Manusia

I thought it from a while... I mean its kinda nice if actualized.org turn into a real offline school system when people can meet to each other and studying reality together. Yeah maybe there is a lot of backlash from the society, but how is that idea?

Beautifully said ?

Mmm ok.. is that your own assumption bro?

Yeah actually I attended some meetings from Spiral Dynamic Integral facebook group. All held in youtube.

Listen to this. My last 4 years romance push me to look deeper to my own value. The more it hurt the more its your core distracted. See the core.

Thanks for your nice advice dude.. Im notice that I become too judgemental sometimes.. Yeah youre right, my most intellegent friends is the last one cling in my friendships..

I dont really know what weird vibes happening in 2021. Its shadding myself to become more real about my self gradually. Be more authentic. Rise my own voice up. Own it. And then now I realized what it really cost. When I honor my deepest value, I dont have really meaningful friend that really resonate with me. I dont have any relationship that suit my new self. I feel I became really different person now. Still now I searching a friend in my country that interested in self development and real spirituality. Feel really-really empty in my heart now. Anyone experience this? And any advice for me?

Yeah the more I mature I become more conscious about this thing. Lot of people really love to see others suffering because of them. They gain sense of control over it in some way. I mean I really hate that. I think people dont really aware of what they doing to other people, but now I clearly see how people conscious to choose such behaviour. Like... why? The solution I only have is to move away from such of people and just move on from problem that they made for you. Just let go. But at the same time I want revenge and make they suffer too lol. I have that traits too for people like that haha.

Hahaha thats really interesting take.

Mmmm nope.. I have beautiful ex girlfriend with developed mind and awareness.. You just dont find it yet. You need to learn distinction about high quality girl and not in the first sight. I see lot of high quality girl.. yep alright they not really in the same page if you fanatically lean to Leo's content. But still there is a lot of compatibility to be in a relationship. Anyone have their own way to develop oneself.. your life learning map can be shaped like grape and your mate can still be apple haha.

Lets be real guys. Do you think if you married and you just having sex with only one girl for your entire life is make you satisfied enough? Do you think you not repressed lot of sexual baggage in your mind that will blown up for potential cheating in the long year? Anyone experience long term relationship and still going good? Your perspective is very welcome !

I tried that stuff. Some work but just in a few days and the effect is goes away even I listening to it in higher repetition. I recommend you if you found a good clip just stick with it for some weeks. Different binaural beats even if it had same chakra target to unlock have different nuance effect in the body. And in different clip, the effect mostly clash into each other, so if you listen root chakra clip A and then in different days you listen root chakra clip B, all of the effect in clip A worn out. And you can have cloudy thought, anxiety, random heart beat and not feeling good in your body. If you want the effect to stick with you, I recommend you mix it with giving food mindset to you related to what chakra you unlock. I got one really stick with me in root chakra. Good luck!

This is really interesting video to watch about islam in the context of SD! In the video laying some of historical background of Islam too.

Jack Harries now becoming Film-maker & Climate Storyteller. Check it on instagram @jackharries.

I got you dude.. I have problem like this too.. Its really embarassing for a guy. In my case thats happen because I always jerking off really hard in my entire life and I already in love with 'in control sexual input'. But by the time I stopped watching porn, jerking off ... and try to start loving sexual input from my girlfriend, gradually I became turn on dangly hard just like watching the porn in my screen.

Do you ever feel something moving in your body? like ant crawling, centipede move, snake move and many more weird sensation in your body? In my experience I have a lot of that in my life, almost everyday. The sensation have a lot of variation. Its moving sensation, sometimes it feels like little ant bite, beating spot and many more subtle weird sensation. I feel like its energy sucker. All of my body feel it. And when it attach to me its play big in emotional regulation. Its really effect in how I think. How I behave. I feel suffer cz I feel never really became me. Like im just projecting all of this feeling in my whole life. Its become mind layer feeling. Sometimes I become really different person if my body got lot of that energy sucker. I become total unconscious. I became total slave of emotion. I have lot lot problem from this, and the big problem is.. I can't learn. Anything. And when I lose all of that. My body feels light, I can think clearly.. I can feels my own energy and think for myself, grounded. Decisive. Some shaman says its real demon, they can feel the energy and its shape. It can make me become rude to people. They say it can make me and all sort of bad behaviour without I aware of it. It is controlling my mind. They talking to me in my head (maybe they refered self talk, but in my experience, it different source (energy) of self talk). I can see that this is maybe the real demon that religious told. Make me unconscious in my doing. Or maybe this is some unseen different dimension creature that really attach to my body and have effect in my consciousness Is that is? Is all make sense? Anyone have opinion or experience in this case?

Thank you guys for your comment! Really appreciate your thought.

@Valwyndir Thanks for sharing! It help me unblock some unconsious meta belief in my head. Love!

I take mushroom 3 days ago. It was great trip until end of the wave. I start thinking lot of nonsense stuff out of my intention. My intention wasnt strong actually in the first place. I just want to do shroom cz nothing to do and maybe I can get some insight. I got very important insight but yeah then my mind going wild everywhere. Until now I struggle with overthinking. Headache. Its hurt. How to deal with that?

@hyruga yeah just like you.

Im joining! Tomorrow I would start. For 4 days too. My goal is to make my body feel good and raising my consciousness. Just it. Cz I have good result before!

Shallow is not right word, not creative. I think they serve some good purpose for the progresive mind.

Wow.. nice thought.. It explain why some people disgusted by my new idea about things. And why I dont really be happy around people that have traditionalist mindset. They not inspire me. Sometimes I found they are just shallow mindest.

Wow. I can think clearly without any doubt in my head! I can think clearly, speak clearly, choose without worry. Like there is some swift in my awareness. Yes I feel I can regressing back to my old. But now im feeling amazing.

Today I feel very different from the previous days in my entire life. I almost never feel this way. This is weird. I feel like I've never been me before. Well it's weird, I done some work, yeah the story is very long and complicated. Before this day I can't even feel my energy for the rest of my life. I always absorbing another people energy and act like its my energy, Weird you know? Well some shaman say I have quite a strange ability in this reality. They say I have the supranatural power, but I also don't know what they are saying because the language is very vague about this. One of the shaman said that on my right hand there was a kind of line that represented a power, which was the same line as him. But with this ability I still don't know how to use it. I have lots of suffering, lot of mental and emotional damage from this. I didnt want to write that now. This shaman says my energy always waste. I've never been me. The voice that speaks in my head IS NOT ME! what the fucking happened to me? !! That's what I said to myself the first time I was awakened by the shaman, and became myself for the first time in my life, at the age of 21. I cried sadly mixed with happiness. After that awakening day, I returned to my baseline, struggle to find where 'my voice', struggle to find where is my energy. Today, consciously without anyone's help, the voices of energy that are not me, are not in my head anymore. It was like removing a helmet from concrete. I am very grateful. I am very grateful. I feel like, reborn. This is me, yes me.