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Recently I got hold of a gram of Ketamine. Funnily enough, Leo released a video on this substance as it was on it’s way to me. After experimenting with Ketamine in several settings the days before, like watching videos, listening to music and using it on a rave, I got more serious this time and consumed it just before a meditation session. I might have had a slight tolerance at this point, but the dosage was my second biggest one too. I do not meditate consistently at the moment, so the specific effect of Ketamine for this purpose is highlighted, I think. After preparing my body for an extended time of sitting I took 50 mg nasally, than I went to my bedroom, got into position and closed my eyes. Slowly and comfortably the effects set in. The main effect on me was not mentally, but physically. Eyes closed, Ketamine has a very prominent body load for me. The experience of space is distorted. The distance of my extremities warped to be closer together or further away. My body rested very firmly in its position without feeling an itch or discomfort somewhere. I felt very relaxed and comfortable, much more than usually when meditating. The pressure from the ground or in my back was almost unnoticeable. This is no surprise, since Ketamine is used as an anesthetic. The distortion of sounds was prominent as well. The sounds of passing cars in the back where pulsating and sounded more like waves hitting a shore. At the same time I got a light tinnitus sound, the loudness of which correlated with the intensity of the trip. Mentally, Ketamine gave me a little euphoria at first, which did not hold for long. It slowed down my thinking process, but not in an very significant way. Time progresses slower than usual. Ketamine has a little psychedelic hint to it, but I did not have visual hallucinations. The most prominent effect was the experience of introversion. I was sort of in a different realm and did not feel connected to the outside world at all. Together with the warping of my physical sensation this stopped abruptly after opening my eyes. For some reason I got the urge to think about problems in my life after the peak has passed. Maybe because I was expecting more antidepressant effects and now wanted to force something. But thinking against the grain of Ketamine's mind slowing effect did not yield much. After 30 to 40 minutes the effects started to become a little uncomfortable. I noticed my heart rate increasing as did the pace of other physical sensations. Opening my eyes I noticed how everything I looked at moved up, like when you are very drunk and cannot focus your eyes on anything. I then proceeded to lie on my back as I came down from the substance. Ketamine's main effects only last for approximately 45 minutes for me, which is rather short, but the after effects can drag on for hours. Right after the Ketamine trips I did, I got hungry and slightly melancholic. This seems a little odd for me. Mentally Ketamine is a little disappointment for me. It neither lead to no-mind, nor did it gave me a strong antidepressant effect. Ketamine did help to slow things down, enable my body to stay in sitting position comfortably and gave me a very introverted experience. But it did not lead a deep meditative state on its own. Like in normal meditation practice I feel like I have to little “brain power” to be still inside. If I take MDMA for example, I get closer to no mind than I did on Ketamine. Being on Ketamine with eyes opened is very different from the experience of it having the eyes closed. The first being like a different kind of drunkenness the latter more resembling a “trip”.

It didn't produce nausea for me. In the contrary, it me a little hungry

@Leo Gura @halfknots I might give a higher dosage a try in the future. Some aspects of the trip where quite intense und uncomfortable already.

@Arcangelo Hm, but I'm otherwise too healthy to get tonsillitis I fear

I wish too. Great gameplay, art style and soundtrack.

@Akashic What about piracy?

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Sadly, yesterday I relapsed. I felt agitated and restless the last days and fought against constant cravings. As time went on I tried to calm myself with cannabis, cbd oil, sugary snacks, but these things didn't bring me any relieve. In the end, I didn't see, what worth there is in denying myself the only drug I know to reliably and effectively halt this agitation. I do not want to take prescribtion medication on a daily basis. That would be the obvious alternative. It seems, that I have to detox enough and do other things to reduce my physical and mental discomfort sufficently. I do not feel like drinking this day, which is at least something positive

Yesterday however I had moments of stronger cravings. I felt agitated because of a round of mercury detoxification. Especially as I was going out for a walk I had vivid thoughts about where the next supermarket is and what drink to buy. If only my mind could produce strong thoughts that lead in directions I want to go.

In the first week I had no problem at all. There was no craving, I felt relatively good.

@JoshuaBell Your problem could be heavy metal poisoning. Not uncommon these days. Your individual problems point to it. Leo has a video on it and there are many resources here too. If it is, then nothing will help much other than detoxing.

Heal yourself first and then help others.

Start with a low dose and increase gradually. It might be that your bodies chemistry is disrupted, which is the case with heavy metal toxic people. Starting to high with supplements could mobilize your system too fast. Also make sure you are taking as high of a quality of supplements as you can afford. You wouldn't wonder if your gut has troubles after cheap food. And in my experience, zinc on an empty stomach, especially in the morning can cause nausea and vomiting. Happened to me a couple of times. So take it with food, I'm sure more of it gets absorbed with it too. If nausea sets in, eating a little bit like a fruit can help.

Yesterday I had my first big test, since quitting alcohol again. I was visiting a friend. We drove into the woods and hiked a little to some waterfall. It was a beautiful scenery. Later we drove to his home and listened to some music, played video games and chatted. He offered me beer, put I declined. it wasn't hard. But I have to say that we smoked some weedbefore, so I already was intoxicated. I almost always drank alcohol the last years when visiting friends, so this is not too insignificant. Cannabis should not get a replacement though.

What about your mind picking out this number because it satnds out? How often do you look at numbers, clock time without seeing this number?

@Wildcattt555 What do you know about Leos personal life? There can be many undiclosed reasons why he changes. You don't even know him personally, but since he shares a bit of his personal life, you think to know exactly what is going '"wrong" with him. Concerning your topic title? Do you have direct experience of what heavy metals do to your psyche? These are prime examples of symptoms you get when you chelate heavy metals. They get slowly released from their reservoirs in the body (mostly brain) and interfere with the bodies chemistry (neurotransmitters, hormones, enzymes, vitamins, etc) This could be one reason for the things you mentioned. But do I know exactly if it's a problem fro him? No.

In my opinion Sadhguru formulates his sentences in his Youtube talks in a way that is not completely true to his understanding. This has two reasons, I think. First he has a big audience and out of his big responsibility he sees how mystical talk can lead people to, as he says, "hallucinate" potentially harmful or at least counterproductive things up. Secondly, he sees himself as a device for transforming the world. At this scope you have to be particullary careful about PR. It seemed quite obvious to me in the past, and in the section about alien entities he even mentioned that he doesn't want to talk about such things. It is especially obvious, when he uses contemporary science in his explanations, because he knows that almost everyone is a this stage of seeing the world. He tries to give advice to westerners in his Youtube videos. If you want deeper talks from Sadhguru, I'm sure he offers them in certain books, his exclusive video platform (yeah there is such athing) and at his many yoga centers.

@Javfly33 Maybe you have adrenal fatigue masking as coffee addiction

This eurocentric group think is going on in this forum too

In my opinion, the more stable you are, the more adult you are.

@hello1234 You already made a thread about this topic. Stop spamming!

Male and female perspective clashing

Explaine Sweden to me Don't you think that Russia has no military-industrial-complex and deep state. Putin might be a powerful guy, but he is only that, one guy. Maybe he doesn't even want to do this 100%, but is advised to do.

I like your way of thinking. You seem curious and willing to appreciate reality. But be aware that everything has consequences. Watching people suffer will have consequences on your mind. The images will stick on your mind and maybe will come up in inappropriate times. Your emotions might get disturbed.