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I learned a specific spirituality. As a bonus I understand epistemology. I think it's best. Then it's not so abstract. It makes sense of what you are learning. For example I learned there is relative epistemology and absolute epistemology. Relative is understanding the world and absolute is understanding God. In the relative world, to give is to lose. In God's realm, to give is to receive.

No chair, no you. Perception of chair arises. There is only ever perception, sensation, emotion, thought. No separation, no controller.

Be you to full is the true beau ti ful

Yes. I am not doing something. Doing appears and I slap an I-label on it. Spirituality is undoing this. Similarly you are not doing something. There is just undivided flow without centers.

How could simple pay the bills?

Survival is prioritizing me over you. I kill you first when needs must. Corruption is prioritizing me over truth, Sure I know truth and all that yadda yadda yadda. Forget that for now, man. This one here's gonna be top dog. Survival is original sin - another word for ignorance. Corruption the second sin. I know truth. I choose otherwise.

Hang in there my brother. I read most of everything you posted and you are a blessing and breath of fresh air on here. Don't do anything silly to yourself. The world is f'ed-up everywhere but world is just a means to learn lessons. It has no importance in itself. You have found the teachings of truth so don't squander that opportunity. I feel horrified about what your country is suffering. Israel and the US are piling up so much bad karma and the piper always gets paid in time. Future isn't bright on this small planet. In any case, we can still fulfil our function and achieve our purpose.

1. accept 2. recognise 3. realize, that I am not here. A body will continue as a wind-up toy on a pre-set course until it ends in the ground. Like Nisagadatta said, I am but I am not that. Spirituality is to realize before said body enters the ground.

We used to say at church: Come as you are but no need to stay that way.

Part of maturity is just getting older. You don't need people as much; you are more independent. Problem is if you stayed somewhere long term you let people get reliant on you. This was your mistake. When older and maturer, you don't make the same mistake. You keep them at arm's length. You are not trying to impress people anymore. You are beyond that. Just my two cents.

Am I lazy or am I efficient? Or am I just not keeping up with my peers? Why am I worried? Who am I living for? What's my purpose? Wait let me ask AI.

Environment is huge and it's not just place but people. When you are settled, everyone wants a piece of you. In which case, time to up sticks. Next time don't let people and places get their hooks in you. This is maturity.

First I accept that I am insane and that's the reality of being here. That said there are two things to do. Live normally as far as the insane deem normal. Get out of here alive. Both are full time occupations. One body the other mind. As for body then, just enjoy like all other normies, have fun, laugh and joke and smile. Do the funnest thing available. What body does has no bearing on the mind function. What exactly is the mind function? Forgive the following trio as each arises: ‘I will be the doer,’ ‘I am the doer,’ and ‘I was the doer,’ and in so doing use no moment to construct a separate self.

Factor in down time each calendar month. Time where you do anything you feel like. Like for me I meditate 25 days a month and 5 days are anything goes. I usually put all my cheat days at the end of the month so I can have a good break.

Corruption doesn't exist in the third world. It's a first world label. In the third world, if you want something done, you don't get in line; you bring a brown envelope with the requisite banknotes. Brown envelopes grease the palms of the one's pulling the strings. Money talks, poverty walks. Even if you did something wrong, don't worry because everything can be settled amicably. Just bring a briefcase this time; an envelope won't suffice. Pay the fine, avoid the time. Corruption is a first world luxury. We can sit in universities and work out such codes of conduct. Your corruption is my industriousness. I take necessary short cuts for the good of my fellow citizens. Else nothing ever gets done. I am a admired citizen and I sleep well at night.