Megan Alecia

Just finished organizing my Instagram saved photos and its beautiful, like the whole of the human condition in one collection. It's really profound, lots of books and beautiful pictures of people I like. So yeah.

Trust me, Stage Orange is better than Stage Blue. Stage Blue countries tend to be poorer because Orange has more technology and intellectuals and just culture in general, not having to worry about poverty and Red exploitation (Duterte, Bolsonaro, Xi) anymore

As Terence McKenna said, life is fundamentally about appreciation. But as recent thinkers and influential figures have suggested and asserted, appreciation in this life requires discipline, responsibility, and all that kinda conscientious values (Leo talked about this as Jordan Peterson's and other self-help, mostly masculine, culture icons' function in current pop culture.) In other words, taking current world/online trends into account, people want to find a way to enjoy both work (self help culture) and play (Tiktok, entertainment, podcasts, Grammys, Netflix, food channels, etc etc) in a sort of orderly way.

Wear shorts during the thing.

All We Got: Initiation rites-- specifically puberty rites, as a metaphor for life's many trials, and the wisdom and experience gained from it in later life (which quite implies that life CAN be sad) Moloch-- practices involving child sacrifice meshes well with the clinical entity that is NPD Prima causa ("first cause")-- narcissists act as if they're the prime mover and shaker of things/in other words, control freaks (Sam Vaknin) Hierarchies/Beware of the granfalloon-- human herd behavior is by nature primitive, even in so-called spiritual ones (unless proven otherwise in an individual manner)/need to read more on this Horizontal and vertical cultures both denote civilization as we know it today Example of a psychopathic culture (early 1990s Rwanda) Reading

Sweeping around the ashram: The New Age movement is perhaps the latest cutting-edge mass movement anywhere in the world right now, at least idea-wise, but it's not everything. It needs Stage Yellow to give it substance and rid it of frauds, otherwise it's like a scarecrow which ANYONE can easily set on fire.

Punk rock, man/I am BY NATURE picky: (but not really) Lush Sultana of Soap Tom Ford Black Orchid Mane 'n Tail original Philosophy Amazing Grace Dove Men's Care Clean Comfort Vaseline original Ray-Ban Clubmaster Fresh lime water

@fopylo sadhguru - "loosen the grip"

Will give her model a try, see if its a nice addition to how I make sense of this world.

Human Behavior: Narcissist Psychopath Collective Narcissism: Narcissism, Culture, and Society How I "Became" a Narcissist By: Dr. Sam Vaknin The Basic Dilemma of the Artist On Being Human On Empathy The Brain Metaphors of the Mind (Part I) Metaphors of the Mind (Part II) Psychology and Psychotherapy The Dialogue of Dreams Narcissist vs. Psychopath The Psychopath, Sociopath, and Antisocial Paranoid Personality Disorder Borderline Personality Disorder Schizoid Personality Disorder Histrionic Personality Disorder Avoidant Personality Disorder Schizotypal Personality Disorder Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder (OCPD) Codependency and Dependent Personality Disorder Negativistic (Passive-Aggressive) Personality Disorder Masochistic Personality Disorder Sadistic Personality Disorder Depressive Personality Disorder Avoiding Your Abuser - II. The Conflictive Posture

It gets better. Learn how to find value in the company of people (that includes YouTube.)

Infinite love. Infinite evil. Scary.

Meaning: Jordan Peterson's "12 Rules for Life" is a snappy title, although the concept of life being defined by "rules" doesn't strike me as particularly accurate. I suppose there'd be a set of laws, maybe 100 life laws, but which are pantheistic/inherent by nature (as opposed to man-made ones/rules), not to mention invisible to us. I have my own rules, although they're by no means all-encompassing, because guess what, people are different! Without much further ado: a) Don't try to be liked I did this in my 9th and 10th grade (Philippine school system) and let me tell you I was bullied for this. b) Don't try to be liked even by your friends "Man cannot well go on existing on his own and this is why he likes to join a party, because this is where he finds, if not tranquillity, at least composure and security." -- Johann Wolfgang von Goethe I want friends who are authentic, and honestly, easy to be with. This isn't a matter of reason for me, because I wouldn't know how to be with people otherwise. c) Meditate If you're diligent enough, the results will start appearing in your life. Anxious thoughts without any particular reason would be gone, and you'd feel lighter and calmer in general. It's not a panacaea though, just one important piece to the puzzle. d) My first profile tagline Having the courage to bring about your innermost power = most philosophical systems have a term for this, things like "the Ubermensch", "the true self", "the self-actualized person", "the individuated/constellated self", "the higher self", and so on and so forth. This particular kind of courage can only be reached through saying yes to a "call to adventure" (knowledge of it in the first place, usually through a challenging life condition.) e) My second profile tagline If there is any purpose to life at all, it would be found in existence. In pursuit of an essential order (through religion and science) we found out that there is in fact no intrinsic order at all (I'm a nihilist, although in an agnostic way, meaning I am not sure but for now all I can see around me is NIHILISM). But at the same time, meaning still rules the world. Even the existence of so-called personality disordered people are governed by it, and regular human beings are by no means exceptions. Most of us find meaning in the ordinary, the norm (or in pursuit of it/cloaked through the term "happiness") but digging a little deeper it isn't hard to see that the most profound things and concepts are aptly the hardest to find, although recently the New Age movement has done a big part in bringing this particular kind of search to the mainstream/popular culture.

Order: Everyone has his/her own unique perspective apropos life and human existence at large, albeit one that belongs to a greater, all-encompassing value system, with its own unique set of UNIVERSAL beliefs/ideologies or principles. All of these systems has been demystified and classified by means of the Spirals Dynamics model. One could say that Spiral Dynamics is applicable to just about any piece of idea that carries weight with us on both a collective and individual level, given how it inherently deconstructs our/human value/belief systems, both of which are the most fundamental sources of order and meaning in our lives.

I like the Viktor Frankl way "Those who have a big enough why... can endure any how"

Reddit is the most shameless display of human hypocrisy honestly. It's all a charade. Surely those people cannot walk that overly moral talk.

Understanding reality

"Now I am quietly waiting for/the catastrophe of my personality/to seem beautiful again, and interesting and modern." -- Frank O'Hara, "Meditations in an Emergency"

God loves his children, yeahh!: "He knows not how to rule a kingdom, that cannot manage a province; nor can he wield a province, that cannot order a city; nor he order a city, that knows not how to regulate a village; nor he a village, that cannot guide a family; nor can that man govern well a family that knows not how to govern himself; neither can any govern himself unless his reason be lord, will and appetite her vassals; nor can reason rule unless herself be ruled by God, and be obedient to Him." -- Hugo Grotius "The greatest joy for a man is to defeat his enemies, to drive them before him, to take from them all they possess, to see those they love in tears, to ride their horses, and to hold their wives and daughters in his arms." -- Unknown, but often attributed to Genghis Khan

@Eternal Unity Can you take down the comment? This is a closed journal.

Aka the eternal existential journey

Shot myself in the foot WHEN: Jesus I wish I can take back my best insights that I've written here and turn them into a book/some kind of work But like it's also kinda obsolete.... repeating old stuff always feels like that for some reason.

Mindfulness involves detachment from the ego which is thoroughly influenced by the id. This creates in a person more clarity, since you act less from the motivation of the id (which may be fearful, egocentric, closed off/pretending to be invulnerable, has a lot of unprocessed stuff in general.)

The nature of life: "Sometimes fate is like a small sandstorm that keeps changing directions. You change direction but the sandstorm chases you. You turn again, but the storm adjusts. Over and over you play this out, like some ominous dance with death just before dawn. Why? Because this storm isn't something that blew in from far away, something that has nothing to do with you. This storm is you. Something inside of you. So all you can do is give in to it, step right inside the storm, closing your eyes and plugging up your ears so the sand doesn't get in, and walk through it, step by step. There's no sun there, no moon, no direction, no sense of time. Just fine white sand swirling up into the sky like pulverized bones. That's the kind of sandstorm you need to imagine. And you really will have to make it through that violent, metaphysical, symbolic storm. No matter how metaphysical or symbolic it might be, make no mistake about it: it will cut through flesh like a thousand razor blades. People will bleed there, and you will bleed too. Hot, red blood. You'll catch that blood in your hands, your own blood and the blood of others. And once the storm is over you won't remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won't even be sure, in fact, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm you won't be the same person who walked in. That's what this storm's all about." -- Haruki Murakami "The best thing for being sad," replied Merlin, beginning to puff and blow, "is to learn something. That's the only thing that never fails. You may grow old and trembling in your anatomies, you may lie awake at night listening to the disorder of your veins, you may miss your only love, you may see the world about you devastated by evil lunatics, or know your honour trampled in the sewers of baser minds. There is only one thing for it then — to learn. Learn why the world wags and what wags it. That is the only thing which the mind can never exhaust, never alienate, never be tortured by, never fear or distrust, and never dream of regretting. Learning is the only thing for you. Look what a lot of things there are to learn." -- T.H. White "A sovereign should never launch an army out of anger, a leader should never start a war out of wrath." -- Sun-Tzu "Artists are people driven by the tension between the desire to communicate and the desire to hide." -- Donald Winnicott

Peak - a state of upward growth or unmatched ecstasy. To strive towards absolute infinity, like endless possibilities.