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Yes this is good. The original post makes it seem you became spiritual on a whim, for no reason. You did it to escape pain. You found the solution.

You ended up in a good place yes. But you gave yourself wounds and trauma by mistreating yourself and sacrificing the joys of life. If these are not resolved, the good place will turn into the hellish place. Pain is not the way to go in my opinion.

I will call this, the path of self-induced slavery. And you know the problem with slavery? Someone some day will be made to pay the price for your pain. You raped yourself into awakening. You will reap what you rape.

Yes. I mean force for force's sake. Force when directed is determination.

Force is always wrong. Better is to find out the benefits. Find something or someone you can trust. Force could wake you up. But you'll be a fighter not a lover. The path is gentle, unexacting, caring; what you are doing is the opposite. You can have the gold medal in the spiritual Olympics. That's not why one meditates.

Yes Thailand is becoming really nit-picky over who is allowed to enter. The entry process is discretionary and arbitrary - the luck of the draw. Cambodia is the opposite. Visas are issued like confetti.

Yes there is ill-will and resentment between the two but daily life I hear isn't affected by it.

Would be sweet my friend as I am leaping into the unknown. Are you still there? I got a few nice pointers here: https://www.reddit.com/r/cambodia/comments/1umh41f/i_will_relocate_this_month_from_london_to_phnom/

For those of us who know not truth, right?

To seek another's destruction is to bring about my own. I am doing everything to myself in this life. Any ill will lingering in me is the only cancer I need healing of. The tricky part is, that seeking another's advancement and progress is also destructive to oneself and needs to be let go. Any time I compare I am self-harming and need to find healing. Of course on the level of form, get out of dodge in the face of any ne'er-do-well. I and you are not called to suffer unnecessarily. Just know that that person is perfect and doing their absolute best the only way they see fit. But also I need to make sure to recall every waking moment that which is the truth: Nothing real can ever be threatened. Nothing real can ever be enhanced. Only in this way do I bring about peace, openness and receptivity to the absolute.

Yes! known as Land of Wonder - for any other wonderseekers out there

God makes sure here is pretty shit. Mixed in with some pretty good. God does this so you won't settle here. Your job is to get out of here alive. But take your time. Enjoy the pretty good. Here is finitely fine. Home is infinitely good. After you go home, you will chill then set up another million incarnations to play with. And so it goes.

Thank you WonderSeeker. I was torn between Thailand and Cambodia. Had offers in both. Cambodia just about edged it. Better pay and contract and visa so much easier. I feel it's more an unknown quantity than Thailand. I like adventure and challenge. Much more amenable to expats than Thailand which has dropped its rose-colored spectacles about all things foreign. Cost of living cheaper and better quality housing available in PP.

Have downsized a life of stuff to basically one bag and just making final preparations. Wish me luck!

Keep up the stellar work brother! Nice description of meditation by the way - it helped me a lot and I shared with friends.