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@mandyjw that's a beautiful answer thank you.

@Nahm i assume you mean that there are no persons at all? From the perspective of someone that believes that other persons are real as myself there is an enlightened person not because they say they are but because you can see it in their eyes and from the way they act. How does one realize that other persons are not real? I don't mean their ego but their physical form as well as all physical forms. Does something being imaginery necessarily mean that it's not real? Do i mental masturbate too much? Will it even lead somewhere if i do?

@Jirh if i said i have tried it i would be lying. Kind of hard if you have to wake up very early for work though.

@Meta-Man i see. Thank you

@Megan Alecia of course but it's also not so simple. I experienced so much negativity from others in my life that i don't think i can tolerate it anymore. Ideally i would handpick the people i want in my life. I currently can do this only to an extent. There are many situations that i can't avoid. My motive behind this is selfish. I want to create a good life. To do this i need to go above and beyond by taking action. Now i know how to take effective action but to do this and sustain it i need energy. My energy is raised by living heathier and then situations keep arising that completely drain my energy. My energy is not unlimited and is needed to stay focused at creating stuff. Negative people rob my energy and i need to stop it from happening.

@Preety_India thank you I really appreciate your answer you are right.

@Preety_India i agree 100%. However it's not only about people saying things to me. I can handle this most of the time. It's about all negativity. What about when a person close to you is very depressed? I can't do much to help. If you see this kind of thing in different forms for years it affects you whether you want it or not and it becomes your burden when you keep seeing it and can't remove yourself from the different situations. @Heaven thank you. Actually the other question i asked and you answered was because i thought about this question more deeply. If you are not your ego anymore of course nothing can affect you. This is the ultimate solution for not being affected by others. This sounds good and all but what happens if this happens? What will happen is very unpredictable. I think i read this somewhere maybe it was a quote from an actualized video: it's all fun and games until someone loses an ego. Someone might find this funny because they don't really understand what i mean but i'm scared of losing an ego. Maybe i'm not ready to lose an ego. How will i know? Should i climb the maslow's pyramid first for example? How dangerous is it to be egoless when your life is not already in place?

Being in accordance with one's values, being a creator and create value, help other people and not having to work for a boss ever again. What you said makes sense and i agree. What i'm not sure about and the reason i'm asking this question is that i'm not sure that without an ego the values will stay in place. Maybe it won't matter anymore. Maybe creating a business will not be a priority. Maybe even my health won't be a priority. In this way i consider it dangerous. This is my ego making sure that my life will work just fine without it. All i'm doing is trying to understand if i even want to go deep with this work.

@UNZARI thank you i will try it

@LfcCharlie4 cool! Did you just thought about the projects? Or is this the kind of books you publish?

Cool. Yes of course they are a great resource. It's just that me as someone that has 0 knowledge on the subject if i really want to gain some understanding i have to walk blindly and lose time or get lost with bad information etc. I almost always prefer a good quality book or course as an introduction.

@LfcCharlie4 well building some wealth is the goal behind it but i'm asking if you know a resource that teaches how to invest in crypto while understanding what you are doing.

@Loving Radiance could you give an example? I don't quite get what you mean. Do you mean to add things that seem so impossible to me that maybe they would be possible if i worked at them for 500 years? @Nahm will do Of course. This is something i realized before but also keep completely forgeting. Side tracked by life. I am in the middle of doing an exercise from a book. I already made a list with everything i want, making sure that i really want these things and choosing the results. This list will get transferred on the board once it arrives.

@fridjonk i see. I just thought you done it already because you wrote attempting another x60 hit. Yeah it must be as close as you can get to hell if it becomes a bad trip haha. But yeah for me this was a long time ago and had no xp other than weed and had no idea what i was getting into. That said i couldn't stop exploring it for a week. Maybe another stupid thing to do but i was young and foolish. I don't regret it though.

Sorry for jumping in here i haven't read your journal. I just wanted to comment on this x60 salvia trip. Man you have balls. I would never attempt that. My only worthwhile experiences with psychedelics in general were with x10 and they were extremely intense. Could i ask how it was like?

I think i get it now... As why this is so important. The first time i found this thread it really confused me. A book cleared things up a bit. Of course we create non stop. My addicted gamer's perspective helped me understand this a bit better. My addiction comes in phases. I did it while i was taking the rest i needed. The next phase is action based. So if i play a game at first i just play it. If i feel that the game i am playing is one of the best ever made and i absolutely love it i commit earning all the achievements even if they seem impossible. I don't care what anybody thinks about this, i deeply enjoy it. I try to see life as a game. The purpose that resonated with me and i chose is to make games. This doesn't come only from my addiction. I created art that maybe sucked in another form in the past, i couldn't help it. The medium is just different. I know the joy of creating something new and sharing it with others. It's possible for everybody to build the skills necessary to create in whatever form. So what is the difference in this case between my favorite games and the life game? My favorite games have an achievement list in place that i look to see what's next. If i don't have an idea of how to get a particular achievement i look it up ? My life game has not any achievements in place to look at and see what's next. My purpose is to make this list myself and also be a completionist. If i absolutely loved the game of life i would strive to get every achievement just because i deeply enjoy it! I could also have some fun with this. Of course i also need to be careful with what achievement i create. For example i could write bought a company i was working in and fired everybody. Haha not even gonna bother but maybe these types of achievements could help create a game. I am convinced to buy a board and make my achievements board. I just think that this style would fit my personality better. I still feel that i need to hold back by writing things on it just because other people are gonna see it. The will judge me and my ego will get butthurt. I know that i shouldn't care. Np i just found a solution. I can be as creative with my list of achievements as i want. I can write them in a way that only i understand. It's nobody's business to understand. I already know that having a dreamboard is more important and far more effective than i think. Thank you @Nahm

Thank you. Now i need to find a board to buy

I know that i have repressed anger that maybe accumulated for most of my life. In my everyday life i'm actually calm and can control my emotions more or less but this prevents me from doing things. It's also the lockdown and many other things. I only lately noticed that it's there. How can i release this? Trying to just feel it is not enough because it's deep. I can't even feel it but i know that its there and that is strong. Just a book recomendation would be very helpful.

got it thanks. I guess what people have to say or what they will think is not as important as creating this life. I can't really know how effective this is unless i try it.

@Nahm it's time to do it then! The only reason i haven't so far is because i don't want people coming to my place look at it. Should it be in front of me most of the time? Will drawing things i want to add in a notebook do? Is it ok if i do it in onenote? What i am asking is if there is a more private alternative than having everything i want to create there for all to see. I started drawing the things i want. I can't draw, time to learn. I will also keep a private journal to write everything i want. If i like a drawing i will put it on the wall. It's not a board but maybe it will be effective.

@Nahm always cutting to the chase thank you The funny thing is that i know how to enter a higher state at will. I hope that this doesn't sound foolish. That said i very rarely bother to do this. Somewhere i decided that it's dangerous. The question is why don't i? I think the reason is fear. Or should i accept that really there is no controlling and just need to see it? Is there even a choice to create? Or what to create? Is the idea of embracing my ego bullshit? I don't want to be just blank. I want to have a healthy personality that has no problem creating stuff. But my ego comes along with all this baggage. @Loving Radiance thank you i kind of tried it but to express my anger is not really what i want. As i said i usually don't even feel it. I could feel some of it if i don't smoke for a long time.. What i want to do is to unroot it completely. Maybe the only way is to do it gradually as it shows up.

@LfcCharlie4 thanks! I was going to ask about this. Are there any other resources you recommend other than youtube? A course or a book for example?

Thank you this is very interesting i will give it a try.

@Mada_ he does say to clean your room.

Thanks. I plan to read all of his books sometime but first i'm gonna finish the one i'm reading and maybe some more from the booklist. But i will check it out the tittle sure is interesting.