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@TheSomeBody Simple, if you ever bypass your body's urges and defenses mechanisms and actually do this for long enough, you will die, or end up with serious physical harm. Your body is physical and therefore it follows physical laws, every cell needs energy in the form of ATP (calories), you need proteins to regenerate and build, and you need all the array of micro nutrients and vitamins to keep a healthy chemical baseline, the body is a very fragile and complex system. I once did a 5 day fast, I only consumed minimum amounts of water with salts involved to keep electrolytes functioning, I followed a very precise regimen and I still ended up with a tooth just cracking due to what I think was calcium deficiency. I wanted to go on for 7 days and I did it for both spiritual and physical reasons, I wasn't energy depleted at all by end of day 5 but that tooth incident was my cue to integrate foods back. Anyone who's selling you the idea that you can go cold turkey with no food or water for extended amounts of time is straight up lying to you, you can just clean up your diet and control what and when you eat and still get all the benefits you're looking for, I would't even advice most people attempting long fasts for more than 3 times a year because most people don't have the baseline to sustain it. If you are serious about this try validating it for yourself, I challenge you to do a one week or 10 days fast and see for yourself, maybe I'm just a naysayer and I don't know what I'm talking about

@jimwell Please do, I would love to know your opinion on this stuff

Where do I even start with this ? To me this line of inquiry encompasses the most important questions in life, yet it feels to me that nobody cares about this, or rather nobody cares to address these things consciously, but I'm still willing to give this a chance, maybe I'll find somebody here who can present insight into these matters. This is gonna be a long post, so please be patient with me. First of all, I have always felt that everything in life stems from God, no amount of ego effort can will anything into life (whether it's an experience, an outcome... anything). Everything is a miracle, everything is grace, every door is opened by forces that are and will forever be beyond the ego's grasp, yet all of us pretend that it's an ego game, and we go on giving props and "rewards" based on that when it's not, I can summarize this point by saying that's everything is karma but I won't pretend that I know what that means. I'm starting up with this point because I KNOW that there has always been some sort of glass ceiling I can't seem to breakthrough from that pertains to this, I'll try to explain; all my life I have been "denied things" or "denied myself things" because of a set of beliefs that I have inherited from my situation (family, culture, society, systemic issues, generational curses...) I know the amounts and types of efforts I have done in this lifetime, most than anyone I personally know across almost all dimensions (this may sound delusional by I don't care...) yet, it feels to me that everyone is ahead of me when it comes to almost everything, and this gets to me, A LOT. I missed on most opportunities to have a "normal" upbringing, by that I mean that I missed on a lot of experimentation, play, emotional connection with other people... and that made me follow a path of truth from very early on, I felt like I had no choice when it comes to this, had I gone the more classical path of developing my ego before I go balls to the wall with spirituality (knowing the place I started from) it would've taken me decades to reach a stable enough of a point and burn enough karma and I recognized from the get go that it was just gonna end up making me miserable and full of regret, and that was not gonna capitalize my strengths, so I just bet everything on god... many years later I feel like I have been betrayed, or rather that I have betrayed myself from the get go (if that makes any sense) because I put myself on a life path that was WAY too heart breaking, TOO MUCH heartbreaking to even begin to describe, I still hold tremendous amounts of regret, apathy, resentment.. (you name it) towards me, towards everything and everyone and towards reality, I feel like I have missed on everything, I know now in retrospect that God granted me the kind of grace I needed but I was too wounded to take it (I'm not gonna go into details when it comes to that... I'll just leave it at that) Now my situation doesn't make any sense anymore, I feel like I don't understand anything anymore, and I don't even think that understanding to the degree I'm looking for can ever be obtained, everything feels circular, outdated and the people who teach (anything) all seem to only emphasizes on generalities or big picture understanding, and everyone is missing the REAL insights... My second point is that reality is ultimately a mirror, more than that, it is a meta-mirror, it mirrors one's deepest self concept in it's entirety (Intent, beliefs, habits, identity, systems...) this is the first degree of mirroring, the second degree is regarding the dimensions one places himself in, someone operating from a 6D or 7D can have a say in the rules of the game he plays contrary to someone operating form 3D or 4D... Now, I know all these things on a deep level, yet I seem to have blockages on such a fundamental level that have to do with self love (which I can't seem to solve... and please don't bring psychology into this... shit goes way deeper than that), and those said blockages make me have a crooked/broken self-concept, so even if I put in all the work, I feel like I can't "ask" for the outcomes in a way that is fair, basically I never felt like I'm playing a fair game. The next point has to do with asking for god to open doors for me, I feel like almost everyone else has more opportunities than I do, regarding everything, I know that by this point I may start to sound like a broken record, a cry baby, and that I'm lost in victimhood mentality, which all maybe true to some extent from a certain POV (the one that gives the ego more agency than it really has...) but regardless, how does one breakthrough from something like this ? seriously ?? The very last point (of this post atleast because it's starting to get long) is why don't reality seem to work for me, why don't I seem to make any sort of progress regarding healing and love, I've taken the decision the forgive countless times yet the backlash always seem to have more force, no kind/amount of work seems to do it, I know this is not normal, sometimes I feel like I may never fully heal in this lifetime (well this is something I'm almost certain of) but even the alternatives seem cheezy, I know I'm gonna have to re-incarnate in a reality that portrays the opposite of the energies I've been dealing with this lifetime, I know a couple examples of people who have this life and you can call it fantasy, but I'm pretty sure that the only way for things to go full circle is for me to have the life of one of those two people, the only way for these two persons to exist I had to exist beforehand, it's the only explanation that makes complete sense. A very last inquiry I would add is the following, this may seem as a judgment, but it stems more from curiosity, why is everyone including everyone on this forum so obssessed with their lives, is that self love ? is that LOVE ? I couldn't care less if my current existence got erased for me to pass on to something more fair. Why don't people care about these things, matters of karma, cards dealt, fairness, reality clearly having insane kinds of disparity between singular existences, jealousy, overthinking... EVERYTHING really?

Hello everyone So I'm gonna cut directly to the chase in this post, no running around the bush. Last september I started my artistic journey, I have been doing music (in many forms) for more than half of my life (~16 years) and been thinking about this project seriously since 2020, last summer I poured all my fiances (around 24K) to turn this dream into reality, around 16K went into buying gear, and 8K went into paying up a year of rent for the space that has been both my living space and my studio (I live in africa so finances work out differently here). I have been working relentlessly composing and recording almost daily, my vision is to bring to life revolutionary music (accross many dimensions), I draw from almost every genre of music and my inspirations are acts like Jacob Collier, Louis Cole, Bill Wurtz, Pat Metheny, Cynic, Frank Gambale, Nujabes, Common Saints (and many many other artists) The main issue I'm trying to solve now is to find people that are willing to sponsor me so I could finish this work of, I made the rookie mistake of under-estimating the task at hand and I thought that it would take me less than a year to wrap things up, turns out I was wrong, I have already done the heavy lifting, but still need around 4-6 months to finish things up (re-record some demos that are not up to standards, rework a few sections and finish writing lyrics). My dilemma is that this is my first ever project, if I was already established with some prior work and had some sort of following I would've turned to a platform like patreon to gather the money I need, but since that's not really a realistic option in the position I'm in, I'm finding myself obliged to look for "out there" solutions. So basically I need 4000$ to secure 6 months of rent in order to finish this project of, I know it sucks to be asking strangers for money without providing anything in return, so I'm willing to give back in return with what I can which is lessons (whether it's arranging, composition, keyboard, guitar, mixing... anything) I'm pretty good at what I do and I hope you trust me on that. You may be asking yourself why didn't I consider this issue prior and taken preventive measures to avoid putting myself into such a narrow corner, and the only answer I can provide is that I wanted to touch the sun of complete creative freedom, I wanted to pour all of myself into this without holding back. It was what every part of me desired and I don't regret it. And I can see now that I'm standing on something that is bigger than me, a manifestation of true love that I only wish to bring to life. Hope this post doesn't get backlash, I'm coming from a place of pure intent. Best regards to everyone, regardless of whether or not I get any response/help.

@integral I think I'm starting to comprehend your standpoint on this concept. Personally my most fond memories in life come from about 7/8 years ago (3years prior to the pandemic) and I was completely aligned with what you're trying to point to (I think); and the best model that encapsulates this POV is a certain type of native american shamanic lineage, which may seem animistic, very purple like in terms of SD, it may feel regressive if not perceived clearly and frankly it can be dangerous if done however. But it has a lot of benefits, the biggest being a fully integrated experience with nature. This guy is great with this kind of teachings The book "Celestine Prophecy" also comes to mind (but I view that one more like a work of fiction than something that points to absolute truths), I think that in your experience you care a lot about this, and I personally encourage to explore this aspect of reality further, there are many facets to truth, and this one is definitly a valid to look further into.

I've read some trip reports where people mention that, when you say living whole lifetimes, do you mean that literally ? as in being awake through every minute of it ? going to sleep and waking up in said reality day after day ... until the trip ends ?? that just sounds insane to me

I actually view/experience these loosy goosy notions of frequency, vibration, energy, love, emotional state, pure heartedness... as being even more fundamental than what's actually tangible, it's like they are zero order precursors to what's tangible, hence we have "if there's a will there's a way" or "start with the why" or "it's all about your intentions man", Islam has a notion of Intentions being the most fundamental aspect of actions. And what's the drive behind of intent? emotions ! I'm pretty sure anyone can look into their experience and remember an instance of day where everything internal felt right, and everything external just alligned accordingly, that's feelings in a nutshell.

I share this same frustration with you, even when I make effort into finding resources that dissect feeling, emotions and the feminine side of spirituality I only end up what seems to be shallow explorations, most spiritual teachers (or people in general) who tap into this seem to stop at the notion of "letting feelings just flow through you" or "being aware of feelings without attachements" (seeing feelings are not you)... this is the same as non dual teachers stopping at awareness as the final core of existence and disgarding understanding, insight, integration of metaphysical truths into one's life purpose... And that imo opinion arises from people just looking for a solution to suffering that stems from over attachment with ego, but if you're doing this work seriously you know that's not the totality of it, to me that's like step 1 into an infinite ladder. Sometimes I feel that women more than men don't understand or give importance to feelings like men do (but that's another topic), it's like just taken for granted... The only advice I can give you is this, try expremeting with classic psychedelics (if you're into that kind of work) with the intention of exploring this side of things, you'd be amazed what can be felt/revealed in a high dose LSD or Psylocibin trip, because these unlike 5Meo still "allow" some semblance of dualistic experience, I think it fits better with such explorations. One last thing, I feel that there a strange loop correlation between the feminine and masculine, eventually they end up looping into each other, the deepest feelings into the nature of existence end up revealing deep insights (and vise versa)

@integral I would like to preface what I will say with this; anything anyone could ever say is just words that are trying to encapsulate experience to some extent, and almost all of it is lost in translation, reality cannot be conveyed, and all our models are just pale depictions of what truly is This being said, one model/idea I would like to propose is that there's a fundamental duality in different people's awakening expertiences/spiritual path, and that duality is a bias, an important one none the less, but still a bias, that duality is the good old Masculine/Feminine, Heart/Mind. Feeling is the most fundamental thing is almost all of my awakening experiences, and in day to day life overall, and I see and experience it as the core of exsitence, God, Love, Being is a masterful Emotions chef, and it delights in that. Leo's bias (one I think he fails to see) is towards the masculine side of awakening, nothing wrong with that, it just may come of as cold and lacking in humane considerations to anyone who's more centered in the femenine aspect of spirituality. I've heard Leo talk a lot about how to realize the absolute would literally break your mind sending you into total madness, I've experienced and validated that for myself, but I don't see anyone else talking about is Insight into God would also break your heart (literally speaking) and it's the most beautiful heartbreak one could go through because it is what let's the light come in (I know this may sound all poetic and unbased but if you know you know) So Yes, Feeling is as fundamental as Being, and it is as valid a path towards God as Insight, Widsom, alien intelligence or any other "modality"

Just do it. Just strive to create new things as much as you can, of course it won't be a linear progression, somedays you'll be very inspired and you feel like the greatest artist alive, other times you may find yourself on the other end of the spectrum, ideally you would want to detach from unconscious self jugement, getting out of your way and just letting creativity take it course. What also helps is to play the long term game, try to view your whole life as a journey towards mastery, this would push/inspire you to put in consistent work, always view yourself as a student of the craft and always seek to make progress and learn new things. Inpiration I believe is not in our hands, meaning, most of us can't summon it at will, so the best thing is to be ready for when it strikes, of course I find it that the more you advance in your craft, the more inspired overall you'll be, and the less you'll rely on inpiration as an external force and rather tap into internal things, Last thing I would add is that if you want godly levels of creativity (i.e similar to the kind you get on psychedelics) then Falling in love, or rather Being Love is the way, try to take your whole life towards the direction of love, and watch how miraculously inpirational anything could be.

@Santiago Ram I'm gonna be blunt and direct about it, hoping this would be of help to you Your notion of God is wrong. God is absolute infinity, trying to hold on to any false notion, no matter how helpful that notion could be at the time of adoption will end up forming some sort of glass prison you can't escape until you choose to deconstruct it. God is all of it, anything you can think of, anything you can smell, touch, think, imagine, any sound, any idea, any state, all of time, all of space, every being, every object, all is God. Blasphemy is an egoic projection, only a finite, insecure being would "punish" someone else for questioning or critizing their authority, God is defenetly not insecure... This being said, I second @Someone here advice, I tore some religious books to shreds after an awakening I had years ago and it was one of the most liberating things I ever done, I wouldn't recommend doing it if you're still afraid of the repercusions though Also, ask yourself this, why all the fear around this specifically ? why all the attachement to religion ? what are you trying to gain ? what are you trying to avoid ?

God realization and non dual awakenings feel to be like some sort of great equilizer for me, like you can disregard any experience by saying it's all God, which is valid in some way, but not necessarily the most helpful position to take Here's where I'm coming at this from, it's basically the fact that the more awakening/ mystical states I reach, the more complexity I seem to unravel, YES it is all God, but God likes to play with itself within forms, "stories" and frameworks and those are as valid ways for it to recognize itself as melting directly into the sun of its being, the forms and stories I'm reffering to could potentially include anything; The discovery of a "personal soul" that undergoes a reincarnation journey accross space and time (and yes it could be seen as illusory as the personal ego but in my experience it's still there), Paranormal activities (clairvoyance, clair audience, controlling matter and energy through the quantum field) Disincarnated entities, spirit guides, angels, aliens and alien intelligences Synchronities that simply break reality and that could fall on the verge of schizophrenia A soul's purpose being something other than realization, a "personal" soul could incarnate for the sake of learning anything whether it's courage, faith, proactivity, trust, love, selflesness..., and yes all these are stepping stones towards god realization but necessary non the less Direct DNA activations and rewriting, nervous system rewirings, the discovery of Akashic records Personal karma that transcends this one lifetime, soul contracts, souls reincarnating in groups to help each other fulfill their life missions 5D consciousness and beyond, vibrational levels ... And the list goes on and on, I know a lot of people may just consider a lot of these things to be just new age dogma(s), and tbh many are, and I don't advice anyone to believe in anything that hasn't been personally verified, I started out this journey being a radical non dualist, to the point where I didn't believe in anything outside of God as a singular infinity, there was no nuances, separations or experiences from my view, if you asked about a personal soul or reincarnation, I would just explain it away with God But I'm feeling that although that was not false in itself, radical non duality is still valid, I'm realizing with time that there many layers to truth/reality that could all be valid at once My question to finish this is, is there anyone in here with experiences along the lines of what I've described ? and why does no one seem to talk about these things ? I know a lot of bullshit has been superimposed on a lot of these things which made everything dilluted and took out a lot of validity to these things, but still there is a kernel of truth in what I'm gonna refer to as "dualistic awakening", there is value in this, but that's just my perspective I would love to know anyone's position on this matter

@Hojo It may be devoid of bias but braindead doesn't compute in my own understanding, infinite potential carries infinite intelligence, and infinite intelligence doesn't emerge from a dead brain, if it was braindead how could it generate anything, whether it's experience, insight, love, strive, will to exist... ?

My question is very simple, does the godhead "know" everything and I mean everything, does it see beyond potentialities and the seeming free will of different conscious agents ? To give a further analogy, picture the exapnsion of the universe which as a process is faster than the speed of light, that means that any phenomenon at any point in space cannot be perceived by any observer (that experiences light and relativity the way we do) if that observer is at the edge of said expansion, and vise versa, now is it the same for god? does its infinitude "escape" him, and it's undergoing some sort of process to understand itself, or does god simply know the totality of itself even as absolute infinity ?

First of all, assuming everyone here has a atleast some understanding of god as being absolute infinity, for "you" to begin, absolute infinity has to end, and by definition that a is a contradiction, absolute infinity permeates everything, so "you" never exisisted, in that sense, from god's pov, solipsism is the only reality, there's only one reality and one experiencer, and they are the same, no you to be found in this picture, of course the ego would beg to differ, but that's not true As for sanity and insanity, in the absolute sense they don't matter, what we refer to as sanity from our egoic experience is just an oversimplification of reality based on beliefs and patterns, awakening feels more like insanity (from our day to day understanding) than sanity, if you open the flood gates of experiences and surrender to it all, you will go insane, reality is that chaotic and beyond, "chaos" can be experienced to an extent that would make wish to die, and you will (temporarily hopefully) but then the ego's desire to come back will put a limit to god (or we could say god would put that limit as an act of mercy) for you to come back and have some chance at regular survival, carrying out a "normal" exsistence, but once this is perceived, you will forever be permeated and prone to some kind of fluidity that aligns more with truth than with survival