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Transmutation of Sex, Eating and Sleeping. Its Not What You Think When we are experiencing or dreaming that we are having sex, either with ourselves or "others" which is still ourselves, we can closely and consciously observe whatever is happening, and especially how we feel and what we are seeing, emphasis on what we are >Seeing< and Seeing with. Now lets investigate the Seer and what the Seer is Seeing with. The Imaginary Eye. Examining The Eye, without being scientific about it, just from direct experience and and personal observations. How does The Eye actually work? What is its purpose? and can we for the sake of self-recognition, and self-understanding, investigate The Eye? When you Love someone, or look in the eyes of someone you love, they say that the pupil gets diluted, and the iris becomes thinner. What is the pupils function and what is the iris's function really? (in the dream) In the movie Samadhi (See Link 31:56 to 35:12), they use the Eye as a metaphor for Somethingness and Nothingness. And compare it to a Black Hole. The content around a Black Hole could be seen as the content around the pupil, which is in these two metaphors, the iris and the content/matter revolving around a Black Hole. What is that center (Pupil / Black Hole) ? It is the center of Everything. A singularity holding all content around it. So in your life, your eyes, the pupil is the nothingness of you, and the iris is "your" life or what you think is "you". And the center is everything and nothing at the same time, because its holding the content (your life) together. As a living organism in this dream that you/we have dreamed up, you want to experience Infinite aspects of yourself. We go through different characters that we define ourselves with. And when we define ourselves with our bodies, we forget that we are Infinite Nothingness appearing as a self. And from that duality/split we get the need for Sex, or shall I say reaching the state of Orgasm (Unity), which is a remembrance and a reminder of who we truly are, as Infinite Nothingness appearing as a finite self, experiencing Itself. To understand where I am going with this, I am going to explain and remind you of the different stages of definition of yourself experiencing the Orgasmic State and what you associated with Sex. (mind you that this is within one or many lifetimes) but what I am referring to is the expereince itself.) 1: You are deeply asleep and define yourself as the character in the dream, your awareness and experience with sex/orgasm, is a pleasurable experience and you see this like and equal to anything else in your life (eating, sleeping, socializing with friends and so on.) (reality will loop back here later on, but from a higher level, 3D Spiral Example) (Stage Beige) 1.5: You play a game with yourself, and get lost in the pleasures of the action and you still dont grasp the potential and understanding what this might entail. A part of you wants to understand why you are lost in the pleasures and why you are doing it in the manner that you are. But for the sake of exploration and experience, you sleep around and explore what pleasure is. (Status Quo) 2: You choose a new path where you are in lack of the pleasure. You experience grief as you define yourself with character and get lost in self-limiting beliefs, where you judge yourself: of not being worthy, not having the appearance you want. And you experience that manifesting in your reality, because that is what you are defining yourself with. (A bit of a victim mentality is associated with this stage) (Stage Blue) 2.5: You start to notice that this gift of sex/orgasm that you have been given is not only for pleasure, but to reproduce yourself with, and continue your bloodline and pass on your genes. (Stage Purple) 3: You use this pleasure to be "better" than others and to build a stronger identity and even to dominate "others". Here is also the trap of abusing sex and using it as exploitation of others (yourself). Here is also where comparing yourself with others in terms of appearance and power happens. (Stage Red) & (Stage Orange) 4: You choose a life within the dream where you aren't going to reproduce, and you choose to explore what it is to not reproduce and start seeking and start questioning your previous beliefs and the norm of reproduction within in society and the world. (Stage Green) 4.5: You live a life where you are "done" with the pleasure aspects and want to start questioning what Sex and Orgasm is. This is the lifetime where you also adopt spiritual habits, with this comes restrictions in the form of beliefs and dogmas, where you are still lost in definitions and labels. You continue living on, you might still want to fall back asleep and go back to the "lower" stages. Here you might get stuck a few lifetimes. (Stage Green) 5: You start questioning what Sex and Orgasm is. You consciously go back to re-experience the pleasure of Sex and Orgasm, Consciously. Here is where you start shedding your previous beliefs about Sex and Orgasm being a bad thing, because when you consciously experience it, you start noticing that it is not what you thought it was. It never will be. You realize that: You thought you knew something about reality. And it just happened to be the complete opposite of what you thought you knew about it, and all the hard feelings and anxiety that you brought on yourself by adopting that thought as a belief, Now changes your approach to everything in reality and life, and you start seeing it for what it is without labeling or defining it. (Stage Yellow and Up) (Here is also where you must be very cautious not to fall back in to beliefs and also not to abuse this to fall back in to the first stages) Its like a 3D spiral, everytime it takes a new lap around itself, it still passes the previous starting point, but from a higher level. The trap and the hard thing is to not fall back, but to transform and to keep building ontop of the previous levels.) (There are many many more stages and iterations to this, because its something beyond the human experience, its just one facet of how Infinity is experiencing Itself. Its the creative force using its manifesting powers to express itself and to experience itself.) Back to the Eye, Sex, Orgasm and the Insights I have been given. Most human beings including myself, have been using Sex and Orgasm unconsciously. (Likewise with eating food, we are not consciously eating, we are mostly eating and doing other stuff like watching tv, youtube or whatever. So we are not paying attention to how much and what we are eating. We end up eating to much or to little, because we are so busy with other stuff.) And when you are having Sex you are to busy with your emotions and thoughts. You are not paying attention to what is happening. You are not in the moment. You are caught up with how beautiful he or she is, or what you are getting out of this, i.e the pleasure. Ofcourse its beautiful, but do you really understand and observe what is happening? Are you seeing how creation is gently sharings its Consciousness with you? Are you being conscious in those moments, that your ego is slowly being stripped away? Are you conscious that this is the death of whatever you think yourself to be? And before you know it, you reach your climax and you just take it as a pleasurable experience: Oh that was nice, you tell yourself and you go on your merry way. But if you consciously observed everything up to the point of your climax, the moment of Orgasm, you would be completely stripped of whatever you thought yourself to be. In those seconds, as it is happening to you, you are dying to Love, you are dying to Infinity. But you are not paying attention, you are looking at the bodies and your definitions, labels and distinctions. You are seeing it from a dualistic point of view. You are not paying attention to him or her nor the process. What I am saying is, look in her or his eyes, look at the pupils, look at the color of their eyes, look and see how that person is a part of you by the color and shape of their Iris. Look around the edges of where the the Iris's circle is meeting their pupils. See how the Pupil of Nothingness is breathing in between the edges of the Iris, see how you are exchanging and Unifying aspects of yourselves, to eachother. Realise you are seing your own Infinite Nothingness getting expanded/diluted in to yourself. Realise that you can see another part of Yourself and Infinity in that being. How they are, how they carry themselves, how they are living their life, how they are seeing and being a part of Reality through You. Be observant of the merging of both of your fractals, realise that you are loosing the sense of who you are, dont resist it, you and her/him are no longer (in that moment) yourselves. You are creating something new for Eachother, as One Unity. And pay attention to the moment you and her/him are reaching The Orgasmic State, or preferably when both of you are. And if you dare, continue looking in the other persons eyes, as you are dying, if you dare. You will be shocked and shattered to pieces. And your being will be completely reawakened to itself. If you dont have a significant other, that is not a problem. If you can drop all your beliefs and self-judgments, fear of being judged and your own imagined self worth. You go infront of the mirror, and you do it to yourself (no matter male or female). Look yourself in the eyes while doing it, and realise that you have always been doing it with yourself, even when you "imagined" that there was an "other". Allow yourself to completely loose yourself, to Yourself. Infinately in that moment. And dont you dare looking the other way in shame. Because You are Looking at God. It brings you to tears, because you realize that you are seeing yourself for the first time. And you will be amazed at the fact that it is possible for you to see your own face. And that it is so beautiful that you can be able to Love Yourself. (for a full experience of this, try it on a Psychedelic, LSD/5MEO. Does wonders) When we are doing things consciously, we are given so much more than when we are doing out of a need or a necessity. And just like when we are eating, we can be in the moment, observe, savor and understand what it is we are doing. So we end up being full and feeling satisfied with less and seeing how less Is actually more. We see and understand the reason we are given the ability to eat. (Not just to fill our stomachs in a dissrespectful way. And go lay on the couch with a stomachache). We see and understand why we are given the ability to have Sex/Orgasm. (not to use and abuse eachother for our selfish gains and expanding our body-counts) We see and understand why we are given the ability to sleep and know what resting is. (not just to go to sleep because we are bored or have nothing else to do) When you do this in every aspect of your life, Especially with Sex/Orgasm, Eating and Sleeping. Our lives become transformed and the depth of our Consciousness expands. We grow in to a new and activated state of One-ness with ourselves (God). Remove the Mundane aspect to reality from your Mind. That is the cause of your need for things to be different. Whenever you are outside, standing somewhere and you look up at the night sky and bask in the beauty of space. You need a ground to stand on. Because without it, you would be falling and having no possibility of seeing or watching anything. Likewise your life is the ground you stand on, to be able to experience and explore Yourself. Reality is groundless. So you as God created a ground for yourself to Experience and Explore Yourself. But your ground needs good foundation to be able to hold What You Are. (Your ego must be worked on, for it to be a stable ground for your union with God.) Its all just a prep-work for the big party ahead. The Orgasmic state is when you are One with Everything, it is everything you Ever longed for, it is when You are complete. So build on top of whatever you have in the Now, transmute it and use it to expand yourself. Transform yourself. Transmuting what you have been given is a complete state of Bliss. You Thank Yourself, and that Thankfulness Grows. You say I Love you, and the Lovelyness Grows. Its not about living a life where you are "done" with sex and you feel like its wrong, or you are living a "spiritual" life with spiritual standards. What do you think Living Life Consciously is? But an unfolding in to what you Truly are. Where do you think you are going to go? Out there? What is out there but here where you exactly are? Wherever you go, it will always be experienced right where you are. When you are living in the future, you are trying to escape yourself. You are seperating yourself. You are forming an identity. And once again, you are lost... For the past 9 months as I have been going through the process of awakening, been blasted with insights and understandings from my own experience regarding this topic. I know words are symbols and pointings, and they cant really express what direct experience feels like, but I can feel and intuit that for those of you who relate and understand what im trying to point to, there wont be the need for words, because I am you, and you are me, like lovely Leo says in his videos Also I would Love to hear your thoughts and experiences regarding this. I am open to expand my view with the rest of you (myself) (Also pardon my grammar or spelling mistakes, if there are any)

This is by far the best thing I have ever read. You basically just described my first 5meo-dmt trip. Thank you for Love!

This is not 2CB if you are new to this and looking to try real 2CB, or have seen Leo's video about it. TLDR: This "New Pink" version is actually not 2CB at all. It is a mix between Amphetamines, Fentanyl, Ketamine, LSD, GHB, MDMA, Ecstacy and more (See 07:00 + 17:17 in the video) This is not your average psychedelic for spiritual work/consciousness work. This stuff is not safe, and if you are looking to try 2CB (which is an amazing tool for this work) I would advise you too buy the white or brown powder looking stuff. It's either 2CB HCl/HBr. And of course test your stuff if you have never tried this stuff before.

Thank you for that wonderful insight

Thanks Well, what is so interesting that we go through our own journey, learning all these things, and to use that to help teaching others, so many things about the healing process, the journey, the process, the work; just like Teal has for all these years. Yet we fall in to a few traps or call them tests, and we fail to see what we have learned, said and done throughout our journey. And the ego will use that specific moment to hold us by the neck and to use that as our deepest weaknesses: "See how bad you are? See, you haven't changed a bit! You are not good enough!" And sometimes we fall deeply in to that trap, and identify with that and then our whole reality changes to reflect that wounding, or pain or identity. It is like a drama show that keeps creating new scenes for different characters and actors that are playing new roles. If you look at the whole thing from above; Our whole lives, it is the perfect illusion for Consciousness to fool itself in/under. But it looks so real and so convincing as the characters and the identity of these characters/aspects. What I find interesting is that what we have the hardest to embody, is presence of mind. How to catch yourself in the making? To really learn from our mistakes and past conflicts. And to be aware enough to use that in every moment of our lives. Acting under pressure. It's most likely something we realize after we have done something that we regret, that we say: "Oh, I shouldn't have acted that way." And that becomes the next illusionary path we choose walk on.

Author, teacher of consciousness. One of the teachers Leo went to.

Teal is just a representation of our side we are not healing or integrating. Rather blaming, judging and dismissing. She is just playing a role for us to see our darker sides. Ram Dass once said: "When someone passing through and spewing their crap on to us, that is their karma, but how we choose to act or react to that, is our karma." As: If we judge them, that is our own judgment to ourselves. But if we see them for what they do, willfully or not, and if we observe that, then that is our act of understanding towards our different aspects. As much as I want to shame her for it. I can see that I would probably have acted the same If I didn't go through the things I did in my life and seen the things I have seen. But if I were to have that erased and be entered to her reality, I would have been the same. Watching that video when she is telling stories about her childhood (don't know if they are true), but being "forced" to bathe in cow's blood and make out with other kids, at age 6 and being raped and molested. No wonder she is the way she is now, no matter how much healing work she has/hasn't done. By the looks of things, she is just gathering people in her life to show/mirror her different aspects, back to herself, and seeing if she can heal and integrate them. In whatever avatar and life story we go through when we enter this reality. What we get programmed with as a child and in our early adulthood, will deeply affect and shape us in the years to come. Unless we go through a self-deconstruction phase at some point, where we go through so many ego-deaths and have our many layers of identity peeled of like layers of an onion, it is just going to be hard to let those pieces go. And as long as we exist as finite selves, we are just going to have a few or many layers of ego. That is just how we can exist. I don't know if Teal has worked with psychedelics. But going through her shit in her life without any aid to show herself to herself so thoroughly (like with psychedelics) is real ballsy. So I got to give her that. Either way, reality will mirror what it does best, which is mirroring. So she is getting to heal and to work on herself, the way her reality is playing out. Having multiple ego-deaths, and going though phases of self/identity shedding (ouroboros style) will wash us of our different disfunctionalities. But not many are lucky to walk that path/direction. I don't know how awake she is. But as Ralston once said about enligtenment, "Don't expect transformation". I wish her the best.

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Find someone that works with Kundalini energy, if it worsens. Clean out your life with proper clean diet, meditation and spend more time with your physical being, clean yourself of your fears and traumas. Heal relationships in your life that have been causing you suffering. Be willing to forgive and forget. Drop resentments and thoughts and patterns that are no longer inline with your present experience. Have a willingness to make things right in your relationship with your reality. A lot of it is just your physical being wanting to release stored up energy that no longer serves you. So, what you can do is to open up and let it, and preferably help the process by being selfless to yourself, by aiding the cleansing of your physical being. It will be different for everyone, so find what it is in your unique being. Try to see this as a healing process. Try to love the Kundalini outbursts. A lot of the time it is actually deep Love entering you. And if you really see it for what it is, then it will be the most beautiful sensations you will ever feel. They will turn in to metaphysical orgasms that can last for hours on end. My first deep Kundalini awakening lasted for 2-3 days. I was home from work, shaking in orgasms on my bed. Also, some substances will be more violent with the cleansing. So maybe try to take something milder. Can recommend LSD, just 1-2 tabs. And go in to them with the intention to heal and to release. Meditate on the bed with some meditation music together with your LSD trips.

Haha yea indeed. Even though I was checking the forum a few times yesterday. It was so peaceful and a day where I felt present with myself. Not a bad idea to take breaks sometimes. Can be quite healthy actually. And if this resonates with you (the reader) I encourage you to do the same. This forum is a blessing, but it can turn in to a crutch. When we separate ourselves consciously from our habits. Then when we come back to them, occasionally, they become so much more meaningful. And we appreciate them so much more.

The Godhead is far from boring I tell you. It is like being in an Infinite Orgasm. The more selfless you are, the less attached you are to the dream; The more pleasurable it becomes. Until the point of your last breath, and then you become it. There would be no possibility to even think a thought like: “This is boring”, when you are in that state.

I’m sorry but this not true at all. If you really broke in to the Godhead, you would have completely chosen to end the dream. You can resist it, which many of us do, but it feels like having the entire Universe on your shoulders, and standing on a ledge, in front of the abyss; ready to throw everything in to it, seeing how Beautiful it is if you would choose to do it. With all that weight on your shoulders, being an inch away from jumping; and then to resist it… It is our own selfishness that brings us back. It is our own sense of unworthiness that denies ourselves to stay in that state. And of course our attachments.

Thank you. It is your own words my friend, you just write them from this avatar to that one. Perfect is only perfect if it seen from every possible angle. Otherwise it is imperfect, but imperfect is still just one of many angles.

@Razard86 I love you so much brother. Your work is amazing and you are doing so much for others that you forget yourself. Most of the times we just do what our being is pushing us to do. And it is always for good reasons, even if it’s hard to see why/what the reasons are, while it is happening. You are just radiating what you want to be and give to others, which is yourself of course. You are like the sun, which is just an endless explosion of Love. And it doesn’t choose or favor anyone whom it shines upon. It doesn’t care if it can be to warm sometimes, because that is how it expresses itself. And when the Love is too much, the planet creates clouds to protect the beings from too much radiation. But in turn, that forces the beings to start seeing/asking/pondering what the light/warmth of the sun actually is, and what it actually does for them. When you or others feel like it can be too much, that is the clouds doing their work. So you through others can evaluate and start to appreciate what you really are, and what you really give. The sun is so warm and so giving, that it sometimes forgets itself, until it realizes itself, and showers itself with her/his own Love. So it can keep on going for as long as it desires. Trust yourself, love yourself, don’t deny what is in you, and trust that others will get it through time. Clouds and shades are always accessible for people when they need it. Balance, Order and Harmony is always valued in Nature. That is what Nature strives for. Trust in the process that drives this whole reality. And realize that you are not only the sun, you are all of reality doing what it does best.

If you are referring to the real 2cb, then that is a good question. From my own experience, 2cb can have a very stimulant effect on the body. In higher doses, it makes you really warm. That can increase blood pressure. And that might not be so great for diabetics. I really don't wanna give any advice. Seek professional/medical advice from a practitioner. Here is a reddit post on it. https://www.reddit.com/r/Drugs/comments/27tnkg/2cb_and_diabetes/

That doesn't sound so fun. Maybe try some liquid b12 supplement then. Example: https://solgar.co.uk/products/solgar-liquid-b12-2000-with-b-complex-59-ml Here is a good video on it, recommend this guys channel if you're a vegan,

Whatever state you are in, in whatever body, with whatever senses, you are always in a dream reality. Also, to be able to access other senses than the ones you have when you are in your body; you would have to become “something” else, no? Your senses will become transformed and transmuted in to other senses, and you will love those even more. You becoming “something” else than what you are fearing now, that is death. But if you are very identified with your body, or what you think your body is, then it can be a bit tricky to free yourself from this state. But nothing to fear really. It’s totally normal. And with time you will realize things for what they truly are. Death is happening in every moment. But we are so disconnected from what death really is, so we become fearful of change. Which in turn results in a more and more finite and fearful state of consciousness. Expand the sense of what you think you are, and from your unique and beautiful way experiencing and orienting yourself in this reality, with the help of your inner compass, you will be able to decipher these fears and illusions that stops you from living in Truth, Harmony, Balance, Contentment and in flow with life. Happy journey✨

Thank you for being receptive ??

Ooh, was almost about to forget

Feels like being held in God's arms, Forever.

Thank you for your feedback. It can be boring taking pills every day or every other day. But with nutritional yeast, you can sprinkle it over literally everything you eat. In smoothies, in salads, over your cooked meals etc. Also it tastes great. And 313% of daily value from 2 teaspoons. Sounds enough to cover it.

It is You that is watching yourself. The more you expand your awareness of Yourself, watching yourself. The more you realize it is You. But that requires you to drop the sense of self you think you have now. To go meta and to see that You are watching yourself. (Emphasis on the capital You’s)

Interesting points. Gives new perspective on what was seen. I'll contemplate that during next trips. Thanks!

Haha it's like you described my father. I stopped saying anything like this to him. And it even got worse, he got super angry with me and he thinks that I am trying to be like Jesus or a prophet. He got this whole thing backwards and he sees me as a super dogmatic stage blue worshiper. And he wants me to come prove all these things to him through science. Even a few friends that I haven't spoken to for 2 years, even if they haven't met me in person since covid came. Just because they heard that I have tried LSD (through a mutual friend) they think that I am a devout evangelical. The irony and the comedy in this is just The thing for me to learn was to stop telling these things to people. Unless they themselves alluded to it. Or people that I know are spiritual. And I mean, even them. You tell them a thing or two that aren't aligned with their beliefs and their journey, and some of them just lash their ego out on you. It is what it is. You can show love and appreciation for what and who your family/friends are. You are only going to hurt yourself if you try to "force" this upon them. Even if you try to tell it in a calm, practical, pedagogical and peaceful manner. Trust yourself and who you really are. And realize that you are your own sovereign being. Give yourself the validation you seek. Also, maybe try to find like minded individuals. But I get it, you want to share this with the people that are the closest to you.