Megan Alecia

Don't believe something, verify it by doing your own little research work. Come on, that's like intellectually sucking off some stranger on the internet. Do you "lurkers" really want that, like be a whore for just about any idea you come across to? (But if something clicks to you that is true and isn't bullshit - that's probably a good thing.)

Heroism, and Love in General, Are Always Unconditional: The id is messy, and so is this journal And so is society. 95% of social systems at least. I quite like the recent 4 journals that I've started here. The ego dynamics on this place is quite funny and chaotic, but I don't mind. It's a way to freely (for the most part) share ideas. A journey requires a goal, and one of mine is to just... be. That's stage yellow ideal too. I am aware of my lackings and faults and limitations because I'm human. I believe whatever lacks a human aspect is bound to be chaotic, because love is the force that binds all that lives on this earth. And love is always relational, and honestly, unconditional.

I knew it was you: ding

True for everyone/That which isn't original could never be transcendent: "This play that I witnessed is my play, not your play. It is my secret, not yours. You cannot imitate me. My secret remains virginal and my mysteries are inviolable, they belong to me and cannot belong to you. You have your own." -- Carl G. Jung

To wish or not to wish/Utopia: The world works because there is duality Hunger and satisfaction. Happiness and misery. Love and disintegration. "You may say I'm a dreamer - but I'm not the only one. I hope one day you will join us, and the world will live as one." But that would be the end of duality. The end of conflict, therefore the end of aspiration. The end of life as we know it today. That would be a utopia.

I love art, information. I also love people who are fun to see/watch.

Big brain time: Information saved my life People are cognitively different so we are by nature chaotic. We relate to each other through communication (hence the importance of Spiral Dynamics.) Information is orderly. Like there exists an intrinsic order to all of the world's info. This is what science and mathematics and logic and knowledge really are ALL ABOUT. Wisdom is to be found BOTH through intuition and the orderly world of knowledge. Facts are quite useless UNLESS applied in the GRAND SCHEME of all knowledge (so-called holistic understanding.) I call these the map of all knowing - which is directly related to human existence in this planet, and whether WE will thrive (say, the printing revolution) or crumble (Marxism) in this world (aka collective egoic dynamics.)

A strange loop

Paradise: Alchemical process of turning suffering into beauty That's the gist of all intellectual discovery and aesthetic creations Of course, aspiration and conflict, these are more practical, so to speak. Largely because they are inescapable (nobody wants to be losers in life) Life's about these two branches: a) the abstract and b) the mundane I do appreciate these terms. My proof of these distinctions/dichotomy: imagination, fantasy, larger-than-life adventures competence, talent, virtuosity

Modern life: Melbourne Stockholm Apropos the culture of a given society (Melbourne and Stockholm both belonging to countries with progressive cultures). Exploring the components of (my) adult life (in the future/and how my current situation is connected to it) Gender I'm mtf trans. I'm a feminine being (spiritually if you will), and enjoy femininity at large. So yeah. Relationships It depends on the guy, and whether we have chemistry or not. (animal attraction if you will, haha.) Career/money 100,00 dollars... for doing what I love? This is my dream career. Well, basically just being able to do what I love (which is to learn, also to share my thoughts and insight to people), and to not have anyone (from above) handing down orders to me. Diet Beef, fried chicken, salads, coffee, fruits, milk, pancakes, egg, sausages/bacon, ketchup, other sauces. Personal aspirations (achievements, self-esteem, accomplishment of goals and dreams) A nice apartment in Melbourne/Stockholm, with nature and grasses, cows and stuff (quite a paradox isn't it). Achievement/s: to have an impact on culture with my work. To have my work reach people. Desires (on an individual and day-to-day level) Personal development Self-realization Gurdjieff and Jung and what have you Joy in the everyday Existence and mortality Culture shapes us for real. And on a (not so) subconscious level we realize that, given the tribal species that we are.

I was referring to success in the sense of life satisfaction, not the Donald Trump type.

This is false. All of us want attention... Some use "big bombastic" words (like Christopher Hitchens/Gore Vidal I assume), while others use Tiktok. Attention isn't a bad thing, we all have a need to be seen (what Freud called as "healthy narcissism"); some people just overdo it, although it still depends whether they do a good job at it or not.

"Trump received over 73 million votes in the 2020 election, giving him more than any other sitting president in U.S. history." Psychopaths play out people's fantasies irl (usually of inappropriate or even antisocial nature), and that's why they can indeed be attracted to them. (although Trump was a malignant narcissist himself- grandiose, defiant, obsessed with delusions of omnipotence, and a pathological liar.) -- "Many people look at the Joker and see the unbridled chaos of the id, and this is attractive to them. Now, this does not mean that people are looking at Joker and are envious of him as a murderer; it just means the id within is attracted to the idea of pure passion and unbridled chaos of emotions and action." -- Byron Lafayette, journalist We human beings instinctively know that although the unconscious is undoubtedly primitive and antisocial and can be heartless, it is very powerful.

Right Freud, Sadhguru ain't buying your superego and mommy issues.

Iq is fascinating. Emotional intelligence is what one needs in able to succeed in life I think (if you're an agitated kind you're not gonna go that far... if you're poor at sensing danger you're gonna get conned and stuff.)

Three Fs: Fight anxiety Find myself (my goals, priorities, needs) Find my drive (grit)

Anarchy in 2021: It's funny that most of life springs from desire. Desire comes from an aching need. From desire comes fantasy. Who wouldn't like to live in a heaven on Earth? The Hierarchy of Needs show us that some things are more... nourishing that others. Why? Because with each level the human story gets more and more... validated? Transcended, perhaps, although not to be too grandiose with the term. We all feel pleasure but why do we specifically love going to movies? Or playing well-made video games, listening to well-produced, fresh-sounding music? Because we love quality stuff. Our senses can discern what's bad from good. Animals have this capability too but our cognition is far more advanced. This cognition at the same time brings way more problems in front of us ALL THE TIME. And this is why... we have news. Social media, lately. Global events always centered on problems. Also, our messy individual lives. Back to fantasy.... It really makes us better 'animals' in the animal kingdom-hierarchical sense. We conquered the world and invented endless shit because of fantasy. Nowadays, the world is so filled with endless sensory overload--news, music, tiktok, social media, cat videos, compilation videos, porn. Yet so many young people are depressed. It's a crisis of need. That, of course, both involves meaning and fantasy. My generation needs to know BOTH-- on an individual level. Then maybe some shared MOOD may arise, and this combined power might effectively bring about social change and stuff (like the 60's counterculture-- with all the drugs and sex and rock n' roll. And progressive values, of course.)

Studying the nature of human existence (metaphysics), as well as the act of creation (art). Closed personal journal.

We are territorial and like previous comment said, self-preserving (or at least survival-oriented.)

@SamC Blindly following "upholding tradition". Tyrannical parenting. "respecting elders" Keep in mind that Blue instilled order in ancient civilizations and saved them from the heartless ruthless Red.

Blindly following tradition. Tyrannical parenting.

How Humankind Views the Order and Chaos of Being: "As far as we can discern, the sole purpose of human existence is to kindle a light of meaning in the darkness of mere being." -- Carl G. Jung

The Topic of Causality: Physical health and vitality: Healthy and nice diet Hormone replacement therapy (HRT) Shaving body Skincare Bath products Fashion Perfume (Bookshelf from tim.blog) (Leo Gura) Books to read: The Mask of Sanity by Hervey Cleckley Without Conscience by Robert D. Hare Malignant Self Love: Narcissism Revisited by Sam Vaknin The Psychology of the Child by Jean Piaget Personality Disorders in Modern Life by Theodore Millon The 48 Laws of Power by Robert Greene Mastery by Robert Greene Notes from Underground by Fyodor Dostoyevsky Maxims and Reflections by Johann Wolfgang von Goethe Meditations by Marcus Aurelius The Red Book by Carl G. Jung The Man Without Qualities by Robert Musil Remembrance of Things Past by Marcel Proust The Brothers Karamazov by Fyodor Dostoyevsky The Metamorphosis by Franz Kafka Ham on Rye by Charles Bukowski Escapism by Yi-fu Tuan The Denial of Death by Ernest Becker The Upanishads Tao-te Ching The Secret Oral Teachings in Tibetan Buddhist Sects by Alexandra David-Néel & Lama Yongden Watchmen by Alan Moore & Dave Gibbons Y: The Last Man by Brian K. Vaughan & Pia Guerra Perfume: The Story of A Murderer by Patrick Suskind (Damn fine coffee) in Melbourne, Australia? Stockholm, Sweden I want to live in either of these cities in the future -- read good things about both. Also, the following images: Progressive cultures I assume (horizontal cultures).

The Game of Life: Stage Red: Stage Blue: Old Testament Christianity, Conservatism, Islam, Eastern culture Stage Orange: Bill Clinton, Jocko Willink, Arnold Schwarzenneger Stage Green: Bernie Sanders, Jeremy Corbyn, Gloria Steinem Stage Yellow: George Carlin, Friedrich Nietzsche, Viktor Frankl, Noam Chomsky Stage Turquoise: Hinduism, Taoism, Mahayana (?) Buddhism, Terence McKenna, David Lynch, Kanye West, Jim Carrey

Thanks @Natasha for dealing with this person.