BornToBoil

Crap, I relapsed... But I am not going to give up and go on a week long binge now. I am going to get up and start again immidiately. I will definitely do it this time. Hello day zero!

Some relationships motivation to keep going:

Today's "pull day" routine: 1. High Pullups: 4, 4, 4, 4, 4, 4 (3-4 mins rest) 2. Upside Down Deadlifts: 4, 4, 2 (3-4 minutes rest) 3. Pullups: 11, 7, 5 (90-120s rest) 4. Toes To Bar: 8, 5, 3 (1 min rest) 5. Reverse Ring Flies: 8, 8, 8 (90-120s rest) 6. Just Climbing Around Notes: - Going to keep this routine for future workouts while switching between upside down deadlifts and dragonflags. - Comoression strength focus while doing toes to bar, trying to not raise the hips - Focus on keeping 90* angle in the upside down deadlift starting position - Skipped stretching/yoga session today, mainly because of laziness Edit: Decided to stop telling myself excuses and just did the stretching session anyway:

Want to keep the record of my workouts, training goals and progress here

Probably what's even more challenging than porn cravings is the feeling of loneliness and desire for intimacy that sometimes comes up. Usually I would just numb it with porn and jerking off but now I have to deal with it myself.

Day 5 was the hardest by far. I guess withdrawal symptoms finally kicked in. Didn't have any motivation to do anything. Literally, I didn't even want to do stuff that I would usually use to procrastinate like watching youtube or tv shows, lol. Still pushed myself to workout and meditate as planned though. Also, I had a dream about having sex last night, but not a wet dream (thankfully). The other thing that worries me a bit is that I stopped caring about what I was considering to be my life purpose. Now I am not sure anymore. I think that if I found my real life purpose, those withdrawal symptoms and other bullshit woupdn't matter and that what happened was that I was able to look at the situation with the cool head and realized that it's not what I want to dedicate my life to.

Haven't done anything in the morning because I woke up at 10 am and it's not fun to do a morning routine at 10 am... Was experimenting with exercises for a leg day. Tried "box" jumps and sprints, but had some lower back pain afterwards. I guess I will have to focus only on strength and mobility for a while. This routine for lower back pain: And this for hip mobility and flexibility:

@Tanz Sounds so complicated, haha. But I will try, thank you!

What is the best way to breathe? In his video, Leo said: "make sure that you not only breathing into your chest, but also down into your belly". It's hard for me to breathe both through the chest and through the belly because it makes me break the tempo unless I breathe like super slow. And if I breathe only through the belly I am getting tired much quicker (around 5 minutes mark) and my inhales are much more shallow. So what should I do? Just don't bother and breathe through the chest? Try to move my breath down from chest to the belly very slowly until I build the technique? Breathe only through the belly until I get used to breathing this way? What are the benefits of breathing through the belly anyway? Everyone seems to say that you should breathe through the belly (like in yoga routines or breathing exercises on youtube), but I don't understand why is it considered to be a superior way of breathing?

@aurum I don't know if I am doing something wrong but when I take a full breath with my chest, there's no way for me to breathe some more air in. But when I first take a full breath with my belly, I can still take a bit of air in with my lungs. Also, how is WHM different from shamanic breathing? If you take away cold exposure and holding your breath and do it for the same time, the technique itself and its effects should be pretty similar, no? The only difference I can find is that Leo said there should be no pauses between exhale and inhale.

I think that quitting porn and masturbation caused me to have insomnia. I have had trouble going to bed on time for the past week or so I wonder how common it is... Or maybr I am making it all up and I can't fall asleep for some other reason, haha And of course that's when cravings usually come up. But it's ok, I will deal with it and come out stronger than before!

1) Get rid of porn and masturbation addiction 2) Get an experience in dating/relationships, find a girlfriend 3) Move away from my parents 4) Learn web-development 5) Create a source of monthly income 6) Completely clean up my skin, get rid of acne 7) Get an operation to improve eyesight

Starting points Strength - Wall assisted hspu with half range of motion - High pull up approximately to the solar plexus - 12 pullups - Dragon flag with bend knees or full dragon flag with shitty form

Training program Here is the main training schedule around which I am going to build everything else: - Monday: pull + forward folding - Tuesday: push + chest and shoulders - Wednesday: legs + hips - Thursday: rest - Friday: pull + forward folding - Saturday: push + chest and shoulders - Sunday: legs + hips So there will be two sessions during the day (main workout + flexibility). Apart from that I am going to add different stuff like morning routines, breathwork, yoga, whenever I feel like it. As far as routines for each day go, I will come up with them after about a week of experimentation.

My Goals Strength Training - Handstand pushup - High pullup to the waist level withiut using my legs - 20 pullups with perfect form - Full dragon flag Flexibility - Full pancake - Comfortable lotus pose on each side General - Making progress despite taking accutane while not fucking up my body - Healing chest pain - Exploring different styles of yoga and breathwork

@Porphyry Fedotov Thanks

@Forestluv I see, thanks. Btw, I saw your first post disappear. Did you delete it or did I click something accidentally? If it was me, sorry, haha.

@SamueLSD I guess that's what i was doing wrong. I trued to fill up my belly too much and it was kind of uncomfortable in the long term. @Forestluv Thanks for the expanded answer. Should I try breathing like that (with both belly and chest expanding) throughout the day? I have found this really cool channel on youtube about yoga and breathwork but watched only a few videos so far. @Tanz Hi, so are you suggesting me to engage those muscles more during the shamanic breathing practice? Or work on them separately?

@Preety_India It's so cool! I would like to live in a place like that ))

@Daphnedenninghoff23 I guess it's possible if you are brave enough

Stupid thought You have never had sex before and won't have it for a veeery long time, so just give up, settle for what you have and enjoy some porn! Response Porn addiction is one of the main reasons for why I am where I am. What would it tell about me if I decided to settle for the life of jerking off to porn instead of deciding to out in hard work and growing myself? It would mean that I am pathetic, unambitious weakling who is ok with living a life worthy if a pathetic unambitious weakling. It would mean that all those grand dreams and visions for my life that I have are worth nothing. It would mean that I will never achieve or do anything trully great in my life. Never be able to experience the greatest things that this existence has to offer. Because a person who is not able to give up freaking porn to reach his goals, definitely won't be able to face even more difficult and demanding challenges ahead.

Insights For me quitting porn is much more then simply transcending sexual craving. I discovered that I used porn for much more than that. I often used to watch porn to deal with all sorts strong negative emotions or difficult situations in life. It was basically a perfect escape and a painkiller for me. Feeling bad? Got a bad day? Bam! And you are lying in your bed completely apathetic to everything with a bit of melancholy. Turn on some nice sad music and you can enjoy pitying yourself to sleep. If I want to successfully quit porn and masturbation I need to learn how to face and deal with all those emotions and difficult situations myself. Deconstructing Lies And Negative Thoughts My addicted brain often comes up with all sorts of negative, self-demeaning thoughts and lies to make me go back to porn, I know they are wrong deep inside but still get affected by them when I am in a state of weakness. So I have decided to break them down here while I am able to think clearly.

@datamonster he is not famous, but Gabo Saturno is a nice example of stong, masculine and kind man.