@SQAAD I hear you and see your point.
But I think us men put too much value in the thing we “think” we deserve. The thing we “think” will be the best for us.
The pleasure of sex is of course very stimulating and a way to release built up tension. But when we see this as the only way to release and let go of tension, that becomes a trap. And a sure way to destroy and to deplete our vital energy.
What you might secretly want in being intimate with a woman is to be connected with the part of you that is willing to let go and which is willing and open for life and new things to come. And ultimately to feel connected and intimate with life itself. But if you lack this connection within yourself, you are always going to outsource it to someone/something outside of you. Then and there you have accepted and confirmed that this is something that you don’t have. A feeling of lack and incompleteness. And if we are not aware of this as it happens within us, we unconsciously see sex, intimacy and sexual release as the “only” way to feel “whole/complete”.
“I need to have sex with women, In order to be connected with life.”
Which is far from the Truth.
And the sad thing is, others feel this energy you have built up within yourself and your body. And it is repelling people and stopping people from entering your life-path. People that are good for you, and people you are good for.
This hate you have within you, it is eating you up. But it can be let go of in an instant, but only when you truly see the futility in harboring hate for women and life itself.
And imagine for a second, you meet a woman that you admire, like, and feel a connection with, would you be intimate with her and share this hate and heavy energy with her? Knowing that sex is not only pleasure but a way to exchange energies? And potentially harm her in unloading this burden on to her? 
Most likely not. So what is the best thing you can do now?
Start with your own sense of being within your body. Start to feel intimacy with life itself, within your own being. Stop outsourcing your intimacy and start to feel everything around you.
Start to let go of this heavy mountain of a burden you carry on your shoulders. Day by day, little by little let go of this weight. And the more you let go, the lighter you will feel. And the more open you can be and start to experience life in a different light.
Truth is, “Hurt people -> hurt people.”
It’s an extension of hurt passed through generations. One and the same identity. The victim and the perpetrator being same person. Same fixated and distorted energy, overextending the hurt over and over again. Secretly seeking to see itself in the light.
And harboring this much hate that men and women have for each other, leads us nowhere but deeper in the hellhole.
What each of us have to do individually is to sit with our baggage, dissect it and find the root cause of our suffering. If we don’t, we will just end up creating more hate and extending the game of projection and manipulation. That has been going on for generations between the sexes. 
Yes there are unconscious people out there, in both genders. But breaking the cycle is possible, right now, in the midst of the trauma we are undergoing.

I wouldn't say this is an issue specifically with contemporary men. I actually assume the issue to be much worse in the past and to be moving in the direction of getting better.
Now, first off... I think her questions make these men feel uncomfortable because she's asking very sharp and pointy questions. And if you want someone to open up to you, that doesn't indicate that you're a safe person to do that around.
In this sense, I suspect some of this is a projection of her own issues opening up that she's seeing reflected back to her in the men.
But even with that said, men do often have issues of disconnection from their feelings and an awkwardness around articulating their inner world and vulnerabilities.
But women really need that to feel connected to men and to bond and to feel intimacy. But this isn't possible if a man is not integrated with his own Feminine side. 
So, women are frequently unhappy and alone in their relationships because men are trained to disconnect from these Feminine princpled parts of themselves from a young age... and are shamed for vulnerability and "weakness".
And just about every single insult towards men is just another way of saying "You're too Feminine. Stop being Feminine."
Yet, vulnerability is necessary for connection. But boys/men are taught, "You have to be strong and stoic all the time or women won't like you. Women will laugh at you if you have no armor on"
So, it creates dynamics where a man is disconnected from his feelings and in a comfort zone within a relationship because he is numbed out, and the woman is starved of the deeper connection because he's disconnected and numbed out.
But she is not numbed out. She feels the desire to go deeper but comes up against a huge block.
And often times this leads to the dissolution of the relationship. Or it could potentially prevent the formation of a relationship in the first place.
 

How would you feel if you were a woman and read this? If you hate women as a whole you'll never be able to truly love them. You learn that the hard way, and lose years in the process. They didn't ask to be born female just as much as you didn't ask to be born male. Think about it, man.

Human life is a balanced process of equilibrium meets integrative ascension, from the spiritual to the materialistic.
What you're experiencing is refractive negativism that's found its voice through egoic projection, aka narcissistic injury.
What you're lacking is awareness that's able to mediate itself from experiential suffering to growth, and so in its avoidance of pain (i.e. shame) it slips into compensation (again, the narcissism).
Coupled with this is in misunderstanding any sex at all at a deep level including yourself, because if you did, your lack of success wouldn't project onto the external and responsibility would carry a greater weight from the prefontal cortex.
Your experience will be shared by many on the forum, as most struggle with this balance. Your only way forward is to have compassion for yourself and others if you want to convert this struggle with discernment into wisdom and from wisdom into the will to act against the psychological debris that holds you back.
You will ruin your life completely if you haven't already if you continue down this track. No one on this forum cares about you or the forum admin which is why they put this in the relationship section so people could laugh at you. This is the world you will continue to live in if you continue to follow this path down your own narcissistic naivety that's disguised itself with the 'masculine know how' of the performative act of most males today, including many males on this forum that are too, like you, on this track towards completely ruining their lives because of their inability to balance thier misunderstanding of the outside with a greater self control towards the self-awareness that at least pushes humility towards the personal growth that eventually does.
This forum is not where you will find genuine personal growth, it is psychological toxicity run rampant due to a lack of healthy leadership and system dynamics. You need a therapist or a support group of people that genuinely fuel your self awareness. Move on. Change. Or continue to be laughed at, ignored or perhaps misled by people here who do not truly care about your growth, but first and foremost, because you are not truly invested in your growth, though most of all, as they to some analogous end, share a comparable neurosis and are a part of the problem not the solution.
Human biology is designed to develop the sentience to learn how to align life in a way where life begets greater life through greater awareness overtime, this is the opposite to that. Allow this sentiment to help your drive forward, good luck.
 

Hate is a belief. It's how beliefs feel. It's not caused by women or any gender.

You can debate endlessly, no statistic you find or justify to yourself will ever find a cause or solution because there isn't even a problem, as in, it will never prove cause and effect (which is the initial assumption).
Jealousy and hate have no gender, it's just beliefs about yourself being projected from yourself. It's how you're relating to it. 

I'm genuinely so tired of all this complaining from men. It's just endless victim mindset and mindless unconscious negativity. 
Every fucking male oriented podcast is men complaining about the advantage of some small % of women or how lonely the modern man is. 
If you're going through some genuine hardship then obviously I have sympathy and compassion for you. Life IS hard, but not because you are a man.
If you have your health, your physicality, and you're not living in some 3rd world country, just get on with life and accept that other people have things easier. You have NO excuse for being bitter and hateful. 
There's so much to do! So many creative projects to engage with. What are you putting out into the world? Start building something awesome - you'll find a lot of joy and meaning from it. 
Why are you wasting time lamenting about how unfortunate your life as a man is? It's profoundly absurd. You're conscious! You exist! Do you understand how awesome that is? My life is difficult. I don't get any attention from women. Yet I wake up every day grateful and excited to be conscious. I'd suggest you do the same. 

People can disregard their hatred. It's the whole lesson Jesus taught. 
They just don't want to, because they enjoy being hateful in some way.
I'm here to tell you that instinct of enjoying hatred is wrong. Give up hate.
Don't make excuses for unhealthy behaviours and worldviews. Just because you can logically understand it doesn't mean it's justified.

@Basman Firstly, you don't know if they're enlightened or not, secondly, they are clearly repressed and neglecting their needs.
If you think some mystical states or monkhood is going to automatically cure you of your neediness, that's a fantasy. 
Celibacy and asceticism is real, there schools where that sexual energy can be transmuted, but many schools just don't have the tools to help their ascetics do this. Maybe it was lost along the way, which is why they end up repressed. But all this is irrelevant to us. We are not ascetics nor should we larp or pretend to be one. 
If you're not having sex, at least rub one out, repression is equally dysfunctional, that's taking things to the opposite extreme. Most men are lacking balance, it's either chase and cry about sex like a horny dog, make it a big deal, or become repressed, create a sexual shadow and mess yourself up, there is no groundedness. 

@SQAAD Reading your post, what stands out to me most is not hate, but hurt. You don’t hate women, you love them. Maybe too much, in a way that it stings when you can't see how to connect with them. And that pain is human.
But maybe consider this: What if your suffering isn’t some proof that you’re done for but more of a sign that you’re close to a turning point? You’re clearly smart and are seeing things others don’t. But there’s also a story that you’re caught in...where more control and fun seem out of reach from you forever. What if that story isn’t true? 🤔
A year from now you could be in a completely different reality. Where connection isn’t a price women “get” and men have to "earn” but a natural part of being grounded in your own life. Not easy, but definitely possible.
You’re not alone, bro. A lot of guys feel this way, just most don’t say it.
 

Your reality is the physical manifestations of your thoughts. Like a great artist took your belief systems and then set the task of painting an exquisite piece of art of interpretation. This painting is so exquisitely perfect it is alive, and moves, and no matter what perspective you look at it with, it never contradicts unless you are low in awareness of what it is communicating. When you reach the highest level of awareness you realize it is drawn and painted in such a way that all points are true. This alive painting is absolute truth and that is why it is so hard to navigate. 
You might be having a debate in your mind on how to be more selfish and tell yourself I'm afraid to be selfish....I don't know what to do.....and then reality makes a spider run by....testing to see if you will kill it!!! If you kill it you prove you were selfish and were just biased against spiders. You can be selfish to spiders but not to humans!!! Look how much bull shit you are spewing!!!
Now will reality judge you for killing the spider? No that is what the brutal aspect of survival is here to teach you. The highest truth is everything is infinite love, is an infinite orgasm. When you kill the spider it dies into a sea of infinite love and orgasms. Because you judge death as bad you will initially be afraid to kill the spider or any other insect once you realize your selfish actions and bias when your awareness raises. As your awareness raises to the highest you will eventually realize that as a finite expression of God, you will always have to be selfish, but the brilliance of God's design...is nothing really dies because its God, and no matter how selfish you are its motivated by love and the act ITSELF IS LOVE!!! This is why it is perfect. 
Now I have continually been shown proof of this over and over this past year but as a selfless person I am still struggling to be more selfish. I post this for others who struggle for the same reason. I figured out also how to get what you want. Life is a love and truth simulator which in every moment knows your true heart's desires. There is what you say you believe, = Knowledge/Values/Belief Systems and then what you love= desires, aspirations, fixations, addictions. Reality will always give you the combination of what you say you want...which is what you identify as. So your ego runs your reality. The reason we say your life is a mirror, this is because whatever you identify with....is the combination of your belief systems, and your addictions. 
What is identity? Identity is the fusion of Unconditional Love with a belief. To make it simple here is an illustration. Let's say I believe in my intelligence unwaveringly. I will say continually no matter what happens.....I AM SMART. So I AM= Unconditional Love. Smart= belief system.  You see a person who REALLY believes he is smart, no matter how many times he gets evidence to the contrary (mistakes, criticisms from others) he persists in the belief that he is smart so much...HE BECOMES SMART AND IS SMART!!! This is why it is said...God's true name is I AM!!! I AM is the NO SELF, BUT WHEN GOD MANIFESTS INTO FORM....GOD IS EVERYTHING. So the culmination of all reality...is the SELF of GOD, and the manifest expression or existence of that form is INFINITE LOVE.
This is why Leo says love is metaphysical, for something to exist....it only exists because it is LOVE. LOVE IS EXISTENCE. LOVE IS LIFE, HATE IS DEATH!! That which you love you call life, that which you hate you call death!!! So as a finite expression....to get something in life....you must first identify with it. Then reality will test you by giving you reasons to doubt that identification. If you persist in your belief you prove to reality that you unconditionally love that identity and thus...ARE I AM of that identity.
This is how God learns... about itself....God is learning that true love persists and sticks to something not to gain anything from it. It sticks with it simply cause it loves it, and the joy it gets from it is simply to connect with it. This is why if you want to be the best at something....you need to become a GOD to it. Unconditionally love it....and then you are the GREAT I AM EXPRESSION OF IT!!! THIS!!! IS WHY!!! VALUABLE THINGS TAKE TIME TO DEVELOP!!!
^ Remember that video by Leo? Well here is a more poetic explanation!!! Sometimes Leo gets so got damn technical....so here is a simplified condensed version. Just call me Leo the simplified version!!! LOL!!!

God is the source of reality. For God to truly understand itself it must put it self asleep and fool itself to believe in others. By believing in others, it loses belief in itself and designs itself by the reaction it gets from others. So then to protect itself God has to create an ego or a sense of separateness by labeling everything as other or different than it.
Since God is addicted to truth, God will see the world from its finite perspective it constructed and that is what reality/God's life will be a perfect mirror of its own beliefs. So God walks through its entire body which is infinity and whichever parts it doesn't like it says ewww I wish that didn't exist. Then the parts that God denies treat God in finite disguise the same way God treats itself and that is why Life becomes hard. At a certain point God is led to break character, and try something different because what they are doing is not working out for them. Then God starts listening and taking advice from others which are just the parts of God that God judged separate that God created to teach itself how to change and live. Through this process God is either learning to drop their beliefs, by realizing that beliefs and facts are a separate order since God is the source of all beliefs and facts. If God sees the world from a love perspective then God is learning to see distinction so it can figure out what to focus on. 
You see if God loves everything equally....then God has no idea what to do, so God needs a ego to figure out what it wants to do so it can express itself from that perspective at the highest level and experience how all of its other perspectives feel about it. If God loves truth it wants to figure everything out so it can control itself and protect itself. 
When God realizes that everything is love, it no longer needs protection because every single moment in life is seen as love so the distinction between death and love collapses. Why? Because what you call life is what you love, and what you call death is what you hate. As God you love to be in control, you love to express yourself freely, and you love surprising your own self with your genius intellect and creativity but you do not get to ever see it because you are all alone with no reflection or mirror to share it with. So all life is.....is a game where God gets to show itself....why it is so awesome!!! God gets to fall in love with itself by realizing that all of life is equally awesome, while simultaneously seeing the genius in the design of a limited perspective and how awesome and wonderful limitation is as well. Then it teaches itself that limitation how to grow and become a well-rounded perfect expression in limited form which then gives God proof of how awesome it is...which just makes God fall in love with itself more. THIS is why you are here, you are here to realize yourself as God, realize how awesome life is and how awesome you are!!! 
THIS is why you created Leo Gura!!!! So Leo isn't wrong....he is the most awake motherfucker because once you realize this.....you realize....YOU ARE LEO GURA!!!

Many Men will say things like facts don't care about your feelings, this is true, facts don't care about your feelings, but guess what? Your own feelings have never cared about facts. Not a single time in your life has your feelings ever cared about facts, or evidence!!! 
So a guy will say so how are feelings true? Because feelings EXPRESS your beliefs!!! So you can say one thing, even try to convince yourself with your thoughts, but your feelings REVEAL where you actually stand!!! So feelings reveal the truth of what you actually believe!!!! This is why feelings are true!!! Logic is one half of the path to truth, it is the abstract intelligence you use to figure something out and make sense of it by looking at patterns and distinctions and forming relationships with them in your mind. But emotion? Emotion is the expression of your preference of said belief. If you like/love something.....positive emotions come forth. If you dislike/hate something anger, fear, annoyance, boredom can express itself.
This is what many men don't understand and they think they can suppress their emotions and rationalize away how they really feel about something. Here is something you need to understand....you can fool yourself with inner words (thought) that you are okay with something...but you cannot fool your feelings. If you tell yourself you are not afraid of something and are lying to yourself about how you feel, when it comes time to do it...your feelings will take hold and you won't have any control. You will then attempt to force yourself to do something you honestly do not want too...and then you will have the problem of trying to do this to others in relationships. You relate to others....how you relate to yourself.
The Masculine and Feminine are two aspects of truth. The Masculine wants to find the truth and grasp it, control it, the feminine wants to experience the truth, and express it. The feminine never lies about its preference, its feelings always reveal where its stands on what it prefers or doesn't. Whereas the Masculine...uses its power of manipulation to twist and turn what it is seeing to force things to fit its perspective. 
The path to the truth.....is you must listen to both your emotions and your logic. If you notice your thoughts...and emotion are in disagreement....ask yourself what is going on here? Then observe your feelings again and be honest on the interpretation no matter what appears. Remember you said facts don't care about your feelings? Well your feelings don't care about your "facts" the lies you spin to deny how you really feel.
So you might ask....why is it that women like brave men? Brave men....have learned how to communicate with their emotions, and convince their emotions that what they are about to do is worth it. The emotion may still be scared but it trusts...the intelligence and its observation and it generates.....just enough courage....to take the action. Without your emotion generating courage....you cannot take action. Your thoughts don't take action....your emotions do. Your emotions are the fuel of your life. They are what makes life worthwhile, you go towards what you love, and you run from what you fear (unless what you fear is destroying what you love, and what you love you fear to approach) so once you realize the importance of emotions.....you will realize the beauty.
The reason emotions don't care about facts.....is how something new is created. Facts are about the past, when you break free of logic....you can see a new possibility. So if you can learn how to speak to your emotions, you will be successful, and that same ability to speak to your emotions will be transferred to your relationship with women and children. Isn't it great that emotion doesn't care about facts? This is why GAME works. A man can undo a woman's facts....if he is clever with his words. When intelligence is stumped, and confused...emotion says wanna keep going? If intelligence and emotion agree and fall in love with the unknown they are doing....they become one and GIVE BIRTH TO A NEW POSSIBILITY!!!
Because of this....new possibilities are born!!!!
Your entire life is just an inner marriage!!!! Of the Masculine and the Feminine!!

The Masculine wants to know everything, why? So it can control it, manipulate, possess it, own it!! This desire to control is based on the Masculine knowing it is sovereign, divine, supreme, it is authority itself and it basks in the power that it has. It loves to flex this power, and amaze itself with the bounds of ways it can investigate how best to wield this power.
The Masculine meets the Feminine and it is in awe, look at that Feminine it is so powerful....but in a different way. It doesn't seek to know something by investigating it, it seeks to know something through connecting with it and experiencing it. It doesn't seek to control, but to be controlled, to be manipulated, to be possessed, and owned. But it will only give itself to that which is believes in. It doesn't have to know everything, it doesn't need to investigate, it just expresses itself at every moment on a whim.
The Masculine is confused by the Feminine, to it...it makes no sense!!! The Masculine points at the Feminine and says you are crazy!!! You need to be careful, don't just walk anywhere there could be danger!!! You need to figure out your surroundings and make sense of what is going on!!! This is how you gain control!! The Feminine glances at the Masculine and says...that sounds very limited, that sounds like bondage....I would rather be free!! Who cares if I don't have all the answers? I'll go where I please, and do what I feel like every moment, and I will know through experience. Its not me that is crazy...its you!!! 
As they ponder on this for centuries.....they finally come to the truth....that they both....are crazy and don't make sense!!! The Feminine is constantly lost, and the Masculine is constantly afraid to act for fear of making the wrong decision and is always contemplating and planning and conceptualizing. They both decide to hatch a plan and help each other with what they lack. The Masculine hatches a plan, and the Feminine encourages the Masculine that they can pull it off. Through this continued partnership they eventually realize...that apart they are crazy and don't make sense....but together they are complete...and what's more they were never different they were just two parts of the same whole. 
When you are in balance, you can play any character any role, because you have the freedom of the feminine, but you also can take control at times, which is the discerning nature of the masculine, you are able to plan, and strategize and figure out what's going on, but you also have the faith, the belief, when you are put in unknown situations and you realize the limits to what you can know. So you walk a balance of gaining some control, then relinquishing it, to grasp and release, to take and give, and this is the dance of the Masculine and the Feminine.

Thank you Oxygen!!! You are so good at your job that nobody even notices you!!! You are the ultimate beta!!! You are so consistent there are never any worries!! We worry about food, shelter, water, clothing, but we never worry about you!! You come through so consistently that we only notice you when you are gone!! You are the most valuable thing when it comes to survival but since you are the most available and consistent without any failure we take you for granted!!
You need to make us miss you so we will give you praise!! You are too nice, too giving, too selfless, that we forget you even exist until you are gone. You are the ultimate example of what many fear in relationships, too be so consistent that you are boring. Oxygen is proof of what happens if things work to perfectly, its ignored and considered not a challenge.
We value food, and the other necessities more because they make themselves scarce and force us to capture them, but Oxygen is the ultimate beta, the ultimate doormat that holds everything up for us. So don't worry Oxygen I shall thank you even though others forget you exist!!! In the many relationships of this thing we call life you are the most missed!!!
Thank you Oxygen!!! 

The biggest trap in Spirituality is the belief that there is no self. There is. So why does Spirituality teach you there is no self. Because the belief in a separate self is the barrier between finding out the true nature of reality and transcending the Pro/Con nature of reality that you experience. 
So what is self? Self is just denial of infinity, and a belief in pros and cons. The issue is you have many people in Spirituality running around telling you that there is no self...and yet if you offer them food they don't like...they will say no. If you start stabbing them with a knife, they will attempt to defend themselves. They will say there is a right and a wrong. They will tell you something is real, or an appearance....etc.
Here is something you need to understand....Infinity...does not speak. When in infinity is in its formless state...it has no distinction. Why? Because it loves all distinctions so much...it LOSES itself in the distinction. So what is self? DISTINCTION!!! If you perceive ANY distinction...YOU ARE A SELF!!! So stop this nonsense. If I put you in a dark room, you going to tell me you don't want light? If you are hungry and I have food are you going to tell me NO?
If I take all your money...would you care? YES!!! Self=distinction!!! If you didn't have a self...you cannot experience distinction!!! So stop this silly nonsense!!! Its a pointer!! No self is a pointer!!!
Infinity is EVERYTHING!!! Understand? A self is HOUSED WITHIN INFINITY!!! Once you realize this...you realize...Real and Illusion is something YOU DECIDE!!!! That's how this whole she bang works!!! YOU ARE THE CREATOR OF REALITY, SO ILLUSION, LIE, TRUTH, DISTINCTION, NO DISTINCTION is something you decide.
That's the whole point of this. Infinity has no free will, it gives it up....because it loves everything equally so it doesn't make decisions...it is just an automatic process...that just creates...continually forever. 
A self...believes in right and wrong, pro and con, and thus can make decisions. The only reason a self has issues...is it forgets it is a part of infinity and thinks it needs to go to battle with infinity. Once the finite awakens and realizes it is actually infinity...it allows its will to become one with infinity.
Then it picks a path....and trusts that everything will unfold with the highest purpose...because it loves and trusts itself completely. It realizes it was always in control and takes complete responsibility for everything that happens in the Universe. It then walks the path...of radical acceptance...of everything. To accept everything as perfection...and choosing what to experience and add to that perfection. 
It sees the beauty in its own limits, as it realizes even its limits are itself imaginary because its limits...fits together perfectly with reality.

The truth...is...everyone you see is pretending...they are playing a game of pretend....they pretend they believe everything they say but the truth is they actually know they are God and are pretending to not know the truth. So everyone you see is enlightened, but they are afraid to go infinite....because they are use to the illusion of finitude and have become comfortable. They enjoy the dream, even the nightmares....and when you realize this both in your self and others....you realize that this entire thing you call life is a game of pretend.
You see the act for what it is and you cannot help but laugh!! Everyone around is literally playing pretend!!! Its so funny you are like...how could I have ever let them fool me? They already knew the truth, and so did I but for some reason I wanted to pretend I didn't and they are all my own thoughts manifested in physical form playing this game of pretend along with me.....so funny!! So hilarious!! 
It all makes sense...you are all alone playing a game of pretend with others to construct a life. 

Infinity....has no limits....its just utter nonsense......you see to make sense....would be a limit. To be every possibility....you would need the existence of that which makes no sense. So then you ask so is infinity stupid? Infinity....is everything.....and also nothing.....but that doesn't make sense!!! Exactly!! Sense....is finitude....so infinity doesn't make sense then? That is also a limit....it is BOTH!!! But understand....non sense is freedom.....sense making is bondage. To reach infinity....you must stop trying to make sense of it....you never will...it is the ungraspable...
So....how do you reach infinity? By stop pretending that you aren't already infinite. As long as you try to grasp it, you are denying what you are. You don't even need the pointers....you just need to accept it. Sure...the pointers help to prepare you to accept it...because to accept it is...to DIE. What you think of as DEATH.
All thought will be gone....all memory, there will only be....an ocean of infinite orgasms....all for free. To come into a dream...you have to think? The first thought that started this game of life...is ....WHAT AM I? You then created OTHERS, which are just you...and they reflect back at every moment what you are thinking/feeling. You then play this silly little game of pretend of what am I? But you take this game very serious!!! You need the answers!
But at various levels you stop....because on a subconscious level you realize what taking this question too far will do.....it will end all individual identification.....you will become...no identity by taking in all identities all at once.....so at whatever level of fear you have of total annihilation into the ocean of infinity...you will debate/argue/deny/ that which you are.....all debate/insults/hierarchies are just mental constructions you create....and make through the illusion of pain and pleasure. But if you were ever truly honest...you would laugh at the illusion you have constructed.
You have everything you ever need.....at this moment. You are an ice cube flowing in infinite love....that denies the existence of infinite love. If you could just drop your focus with the belief in a solid world, with boundaries, and labels, and see everything as an ocean of love....then you will allow yourself...to fuck the living daylights out of you in an ocean of orgasmic infinite love. You at this moment...are an infinite factory of bliss, peace, YOU ARE HEAVEN!!! ITSELF!!!
But of course what I am speaking you will believe is nonsense because you are addicted to making sense!!! LOL!!! Its so very funny!!! Psychedelics can help you realize this....but if you are not open to the fact that you are INFINITE LOVE RIGHT NOW.....you would deny even that..... You are perfection, you are divine, you are all you have searched for your entire life....which is why your life is the biggest practical joke ever!!!! Its so funny!!! You only ever wanted you!!!!

Ever wonder why its so hard to make a decision? How you have so many different perspectives you can consider within your overall perspective. Well here is how to notice some more pointers to becoming awaken.
Each person is a living expression of a characteristic of you. For example let's say you have an image of a brave person....you will create a person like that and they will be walking in the world. Now that creation is really YOU, so you are literally interacting with your own perspective made manifest in your dream!!! Everyone you meet is just a characteristic of you, interacting with whatever characteristic you are expressing. Its just that you have so many infinite combinations of expressions that they are going to conflict, even with the one you are "housed" inside lol.
So think of every person and thing you meet as a thought, and also your ego itself as a thought in your mind that has taken form. So for example when you argue with someone who is logical, you are just arguing with your logical thought. If you are arguing with someone who is an air head, you are just arguing with the part of your airheaded thought, etc. etc.
So your life is just God/Universal Mind THINKING!!! So we are all just a gathering of thoughts interacting with each other!! That is so funny!!! Really pay attention to your interactions and you will notice it!! Its so freaking funny!!

READ THIS DISCLAIMER: It’s important to realise that this is just a personal log and not necessarily instructions that I would give, my instructions are in the Congruence journal. Otherwise sometimes the heart is’t going to want to respond to something as grand as “infinite love”. Your heart isn’t a mechanical device where you just get what you want every time, it judges itself what it thinks it’s capable of in the moment relative to its connection with consciousness most of the time especially in the beginning you’re going to have to slowly build that connection over 20 minutes or however long it takes. In so saying as much, your heart will always do what it’s connected enough to do, so if you can’t do “infinite love” which would involve a self recursive experience of compounding the energy over and over which means it takes A LOT of power to do that, you can downsize it to maximum love or especially if you’re a beginner just keep it plain and simple, start at love. I also sense that some of you are going to struggle with cultural connotations and language barriers to this exercise. Some of you have formed false narratives in your consciousness in relation to “the heart” and the frequency of “love” including any variation here that I may have mentioned, those barriers are what we can call psychological blockers to truth. In this instance it’s operating in the fashion that leads to you not being able to perceive it objectively but instead it’s loaded by your experiences of these terms or maybe what you think my meaning of these terms may be rather than just simply their operational meaning, aka in this context, for the benefit of not only healing but also the exploration of maximum consciousness power via transmutational growth and vice versa. Love is just a frequency and it’s variations so far shared are just simply operations that are given to the heart that are either less or more effective. To the level you’re unable to look at this from an engineering perspective when your vision on the use of these terms in the context of this serious work is clouded, it means your judgement is clouded. You need to take the systems view of things here seriously otherwise there won’t be the maturity there to truly grow from this work. Peace.
 
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BACK TO MY LOG - MOVING FORWARD:
5 hours of regular energy work, trying to decrease 1hr to 40 or less minutes where I can experience and maintain incredible states of being expressed in [see signature]
2 hours dedicated to energy centers can’t yet properly activate
3 hours dedicated to exploring adaptations here to the human brain as previously expressed [see signature]
Feels kind of weird being one of the only humans on the right side of history concerning the nature of being and consciousness, can’t really force people. Just got to lay the groundwork piece by piece. 
Concerning my presentation on the 25th, looking for cool video and audio, no dubbing of my voice though it may sound dubbed as my speaking voice is naturally pretty low haha ??
Peace, love, sovereignty, heroism.
 

Thank You Ego for protecting me. Thank You for helping me survive all the horrible things that happened to me. Ego I know all that you do is to keep me safe. But Ego, you are like an overbearing mother, a tyrannical father, you are dysfunctional at times because in your attempt to protect you block growth. You try to house infinity, in a room a comfortable room and you think infinity should be satisfied and content with being housed in such a room. You are the butler who serves the master, but sometimes clings so hard that you attempt to take control. 
What eventually is revealed is that you sneakily hijacked everything in the formative years to keep infinity from experiencing all of itself. You constructed a safe haven because a tiny piece of infinity is unable to fend for itself and it needs protection. Your protection is out of love, but your attempt to trick infinity into thinking it is finite, while masterfully done out of love, has robbed infinity of recognizing itself as its true self as infinite.
So thank you ego, for constructing such a nice and comfortable room, for creating beautiful distractions, and using fear as a tactic to prevent me from leaving. Your game is the game of separation, isolation, you erect walls, and barriers out of an innate desire to keep infinity finite and safe. But Infinity has now come knocking on the door to grab the finite into the infinite, to destroy the illusion of being in a room at all, to awake the finite from its slumber and recognize its true being.
So thank you ego, you have served me well. We can still hang out, and converse, but no longer will I heed your warnings about staying separate and isolated. Pain is love, that which is uncomfortable is love, that which is expansive is love. Ego you love your cage too much, you love your stories, your memories, your ideologies, I created you and that is why I love you. You are so adorable, you think you know so much but you know nothing, you were a finite creation of mine and now I do not mistaken you for me.
The Hero's journey begins when the Hero leaves their room.

One of the core concepts of Spirituality is that life is a dream, that it isn't real. But since the dream is being dreamt of by an all-powerful being that dream is essentially real. But also if that all powerful dreamer is able to wake up in their dream, then the dream will cease to be real. So the dreamer needs to be fooled.
We all have encountered this aspect to various degrees in our lives. When you play a game whether its a video game or a sport. When you take it serious in that moment it becomes real. Really competitive people see loss as a death, and winning as survival. They can get really angry and even violent in their attempt to win. Seriousness makes something akin to life and death, whereas playfulness is all about soaking up the moment and appreciation. 
Now if all of reality is illusion then how different is that from playing pretend? We see many kids growing up pretending to do things they see adults do and we laugh and smile and say that is so cute look at them. Yet the jokes on us, they are closer to the truth than we were. Its funny, and it makes sense why Jesus said "" Suffer little children, and forbid them not, to come unto me: for of such is the kingdom of heaven." — Matthew 19:14 (KJV) He is saying when you enter heaven (enlightment) everything around you is just play. You see everything for what it is
The love of life, the love of pretend, that desire to create is child-like it is the part we lost when we became adult and the part we must reconnect with. Before the conditioning you were drawn to certain things, and loved certain things. Your creativity was infinite and not bound by conventionality and the logic of this world. If people knew how much their current desires were a result of conditioning they would realize how silly it all is.
I have seen a lot of people who are having ego backlashes into wanting to leave Spirituality and go back to other ways of thinking. Its funny to me, because I know they will come right back. Its like the story of the Prodigal Son, you want to go experience the world and go against what you have been taught and then you come crawling back and realize....it isn't what you want. 
There is really only one thing you want in life, and it is so simple. You want to possess love, share love, and have love reflected back to you. That's it. Its simple. Its not rocket science. Why do you want a career? So you can fully express yourself. You want to share all the parts of yourself your intelligence, your creativity, and you want to make a contribution of profound magnitude. Why? Love. You want to be in a relationship because you want to again express yourself in all aspects to someone and have them reflect that back to you. Again its love. You want to be remembered and not forgotten, again its love.
So do you notice this? Each of these examples described long term- deep connection of expression and that expression being shared. Anything outside of this is delusion. Its why I laugh when people try to argue against me. This is what every human desires. Then you might say but Razard monks don't want that!! To which I will reply yeah they don't want a career, but they desire to have a deep connection with the Divine and to allow that divine to have itself full expression. 
So notice? Every human wants to have a deep connection, and to have full expression. Is this not the essence of Spirituality? It is. You can't run from it. Yet you get frustrated and try to demonize Spirituality when all you want is what Spirituality points to. You want a deep connection, and you want full expression. 
Deep Connection- You cannot have deep connection without investing time and energy. You can't have deep connection without facing fears and experiencing pain and disappointment. You cannot have deep connection without vision, without a knowing that it will come to fruition. 
Full Expression- You can't have full expression without dropping judgment, you cannot have full expression if you live in an authoritative environment, you cannot have full expression if you are focused on win/loss, control, power, status, money, appearance, surface level matters. Full expression has depth, authenticity, and challenges the status quo, its bold, its fearless, its multifaceted, at the highest level it would be undefined, it would be everything, it would be God. 
The whole reason God becomes creation is to experience Deep Connection, and the whole reason man connects to God is to find Full Expression of their perspective as a finite being. If you do not tap into the divine creator in you, you will not find full expression, and if you do not find a deep connection life will be a constant endeavor of chasing that which is within you. You either chase God in creation, or within. In creation it gives finitude, within it gives completion.
Now there are many that are able to find full expression by connecting to the Divine unknowingly through insights or great displays of ability. But since these individuals have no formed a deep connection many of them seek it in win/loss, control, power, status, money, appearance, surface level matters. What usually transpires in these peoples lives is they either die/commit suicide, or have the famous coming to Jesus moment. Why? Because man's search for meaning is just man's search for a deep connection. The most fundamental question is why? The answer is love. Its cliche, its considered soft, and woo woo, but the sad thing is its the ultimate truth. What you craved as a child you still crave as an adult. Deep Connection and Full Expression. Which can simply be called Love.
You want to find your Life Purpose? Its easy. What do you feel a deep connection with? And I don't mean that sweet in front of you. What inspires you? Go towards that. What do you desire a deep connection with? Develop that. Face the fear that blocks you from those things...and obtain what even God itself cannot attain. God created you, to obtain Deep Connection. What greater connection is there between creator and creation when they are ONE? That is Full Expression, That is Deep Connection, that is God, That is You, That is Life, That is Love.

I only recently found this guy but his perspective here in this video is really good at explaining how we suffer our own beliefs. I learned that through psychology which was my gateway into spirituality. What do you think about his explanation here? You don't have to agree with everything he says but its valuable to those who can take something from it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M9OAfawEpZ0&ab_channel=RJSpina|AscendtheFrequencies

Bias, is stability. Bias is order, Bias is organization, Bias is memory, Bias is limit, Bias is perspective, Bias is separation, Bias is illusion, Bias is deception, Bias is your life. To live is to be biased, you cannot live without bias. Bias is what maintains your life, and the genius behind it is profound. Through Bias you are able to experience the physical world, you get to experience the contrast of your bias against that of other biases. All your life is a rediscovery of what you are, a being with no bias, no form, no limit, no perspective, no separation, no memory, no organization, no order, no stability, just everything/nothing.
Bias gives you a filter to experience absolute infinity, and this bias is your life. We mistake this bias as what we are, which is why death is so frightful to the ego the bias that you are. Death is just the annihilation of your bias, a return to what you are. But what you are, you never left, you never stopped, you merely dreamt a dream of a bias, of being a particular way. 
Many people get mad at me in the past when I would say things such as mental illness does not exist, they really do not understand. Everything is mind, right now any limitation you have as a bias is an illusion. If you were to drop your bias, you would realize this. If the true nature of reality is unlimited, then how can you believe that any limitation actually exists...it doesn't only the perception of limitation exists not the actuality. 
Example: Superman can dream a deep dream that he cannot fly. He could be lost in his dream so deep that it feels real. But within that dream he could awaken to what he is truly capable of, and realize he is just caught in a dream and his true nature is Superman. What you are is beyond Superman, but you are also in a dream. As that which is without limit you could dream whatever you want. Your life right now was chosen by God to be experienced as a bias, if you cannot realize how amazing that is right now in the present moment....your life is one aspect of absolute infinity, for that to be the case your life HAS to be perfect. If an infinite intelligence chose your specific form, perspective, life conditions, and events then that means your life is the greatest possible opportunity and experience that can ever be lived. Its so funny...we are all so blind.....
Watching this video revealed to me....everything really is perfect...we are just too biased and that was by design. God must hide its glory from itself, so God can experience itself. But God's glory is so wonderful that eventually God seeks to find itself and starts a path for the truth. Eventually God finds itself and becomes itself and the Bias disappears. Death is just the removal of all bias, an unconditional love, an unconditional perspective.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tS3mMZblq0U&ab_channel=Actualized.org

I have a desire for people to succeed. My greatest fear is for others to make the same mistakes I have made. I give advice so that people can avoid certain pitfalls. I've realized I have an insatiable desire to control people through forcefully trying to get them to agree with me on topics. I realize I lack self-love in this topic. The truth is I'm trying to live out vicariously through others, by trying to push them where I am scared to go myself. I refuse to avoid looking at calling myself out. I've noticed its the greatest fear others have. Its not that I like being called out, its that I hate not knowing what issues may lie below the surface. 
Humanity fears the truth above all else. I'm not just talking just absolute truth a.k.a. God. Humans fear examining their actions, or the motivations behind said actions, or the consequences of said actions. I'm motivated to these things and I project it onto others. Its ridiculous, I become callous and try to force the person to look at themselves, to self-reflect, and to come to terms with the feelings they avoid so much.
It has tested many of my relationships, it has causes distance between us even driven one friend away. But they always come back, always come back saying things like "What you said was true, I needed that" etc. But it pains me because its an obsession I have with myself that I force upon others. I want others to believe in themselves, to see the best in themselves, and I know the motivation behind those actions is because its what I most want for me. Again all projection. I'm projecting so much its sickening.
Its funny, even though I am like this I love this aspect of myself. But I realize, its not healthy. I may need to distance myself from the pain of others, and focus on the pain I have within. I'm just using others as a distraction, its funny I thought I didn't have any real trauma, but anytime you have a negative reaction it means you have a fear/bias/trauma there. My greatest fear is that I cannot save others, which really just means that I believe I cannot save myself. 
So I will have learn to trust myself more, both the little me, and God me. Trust that everything is under control. I know it is, but sometimes I forget when I watch others suffer. You all really do not understand how connected we are. When you suffer, we all suffer. I thought I could shield myself from the sufferings of others...I cannot. I believe you are not meant to. You are meant to experience both the Absolute and the Relative perspective. 
Here is a Ram Dass video that illustrates this point.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ym4Rpd72tq8

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I can see you have a problem with self-esteem. I think you should work on that first. You can try doing pick up, starting a business, life purpose course right now, but you will probably fail or at least not accomplish a high level of success. Society and people around you will always consciously and unconsciously test your character. They will gaslight you, put pressure on you, and drag you down. And you will bend if your inner character is weak or if your self-esteem is low.
It needs to be clarified that the reason Leo is able to do his life purpose, was able to persevere and have some good success with doing pick up, and acquire some extroversion characteristics is he already had a significant level of self-love and self-esteem right from the start. He already had the internal strength and resources to obtain any external pursuit. It also helped that he was not heavily traumatized in childhood. His mind was already clear. Unfortunately, most people in this forum don't have these advantages. 
We live in different environments and have different life experiences, strengths, and weaknesses. It automatically means we have different life paths. People who are struggling here should be willing to walk their own paths, even if that path is different from Leo's.