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@BjarkeT perhaps they are not ready but it doesn't mean they are all closed minded, we can't be THAT closed minded, can we ?

@BjarkeT no maybe not the existential stuff but more layed down stuff like awareness or what fear is or something along these lines or conscious politics

@Raven1998 he says psychedelics are temporary and only in a sober state can you reach enlightenment. But different people say different things

@Rilles a bit more than successful youtuber

@Rilles why ?

@Average Investor i'm 194cm as well just fyi and around 18/19% bf

not really man, i neve have been able to see my abs but like i'm slim and i don't have complexes taking off my t shirt or something like this, i used to breathe not properly before ∵ i wanted to always have the appearance of a slim waste/stomach but i'm over that now (ish) i still have to remind myself when i am in pubic to breathe through my stomach, i'm 100kg and i got some size on me, but my discipline with cutting calories is absolute gobshite one of my teenage inspiration models was zyzz and the hodgetwins, matt ogus as well i used to always watch them and lift as a lifestlye so i got a good foundation but what's the point if i can't see the muscle properly aka lose the bodyfat

@Average Investor i feel you, some things i don't even care like i was smoking socially for 3-4 years and I just have no problem giving it up forever. Eating is a big one for me or at least I think it is. Anyway i watched Leo's addiction video and he contradicted himself in that one vs the awareness video, in the addiction video he said to sit there and not move and just observe your hunger / adiction but in the awareness video he said to nit change the system these are clearly contradictions so which advise do I follow ?

WHILST not getting addicted to things like coffee or various other drugs What do you think is the best solution from experience ?

@Average Investor i feel you and i am working on my vision board now, gonna print it tomorrow. HOWEVER, i just still don't see how "awareness" will magically one day get me to stop eating the junk food i love eating. is there any way you can maybe explain in detail how this awareness thing works? Also i really appreciate your time and effort you've put into helping me, i wish i could offer something in return, this means a lot bro

i also feel this strange "reward" sensation and satisfaction after i eat it i am so f****** addicted it's not even funny. i went 1 month without any bad food and just 1,500 kcal a few months ago but this just yo-yod back to me being slightly overweight i am 101kg, 191cm - 20% bodyfat i'm guessing, i look fit ∵ i got some decent size and strength on me (which i have no problem disciplining with) but the diet is a real b**** for me

@Average Investor so today, i woke up and i fasted till 6pm at 6 i ate 200g of salmon, 400g sweet potato, 240g of tofu and 300g of broccoli with carrots and 1 banana. then at 11 i got hungry and basically whenever i go to the kitchen, (i;m living with my parents atm due to covid) - my family has a cupboard with all the toxic fast food snacks, so i went down to make meal #2 which is 50g gluten free oats + 150g unsweetened almond milk with 1 banana and something pulled me to the peanut butter and honey and cookies and muffins, etc i applied awareness to why i was eating it and this is the following: i was tempted to eat the bad food ∵ it tastes good and ∵ it's just there and my body just automatically goes to it other than boredom and lack of purpose ( for now ) and lack of exercise and not direction in life in general ( all for now, i'm working on this) i think i just wanted to fill my stomach up and overeat i've also realised SOMETIMES if i just leave it for 5-10 minutes and just sit there and not eat, sometimes this feeling of hunger goes away. i still ate the junk food and i still want to afterwards now ∵ i kind of feel myself salivating for it (sorry for the visuals), ∴ i kind of don't see how this awareness thing is working/gonna work. I will watch the first video you sent me again but this is what it is far

yeah bro, like every PC in russia has two applications - CS 1.6 and utorrent ?

more often than not I have various frightening thoughts through out the day/night from horror movies and from darkness. I also have a fear of "monsters under my bed" ∴ my feet must be wrapped up in the cover for the "monsters" not to attack my feet and i've recently faced this one for some minutes in a row and tried to be aware of the fear in my body/sensations. The fear of darkness i have not faced yet, i keep procrastinating. Any advise ? The real question i have for you guys is how do i stop being scared of / thinking about for example "the nun" being in the next room waiting for me / or upstairs in the dark room, without having to run to turn the lights on. I'm male and in my mid twenties if that matters. I won't be offended if you tell me to see a psychologist but i feel like reading a book or two about this could do more benefit ? What are your thoughts ? also THIS is the exact reason why i am afraid to do meditation / psychedelics, ∵ i know they "blow up" the internal state of mind, and as you can see mine is a bit messed up right now, so any advise on this as well would be hugely appreciated.

@PurpleTree but in the video he never says how it will work, be just says i am the one who is creating my food hunger ∴ I need to be aware of how i create it <-but when/if i figure this out isn't this all in order to Δ my behaviour in the end ? he says change only comes awareness but i don't see it ... i know in the past when i set myself a goal and resisted bad food (suffered) it always got me back to where i started but i don't understand how I can lose weight by just being aware of it, i see awareness as a limited thing for weight loss .. (i know i am wrong, but i am just trying to understand) i am AWARE that when I am active I am not hungry. I am aware also that my goal is to get to 8-10% bodyfat. But i don't see how awareness alone will reduce the addiction I have

@Average Investor interesting ... i'm gonna start another thread ∵ I am not entirely sure I understand the balance between discipline & awareness

one of my long due endeavours is to see my abdominals. i have like no discipline, i am genuinely addicted to sugar/food and every time i try to quit it i end up yin yanging back to the starting point (20-25 % bodyfat). my goal is to be 8-10% at least once in my life, but hopefully maintain it and from what "science" shows i just have to eat less calories but not too much in a deficit otherwise it gets unrealistic no matter how much desire you have to lose weight, so basically slow and steady. the problem is i keep thinking about food ∵ i have nothing else to do, lowest i ever went to is 89kg and i could almost see my abs but not quite. I heard the best way to get rid of an addiction is to replace is with another addiction (hedonistic ->eudaemonistic) Any advise is appreciated

@Average Investor i just subscribed to it, and i'm watching that vid for the 2nd time now, it's crazy how counter intuitive it is. Next time i get a craving i'm gonna go into it with as much awareness as humanly possible (for me)

@Opo thank you bro @Average Investor bro that's crazy good advise, i bought a load of bananas, apples and grapes, and i think i feel them filling me up way more than the bad sugars, i think even the bad sugars may have additives that make you keep coming back to them. I'm going to do this from now on, way more vegetables and fruits, maybe a mix between the two, let's see what works for me. And I will watch the video either tonight or tomorrow, thank you very much bro !

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@Michael569 to me, IF gave me monstrous amounts of energy

and since meditation reflects inner thoughts outwards, then i just want to make sure my psychology is healthy before pursuing something like this. someone gave me the analogy that it is dangerous to cross the road too but people do it <-- this is horseshit ∵ the safety levels are way waaay off, % risk is way higher with meditation in my mind than crossing a road. but if you wanna use this analogy i am simply looking left and right right now before crossing the road.

I am not sure if meditation freaks me out, i have never tried it properly, i am just being wary of the side effects it might produce, and according to some somewhat reliable sources, apparently there are a lot od these negative side effects which I am just getting ready for or trying to get ready for by asking you/the forum these questions, i want to be ready if something bad happens so that i know how to get out of it.

yes, if i slow down and meditate i am afraid that these negative thoughts may come up and "∵" i slowed that they would come true, for exmaple if i hear a noise in the next room, if it actually happened or if it is my mind playing tricks on me, either or. Or ∵ i've read / also leo said that you can fall into depression and also into the dark night of the soul as well after some time of meditating and i simple don't want to experience that ∵ i have too many responsibilities in my life so what if all that depersonalisation and this "lost in the eternal void" fucks me up ? okay, say that some scary character for example like "the nun" will be in the next door and she will take away all of my control via her powers and i will only be able to see and hear and just be there paralysed while she is horrifying me, floating on top of me or whatever, like in sleep paralysis basically. yes, sleep paralysis, and i've also always had fear of the dark, and spiders used to scary the shit out of me before too, and "monsters" under my bed, even though i would look there and see nothing, i'd still be scared if i stood up it would not be below the bed but behind me or on top of the bed by the time i get up or something like this. I am a wet wipe when it comes to this, i know, that's why i'm working towards getting rid of it. what do you mean by removed, everyone keeps saying that but i don't understand, eventually i just think about something else anyway ? so they are removed automatically, do you mean to experience them while i am thinking about them and are scared of them ? explain what you mean by safe environment ? do you mean to have a spotter ? if yes then that's the thing, i am not scared when i am with someone, i am scared when I am alone for some reason, ∴ how do i practice these "safely"?

HAHAHAHA i love that, i will try that, do i have to be scared already (in that state) or do i do it in a state where i am not scared (e.g. when the sun goes down and it's not completely dark) ? how do you know ? your perception is not my perception, and THAT'S the thing that scares me, is that some scary character for example like "the nun" will be in the next door and she will take away all of my control via her powers and i will only be able to see out of my eyes and hear out of my ears and just be there paralysed, like in sleep paralysis - so how do i overcome that ? How do i recognise that ? you have a book ? or what must I do ? the actual light switch flickering ? What do you mean sort of admit to myself that i like the fear ? i f****** hate it so much - i feel like it's limiting me (even though i think i know it isn't true) "If you didn’t like it you wouldn’t choose it" - i am doing it ∵ I want to overcome it, not ∵ i like it .. (i think?)