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always have a year's supply of anything i need, it's not hoarding it's husbanding to husband /ˈhʌzb(ə)nd/ verb gerund or present participle: husbanding use (resources) economically. "she husbanded their financial resources through difficult times"

i think it's unbearably hard being a young woman in this age always being under the glare of society's microscope more so than ever in history this naturally engenders self doubt insecurity unworthiness boiling envy and deep angst moreover this is ill addressed and is considered something to just accept and get on with it and to that i don't really have a good answer to in any case i can feel your pain judy and tell you flat out that you are a beautiful amazing sensitive thoughtful super smart woman and ask that you hang in there during the trough you are going through knowing that the lows are cyclical and much better wonderful sunny times are coming towards you hope you know that i see you and understand you and appreciate who you are just like you are

generally women don't date younger unless you're perfect every year younger the more perfection required so if she seems older i will say lets save the age discussion til we've hung out a while

the you of which you speak is the one that comes here and proclaims one's extraordinary realization if that's awakening i have a bridge going cheap if anyone is interested

i always encourage whoever i'm with to leave if they feel their freedom and expression and growth is curtailed by staying with me only stay if this is the best dynamic you could ever experience, moreover i will call it quits too if you are uncomfortable with my wishes and desires

for me love is giving permission backing and encouragement for a person be their most expanded self there is no losing in loving

there are two types of cheap, low income and low savings so context is needed ... the first he has no choice but to treat you thus the second he is prioritizing for the future second thing about judgement is all judgement is relative to who i am, if x is cheap then y is careless so this all says as much about you as him

a teacher meets you where you're at or doesn't ... seeing them from afar may or may not work in deciding but their presence will a teacher is good for one season and then will become a regular pilgrim like anyone else so beware of becoming too enamoured with someone

let alone god, even a guy like jesus was beyond any suffering ... he incurred the worst savagery to demonstrate it's nothing and teach it can be likewise whatever a person believes they undergo and thereby teach

it hasn't been a magic bullet but i would still recommend giving it a try .... it has an active reddit sub and here is a good free course www.trecourse.com

it's a danger yes, you now have the power to mess with people and put them under your spell you know what they don't and you can lure them into your den it means however you have not gone far enough to see that you and i and our interests are the same i must take pain not to destabilize you and i must let you exercise your autonomy and sovereignty my highest awakening is that i came here to lead you to heaven but that takes place wholly in my mind, has no words involved and you may be clueless what is going on lower awakenings claim i must lead and you must follow

indeed but i would like the tldr version please

for me acim hitting the spot

the old me used to feel deeply saddened sullen sorrowful shattered ... seeing your shit life before my eyes not no more though, now i do something about it i forgive me for placing you in my path and giving you that shit life so i can heal all my bits i forgive you for making your life shit to this day at every turn not taking care of business i forgive me for thinking your life shit, i did this to help heal my judgmentalism, i have never walked in your shoes i forgive you for proclaiming your life shit, you acted the victim so you stayed the victim i forgive me for contributing to your shit life by being a non loving channel, bringing you grief and strife, please do forgive me i forgive you for all the squabbles all the cross words all the rifts we endured, it was your fault too and brought you to your current shit life i forgive me every time i didn't and don't see you as the divine incarnated, you are the one and i am the shit one for not wordlessly telling you this i forgive you for not beholding your majesty and living the most fantastic life every lived, it's okay i forgive you and i love you and we'll do better

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the miracle is a heart keeps beating three billion times without stopping per lifetime the fear is the next heartbeat will not and i am still digging around in the mud instead of being done tick-tock tick-tock tick-tock

understanding becomes an obsessive fascination with endless tchotchkes, trinkets, titillation it keeps you drugged problem though is, anything is possible here literally you make this dream yourself however you want to get over it whenever you are ready most will prefer to stick around since being god here with all said toys is nice

everything is a distraction by ego for ego with ego to keep ego entranced embroiled embittered ... so that it fights kicks screams foul and keeps on keeping on with it and keeps on adding fuel to it and never sees through it it's a trick a trap a trifle nothing more i matter damnit, i mind damnit

bisensual is my term of choice, am happy going deep emotionally with whoever and validate support empathise ... with their desires no matter the genitalia, i don't do the deed with such mutuals however as that is reserved for those designated goddess

sure friends with benefits is fine, there are rules to it, both know where they stand, the levels of effort commitment and love if there or not that is involved casual sex is i fuck you and we now go our own way i am advising you to give her the decency to let her know where she stands on day 1 rather than fixating on your nut needs

yet means effort means commitment means relationship means a shot at love sure the casual sex is good for me every time, she is the one who suffers when treated like a toy

women need love for sex to work, men need sex for love to work this is not all of course but you need to understand their agenda when looking for a partner no matter your gender the difference between sex and love is rules, former has none latter has some men don't need rules plus also anyone is okay for sex, yes is the default, no is special circumstances this is not all of course since men and women have more overlap than difference in this day and age

science says train (namely read and look), spirituality says trust (namely test and see)