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There's something that to me feels quite relevant to this thread but no one has mentionned yet and it's this. Egos have diverging amounts of spiritual power, say manifestation will.. algorithms/modus operandi (to avoid the expression "lesser cheat codes") that are enabling them to perform in the way they do, take someone like Leo Messi (if you're a football fan) or Jacob Collier, these kind of people seem to have acheived almost unlimited potential (up to what can be done in human form) within their respective fields.. Their modus operandi, or "cheat codes" are simply skill, developed through countless hours during the span of decades, and at their level it's so aligned with flow that it becomes magical to witness. A subsequent question to what @Someone here has asked is this, There are in my view two types of understanding / skill / experience; * Local scope skill, i.e what pertains directly to their craft. * Global/Meta foundations: Unconditional Love for their craft, godly amount of confidence, and simply universal luck (them being who their are, and having lived the experiences they lived through... It almost feels like it was destined for them to be THAT good. Now the first set of skill is what can be targeted and worked on directly, but the second set almost feels like it can only be given to you by god (you). But why don't I (as god) give myself those keys? There is a very low ceiling that can be hit if we don't perceive life through a spiritual / Intergral lense. Hence the importance of following our intuitions, being atuned to synchronisities and opportunities, having the courage to follow our wildest dreams... But sometimes, no matter what one does, breakthroughs simply refuse to manifest... If we could just solve this one issues, I think we (as a species) would start tapping into infinite (alien) intelligence at a scale never seen before, and that would radically transform our experience on this plane. But how to do it if you are REALLY stuck ??

I don't usually share ideas in such "open-source" fashion, and it's not that this idea struck me to the extent that I felt the urge to share it... It's just too suitable to be held from the get go by a non-profit organization, and that the whole application (if ever done) should always avoid to be considered in a business driven fashion. "This will go to the moon, but through dharma, not etherium" The idal thing for something like this would've been me doing some sort of proof of concept, minimal base layer, then expand it into a team/collective effort, but since web (especially backend) is not my forte, unless I'm doing it in a low level fashion and that would take me working almost full time on this for potentially up to 6months, I chose to just put this idea out there, and if it finds people that are interested in carrying it, then we can start choppin at it from multiple sides that would make the task way more manageable.

Since I am a software developper at heart (it seems that there's a separate thread that is always thinking about software architecture, ideas for software products that should exist but don't...) I often get insights that I thinker about (either in my mind or experientially). So I just had an insight into what could be the seed of a revolutionary spiritual platform (kinda like this one) but that does things differetly. I also wrote (hastily) a manifest that I will attach with this post for more context and info, even though it's very messy and probably hard to understand fully, if it spawns interest I can post a full rewrite that would be more elaborate and detailed about things. Let me know what you guys think about this, I don't know what the response to this post will be but I hope it goes towards further elaborations and consctructive critiques, Thank you all. Insights of Omniscience.txt

I am not fully certain about the situation my life is in right now, a lot of things are changing very fast (both internally and on the outside), mostly for the better in many regards... So this is not a complaint, but just a preface for the main discussion, Which concerns being able to work at a high standard (personally set) in two different fields at the same time, while avoiding crash, burn-out, confusion, dillution of effectiveness... So the exact situation I am in at the present moment is that I am being pushed, "my soul is calling me" to take all the time necessary and dedicate all the resources at hand to compose, record and release an EP/Album which is one my main life goals, of course I don't see it as just any musical work being put out there, to me it's an integral part of my spiritual journey, and luckily I have enough resources (by chance) to put a whole year just into this without being concerned with resources (rent, buying equipement...) but that comes at the expense of sacrificing a big share of money I'm inhereting to do this.... At the same time, the logical part of my mind is guiding me towards some sort of "safety"/Escape plan, which consists in leaving the third world country I'm in and starting a new life somewhere else by finding a contract in a good game development company as a low-level programmer... Which is something I can pull off if I put in the time into working on a prototype that would serve as CV/portfolio, but by doing that I would be basically splitting my time between working on my music (which I don't want to abandon, or even set aside for now given the opportunity and all the work/thought that was put into it... and it still being my dream) Now, I've started experementing lately with trying to do both activities in the same day, basically doing music during the early evening, or morning, and putting in around 2 hours of work at night programming the game... and I feel like my effectiveness in being sharp in anyone activity is reduced, since I tend to perform at my "highest" when I'm fully into a specific thing... Does anyone have experience with a similar situation? or some kind of higher ground (meta) advice that I'm missing since I'm submurged with the whole process I know that in the end, I will be the only one to be held responsible for the results of any decisions I take, but I'm trying to think, intuit and feel into this whole situation from more of a tier 2 perspective, meaning seeing things through a bigger space-time frame, seeing how any decisions will impact my life in the long run, not only in the next few months...

I've have been awake to (exactly) this in the past. And it is beyond what any human can desire, want or ask for. It makes perfect sense. It's a complete energetic shift, not energy in the term we humans can think of but something else, completely different, qualitatively beyond what any mind but this mind can/can't comprehend. No amount of work will take you there yet all the work/ life experience you put in will be of help. The only term I can think of right now that can get closer to that state/feeling is "meta-cognitive ecstasy". It's the soberest state anyone can reach and it only happened to me on large doses of lsd/psylocybin. Leo, how do you dwell in that space? It just eats me alive and all the love (for lack of a better term) just seems to overwhelm me after a certain amount of time? I start having insights beyond what I know what to do with, things connect in ways I never thought posible and the maddening side of intelligence is (almost) too much to bear...

@musicandmath111 Infinity IS Oneness. You are right about infinity being out of the scope of mind understanding, but it can be "realized" to a certain degree intellectually, and that in turns helps you reach and intergrate experiences of inifinity once they're awoken to. For the intellectual explanation (narrative) here's how it goes, at the quantum level of this this physical reality, "everything" (i.e the building blocks of reality) is just particles and waves moving around in space-time according to known (and still to be known) physical laws, this is the objective material world, a giant soup of stuff that expands from the core of the particles that make up your guts to the outer reaches of the visible universe and possibly beyond. Now for you to exists as a separate ego, that ego has to trace a conceptual imaginary barrier that affirms only a small subset of this giant soup as "self", regarding everything else as the outside world, but in reality infinity permeates through everything, for you to exists as a separate self, infinity HAS TO END, but infinity has no end and no beginning, only the mind creates those to keep the illusion of ego persistent.

@Razard86 I agree with you, and it all makes sense on an intellectual level, but energetically I feel off when I'm around people since I always perceive that I'm the only one "practicing" unconditional-love while everyone else is lost in delusion. And I often get attacked and ridiculed for speaking my truth... So in a way I lost faith in "others" (I know everyone is me...) I lost faith in all Egos (including "mine"). I've done my share of volunteering in the past and I've come to know that it's not for me, I get into flow states when I'm teaching someone something I'm pationate about but then again, people don't trust me or my methods... Just because of the jugement they materialize from the energy I give off. So I don't what to love, or why love, even the intuition of fully loving myself selfishly I seem I cannot carry on with. I'm lost because of (lack of) love.

@Breakingthewall I've reached deep states of oneness on large doses of LSD before, and I've had deep non-dual states on meditations with and without psychedelics. I "know" enough that I feel like I can reach radical states of consciousness with the help of 5meo... of course I know that god is in control of it all, so I can't force any experience... Deep down in my ego, I feel a sort of grudge towards god/relality, I've asked so much for it to be reconciled but I don't know why it's still there... Sometimes I feel that the ego can never love god unconditionally, of course god loves the ego unconditionally... I don't want to let go of my ego fully but I still want the "power" that comes from fully losing the ego... if that makes sense, I want to manifest godly/miraculous "things" from the ego with the will of god, such are my deepest "shadow" desires, wants and (percieved) needs.

@vladorion I don't believe in neither IFS or somatic experiencing, I've tried so many healing modalities that I've lost faith in all of them, including things as powerful as IFS, I don't fully get the hang of it, but from what I've learned and tried, it won't help me heal my deepest wounds. As far as single experiences go, I think that a radical state if mainted enough can do it, the only times I've felt everything reconciled at an energetic/somatic level were all on transcended states of consciousness. Radically changing my life, living the lifestyle my shadow wants to manifest can do it (I believe, intuitively) but I can't reach that state because of said wounds, it's a strange loop kind of thing that I can't seem to break to make it happen.

As a person, I've been struggling with intense types of internal pain, anger, rage, self-destructive thoughts... almost all my life. I grew up with a very fragile ego due to the family and society situation I grew up in, I feel like I have been dealt a bad hand in that regard to say the least. At the same time, that same situation was the biggest catalyst for spirituality and reaching very deep states of consciousness. These states are where I feel at home, mainly non-dual or very deep flow states where everything is inter-connected, but understanding aside, I don't get transformative energetic states to stay after my trips, and I fall into my default mode which is a mess to say the least... I have "verified" non-duality more times than I can recall, I've seen and experienced Truth, I've talked with Truth... But for some reason, all the promises than fall upon me about my fully realized potential and how the whole unsiverse is gonna help me/conspire to make that a reality don't get carried on with... and I don't feel it's my fault at this point... Instead of having the dark night of soul lifted after I learn what I had to learn through it, I feel like my whole life was dark night after dark night without any sense of resolution, Has anyone in here gone through the same situation and had it resolved? I don't feel like any experience can fully heal me at this point... call it lack of faith, but I'd rather be truthful with my deepest feeling than carry a false (forced) sense of faith and confidence... Intuitively I know that full awakening (i.e 5meo becoming infinite) can deal with it, but that is full dissolution that I don't wanna carry on with right now (nor can I do it even if I wanted to), but I'd rather go with a "non-spiritual" solution (knowing that everything is spiritual...), to deal with my karma but it feels that I'm held back by my emotional baggage... What approach should I take? is there a way to radically recontextualize all of this in a direction I'm missing? Sorry for my messy posts but I always try to touch on what's the most relevant to me

This will be just me describing and explaining from first-hand experience many corelated "themes" that have shaped my ego and personal story. I don't feel like I'll ever fully heal from this wound (unless some sort of miracle happens.. And I can't even fathom what form it would take), but this is valuable insight that came out of it. Human connection, the ability to relate, to bond and form valuable close relationships with people (wheter it's family, friendships or "love") as a skill is shaped very early on by our main care-givers, and this connection ability structure forms its branches by the very experiences that happen to us on a day to day basis, it is like a perfect mirror (reflection) of our environment (family, society, institutions, religion, tradition, culture...). Until we awaken to "personal sovregnity" and begin to shape our own destiny (through basic self development or deep spiritual journeys), we are swayed by whatever staus-quo exists, and our acts of rebelion and individuation only succeed to the extent of our sense of worth (the said "connection ability structure"). This in part, makes the act of relating to peple who have grown up in deeply dysfucntional families almost an unsurmountable task... Because no matter the effort we put in, it feels like somethings in reality are "set in stone", and cannot be manoeuvered around, while knowing it is not truely the case (i.e for "confident" people, stones can be moved easily... naturally) and this creates a deep systemic issue for people who have naturally grown to be unconfident, unassertive with a strong sense of worth and being. No matter the efforts I do, the approaches I do, the connections I try to form with friends... Everything feels "wrong", supericial, and love always feels unfair in the sense that I never receive the amount or depth of love I give... Without mentioning all the rejections that just happen because I don't exhube "naturalness" around women because inside I don't have any good examples of aligned masculine or feminine character traits. There is a lot of entrertwined feelings within this part of my life, it almost goes as deep as depth goes, and it is complex beyond belief... This is what haunts me, this is what had me breakthrough to unconceivable levels of thinking... It may seem like I'm overcomplicating things, or just not doing enough effort, or that I'm not having the right approach or vision to this situation, and it all may be true, but I have tried everything I thought of to no success... Everything in my life fails because of this, I self-sabotage everything I start the moment these thoughts start creeping out, therapy won't help, this goes way beyond the realm of psychology or psychotherapy, reaching ecstatic or non-dual states on psychedelics is the only thing that transcends these feelings and integrates them, but it all seem to remain... no matter how much I try to let go This is true pain, the pain that renders every other feeling null, pain that I can't transmute Pain that caused me to miss my life, barely develop a sense of self, pain that made me transparent to the world for more than half of my life, it just is.

I guess we can't exclude any aspect of life and consider it as existing in a vacuum, that is mainly what systemic thinking is about, holism and integration But if we set the liberal sciences and politics aside, not saying that those are not importent or are in some way detached from any other aspect of reality... I'm just biting on what I have some sort of expertise on Trying to devellop mastery over a technical field (i.e stem..), artistic domain, or just any other type of manual work/craftsmanship will defenetly help you get to tier 2 (and even solidify your psyche in yellow afterwards) The logic behind this is simple, the more experience (practical knowledge) you attain within any field, the more you'll the reverse the donald kruger effect and realize the immensity of what we don't know, and consequently what we don't know we don't know The paradigm this leads to may be imcofrotable at first since you'll feel yourself as being more a beginner than actual beginners, if you push through with this though, you're mind is gonna start to devellop new connections, processes and meta-cognitive behaviours that will get you to a systemic/holistic approach within your chosen field You will get to the point of re-inventing the wheel in that field, not according to pre-determined rules and axioms, but by (more) holistic principles that you'll have derived, and those are gonna be the missing piece of this particular gestalt because they will with time and practice collapse the objective/subjective duality

Truth > proof. At best I can provide you with a counter example about why reality being imaginary cannot be proved nor disproven. In this video, Carl Sagan demonstrates how unless a three dimensional being lifts the 2D flatlanders from flatland, they can never even conceive (let alone prove) the existence of the 3 third "up" axis. Awakening is akin to this thought experiment. Unless you do the practice to awaken to any given facet of ultimate reality, it cannot be percieved through direct experience. It can happen by serindepity for some but that's a big stretch to even consider.. Same goes with god, it cannot be proven, nor disproven, it is completely "transparent" by design (for the ego atleast), and the transparency of god is proportional to the thickness of one's ego. For a more elaborate explanation on matters that fall outside of provability watch Leo's video on the metaphysical implications of Gödel's incompleteness theorem.

The fundamental flaw in descartes cogito is his hidden assumption that thought precedes being... From the ego's point of view, it can be seen as valid, "since I think I must exists" But reality is really more like "I am therefore I can think.. among many other things" For some reason, I'm imagining descartes jaw dropping after having a sunya experience... "if all thought has stopped, why is the I am still here!"

I would encourage you to look into the concept of Akash, the Akashic records and Yogic lore, since many forms of hinduism understood this very concept for millenia. Also think deeply about the godhead, what does it mean, what can it point out to, and what are the implications of oneness concerning the "ego's mind" vs "universal mind".