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Ha! I don't share my picture here because I know it will distort my image and therefore my message. I try to keep my message as clean & neutral as possible. Looks are extremely important. But here's the thing; Most women aren't aware of how they're attracted to looks because they tend to lump everything together. So, of course, they tell you that looks aren't their top priority, when in fact looks can be a game-changer. I think that attraction works the same for men and women, in the big picture. One thing for sure is that attraction does not work in a rational manner where you can logically discuss priorities with yourself and sort them alphabetically, and then according to value, and then logically sort out exactly what you want and exclude some things, and compromise some things for others, etc... Attraction is extremely subtle and deeply unconscious that you'd have to have an eagle-eyed awareness to see what's really going on. Good looking guys/girls have it easier, and there's no doubt about that. Being handsome is a gift, not even exclusively in the dating world, and being ugly is a handicap. Why? I would say because subconsciously, good looks translate into safety, prosperity, health, hygiene, good social circle, high status (or at least not low), etc... All of which translate into value, which is appealing to everyone, not only women, because humans are value-driven creatures. As opposed to bad looks, which translate into trouble, illness, poverty, danger, low status, low standards of living, etc... But, of course, you can have good looks and not know how to use them. You can waste your value if you're not aware enough/if you have self-image problems. You can be handsome but stupid. And none of that is exclusive to men. I know some girls who have decent looks, but ruin them with their lack of self-esteem. I get turned off by low self-esteem girls, no matter how beautiful/attractive they are.

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Progress check: I discovered other patterns too but forgot to write them down. That might be another pattern of mine lol.

Q.E.D. Successfully proved OP's point ??‍♂️

What is evil?

@Emerald How do you define health in general, and psychological health in specific?

INTROVERSION IS A LIE! I lived my whole life (at least from an early age, 7-8 years old probably) believing that I am an introvert, without realizing how damaging that belief can be. Earlier this day, I went out and met FOUR new people. TWO of them asked for my number. And then I went with my two best friends and had lunch together. It was a great day. I feel incredible.

Life's not hard. Acing it, maybe. You'd have to be extremely unenlightened to think that life is hard.

Nostalgia & Gratitude. And tears of love.

I think your desire for support/approval is absolutely natural. Are you familiar with Maslow's hierarchy of needs? You can use it to prioritize your needs and make better decisions. Take a look here: But it might be the case as well that your perception is being clouded by the lack of sex and human interaction. For that, I would simply go and have sex and socialize more first, and then re-examine the situation. You should gain more clarity about what you want after fulfilling the more fundamental needs (lower rows). Sex and human connection are two different needs at two different levels. Yet, the need for recognition/attention is at another level. I think you're feeling confused because you're treating them as one big issue rather than small separate ones. And so the hierarchy helps you make it simpler. What do you think? (try not to overthink lol).

Awesome work! Solo retreats are the best.

@LostStudent Hey! If you're struggling with meditation, try to develop a genuine curiosity for understanding your mind & self. Understanding yourself is so powerful. It empowers every movement you make down to the core of your being. "Know thyself".

@LostStudent It's alright. I have experienced a lot worse and survived, and now I'm happier than ever. I have been severely depressed in the past, but what you're describing here does not sound like depression to me, at least not a clinical case of depression. Rather, it sounds like an unconscious repression of your authentic self. In my experience, that can happen due to various reasons, including: Losing sight of your intuitive compass after years of conscious supression, or at least somewhat conscious. Being overly focused on results instead of being focused on finding the right balance between happiness & success, or feeling & thinking. So now success, discipline, thinking, goals, planning, achievements, etc... are your modus operandi in life. And you don't know much beyond that because other things, such as happiness, connection, intuition, feeling, being, playing, etc... have probably become alien to you at this point. You can confirm that is the case if your life feels too mechanical, or something like being stuck in a hamster wheel. Nothing to worry about, though. Set aside some time everyday to rediscover those things, and let your feelings be the guide there. Less thinking, more feeling. You need to balance the thinking. That's what the sadness is telling you. It's telling you to pay more attention to your feelings. I don't know how the covid situation is being handled over there, but what else is preventing you from having a relationship? I, too, have struggled with the sense of directionlessness, and I still do to some degree. At first, I felt extremely uncomfortable not-knowing where my life is heading, similar to you. But then, I learned that that's not a necessary thing. I don't need to know all the steps, as long as I am walking them one step at a time. If it gets too much, I go out and take a walk in nature and listen to some music.

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What do you mean by joke here? If the involved parties are unaware of their imperfections, then sure, it will probably get worse. Awareness is a game-changer. Once applied, it will work magic even if both parties are total train-wrecks.

@Inliytened1

I don't deny intuition. I just go meta on it.

Denial of beliefs? My bad.

Duh. I know I don't need to lecture you on how reality is all interconnected, but I feel you're dismissing something here, which may be useful for you. During my retreat three months ago, I was able to cure my back pain without any medications, just simply through body awareness at a higher level of consciousness. Maybe you can do the same through channelling? Maybe your health issues can be easily solved in another dimension? I can't say what's possible regarding entities from other dimensions because I haven't encountered any so far, but I am sure they might have some interesting insights for us, from what I have read and understand. I realize that that's a human-centric bias, but what isn't biased? If you don't take the human-centric pov, then what pov do you subscribe to? The answer is it doesn't matter! Cuz it's still a biased pov. And therefore, there's no point in trying to avoid biases. There's no self to be biased in the first place.

I understand realistic limitations, but I also believe in miracles. I thought you believed in them too.

Hmmm, that got me thinking, maybe these feelings aren't actually as strong as they're being portrayed to you by yourself. Maybe they're just normal but you're not used to experiencing them to the same degree as you were busy and focused on other things? Maybe now that you have the time that these feelings are manifesting fully instead of being ignored or repressed? And then you have the feeling of loneliness which exaggerates the need for intimacy to the point where it makes you feel that you should do something about it, because it is tied to your identity as a girl. Girls tend to be more social and extroverted because that means better survival for them, since they attract men mainly with looks. Some things to play around with: Try to locate the feelings of discomfort in the body. Try to assess their intensity, as objectively as possible. Try feeling them fully and without resistance. Work on understanding the relationship between those feelings and the thoughts that accompany them, through meditation (check your journal in case you haven't already, I talked a little bit more about this there). Breathe into the feelings of discomfort. Try full inhalation from the belly and full exhalation from the mouth. Do some yoga. YouTube has a lot of videos. Obviously, try to solve the lack of human interaction issue. I agree that tinder is not a good solution for that, but I'm not sure what else you can do.

Classic stage Green thinking, but still human-centric. Notice that humans don't care about the suffering of bacteria for example. In the game of survival, everyone is ruthless and selfish. And to advance this ruthlessness, we create biases as such. Human suffering in this case is just the suffering of not being able to spread more humans. Cruelty goes against spreading more humans. That's why it's so painful for a Green person. At Purple, it wasn't an issue, cuz survival for the fittest, tribal-centric. The greatest evil/suffering for a Purple person would be to harm someone from their tribe. Think revenge. But it's fine if you harm/kill all other beings, no problem whatsoever. And if you harm an opposing tribe, you are a friend and will be showered with love and appreciation. Most psychological suffering is self-inflicted, cause of selfishness. Remove the self, and the suffering.

Meanwhile, I'll be sitting back there laughing at the mind and how it always creates puzzles it cannot solve. The problem is in the relationship your mind has created between perception and existence. This can easily happen if you follow Leo's work, cuz he believes in direct experience as absolute truth. But that's just his belief, and you don't have to adopt it.