Gesundheit

Wow! That was very specific. I want a similar scenario for myself but only regarding the death part.

What about me?

Bingo! I don't agree with the idea that you can transcend the ego entirely. It only changes forms and becomes more sneaky. Particularly watch out for when someone states that something is not ego. It will most likely be ego. Such a cunning tactic. This work was supposed to be about direct experience, so people deny their own birth. Yet, they believe in reincarnation and other silly concepts as if they were true or could be verified by any means. At least you have tons of evidence for your own birth. But no, they're just thoughts and you're imagining your birth, therefore you're deluded. Of course.

No. The physical world is absolute. All ideas of relativity and arbitrariness are relative and arbitrary. They are imaginary. The physical world is not imaginary. It exists and is directly experienced. If anything, there is a hierarchy. The physical world comes first. And then after that comes philosophy and all that.

The difference is that bouncing is not not-bouncing. And not-bouncing is not bouncing. It's so simple. If there was actually no difference between the two there wouldn't have been two different ways of expressing the two phenomenons. For something to be a certain way, it has to not be any other way. Otherwise it can't be.

Act natural and don't care for others. They will adjust.

The fuck! Even direct experience is bullshit. Nothing really has any value whatsoever. Everything is pointless. There is no free will. No point in doing or learning anything. There's no escaping reality. It's all about luck. Not random luck, but still luck. Fuck.

Seeking is a form of being

Is the brain hallucinating reality? Or did it emerge from reality?

These are girls having crushes on you. Apparently from your profile picture your looks are good. You probably have a calm personality too. This combination turns a lot of women on. But if you don't act on their crushes quickly they will lose interest in you by time, although usually not very quickly.

How long have you been like that?

Nothing neutral about that. What do you expect her to do? Sit in your lap? Of course she wants you, just go for it. All the lights are green.

@Chumbimba the point is that right now you shouldn't be focusing on the content of what you say. This is the phase where you learn how to handle rejection. Say whatever you want but don't expect it to work.

Can I have your number Leo?

No. materialism is devilry Only psychedelics are

@Leo Gura well that's indeed the next level of pickup but rarely anyone starts at that. If that's the goal then asking for the number helps getting there faster. There are no wrongs in pickup especially at first.

@Leo Gura lol who said anything about begging? It's just a conversation.

I don't know. Maybe so that you could ask the question and be confused.

We're in the 21st century. It works depending on the girl. Some find asking for their number right of the bat courageous and attractive and therefore they have no problem giving it. Women have good intuition in general. And for someone who hasn't done pick-up yet, it's probably obvious to them. Having good game is not supposed to be strict.

@Chumbimba she may have been interested in you. Next time don't take no for an answer. Tell her I don't take no for an answer in a humorous way. Don't force it either. Just don't give up too early. You'll get better with time but very good you've made the first step.

The difference is probably whether you're functioning well or not. Careful what you wish for. Taking hikes in nature helps me a lot. Especially when I sit down and meditate, and walk in a slower pace. Also, try aiming at a stable mood by applying awareness to particular times where you feel out of touch. Ex: right after waking up, notice that your mood is probably very different from how it was before going to sleep. Try to maintain a narrower range of mood swings. And build it up until you reach a stable level. . Anyway nice journal. Props to you for this level of transparency.

It may help if you could share screenshots of how your conversations stopped. There's something wrong there probably. I've overheard that one third of all American marriages starts online. So it's not exactly useless.

There's no observer or consciousness. There is only observation. Spontaneous creation. Something being made aware/conscious of, without a doer behind doing anything.

This book has been waiting on my list for so long. And now this comment made my saliva run. I say to hell with the exams lol

For me, Wikipedia is the worst place to learn about anything. Very rarely I resonate with their language both in my original and English languages. The authors are highly intellectual/logical in a very strict and robotic manner. That directly turns my mind off. But of course it's one of the greatest sources for information.