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Accepting them as part of me should take some pressure of. But there is still the controversy of my thouhts content.

@Abdelghafar Thank you for your advice I already used the forgiveness exercise on my stepfather. I will check out the other exercise too. Atm I'm in the progress of watching all of Leo's videos, soeventually I will watch. And I'm aware that watching them once isn't enough for them to have a changing effect. It does not seem possible for me to let go of thoughts that come out of nowhere. How should I let go of things that I do not control? But I don't want to ignore them either. It is very frustrating to see your familiy members getting killed by yourself in your thoughts over and over again. I want to be truthful, but it's to hard for me to tell them what's going on in my mind.

This is not a request for a specific video, but a request concerning videos. Leo, could you please upload your content on LBRY, for the people that don't want to use Google services any more?

I was never diagnosed with OCD. I don't know what it's symptom cluster either

I meant recreational drugs (alcohol, cannabis). They do often work like a magic pill, but only for 1-3 hours. Thank you. It feels good to read that Yeah I preemt the possibility of not being accepted by isolating myself. But the consequence of isolation is the same as not being accepted. Fear is the whole problem.

The times I tried DMT i took only very little, because I was to afraid of it. But maybe I try ayahuasca. The thing is, that I want to use it consciously, as a tool. Right now my motivation to take drug is to feel good instantly. Like a magic pill. Therefore I try to fix my emotional state before taking psychedelics. As long as I push people away, there is no way to feel loved. I feel unaccepted.

@Tim R Your right. I thought the same while typing it The thoughts are part of me. So if I try to fight them I try to fight parts of myself. I understand what you say. But these thoughts are very odd to me. I try to work on myself to become more actualized, therefore less primitive and more at ease. But that seems to be a role i want to play. The problem lies maybe in the fact, that assault and murder is contemned in society and therefore I feel that I'm bad and evil.

A whole lot. I did not take drugs on a daily basis (well somtimes I did), but I wanted to try everything. (Meth-)Amphetamine, Cannabis, Alcohol, Benzos, Ketamine, LSD, Shrooms, DMT, Kanna, MDMA, Heroin, etc. Most of them I tried only a couple of times and often within the safer use rules. I tried 50mg of Sertraline (Zoloft) for roughly six months. It did make me more social, sometimes at least. But in the end I stopped it, because it made me maniac More often then the physical violent thoughts I have these discussion in my mind. It's like the mind tries to prepare it self for situations, in which it has to justify it self in front of others, isn't it? You mean like a confrontation simulation? It is very helpful. Because of these thoughts I learned a lot about myself and humans in general. But what is to be learned in the end. That humans are animals. That killing is a part of survival? OK. What I want is a peaceful mind that isn't paranoid

@neutralempty Thank you For six months now. But most likely this isn't even half the way. I will see...

I mean that I use a very low chelator dose, which could either mean that I have a high body burden of mercury (and maybe other metals too) or that my organs are overtaxed and can only excrete very little mercury at a time. Maybe it's both

@neutralempty I had a good time approximately one month after I removed my amalgams, but chelation has shown me that I have a lot of mercury in me. Or that I my liver and kidneys are weak

Hi everyone There is something about spiritual work that concerns me a lot. This may be just a rant about things I do not understand, but for me this are serious questions. Bodily and mental ailments are reducing ones awareness or richness of consciousness a lot. How should one get more conscious and stay istay that way, when things like this happen: Bodily discomfort like back pain reduces clarity of perception What if someone has chronic pain or disfunctions that do not go away even with therapy? Phases of more severe ADHD and brain fog hamper awareness What if someone has persistent cognitive impairments? Mental exhaustion from intelectual work, like studying or programming etc. reduces consciousness How should someone work hard if needed and stay very conscious? Emotional states like: social anxiety or other phobias, frustration because of personal setbacks, confusion because of things overwhelm you How should one get more conscious when these emotions reduce ones awareness or even lead to disinterestet in spiritual work and life in general? Tiredness reduces consciousness. How to be aware and doze off at the same moment? Sleep is like non-existence. Where is consciousness here? What if someone suffers a head trauma or a stroke? How to have high consciousness then? You get the idea. The body and mind are constantly under attack and compromised. You can do alot to reduce or heal bodily ailments. You can structure your life to have more stable emotions and get tired less frequent. But in the end consciousness seems like a fleeting and unstable thing for me. This hampers my motivation for spiritual work. What are your perspectives on this? Do you have ailments that limit your spiritual work? Does consciousness seem to be fleeting for you? Or have you managed to transcend this vulnerabilities?

@neutralempty Mercury does take decades to get out of your brain on its own. With other parts of your body it's faster.

How is past and future happiness of any value, if there is nothing but the moment? I find it quite humorous when people talk about how good their time WAS

@Nyseto So, this means when I get tired, everything gets retracted because my experience is less rich, and when I fall asleep, literally everything stops to exist? If consciousness stays the same, this must be the case, or not?

You can use music as a powerful tool to motivate yourself. When you're at home, lying in bed and have bad thought loops, go for a walk. It may be hard to pull yourself up, but being confined in a room for hours with depressing thoughts is not good. You can listen to a podcast or music while you're outside. Instead of going online and opening porn you can just blow your load quickly, don't argue with your porn-addicted brain. It's less taxing for you that way and if you do this for a time your brain gets rewired. Porn addiction will cease. To identify why you might feel so bad and for ways to improve your mood I would recommend "The End Of Mental Illness" by Daniel G. Amen. May be a eye opener for possible causes of your depressive mood.

Better ask the Cutler Protocol Facebook group.

@JonasVE12 Going by symptoms is the best way. Experimenting with supplements is a good idea too. My liver is overwhelmed right now, thats why I warned you. In case of overburdened liver, if you run into that problem while in the dump phase, switching to DMPS or DMSA can be a smart move, because they chelate via the kidneys. I wish you a smooth and rather quick detoxification

Be carefull about the dosage. Only after a few rounds will you really feel if your dose is right, because mercury gets stirred up in your body. I thought 15mg would be alright for me, because I only had two tiny fillings. Now six months later, I'm down to 5mg and consider to go even lower. It's very important to go slow, otherwise you can overwhelm your organs, most likely adrenals and liver. Even if your a little bit faster, it does not pay off to live 6 months to 3 years in hell for that.

What is aim with all your posts about Iraqi politics? This is not a forum for geopolitical gossip. This forum is about self actualization and how to reach higher consciousness. Politics should be viewed in that light too. If you want to spread political gossip and propaganda use a forum for political affairs and geopolitics for that.

Mercury has a long half-life in your organs. It is not easily detoxed by your body. First of all, get every amalgam-filling out of your mouth first (as secure as possible). Then, do bite-wing x-rays to check for amalgam residues, thats very important. Post them there: https://www.facebook.com/groups/acfanatics/ On this forum there are experienced dentists who can easily spot residues. Furthermore, there is all the information you need to detox from a mercury poisoning on it. Then, do a chelation round with alpha-lipoic-acid(ALA). Chelators pick up metal ions in your body and transport them to your liver/kidneys. Take 50mg of it every three hours (every four hours at night) for three days. If you get some nasty side effects, thats because ALA is moving mercury around. Do a couple of rounds until you are sure you get symptoms (headaches, brain fog, fatigue). Increase your dose by 50mg each time until you reach 200mg. If you feel nothing while doing chelating rounds with 200mg of ALA, mercury isn't a problem for you.

@Consept *cough* 1,6 million people dying with an detectable viral load, most of them in normal dying age *cough*

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Hitler saw himself as the spiritual father of Germany, who had to protect and bring up his children to survive in a world in which only the strongest survive ahtoyouth.mp4

Not only in the hands of people, but bought from goverments. The thing is, that goverments are already committing to buy billions of doses. https://launchandscalefaster.org/COVID-19