Gesundheit

I believe I am well aware of my emotions. Aside from any major events, I could feel bliss at times during meditation. And sometimes I feel stress throughout life, but I remember to bring awareness onto it and it vanishes immediately. Major events may cause a lot of stress for me. Those are the ones I consider traumatizing. They usually are overwhelming and not located in a certain area. The minor stress I can easily locate, usually in my stomach area. I tried it now. I felt extremely faint sparks of love at first, especially when Leo was naming different memories. But they didn't last long. And when he started talking about magnifying the feeling, I lost track because there was nothing to magnify.

I don't know why would you recommend this. I don't feel bitter about the past or any person or anything at all. I don't feel love either. I just feel neutral about everything. Love is advocated within spiritual circles and that's why I'm asking. If I don't feel it, does this indicate that I'm doing something wrong? Or is it because of the traumatic past I have? Or is it simply BS and I am normal? I used to feel love in different flavors in the past. I used to love the poor and give money away. Now I don't give a fuck. In the back of my mind, I think that I need the money more than they do and that most of them are making a business out of faking poverty (it's a thing where I live) and that they are selfish devils. I am no longer in contact with the people I consider toxic. I have cut them out of my life completely long ago. I don't think so. Like I said above, I'm mainly concerned about whether there's something wrong with me that I am not able to feel the love advocated within spiritual circles. I also don't have any passions or a direction in life, and I think that may be related.

@Chris365 you don't understand.

Maybe it's not really my problem. Maybe the world needs to love and understand me instead. Maybe it's my right to have an ego and give and receive egoic love. I understand all this awakening stuff, I've been practising it for years. But I don't feel the love anymore. It's empty here. No love and no hatred either. I understand that nothing is personal because there is no person here anymore. The person died each time it got betrayed.

Knowledge is irrelevant here. It is derived from sensation, not the other way around. Sensation is prior to all thoughts. Whoa! That is a bold claim. Well, you're a master at that ??

@RedLine I suspect you're currently in a high state of consciousness.

You're just mentally masturbating bro. I'm talking about the actual thing, the raw sensations, and you're talking about abstract thoughts. Babies feel pain. In fact, babies are the ultimate portrayers of how real pain sensations are. You can't force a baby to stop crying if it's feeling pain. Crying is simply the natural response before ego was even born.

That's not the case for me. Consider orgasms. When I am having one, I just focus on the raw sensations of ejaculation, and they feel very pleasant. The contractions of the muscles and all that. Absolute pleasure. Nothing to do with ego or thought.

I'm sorry. I don't follow. I am talking about the actual experience of pleasure, not some thoughts about it. When I desire pleasure there will be thoughts, but when I am actually experiencing it, I am it. No thoughts and no anything else. Direct pleasure, direct feeling, without a medium. That feeling is never unpleasant. It is always pleasurable. Sometimes ego can interrupt the pleasure and turn it into hell, but that's something else entirely. The raw sensation of pleasure is pleasant. The ego can either enhance it or make it less or flip it upside down.

Pleasure does that, and I like it. Pleasurable activities give me pleasure regardless of my thoughts. It's easy to say this in theory. And you can even try to force that thought onto the pain, but the pain will still exist and you will still not like it. At least that's how it's been for me so far.

Good question.

I don't know. For me, pain is an unpleasant feeling. With or without thoughts, it is still painful. I imagine if at some point of pain I would kill myself to get rid of it. I wouldn't fear death at that point. The pain would be stronger than the fear.

Then why did you start a topic? At least offer something.

I fear pain as well. I don't like it one bit even though it's something else entirely than death.

So that maybe you could roll outta here?

I don't let others have that frame in the first place to the best of my abilities. The moment you submit to the frame of trigger vs victim, you've already lost the battle. Well, not quite. You can always use attack as a defence. Instead of waiting for them to trigger you, start it yourself, try to trigger them. And if you forget and then catch up later, play it cool and return their triggers onto them. But anyway, the only reason anyone can get triggered is ego. And the only true way out is awareness. Examine what exactly you are afraid of when someone throws some shit onto you. And let go... You can practice that at any time.

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Perhaps.

Thank you. I will contemplate and reflect on what you said here.

Exactly, and the word nothing describes what is perfectly, under one condition, which is not to restrict it with the word "only" or anything like that. Ex: being is only nothing. That is a false statement because it leaves out everything/phenomenon/perception/appearance. If it ever existed as a separate thing, then it was never the absolute truth. I am saying that nothing = everything, meaning that there's no distinction between nothing and everything. Nothing and everything exist as one thing and at the same time creating a distinction between them is valid. I am creating these constructs, yes. Not because I want to extract some value out of them, but because they have to be. These constructs are true, and the distinction between them is true. At least that's how it is to me. If these true constructs didn't exist, other false constructs would replace them and that would make me deluded.

Nothing

Elaborate pls.

What if there never was a mind?

You can, but they won't get it unless they share the same reference point. The reference point is the insight or understanding that allows someone to be realized. If that someone somehow forgets that reference point, they'll lose their awakening. I don't really see the connection here. Just because we can teach mathematics to kids does not mean that it's absolute truth. But anyway, I would argue that it's possible for a materialist to realize God simply by being open-minded, and then questioning and contemplating until it clicks. The realization will then become a reference point, or a memory. But the absolute truth is prior to it, and it will be seen as that.

Sex is meant to be mechanical and not enjoyable. But most humans are deluded, both men and women, although in different ways. The emotional connection during sex has nothing to do with the real emotional connection in real life, it's just a cheap trick for the unaware minds. That's for women. For men, the only reason sex is overrated is because of its relative rarity. Consider that if you could have sex with whoever you want and at any time you want, you would get bored very quickly. You'd hit a plateau point just like with food. Why don't most people appreciate food as much as sex? Because of its high availability and the ease of reach, obviously. If sex was as easy and available, it would lose most of its value, because its current value is delusion.