Gesundheit

It's already totalitarianism of $ but it's masked as democracy and people naively believe that.

Ha! I haven't drunk alcohol in my entire life, so after you said that I started wondering if it would affect my awareness. And well, I wouldn't know for sure until I try inducing a different state (haven't tried psychedelics, either).

Duuuude! Nothing more seductive than the forbidden fruit. Now I want to try alcohol to test my awareness.

@Rilles I'm not kidding. Self-deception is the single biggest self-deception of them all. Think about it; Why would anyone label certain mental activities a self-deception? Unless you're deluded with that illusory concept of self-deception in the first place, self-deception doesn't actually exist in your direct experience. The better route of action is increasing awareness. Awareness, on the contrary to self-deception, does not contradict self-love, and so it heals the self instead of demonizing it.

Who said that Nazis are evil monsters? Who wrote modern history? Perhaps a more evil monster.

Why don't you try that first and then report your experience back to us?

This is probably going to be my last post in this journal. I will make a review of 2020 and talk about my new year's resolution. A lot of mistakes been made, but a lot of lessons been learned. A lot, too, has been made aware of through new experiences and insights. I've met new people and learned from them. I've met myself in my most authentic states and discovered self-love. I've discovered new depths of peace of mind, and have overcome a lot of problems and traumas through that discovery alone. I've recognized where I am exactly on the path. I've realized patterns that I still have to work on deconstructing. And a lot more. I can confidently say that I have lived 2020 to the fullest, and that I don't regret any single part of it. But all of that, NOW, is in the past. The new year calls for a new start; 2020 won't even exist anymore in less than 72 hours. Everything that happened will be gone with it. Whatever happened in 2020 is now dying and will be completely dead soon. I will start a new journal with the main intentions of increasing bodily awareness to 100% if it's possible, and taming the ox, cuz that's where I am. Taming The Ox will probably be the best title for the new journal. I wanna thank everyone; friends and foes, close and far, young and old, alive and dead, in the north and the south and the east and the west, for creating this magnificent experience for me, even though it wasn't exactly pleasant for me at times. I wanna declare that I forgive everyone who's ever done me anything wrong, by intent or not. And I wanna ask for forgiveness, as well, from whoever got hurt by me in whatever means. We are all just travellers, and life is too short and precious to be wasted on overthinking silly stuff. Of course, the lessons acquired imply that I should be more picky with the things/people/experiences I am letting into my life in the future, but that doesn't mean I can't forgive and forget. I certainly can. LoA teaches us to focus on what we want, and that's what I always try to do. Recognizing patterns and letting them go is the way to go. Growth attitude: Everything and everyone is always a lesson for you. What is Spirituality/Enlightenment? It's the full embodiment of not-knowing. It's like a college that you go through to unlearn everything your society has taught you. You realize that you don't actually know anything, and then you try to become that realization. You only fully graduate after passing the ultimate exam; the fear of death. Once you're no longer affected by the fear of death, you will be completely free. And that will be liberation (A lot of imposters claim to be there). What is Self-Actualization? It's the full fulfilment of all your needs in the present moment. Another path to enlightenment, but quite different. I would say that it's for extroverts as opposed to the classical enlightenment route. What is stage Turquoise? It's the combination and integration of the two paths above. Be yourself. The world will adjust.

Objectives: Less stimulating activities in general. Less time doing stimulating activities. More presence throughout all activities. Gradual withdrawal from all forms of unnecessary activities. Less thinking. Less everything. More nothing.

Just a phase. And it will pass. But try to enjoy it.

Let's get back on track: I have to come up with a plan for the upcoming exams (studied for 10 minutes and got sick for 2 days; doesn't look promising ). I have to come up with a new year's resolution. I have to write a review of 2020 (maybe). Not now. It doesn't feel right yet.

@Keyhole Not until I get it

@Keyhole ??

@Javfly33 The question was meant to dismantle even rationality. It's not even an audio from YouTube, nor there are any stories. HERE and NOW.

How do you know that chirping is coming from some actual birds? Maybe it's just an old recording.

@Keyhole Appreciate the care. I'll get better soon. Speaking of berries, I don't know what these are: But they look really beautiful through my lens.

Trying to stay hydrated. I still feel ill. Fatigue and pain throughout the body. I can't think or do anything. Human beings are weak creatures.

@Rilles Amazing and inspiring! I think I will join you with this.

Not feeling very well. I have mild flu symptoms. Seems like my immune system didn't take removing that tooth very well. I'll just keep resting until I feel better.

Haha! Maybe This was my second wisdom tooth. The other two were more wise and chose not to come out, and by this logic you're wiser than me Yep. I was grateful for her for removing my pain, but I couldn't express that properly. The hell was that?!

Just got my fucking wisdom tooth removed. My remaining 1% wisdom is now gone. Now I'm a 100% idiot. My sister is a dentist. She took care of that SOB. Too bad I can't connect to her emotionally. I was raised with a mindset that doesn't allow such connection to exist. But I will work on it.

It's not black or white. That may be true for you as a healthy individual, but not for an individual with NPD. If you love/accept that narcissist, you will enable evil. Not that that's bad in the ultimate sense, but in "our ordinary human equality rights" sense. A narcissist does not understand things like love or transcendence. In fact, they use these concepts to use others and further push their greedy agendas. If a normal human ego can be satisfied easily, a narcissist's ego doesn't. Thus all the problems of humanity. Now, of course, narcissists won't like me saying this truth, and brainwashed people won't like it either. But yeah, it is what it is. Some people are simply evil, and you can't sugar-coat it.

We seriously need to have clear definitions of these words: Selfishness. Selflessness. Ego/devil.

But it's less egoic than, let's say, trying to earn 100 million dollars. Isn't it? Because inner peace is endless, but money isn't. So I can increase my inner peace to infinity without taking away any of your inner peace, but I can't earn 100 million dollars without taking some of your share.