Manusia

I think youre right, we dont need to communicate things so specificly but the people we have conversation with still understood what it is means.

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@Windappreciator I can't boldly assume such thing. Maybe it is right.

Yeah ofcourse.. Thats the reason why I post this.

This is very literal process of how communication works in my life related to energy field.

Where I can find the viid?

Anyone see themselves slowing down in thinking because seeing the old thinking pattern can't really work anymore? End of the year my consciousness expand.. I can use my old thinking pattern but I see it as stupid then not using it anymore deliberately.. But at the same time now I am kinda slow thinker.. Not fast like before.. I just cant endure the stupid things caused by overly fast mind construction.. Or I am just stupid? Or this is new recontexting process in my brain so my brain need to slowly build new neuron path so in order to be fast and efficient needing a time? Can psychedelic accelerate it? I notice it while doing game, I wont do fast thinking.. I just avoid it.. Like kinda tired to so it haha. And my creative work too.. I just too lazy to think with old way of thinking.. Hate the overthinking mind that constantly create its own shadow.

Don't focus on mind nonsense. Learn talking stupidly and bluntly.. This works for me with severe withholding caused by high anxiety for almost my entire life. More thinking caused more anxiety. And ofcourse it have been hold by unseen trauma and shadow. Shadow work make the flow so much better, never been happier than now in my social life. No weird fragmentation behind my freak mind lol.

I am very psychic sensitive person, I realized that I have this big sensitivity this week. I assume that people is as sensitive I am but I was wrong, I think my based personal experience of life is just like ordinary person but it proved wrong. I really easily attached by negative entitiy. When it within me, there is weird sensation in my body and the sensation is varied. I can't do basic daily task effectively with like ordinary people, it affect everything in my life. I think I have psychology issue in this before but when the weird energy gone, I am totally normal that can do things more effectively than most people. But yeah when I attached to this weird energy, its like having mental issue.. like multipersonalities. I have different pattern thinking and assumption, different likes and dislikes, different fear and pleasure preference. I learn about shadow work and I do it successfully, but this is different shit than shadow. But the mechanics is almost like shadow mechanics. The different is, I can't do inquiry about this shadow aspect. I assume this happened because the shadow is not part of real me. The weird things is that I can make very demonic like expression and action when it have big control in me. The expression have different variety, I think based what energy is leached within me. I remember when I just scream hystericly with no reason at all, I aware that I scream but.. I dont have the reason at all. I cannot stress it enough when try to talk this issue to people, people just like.. oh yeah, so what? you still can talk and think right? just endure it. Nope. Thanks. It affect my epistimology, social life, love life and actualization. I can't do my work if what its doing is not from the 'real me'. If you didnt understood the depth of this problem, thats not my job to make you understand you stupid bitch. Anyone relate to my story? Any tips to protect my energy, just to make myself sane? Or some poeple here can do reading to me and give me some advice? Thanks!

When I try to talk to people. I always sooo logical and thinking that any talk always need to be some deep meaning to learn for oneself or another. It drive me crazy, I afraid to talk to anyone before.. But after I learn to talk shit and unimportant chit chat.. The anxiety doesnt really high.. Just say stupid little convo and all is good ? Most people actually never so scary and not really judgemental if I can talk anything that within me. I project a lot!

I want to buy new book about Philosophy and Epistimology. Do you have any recommendation? And why you recommend the book?

Got the pdf, I would print out soon. Thanks!

Not in this context brah.

Outside Gravity = From enviroment (60%) : Purple (3%) - I dont want to write it. Red (5%) - Village dude. Blue (25%) - Family. Orange (30%) - Business, uni and city. From what I watched (40%): Blue (7%) - TikTok and YT comments. Orange (5%) - Business content. Yellow (28%) - Yellow youtuber and spotify podcast. Learn : What I need to learn actually to question and contemplate lower stage and integrate it to myself. I have big tendencies to just total ignoring what they are talkin about. Integrate the value of the enviroment that I lived in help to survive a lot, thanks to SD. Noticing the different between healthy value and unhealthy value that have been integrated in the self is important here. Integrating Red stage give me huge stability in my mental health. Be more men and assertive. I notice my mind have swing learning, in a time I like to study lower stage but eventually I got feeling enough. I have urge to learn higher spiral, then back again to lower stage.

@Jannes I know what your intention. If she knew she is ready. She is ready. You are so kind. I think she will be in good trip if you are the trip sitter. Ask her what enviroment that she prefer to experience? Dont forget be gentle, and ofcourse dont giving too much of negative background of psychedelic. I think you are already research a lot to do this decision, so yeah. Just do it with love.

Im advocate primary, scientist shadow and anti performer. The result advice and description is not feels right for me, seems like some important information has been hold.

@tolo Relate af. I thinking this as well. No commitment issue at all. I approach multiple local girl in my area and we talk even go out but eventually... nah it is not gonna work.. We have very different worldview and I realize I need to put some hard work to make this relationship running. But even to start this relationship is like cutting my own value. When talking to blue people, it is just weird you know.. Like their emotional awareness is cutted so much and then the conversation is unflexible. The fuck I dont want to cut off myself too much for just having a girl.. Fit in doesnt work together with self development.. And I dont chase sex in relationship, I leaning more towards mutual emotional and personal growth, sex is topping. Most ppl in my area dont know about personal development either, and so yeah im out for now.

For me, I listen death metal like mgla. But it is just very little power actually that it gives. The biggest power that I gain is changing my apperance that look so masculine and even little bit intimidating. I wear big tattoo sleeve and metal mantel. Thats big. I noticed my attitude naturally become alpha af. Some dude that I dont know become so rude to me without I doing anything lol. Still, this development I say is unstable and need to be nurtured slowly. And ofcourse I wont be able to heal this without watching Diaomond Net youtube channel. It give me map for what to do and what to think in this healing process.

@JosephKnecht ?

@fopylo I think you dont need to do that at all. It is very personal for me. Because, I am that person that never be angry before, and never felt some kind of power sensation. My life before is kinda dull and like senseless, full of fear and trauma. You know flat face? People see me as that. For me, it is important to burning the power feeling and even towards toxic meter. I do that a lot in this time and indeed it helped me. And yes it let me more vast as fuck. I can handle more power capacity in my life, feeling my own energy and of course clearer mind and healthier ego

@Max_V do you have a blog or youtube channel that you recommended to do this kind of shadow work? You write it so beautifully!

Feel dat thoo! Dark metal is make me more powerful in mind and grounded. I love power now. Have some burn here and there because of the integration process. Make it burn! The fire will become more mature! Integrated to the bigger personality. Bigger self This!

Im graduated from tourism study this year. But Im not satisfied with what I get here. In the way I found, I am not really interested in tourism too. I have career direction towards what I enjoy, photography and filmmaking. And I love to study my own ego pattern and collective pattern. And in that case, I want to bring social issue perspective in my career work. I think I dont need to study filmmaking/ photography any further and get its degree because I can join internship and get more practical value in it more than in university. The benefit in getting filmmaking/photography degree just the relation/link from what I see in several youtube video. So yeah, I want to study something to make my work have some sort of intellectual foundation, like what I said before.. I want to bring message about social issue that happening in our world. And what do you think is the best degree for me to pursue? Is it philosophy? Psychology? School of human science? Or any other degree program?

When I got into new cafe full of youngster, I got a strong vibe of same thing. Doing same thing, thinking same think. I feels very different because I almost never go into that place. And when I got home my head become very confused, its like suddenly my value is swifting unconsciously. For example like look is very important, shallow thing like fancy iPhone is very important thoo... and weird thinking pattern is occured in me. Or this is normal? I feel this is conformity happening. Because if I dont have somekind of value that the circle have, I cant survive in it and be consider outsider. Isn't it?