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@electroBeam So it began with a physical illness and then it became psychological afterwards? If I understand you correctly?

1. I think it is because to keep you invested in this reality and it feels real , and somehow i think that life is suffering even tho it is the most precious thing we got as well. 2. Cause we have been raised and tricked into believing that happiness comes from outside of ourselves, material happiness or if i just get this job/insight/girl/car or whatever, and you can't be happy within you cause then you are weird ? 3. I think because we are to scared to really question and go deep into this particular dream and recognize that we are totally delusional in believing in it, but it is hard cause you can't compare it to something else, cause it is all you know. 4. Delusional is included in infinity from my point of view, it is a fail safe thing to keep you from the existential questions, you have to forget or else you can't live and care about survival of your self

@electroBeam @electroBeam hello mate!?‍♂️ if i may ask , how are you misleading people around you? The "ego" is really sneaky and like to twist around and mislead and form insights either to its "advantage" or causing a "scene" in your mind about it, and it keeps trigging itself until your feelings matches the thought, this work is hard in that way, easy to battle with yourself and doubt and stuff like that. I think it is good that you share this and know that people can help you as well as you can help people, i find your writing and posts interesting so keep going and dont believe in the storys the mind might throw at you, try to catch the thought or feeling as fast as possible and either ignore it or dissect it into nothing

@Juliano Zn Yes but also try to get really "serious" about stuff, make it a lifestyle but don't beat yourself down if you have not had any breakthroughs yet, it will come, but yes in my experience psychedelics is by far the fastest way but it is really intense aswell so it is good to lay a foundation first

@Bulgarianspirit hahah i feel ya! Wanted to find out some answers and got interested in spirituality haha little did i know what it would lead me to and what a journey, sometimes i get thoughts about that i rather not find out about all this stuff but somehow it is also amazing and it is hard to stay away from it ??

@justfortoday thanks for your input m8, it feels good to have like minded people to talk to even tho i imagine you ??

I did enjoy those books, felt kinda real and true but at the same time i might be tricking my self as well

@justfortoday But the last two times ive actually had mixed feelings/states about reality being infinite and that you will always exist cause you can't die which felt f..cked up to, so for me the memory wipe makes alot of sense, but it also feels weird to have to start over again and again

@justfortoday From my journey as well i have had insights that you can't escape reality and can not exist now when you do exist, it is memory erase between lifes , if it would not be this way, everything would be totally broken somehow

@Mvrs i like your explanation ? it is impossible we can exist but still we do, and people get so numb to life and take it completely for granted, but life does include alot of suffering as well, every possibility gotta exist just look at the impossiblility we are experiencing My insights on psychedelics have been a bit tragic as well cause you can't escape reality somehow

Im not sure im following you here, what is false???

@Mvrs yeah i also get the feeling actually, like consciousness press erase on the memory it had to live a new life again, if you could control it i guess you would have done the same, forget that you are GOD , exactly as YOU can forget that you are a human in psychedelics states, it is all about memory

@Member well it was real for you m8 ?

Nice m8!?

I agree with you, always a discussion about everything ? some people always want to dismiss insights or to have right, i guess its just a human thing

@justfortoday @justfortoday yes! Exactly the same , the world was moving and my awareness was just still but everything moved in it, it was so obvious that i am "walking" on the same spot, and the world around is also encapsulated in a VOID

@justfortoday agreed! When i was 16 and starting smoking it was really profound and totally a dream like state, and now sometimes i also get profound insights on it

My best guess is that you keep on living cause you are GOD or atleast a part of it, and there is some good NDE and even psychedelics can show you, BUT it might as well be that you stop existing all together, he who dies will see ??

@SpYITB well on my trips and so forth i felt loneliness but it might as well just been my ego backlashing and getting scared from it

Why are you coming on here claiming things which you have no experience of? When u experience it you will know. Until then keep grinding, your numbers won't help you at all at grasping this.

@justfortoday agreed on that brother it is really hilarious and insane at the same time ?

Haha funny im on the come down from 300 mcg LSD , it was intense to say the least

What @justfortoday said , did an lsd trip today and all is you srsly, it is so radical, and everything around you is just void , when i walked with my girl outside i saw and felt the void all around everything, im walking in this void but im not really walking the world is moving lol , others is imagination on the higher levels of conciouness but it is still alive and existing just from a higher point of view there is no other and never was

@Leo Gura sounds about right, i think in his case that it is dangerous to think that he reached the end and it can't go any further, if reality is infinite it should be infinite levels of states both permanent and non permanent

@Gesundheit yeah it might be that, it sure seem like it , science is perhaps right actually