because that's already exactly what's happening. You know how there are many ships (tankers/carriers, etc) floating out in the ocean -- thousands, probably? Well, it's pretty much a statistical certainty that at any given time, many will be sounding/blasting their horn, and certainly at least one will be (essentially always). 3. Right now, listen-for and tune-into the horn sound on the farthest (from you) ship on the planet that is currently blasting its horn. Right now. Continue listening for that horn. Whatever you hear, or experience, you know can't be the actual horn sound (it's on the other side of the world... you can't hear it), which is great, because the utter simplicity of continuing to just listen for that horn sound will not result in much questioning like "am I doing it right?" If questions arise, allow them to remain unanswered. 4. By turning towards that which cannot be experienced, the mind becomes infinitely receptive. Allow this to have whatever effect it has. When doing this, notice mental states and how they change. 5. Notice Awareness.

Optional additional step: 6. Cultivate the energy body: Feel the entire body as one unit, however it seems to manifest. If seated, it may manifest as a radiant "egg," etc, or one of infinite other possibilities. Notice that it's empty, uniform energy. With the momentum built up from step 4, continue noticing mind-states/moods, but now, feel into the anxiety (or anger; suffering; seeking; aversion; craving) aspect of every state. So you're observing 1. the empty energy body, and 2. mind states -- begin connecting the two. Observe how the two are correlated. Try to find a mind state -- it cannot be found outside of simply being a pattern of energy, in the energy body. Feel how the anxiety of any state is merely a disruption of the uniform energy body. Feel that unpleasant disruption of energy, no matter how subtle, and rest your attention on it. 7. Ground emotional charges: Resolve any state that arises, into the continuously changing disruption in the energy body. No matter how positive or negative the state, continue grounding it as energy disruption in the body. Allow questions to be unanswered and disappear.

Very true indeed. Observing what, how, and why phenomena appear, change, and vanish is mindful investigation. With a lot of patient, diligent practice, some amazing stuff can happen -- insight can be had, and it's far less fleeting than a psychedelic ego-dissolution experience.

@kag101 Yes, I stopped it by myself. I was going to taper, but ended up going cold turkey just to get it over with. I also did it to be as substance-free as possible to really see how far I could go with meditation. Kind of an OCD reaction, but anyway... A few days after my last dose, I started to feel pretty strange and experienced head-zaps almost constantly for about a month. Apparently the head zaps are the worst symptom for some people but honestly, I thought they felt kind of nice -- though they did get pretty annoying at times. For the first 2 weeks my emotional regulation was way off -- if I thought something was funny and started laughing, I'd sometimes find myself unable to stop, even when it was not socially acceptable or personally convenient to continue laughing.

@BipolarGrowth There is nothing other than unconditional love. Love is beyond virtue -- it's everything. Awakening doesn't always reveal this. It's uncaused.

Ever since I was 14 I had an affinity for painkillers. Just loved the feeling too much. My birth parents were addicts; maybe taking Vicodin that one time when I was 14 activated something genetic in me? Idk. I was definitely suffering though, just not in a way I'd call depressed (I've never been suicidal). In a way, it really wasn't even that horrible -- heroin's effects, while they last, pretty much eclipse any guilt/self-hatred. Getting off it was horrendously painful but I became far more conscious as a result.

@BipolarGrowth Separation is Reality. Reality is purely mind-made. Mind is empty. Truth is beyond Reality/separation.

Might I suggest 1. laying off the psychedelics, 2. pounding the psychedelics hard, 3. laying off concentration meditation, 4. Noting, 5. some other option. Literally doesn’t matter. Whatever seems to happen is what seems to happen. Sounds cool though. Would certainly love to hear more about it.

i.e. the one thing that doesn’t change, doesn’t acknowledge the existence of a separate being, and of which nothing can be said. So... is it really there? It might be there, but what’s very obvious is that no one knows that.