Gesundheit

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They will come to you, sooner or later. Don't be so quick to judge.

@Recursoinominado that is interesting although why did it evolve this much only in humans?

What is wrong with you?

Only problem is that what you're referring to as 'my finite mind' is not certain to exist whatsoever. You're completely making that up without proof.

Yep. Totally agree.

Having said that I have another theory. This may be an "overcorrection" (for lack of a better word) for the period of time that you were depressed. You know like balancing things out. Since you were possibly repressing some things during your depression, the energy releases you're experiencing right now feel freeing and since you weren't used to these levels of positive experiences, your "bodily receptors" were adapted to the negative experiences so that the threshold was very low. Now it's expanding. What do you think?

That's me. Granted. No you're totally fine, m'lady It's just the way you hold (or perhaps present?) your ideas and opinions that seems a little bit simplistic. It's usually an indicator of how much thought you've given the subject and the amount of experience you have about it. Simplicity here means lack of information. Complexity and nuance means more comprehensive understanding. Only you can rate yourself truly, but for what it's worth it should be pointed out to you in case you didn't notice. Have you watched Leo's Spiral Dynamics series? It's very helpful for bringing in more holistic bigger picture understanding. And it explains a lot about the values you, me, and other people hold. I'm not in a place to be able to appreciate or judge the situation correctly, but I can intuit that it's critical to you. You're an ambitious person and you have many things on your list to achieve. All I can do is wish you luck with everything.

Through disconnection.

@Shir You seem very open but at the same time and to be honest I think you have a lot to learn about this topic. Don't get me wrong I'm only saying this because I don't see much nuance in how you're thinking about this whole thing. Maybe I'm wrong and I hope I am but since you show openness I thought you might wanna hear that. Besides, Idk but I get the feeling that you actually want to have that marriage asap. And nothing wrong about that of course, but it doesn't seem entirely based on logic. I'm not sure. What do you think about that?

@Farnaby If someone tells me I'm not good enough I tell them to suck it. Well, at least in my mind.

Bipolar?

Pros vs. Cons? Do you recommend it? And will you keep doing it?

@Shir don't place your highest hopes on marriage. Just sayin. My advice is to be more realistic and listen and read more about other people's experiences both of relationships and marriage. Like you said, if you take marriage seriously you need to research very well among the stories of others. Everyone thinks that they're special and that their marriage is not going to be a mistake like other dumb people. Yet, I have rarely heard of any marriage that is successful. This raises an eyebrow for me. Why is this the case? You ever thought about that?

Lol I don't know about others but I myself have changed 180° in the past decade back and forth and I still see potential for more radical changes in the decade to come so I don't know. Of course not everyone changes like I did, but people do change to certain extents, and if they don't, they will become outdated. So it's basically like playing with fire. You're damned if you change or if you don't. Do I win yet?

Yeah you can do that for sure. But OP seems to have built a huge fantasy around marriage being something perfect that can never go wrong. As I said, it's only to bring in more awareness.

He may change. Everyone is subject to change, sometimes even radically, like 180°. Simple.

God forbid. I shall ban all governments if that happens lol.

Religions, ideologies, or any other kind of belief system.

No problem. And best of luck in finding your perfect soulmate and raising your perfect children (beware of perfectionism though)

Lol you sound pretty tense. Maybe try to release the tension through something you don't want to do Jk. Apologies.

Dude do whatever you want. I'm not here to tell you what to do or convince you otherwise. You said at the end of your post that you want our thoughts. Well, those were mine, take them or leave them.

There's no such things as safe sex or sacred marriage. You're creating these concepts and believing in them, for some reasons. The reality is that you can never guarantee that your husband will turn out to be a good person. In fact, marriage has been something a lot of people regret. I'm not saying that will necessarily be the case for you. I'm just trying to bring in more awareness. Yes, you can have children both from within and without of wedlock. Yet, you chose to have them only from within. That is something you've chosen, and it's not really noble or anything. But it may seem that way to you. Again, I'm not judging your preferences. You're free to do whatever you want. I'm just trying to bring in more awareness. Of course it is. What else could it be? That's kinda complex. Maybe.

I believe most people have been traumatized to different degrees while growing up regardless of the abusers. Teal Swan focuses a lot on healing past traumas if you're interested in that. Her videos are very practical.