Manusia

Long interview. Venant look so agressive to this guy.

I'm very interested mastering KAP. But the wallet would be sad if say yes for now.

FAQ about KAP foundation: https://www.venantwong.com/faq

@Ima Freeman I search on gmaps. The homes looks so aesthetic. Bookmark note in place to go! Hope when I go there I will enjoy the winter instead of getting depressed by the cold ?

What camera did you use? Love the tone.

@Ima Freeman where do you live? Its all beautiful ❤❤

Waterfall from Selayar Island.

One misty morning, in family rice fields.

One day in the beach with my friend.

Little bit of collection.. It's not that good but yeah..

I was just upset with blue people and their mindset.. Often triggered myself.. I don't want to hold any shit in myself.. I just hate them. Their moral holyness make me sick. I don't want to just pouring hate words, maybe I can know what your opinion on it.. Might be so I can think more. My empathy is dead for them in their moralics side. Desease of truth. The people who know things without knowing shit.. When I am angry I just want to trigger them. Too much. Enough is enough.

Then what should I do to deal with blue? Thanks for Preety India and Something Else.. I would use your advice. I would avoid blue people that disturbing and cannot adding something to my life. Waste.

I realized a thing.. No matter how much people convinced that your perspective is very narrow and partial. You wouldn't know it unless you will and would find it yourself. Just like me before. My hatred perspective shell broken out by more experiece and tension in my mind created by hate. Now I am at bigger peace than before. I actually have a night in hotel with very blue girl that I never interested with before. And I learn.. She almost innocent believing what she think it's true. Pure innocent. Defending her worldview that she think is 'good and should be'. She doesn't really know even what she is talking about but at the same time she bonded with rope from its belief. I talk about how conditioning works.. She doesn't even know that such thing is exist. I try softly open her little by little, I avoid heated debate deliberately. Introducing her to developmental psychology... And she start open up. She didn't know how she is closing down her emotion either. I guide her to be more open minded.. And wow, I never think such thing would be happen.. Her mind suddenly open and not rugged. I know she become hypocrite when she let me in 1 room with her because she say its bad before. But I think it is just human to believing something without question it so much and do introspection to one's own action. It's just human nature.. But offcourse we know that is it undesirable part of us. Now I know how much limited blue people and I start adore them in my own way.

When I drive my motorcycle to the city form my home. I drive with calm mind, but idk in the middle of forehead there is strange sensation in it. Then suddenly I have experience seeing much of random memory.. Like.. Flashes.. Multiple flashes. Its all happened like sudden insight. I don't know this memory belong to who. Or this is my past life.. (Because I feel familiar to europe things even I am purely southeast asian) ... I don't know either. I have so many glimpse of different people experience, I see them in POV from their eyes. All of them are soldiers girls that fight in the battle. All of them have the same time of war. The world war I (I searched the uniform and its matched). They fight in muddy place. I sense that the place of the scene happen in a cold place. Its all dark and there just moonlight to lightnen the forest. I smell the fresh mud, the pine.. I feel the cold air that blow through their skin. Like its my own experience. I sense it all. The worst part is all of them is murdered by men soldier. One of pov show that the girl sticked with the knife that strapped in the rifle to her eye by the enemies. Most of them killed with gun. I feel their despair. Their sense of hopelessness and resentment why the world such a cruel place. I cannot hold the emotion that the memories gave to me. Its very huge. I cannot hold it, my head just blow up if I try to resist the emotion. I cried it all then. My mouth talk without I command it 'What the fuck is this fuckin world!' 'What the fuckk!' 'What the fuck!' 'What the fuckk!' 'What the fuckk! ' I repeat it again so many times until the emotion vanished. Wow.. Who the fuck happened to meme last second. What is that experience?! (I remember that there is nazi flag. But I forget is that in my character costume or the enemies)

@something_else hating = demonize = ???

Who want to demonise them? And for what? They have their own right. I just hate how they act how they think. And so what? I choose to hate them. I am enough for pretending to accept it like it was good. No. So how I explain to ppl right here in the forum effectively? Its just generalization. I don't care about who have what color. I care about what they actually do.

What the pros and cons? How about buying used kindle? Did you prefer use kindle than a real book after buying it?

@Eph75 I don't feel at pedestal at all. I understand what you sayin. @Preety_India it's suck.

@Preety_India Gold. Gave me peace.

When my head is loaded with bunch of shit or I am pissed off and sad.. Music is the way to go and feel. Please give it theme in the caption here so everyone can know the vibe before clickin your link 

@Leo Palhano its unique bro

Interesting..

Thanks for your input guys. Might start saving for having one. Lots of book did not available in my country and shipping from outside country is very costly.

For me lot of this info kinda dogmatic.. His concept of spirituality is far less complex than what we know here as Leo listener. But it's interesting information about hair as an antenna. Band my hair and I feel less sensitive to other ppl vibes.. I wonder, how about Leo ... Without antenna but attaining high stuff. Dammit ? Youtube: Dhieyo

I have a chat with a dude.. I think he is a deep thinker because what he say before.. And I vulnerablely share my deep stuff, about my trauma and got no response. I don't get it. I feel betrayed. You know what it feels to always think deep and boring in surface convo and almost no one can keep up with you? I feel lonely and feeling down because how freak am I judged by people standard. And this... When I share my realization about my own trauma.. The fuck is that response.. I don't want to text any further about the answer because I feel bad at first.. What I should do?