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for me its who gets me the inner circle who get my inner sanctum, the holy of holies, the raw brutal unvarnished me it necessitates radical vulnerability i give all to those i have absolute trust in those who are able to get it those who will provide the mirror i need why? if you get it, you understanding, does facilitate the greater deepening honesty is what begets the deepening of truth most of course never get me no matter what honesty is reserved for the rare few

the whole internet needs a filter that adds the words FOR ME to every sentence every uttered on planet earth truth, thought, life, love ... is subjective for me at my level of consciousness all else is a puerile attempt to impose ideology on unsuspecting masses memo to god

time is the belief that things change of course a person seems to be born and seems to die so let's define that spectacle as 3 score and ten years and then presto we have created time

i bless you and love you too with your relentless uncompromising hard earned quest for truth ... you resonate with me more and more as time goes on and for me that means i am awakening ... thanks for being part of this place and sharing your treasures with me

some insights i stumbled upon this week desire, attachment, addiction = love to have. have to have, sure to have ... respectively desire is fine and natural and fun; desire everything, whatever comes enjoy to the hilt, just don't pray it stays attachment is i can't live without this, you have thereby expanded your identity and consequently your suffering addiction is this is an unstoppable behaviour and therefore my defining priority ... my life is fulfilling my addiction ... this is wholly who i am

thought is ego bossing me, word is me bossing ego thought is energy coming at me to entrench my wellbeing my satisfaction my survival word is me reprograming thought to enhance my thriving and my arriving thought is division, word is multiplication thought despises, word empathises thought is worthless, word is priceless thought keeps me asleep, words wake me up so writing anywhere can be useful

have to love a bit of brevity around here hah ... want to express my thanks all your epic sharing even though it gives my brain a major melt-down, will read until it sinks in ... i bless you ?

stage 4 i is zero, stage 5 infinity is i

i trained myself to integrate morning meditation so i no longer think about it, this is my third year of meditating i get up in a daze, do a little yoga, then plop down on the mat i do nothing and i have no idea about meditation, lately i have been counting breaths, 600 breaths=2.5hours flex muscles then 400breaths=1.5hours every day is completely different in what happens, most days feel shit some days feel cool, but i don't care it is not something to mull over i am reading pointing out the great way that @Water by the River mentioned, nearly finished and hardly understand a thing but i will read again i am not attached to meditation, if from tomorrow i never meditate again that's fine or if i take couple months off cool too meditation hasn't changed my life at all except i know my true nature and try to be that conduit of the absolute as best it allows

real is changeless

solipsism is i am the only person who has god in me and therefore i will be of optimal selfishness so i can live out my desires and dreams truth is all have god in them and therefore if they awaken to this, they will be of optimal selflessness and be completely indifferent to whether they live or die this very day, since they have done what they came to do namely awaken

let me tackle everything is imaginary the duality is imaginary, real look at a tree, is it real or imaginary imaginary why? it comes and goes, it is just like mist ... the fact it sticks around a while does not change its vaporous non-real nature the world and every-thing is imaginary so what? the real you can do nothing about, the imaginary you can kill mind ordinarily cannot see real it sees what is needed to survive, in fact it overlays an appearance on the real substance most of us are utterly blind this is why meditation is good you can kill the arising and passing and see the real

have to be ruthless about friends, selecting them and whether to keep them friendship is based on reciprocity and like-mindedness: - they have to give the same measure you give and you contact them in equal measure to them contacting you - they have to be similar in interests background and development, in order words easy to be around if they don't meet your requirements cut them 2-3 is the optimal number and ideally your friends are friends of each other

to survive is to madly feather your flimsy nest in the dream while to arrive is do what you came here for, see the dreamer as a mere view-point from where said dream emanates surrounded by transient fluff including a body mind which seemingly houses said view-point upon arrival, survival is de-emphasised in favor of enjoyment and sharing and love life is no more dog eating dog and now more god meeting god

attachment is a want becoming a need i got to have this else life is not worth living how to stop want becoming need? for example to meditate every day means attachment learn to go for periods of time without benefit from everything, attach to nothing

to suffer means to not permit suffering is refusing to let existence be the way it wants to be there are no negatives in existence, negatives are how minds label stuff everything in existence is good and besides it is silly for you or anyone to try to thwart existence's wishes even more so when you realize that you are existence on the other hand let others be, they are enjoying life according to their level of consciousness

prayer is self talk that motivates oneself to wake up namely getting serious

sure practice love but don't go round raping the unconsenting with your amazing enlightenment let anyone who is seeking come unto you the 99% want just to be left tf alone and haven't interest in your spirtitual diarrhea

have to contemplate what is lying it is maintaining two versions of reality, the real me and the manicured me we all do this, we wear sweats when no-one is looking, we put on our glad rags to go on a date lying is saying i deny you access to the real me and i shall keep you in this realm until i say otherwise or until you wise up we all do this but most will lie they do so as they don't know what lying means i mean who in their life has worn their sweats and not showered before a first date ... rhetorical question so now you understand this, learn to use lying judiciously, you have one shot in this god given bod final point, never admit that you are liar some truths are too painful for even the most self aware

this alone counts heed not outcomes play with passion win and lose don't give fucks keep on playing sweating stretching sparring give your totality then head home fall into bed tomorrow same again

what you described isn't dishonest, they are doing their best to their level of consciousness and you are getting triggered

epic stuff, thank you dear heavyweight gladiators ?

you see an object, can you see that you see it? that is what awareness does it sees the person seeing stay like that, it's your true nature to work on this is called mindfulness

would thoroughly recommend going the therapy route, alternatively reddit has many BDSM subreddits if you wish to see what others are up to: https://www.reddit.com/r/BDSMcommunity/

you like who you are like if they are mapping out and walking a similar path to you then that is going to resonate and so hang on to these folks, they are precious and god given beacons of light others are fine to listen to for sharing and socializing, no big deal, we're comprise a community of like minded seekers