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We used to say at church: Come as you are but no need to stay that way.

Part of maturity is just getting older. You don't need people as much; you are more independent. Problem is if you stayed somewhere long term you let people get reliant on you. This was your mistake. When older and maturer, you don't make the same mistake. You keep them at arm's length. You are not trying to impress people anymore. You are beyond that. Just my two cents.

Am I lazy or am I efficient? Or am I just not keeping up with my peers? Why am I worried? Who am I living for? What's my purpose? Wait let me ask AI.

Environment is huge and it's not just place but people. When you are settled, everyone wants a piece of you. In which case, time to up sticks. Next time don't let people and places get their hooks in you. This is maturity.

First I accept that I am insane and that's the reality of being here. That said there are two things to do. Live normally as far as the insane deem normal. Get out of here alive. Both are full time occupations. One body the other mind. As for body then, just enjoy like all other normies, have fun, laugh and joke and smile. Do the funnest thing available. What body does has no bearing on the mind function. What exactly is the mind function? Forgive the following trio as each arises: ‘I will be the doer,’ ‘I am the doer,’ and ‘I was the doer,’ and in so doing use no moment to construct a separate self.

Factor in down time each calendar month. Time where you do anything you feel like. Like for me I meditate 25 days a month and 5 days are anything goes. I usually put all my cheat days at the end of the month so I can have a good break.

Corruption doesn't exist in the third world. It's a first world label. In the third world, if you want something done, you don't get in line; you bring a brown envelope with the requisite banknotes. Brown envelopes grease the palms of the one's pulling the strings. Money talks, poverty walks. Even if you did something wrong, don't worry because everything can be settled amicably. Just bring a briefcase this time; an envelope won't suffice. Pay the fine, avoid the time. Corruption is a first world luxury. We can sit in universities and work out such codes of conduct. Your corruption is my industriousness. I take necessary short cuts for the good of my fellow citizens. Else nothing ever gets done. I am a admired citizen and I sleep well at night.

I have one Problem. From that there arises unending problems. Problems are my agenda - the things I need to accomplish before I am happy. Notice that nobody is happy. Even 95yo Warren Buffet is busy scheming to eke out a few more billions before he rides off into the sunset. He solved millions of problems but not the one Problem. Worse still he isn't aware he has a Problem and so he spins his wheels until death does its part. Problem is one's BIAS = belief in a self

Identity for most is who do I want people to think I am. As opposed to who am I am really. Thus I will behave to get people to affirm my identity. Most think if others affirm my identity maybe I am really that after all. So I better not change my behavior. True identity of course is awareness, within which no separate doer will be found. Awareness appears as moment-to-moment experience, arising without any reason that can be grasped by a mind.

What is fully and completely understood, leaves no trace as memory. ~ JK https://kfoundation.org/krishnamurti-what-is-memory-from-the-first-and-last-freedom/

Sleep lets the inside take over. To restore and heal. Waking life exacts a toll on the body. The inside can get to work and fix it during sleep.

Religious fanatics don't care about nuclear strikes. They are glory and martyrdom. They will endure any cost. It's a different rulebook to the one the west subscribes to. The regime is riding a wave of popularity and patriotism which will shore them up for years to come. All countries unite in wartime.

The meaning of life is to stop misidentifying as body. Death will oblige and do that. Do it now. Death, where is your sting? - as the bible says. Body keeps doing its silly thing. End the interference of trying to be good and trying to make life good. Body isn't one's reason for living.

Everyone thinks if I look harder my life will change.

That too. Your wit was lost in translation and led to mud-slinging. In any case, he explains better and with more sensitivity than most natives.