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@Igor82 I don't think science has discovered the nature of music. To my knowledge, it is still a mystery and music theory only provides a template. I have a video suggestion: "What is the nature of music?". @Igor82 said, "fuse epistemology, psychology, and art..." Ayn Rand attempted this in her "Romantic Manifesto".

Beeyootiful... It gave me chills multiple times throughout the listening. Google the Interstellar cover. I believe it's by Hanz Zimmer also.

@Meta-Man Yes, there is an increasing difficulty for me relating with the average girl, and I'm only "awake" now, far from enlightened. I think I just need to integrate into what for me is an entirely new paradigm.

This thread has inspired me to do a no-fap for the first time. 90 days starts... now.

@Annoynymous Constant chaos, never ending racial conflict, polarized politics, vulgar culture.

@Annoynymous The UN tries to get Japan to settle non-Asians and they pretty much refuse. China opening its borders either. These homogenous countries look at what's going on in the US and they want none of it.

So, Soft White Underbelly is a seminar in Stage Red behaviors.

No. I'm not interested right now in the enmeshments sexual relations bring, that's the point here. Many milfs and women in general exist in my reality. All I have to do is go out. Milfs give the most aggressive eye contact in the hopes I'll open them. The younger women are more demure.

I just wish the national obsession with race would dissolve. It's so tiresome. So very tiresome, and it's only getting worse. I mean, imagine a world where Rachel Maddow and her antipode, Sean Hannity, were obsolete.

Rosemary oil supposedly helps and also off label use of Propecia has been shown to block DHT so that you can keep what you have, but you'd need to talk to a doctor.

To my knowledge, Soy is estrogenic, so I avoid it. Other than than everything looks good to me except the junk food and a lack of high quality protein.

To put on muscle, the average person has to eat, at minimum, 1 to ~1.3 grams of protein per pound of body weight a day, but ultimately you have to find what works for you. I'm 6'0" 185lbs lean muscle. I workout/exercise fasted 4-5 time a week, and consume food in an 8-9 hour window. I don't drink calories, eat mostly good carbs and animal proteins and drink many cartons of egg whites throughout the week (taste like chicken) , and keep my sugar intake extremely low. This lifestyle works for my body, and I'm built like a Demigod. When I tell gym bros I workout fasted some flip out and don't believe me because HoW cOulD aNYOne FAsT aND hAvE a MuSculaR pHYZeEqUe!!!!!!1111 lol Gotta find your own Truth, man.

Why not logarithmically?

Indeed.

I've been using Youtube Premium for two years (used to be called Youtube Red), and I highly recommend it as well. No ads, and they give you a free music app (Youtube Music) to listen to all the music you want, with the ability to create playlists, switch between video & audio versions on the fly, download music for off-line use, etc. I couldn't imagine doing Youtube with ads again. What a nightmare.

@Demeter Thank you. No, I haven't heard of them. I will sample these playlists, though sober!

Please leave recommendations. I listen to classical music when I draw or paint as I find it soothing and ennobling.

@Raze Trump is just weak.

What we're witnessing is 4th generation warfare where the primary objective is to gain the moral high ground. The portland "protesters", "rioters", whatever you want to call them, are observably failing.

Revolution brings the possibility of real social change, it doesn't enforce a corporate imposed status quo. How bizarre this whole situation is.

These aren't revolutionaries. The revolution will be... sponsored by Apple? Mcdonalds? The NFL? This is laughable.

I'm not sure if what I've experienced for the last ~32 hours is ego backlash, but it certainly hasn't been pleasant. A cascade of neurotic thought patterns, inner critical voices, and internal conflicts was triggered yesterday at work, by a subtle confrontation with a manger looking for a means to control me. He's discovered he can't do it directly through intimidation, e.g., "Don't tell ME you're not going to this or that" (I've only told him "no" for requests outside my job description), so he's resorted to the effort by different means via essentially cutting me off from an incentive structure employees have access to. He made it extremely difficult for me to "max" this incentive out, as I have been doing. In any event, my mind has been raging with thoughts, feelings, and emotions of violence (not that I'd act on them), even though I understand intellectually yesterday's event has no meaning or significance. I don't even plan to stay at this job. The previous morning I had a wonderful meditative experience, where, for the first time in meditation, I experienced extreme spiritual comfortableness, peacefulness, and lovingness. It was amazing. Also, in the last few weeks I've read Shunaymurti's book and "Transcending The Levels of Consciousness", both of which I can only describe as profound, especially the latter. Why have I experienced this sudden regression in my cognition? Is this the ego saying, 'Not without a fight you sonovabitch!"? Mon Dieu. Guys, I can't stress the intensity of this negativity enough. It's been really bad, but to be clear, not debilitating (I called out of work today, but I had an excellent workout and I've been able to read, eat, et cetera). I want to understand what's going on spiritually and psychologically. If anyone can use this limited information and provide insights I'd be greatly appreciative.

Guys, Thank you. Your responses really helped take the charge out of this negativity. It's nice to get different perspectives that remove me from my own experience, especially since I have no one IRL yet to talk to about these types of things.

@commie Excellent reframe. Thank you.

Yes. Phone addiction is essentially a bad trip.