Bogdan

@Gabith Letting go of all that suppression and allowing myself to be the horny monster that i am has greatly improved the quality of my life. Now I can jerk off to porn and then immediately work out, or meditate, or go out, or whatever. Sometimes the body just craves to see another beautiful, sexy body. I think it's good to satisfy that need and then go about my day. Depending on what you are doing with your life currently. Again, there is a time and place for abstinence. Certainly people have done exceptionally in life without worrying about retaining their semen and not seeing boobies. Ultimately, the solution is to be conscious that every "thing" is yourSelf. And also to understand how the emotional guidance system works, i would say.

@catcat69123 Agreed. Thank you brother!

A little bit of context: I am a 26 yo musician from Romania. At 20 I dropped out of the music academy because i didn't want to do classical music, and i started making money playing bass and backing vocals in a cover band. The band fell apart, and so i put music completely on standby and I moved to another city in Romania, where i started lifting weights, watching Leo, meditating and doing psychedelics. I went from being a mess, a scientific materialist, smoking cigarettes and wasting time all day, to being fit and having mystical experiences and awakenings. i studied Leo's work, bought the LP course, studied spirituality and fitness basically all day, every day. All these years i didn't need to get a job, because my mom has a big enough retirement thing that i could afford to live with my friends and focus on awakening, studying fitness, training and experimenting with my body, as well as training friends, and more recently socializing & talking to girls. Since the pandemic, i got into another band with some great musicians, but it also fell apart... (fucking musicians ). So i'm back to living with my mom again. And here i am at 26, broke, with some skills, but basically no "real" work experience. So i'm at a point in my life where: - i see everything as God/Love/ME!/infinity, and i wish to continue my exploration of 5-meo and psychedelics - i want to help people with their health, to change the way people approach exercise/training and relate to their body, to chelate heavy metals and to basically prime their body and mind for psychedelic exploration - i also have to admit that playing music is something that i selfishly enjoy doing very much, especially singing. And that it's something that i have always been sort of exceptional and praised in since i was little. I very often get the response "i would kill to have your talent and skill, and you're pissing it away" - i want to move to a big city to talk to lots of girls and people in general, because i was extremely introverted and antisocial all my life, so this is a priority Possible solutions that i've found: 1.MOVE NOW, STOP WASTING TIME - have balls and move to Amsterdam NOW, working 2 jobs if i have to, anything just to move out from my mom's and from this country - try to get hired as a Personal Trainer from the start - i could play guitar and sing in clubs or on the street - i could sleep in my car and in the meantime, - explore 5-meo - send all my friends, family and acquaintances free, cutting edge flexibility & strength videos - start a romanian AND/OR english youtube channel(s) about health & psychedelics, as well as instagram and all that (i was thinking romanian, because there are plenty of great channels in english, but none in romanian. But again, that's up for debate in my mind) - start an online flexibility & strength coaching business - obtain financial independence - continue to grow and evolve my business and channels into something that will help society use psychedelics wisely SHOULD I: - stay in the country a little longer - get a job delivering food and gather some money - in the meantime train clients in a commercial gym - build the online flexibility & strength business - and only then move to Amsterdam??? - or move already and just do it??? ALSO: - where does music fit into all of this? does it fit at all?? The reason i wanted Amsterdam is because it's in the heart of Europe, 5-meo and all sorts of psychedelics are legal there, and there are a TON of tourists. I wish to ask where am i limited in my thinking? Requisite Variety, am i right? Maybe my life will move in a totally unexpected direction. But that's basically it. I hope i gave you enough relevant information and didn't include too many unnecessary details. I await your responses

I feel inspired to leave this last comment on here: Usually i contemplate things on my own and refrain from posting on the forum. But with this subject i gave myself a "permission slip", and it was very helpful. It's ultimately not about me, little Bogdan doing music and sport. It's about broadening my perspective and identity all the way to God, and realizing that I AM music and I AM sport. Thus thinking with a higher brain wave thing scientifically. "Raising my vibration". Overcoming fear and becoming more selfless, and having better quality thoughts and taking wiser decisions from that place. That's it for now. Namaste. Love y'all!

it's not just about music tho ... i want to create the most amazing VIDEOS or even a VR GAME or a DOCUMENTARY! That explain Love and God and Infinity and PSYCHEDELICS!!! And music/sound is plays a BIG, BIG role in that. And that general direction is how everything starts to come together Holy shit...

It's funny how i realize time and time again that i don't contemplate this stuff seriously and hard enough. And i fancied myself as "one of the hard working ones" I contemplated basically non-stop these past few days, and i realized what i really want is to be able to make my own music. It's so clear now! It's so obvious that it got overlooked it's not JUST that, of course. But this is THE one main thing that i ACHE to master! It's just that i'm pretty far away from having the skill to materialize what i actually have in my head. It's such a daunting task, that i was desperately trying to find a way out. It will take years and years. Maybe decades. But no matter how long it takes, it'll be worth it!!! And the health and trainer stuff is super important, because musicians have such shitty lifestyles... my back would ache so much! But back to work! Thanks, you guys!! And thanks Leo for Actualized.org and this amazing forum!

@supremeyingyang @aurum Thanks guys, imma take some action and see where it goes

@puporing Thank you for the reply No matter what i do, i'm sure i want to move. Music as i said, is one of those things that everybody loses their minds about - "oh, you're a musician?!? That's SO cool! I WISH i could be a musician, you're so lucky!" Everyone is trying to make me feel guilty for considering doing something else.

@mmKay i was wondering mainly about the whole cadmium and alkaline urine thing. Maybe a high meat diet prevents cadmium from being excreted? Or maybe that isn't a concern at all

Do you have any insights with regards to chelation and a high meat/high protein diet?

Is chelation a concern while eating a more meat-based diet? I recently bought a bunch of DMSA and did my first round. And i heard that cadmium needs alkaline urine to be evacuated. My concern is that i recently moved away from a plant-based diet and started experimenting for the first time with eating lots of steak, chicken leg, eggs and milk, which are more acidic, i guess? What has been your guys' experience with eating carnivore(-ish) and chelation? @Leo Gura

i relate to this. For me it took several years. Although it's an ongoing journey, i feel like the hardest part is the beginning, when you're not used to how things work. In the beginning, about 8-9 years ago, i read Eckhart Tolle for the first time and i had a strong intuition that this was really important. I sort of made up my mind right there and then that i will understand this stuff COMPLETELY. Since then, life has been throwing me around in so many directions, it often seemed random and chaotic. But what i would say that i did right, was keeping this curiosity and that commitment to fully understanding this "problem" of life. The most value for me was studying a shit ton of spiritual teachers and masters, different perspectives, as well as basic self-help and contemplating, visualizing, psihedelics, all the good stuff. Basically all the stuff Leo recommends. Actualized.org basically is an awesome catalog of all the stuff you need to live the good life. And if you follow it properly, you will develop your own strong, successful, charismatic, intuitive, wise, loving self. It just takes more time than you think, and it's harder than you think. Once you understand and accept that, and fully commit to the journey, it becomes 50% easier, and infinitely more enjoyable. Which also comes slowly, over time Good luck!

@mmKay thanks, mate!

@mmKay While i wait the accept for the ACC group, could you tell me why are the core 4 supplements necessary, and are they an absolute must?

@PurpleTree I'm researching the shit out of chelation and i suggest you do the same. Thoroughly.

Yes, every 3 hours.

@PurpleTree i just got mine today on the bottle it says between 10 and 30mg per kg of body weight. Leo recommends 30mg per kg of bw. I am 80kg so i would need 2400 a day. That's 300mg every hour, but only have 200mg pills. I will be taking just 200mg, every 3 hours, including at night, for 4 days, that's 8 pills per 24h, so 32 pills for the 4 days. You have to do a week of pause afterwards. After that you can try do another round. I don't know how many of these rounds back to back you can do.

Not exactly

I was addicted and have smoked daily for a few years, up until a year or two ago. Then i started having month long breaks from it, but would end up smoking again, maybe just once, or 2-3 days in a row, followed by another month or couple weeks of no smoking. It was really tough breaking the addiction. I even was born with sensitive lungs and i always ended up smoking until i simply could not do it physically anymore. Leo's video on wisdom was a major help to make me see how dull my mind was from all the years of smoking. The thing that kept me coming back was weed works really well with me. I've had several awakenings on weed. But only if i do it rarely, though. As soon as i did it two days in a row, it would feel like i was a drunk. Incongruent and unwise. Plus, here in my country weed is pretty much the best you can get most of the time. Very rarely i get hold of some acid. Although i did some more research and i can order 5meo MALT here, so that's pretty awesome, i'm having pre-trip jitters already Anyway, the smoking part is by far the worst. And i had to stop that IMMEDIATELY. And the solution i came up with was - TEA!!! I couldn't believe i didn't think of that sooner. I decarboxylate it for 40 minutes at 110 degrees CELSIUS and then i let it simmer in water with a tablespoon of butter for another 40 minutes and now i can use weed without smoking. And i haven't smoked it for months and months and i won't EVER get into the habit again. One last thing: making tea/edibles is WAY different. It's WAY better and lasts WAY longer. It's almost like a lower dose acid trip. For me it comes up at about the 1-2 hour mark, and it keeps building up for another 2-3 hours, the peek lasts a bit and then it slowly comes down for another few hours. So i treat it exactly like i would a psychedelic. Weed is completely changed for me, and i agree with Leo. When i'll have access to better substances i'll probably use it very rarely, if ever. And NOT recreationally. Hope this helps

If i really have to pick just one thing that would be Myself, My Existence. Many things tear me up, but none like this. The sheer MIRACLE of HOLY MOTHERFUCKIN SHITBALLS - I ACTUALLY AM INFINITY AND I ACTUALLY AM!!!!!!! Because of this, i can cry whenever i want it's like my superpower Edit: i just realized that maybe the question was about life in a more relative sense, like content-wise. Which is interesting, this assignment is no joke My mind keeps going to stuff like : "I love seeing the lucid dream nature of life and i love seeing God's wisdom in everything, especially the body. I LOVE how the body NEEDS stuff each body needs a bit of social, art, creativity, sport, spirituality, in different proportions for each individual. It's SO FUN having limitations and actually being able to overcome them and such" But i feel like that's beating around the bush a bit. My mind is perhaps avoiding giving a concrete answer. I'll contemplate this more seriously.

@KennedyCarter and everyone else, if you're interested in the training part of things. Cheers!

I have studied the fitness industry for at least 5 years on my own now, and finally i found the guys that make the most sense, and actually have the experience and client results to back everything up. So without further ado, i invite you to search for Lucas Aaron @rangeofstrength, and Jeffrey Wolf @theflexibull on IG. I've made a post some time ago about flexibility where i've mentioned them, but now i actually have been working with Lucas for the past 5 weeks and As far as i'm concerned, this is the golden standard for fitness. These guys have been out there in the trenches actually training people day in day out for over 10 years, themselves being mentored by the best in their field, and all their clients consistently get results (they are friends and no matter which one you pick you will be getting top quality stuff, although they have each their own unique spin to it. I personally went with Lucas, because he also offers "Old Time Strongman" programs). You can go on IG to see for yourselves, but let me explain a bit why how they work is so awesome You get an app, and all your workouts are scheduled and in each workout you have video tutorials (which are exceptionally well explained) for each exercise. Everybody will generally start with The Milestones System, which includes 3 main programs: The Basics Program, The Graduate Program, and Feats of Range Program. Each program has multiple 6 week phases, which build on top of each other. After completing The Basics Program, you will acquire the following Milestones: (google them) Sagittal Plane: - palms to floor pike x 30sec - seated seiza x 60sec - long lunge x 30 sec - seated pike lift x 15sec Frontal Plane: - standing IR split x 30sec (you just hold one leg to the side with bent knees) - 3 step Horse Stance x 2min - standing pancake head to floor x 30sec - adductor lift x 10 reps @ 10% bw Shoulders & Spine - hanging strength x 60sec passive, 30sec active, 10sec one arm - elevated bridge hold x 30sec, vertical arms - prone y lift x 30sec, maintaining good alignment - loaded shoulder extension @ 10% bw within 50-60 degrees These are the BASIC milestones, and as you can see, they are not exactly a bodyweight squat or bench press or anything like that. They are simple, and may sound easy (and that's the point) but some of them are tough! Have you tried sitting in a proper horse stance for 2 minutes, or hang with just one arm? Or do you have a palms to floor pike at any time of day? Most people certainly cannot do those things. The Graduate Milestones includes stuff like Romanian Deadlifts x 5 reps @ 100% bodyweight and stuff like that. Further down the line you will work on Front and Side Splits, Back Bridge, Head to Toe and all sorts of cool stuff like that. If you choose. You can take on two programs at once. I personally am on the Feats of Range and Old Time Strength programs. (if you want to know more about old time strongman search for James R Fuller on IG and/or look up the Rogue documentaries on Arthur Saxon, George Hackenschmidt etc.) My favorite part is that you can chat with Lucas and one other coach at any time. They are really nice and answer any question (in a few hours, tipically) and encourage you to give as much feedback as possible. These guys REALLY know their anatomy. This is actual strength. But don't expect to see this stuff in the mainstream. Working hard for a long time on the boring basics isn't flashy enough for the mainstream. What catches peoples eyes are the big muscles and big numbers and BIG everything. Basically the fitness industry is dominated by steroid users who really specialize on one thing and get really good at it and then sell you their minimalist bias. They tell you to do ONLY powerlifting, or bodybuilding, or crossfit or stuff like that. Do ONLY kettlebells, they are the best, do ONLY calisthenics, it's all you need, or ONLY yoga, ONLY jump rope, etc. AND THAT WON'T WORK FOR MOST PEOPLE! THIS is THE reason people aren't consistent with the gym. They're not working on the basics, and so they either get injured or mentally fatigued. Because most people don't have to and don't want to train like a specialized athlete. Most people just want to enjoy life more and to get rid of their back pain! ...or at least that's what they actually want when they say they want to look better... because looking better will come inevitably. It will just take YEARS!!! Regardless, the best way (most holistic, in my opinion) to do that is to get more flexible, which means to get stronger, which will also give you a bit more cardiovascular fitness. Then you will feel like being more active, which will make it more likely to be around people more, and do your job/LP better and that will in turn boost your hormones up a bit and then you'll walk even more, and you'll get even more fit etc. you can see there are numerous compounding effects from there. Sure, in a sense it's easy to just do strength training, or just yoga, just stretching or just cardio. But what most people need is to be decent at all of them. And that's fucking HARD to figure all out on your own. Anyway this was my rant. Sorry, my posts always get too long This is a small but important part of my LP, so i'm overly enthusiastic about it. This is the way to train! Check them out, and ask me anything!

Great! Now for the muscles, lifting some weight is the answer, not more protein. Don't take protein powders, as they contain heavy metals n shiet.

I was eating and BOOM! the duality between INSIDE and OUTSIDE collapsed. I became conscious of how "outside the body" is actually "inside the body". It's like the Universe is the most awesome contortionist bending backwards, touching it's head to it's feet and then IT becomes that which is standing upon. It holds itself, it creates itself! And i saw something else - all this was accompanied by acid-like visuals. That's why i named this post how i did. It's like my mind responds to the insight, and for a moment i sort of zone out and that dreamlike, more fluid consciousness is allowed to surface. But it only lasts so little while "sober", because it's result is that zoning out. If the ego would let that happen at random, that would be VERY dangerous, lol. Imagine that happening while driving or something. Just to make a thing clear, i do not claim to be a special human with special powers. That's obviously ego... Just in case that needed to be said Infinite imagination will do what infinite imagination does The most similar thing to these sudden, short bursts of heightened consciousness is that tiny window just before you fall asleep at night, where consciousness relaxes and becomes more and more dreamy, impossible and random. It's just that while sober, you can actually "catch" the insights and translate them effectively into language. Plus, you have the visual symbolism to work with, which you can use to bypass the barrier of the conscious mind and integrate the insight right into your subconscious. (that's a thing i'm still researching though)

OH! THE SELF ACTUALIZATION JOURNALS SECTION! So this analogy just came to me about how far can one go with meditation alone vs psychedelics. There are some studies where some people imagined playing the piano, and some actually played the piano, or something like that. And what they found was that the ones playing in their imagination could learn piano just as well, and made synapses in their brain and stuff like that. The same goes with practicing anything. BUT one will never become a world-class pianist by never actually playing the piano. It's like concentration/meditation exercises are just that - EXERCISES, and they cannot substitute MAKING MUSIC, just like piano exercises cannot substitute making music. Psychedelics are a category of their own, and it's unfair to compare them to things like meditation.