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How did you handled the emotional pain and the feelings of dread? Not in general but in specific situations. Like, sometimes I’m driving or sleeping or whatever, and all of a sudden I feel that emotional pain. It’s like having a wound that all of a sudden starts bleeding.

I just hope that people that are into pick and/or dating around don’t create false illusions for others. For me is important to be honest, even with vague things like “I’m not ready for a relationship”.

This list is great. Would this apply to women as well?

I've been in therapy for a long time. I come from a red society where food, electricity and many other things were lacking. My childhood was hard. I was sexually assaulted many times by two different people. One of them my cousin and the other one a criminal that trespassed my house. After all that happened, my clueless family never knew how to help me, even though my mother tried, my father left her because she let me sleep in her room after the home invasion, they fought a lot because of that, and he left. This is just the tip of the iceberg. There is a lot more. But the issue I have is that is sooo hard for me to forgive. Sometimes I find myself angry and upset for no reason. I've talked about this with my therapist and she says I have complex ptsd. I have so much anger inside of me. I'm a very loving and relative successful person now here in the US (I moved on my own at 18), but it is so hard for me to let go. I've pray, meditate, gone to therapy, narrowed my circle only to relative healthy people, but I still get triggered by neighbors and random people, and I feel so much rage inside of me an just a thirst for revenge. I'm desperate to let go but my mind thinks otherwise, I know it is trying to protect me. I have talked to it, i have told my mind that everything is ok now, that we are good, that all this rage is only making myself sick. But it just wants revenge. How do I let go?

This is the best argument I’ve heard thus far against conspiracy theories... If the elites control everything then how come Trump won and will maybe win again? No, forget it, then they will say because God chose him or some shit like that...

I have a friend that has been in an abusive relationship for ten years. She has tried to divorce him many times but she’s isolated here in the US. Her husband brought her from Colombia with a resident visa, she has no family here and she doesn’t speak English. For many years she has been trying to deal with her situation on her own, with meditation, yoga and some type of self control, she doesn’t let him affect her emotionally, or so she says. I have advice her to go to therapy and seek help, which she did for a couple times but then quit it because she believes therapy is repetitive nonsense, she rather just meditate and overcome her issues on her own. I remember a couple of years ago I used to “admire” her, because I really thought she was able to overcome such hardships with just the power of her mind, when I, on the other hand, had to go to therapy for many years to try to overcome my personal traumas. But now I see something else. She’s a full Qanon believer. I was watching a doctor Grande video where he explaines why Qanon is like a cult and why some people fall into it (isolation, disenfranchisement, etc) At the end, the truth is that there is no amount of meditation and “mental power” that can overpower a bad situation. That’s why in Maslow’s hierarchy of needs, safety is one of the basis for everything else. We should work from the bottom up.

I believe this Qanon affiliation is a spill over. Trauma and abuse has to be dealt with. Sadly, there is no escaping it. In this instances is were people say life is a bitch.

Thank you for saying this. For a long time I thought that people that were able to stay in abusive situations and “not let it get to you” instead of leaving were somehow “stronger”.

@hyruga you’re right that safety is not at the very bottom. But it is one of the basic needs. Also this is the video I was taking about...

All these protests and looting and riots are taking many people out of their comfort zone. I come from a mostly red/blue society were the victim was blamed because he made a Big deal out of a situation. People will tell him to stop and just stay quiet. Some people will prefer things to stay the same rather than suffer through the growing pains.

May I ask, were this approaches to women at random, or were there to specific women that fit your type.

I’ve heard and read about this so many times, and I believe to some point it is true. But, my son has been diagnosed with autism and he’s great at social interactions, he’s insightful and empathetic, he has LOTS of friends, even tough he’s awkward sometimes, everyone seems to love him, including his neurotypical peers. What I’m saying is not to contradict you, it is just that autism is sooo complex imo, that I don’t even know what to think sometimes. My approach is to accept him, teach him basic and advance daily living skills (like how to behave at a fancy restaurant) and let him be. I love him, and I love his autism. My believe is that the struggles of a neurotypical person and someone in the lower autism spectrum are basically the same. Being bad at social relationships sometimes is not about being autistic

summer time 2019, no corona, chilling outside, happy times ?

Blue wet dreams . Next video is him going sentence by sentence on WAP, which he kind of already did lol

If you're having a big party in a backyard, and all of a sudden a guy comes inside the party with a rifle with an air that he dislikes everyone in that party, what are people in the party supposed to do? Most will run, others will attack him and that’s exactly what happened. But he can’t claim self defense, when he went with a rifle to party were no one invited him and he hates all the guests.

Yes, it's a selfish move. I also like how this pastor explained it, comparing it to Jesus when he said "bless be the poor" and people saying "no Jesus blessed be everyone"..... If people from Colombia, for example, were former slaves now entrapped in systemic racism, we would say "colombian's life matter". But there is so much self centeredness, and people with abandonment issues. It triggers a survival instinct of feeling left behind. And I like your example of the family members. If there is a family were one of the siblings is being mistreated and nobody has compassion for him, that is inherently a toxic family, and the other siblings know that at some level, they participate in that, they see their sibling struggling and decide to ignore it. That is a hostile environment, just like society. The other siblings may even feel that if the kid is not the scapegoat anymore they may be the next one. It's in their best interest to keep that kid as the scapegoat of that toxic family.

We have talked about policing been a hard job. But why does it become easier when it is a white male with a gun. At the 2 min mark we see this white teenager with a huge gun pass by police officers and ZERO shots were fired. Why is it easier to police white armed men, but it is SO HARD and nerve wracking to police unarmed black males. https://www.tmz.com/2020/08/26/kenosha-shooting-2-dead-1-injured-jacob-blake-protest-police-blm/

@Arcangelo I watched the video. There is really nothing I can say to you or anybody else that can’t see this as murder and terrorism, that is something they need to process in private with God or with a therapist. There is really NO point on rambling on and on until the post gets locked. Have a good night and may you and me find peace in our hearts.

He had already killed two people, those people following him are actually being heroic and trying to stop him from killing even more people. They have no arms, he has a rifle, they’re trying to stop him, it’s a suicide mission.

From Actualized and from all my studies, I realized that the more I learn the more I notice how little I actually know. I know that I know nothing...

@Roy barely any training. And I know for a fact ( a friend of mine is a police man) they teach them stereotyping and racial profiling to stop people

@Epikur police can assume all that just by him walking by. Wow

You can hang out and have fun at all ages. I just came back from the jersey shore and had LOTS of fun. Btw I’m 37. Do what makes you happy ?, if mediating is what makes you happy right now do that. Many people say life is short, but I’ve always feel it is long. For me life feels long. Your 20s are SUPER long and 30s are even longer lol. You have lots of time still to change your mind in the future and do whatever you want, IF you want.