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Isn't that like saying 9/11 wasn't Bush's fault?

True, doing Iboga does sound like one is willing allowing the devil giving you a not so "happy ending," but jail-breaking your mind is hard my friend, and sometimes it may take a "madman" to deal with ones madness. I guess it's like standing outside a haunted house knowing the house is haunted because it's haunted by your demons. Demons that have been holding you down for years. Demons that have been your kryptonite for decades and the only way to vanquish these demons is to confront them head on and kill them at the source. But you are afraid to go into this haunted house because you are afraid of what these demons and the haunted house may reveal about your psyche and yourself as a human being. So this is where Drill Sergeant Iboga comes in because the Sergeant doesn't give a shit about your fear or your feelings. He forces you in the house. Forces you to fight and deal with demons you probably were not ready to deal with but he doesn't give a shit because this motherfucking masochist deals with problems with a hammer not a switch blade. His methods are brutal but it's his way of allowing you to face the truth about yourself and what you need to do in the future to be the best version of yourself you can be.

Sadly, I doubt it. But one can dream right? :-)

I do "Do Nothing Meditation"(eyes open) for an hour every day(morning or night). For 15 minutes I do "Do Nothing Meditation" in lotus pose(left leg inside). For 30 minutes I sit in a chair. And for the remaining 15 minutes I'm back into lotus pose(right leg inside). When in lotus pose I am able to stay awake. The pain sucks, but the more I sit in lotus pose the pain become less and less of an issue due to my body becoming more acclimated to the position. But when I sit in my favorite chair I always seem to doze off/fall asleep half way through the meditation. Can anybody tell me what this means? Am I doing something wrong? Is there something wrong with my brain? When I meditate with my eyes close I have no problem remaining conscious.

WOW!!! Thanks a lot Carl. I'll be sure to look into buying this chair. But more importantly, I've gotta do a better job of getting more sleep.

Oh believe me, I'm motivated, and I'm not tired when I start the meditation, it's just that I just get sleepy halfway through the practice. Maybe I should focus more on sitting in lotus pose for longer periods of time. I think I can sit in lotus pose for an hour, but I'm not sure, too afraid to try at the moment lol.

@Carl-Richard Well, I work the night-shift at an Amazon Warehouse from 7:00pm to 5:30am. Do you think this may have something to do with it? See my chair attached below.

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for seven days in complete isolation on a no salt, sugar and fat diet, would he or she be mentally, emotionally and physically capable of partaking in a iboga retreat for his or her very first time? We he or she be qualified to consume a large dose of the medicine?

You telling me this video is out of date?

I fucking love it too my friend...

when one is trying to attain enlightenment or work on self development?. Wouldn't those commitments just get in the way of your progress? Or slow your journey to the spiritual promise land to a crawl? Wouldn't it be more efficient to become a sperm donor? Or find a lesbian couple who wants to get married and wants to have kids and pay them to have your kids? Wouldn't it be more efficient to let the lesbian couple focus on the marriage and the raising of the family while YOU focus on self development? In this scenario you will be the "part time uncle" or role player, willing and able to assist the couple(and child) when they need assisting? So instead of carrying the brunt of the load, the load can be spread out between multiple agents, making the process of starting a family or raising a child much more manageable. I tried going the sperm donor route, but six months into the program they kicked me out due to my genetic disability(I am a stutterer). Now a days, with my dream shattered I find myself lost in a shadow of nothingness, pissing in the wind, shitting down rabbit holes, waiting for a couple to love me. :-( These are just my two cents. Whether these cents are actually worth two diamonds remains to be seen, but in the meantime, these cents are all I have.

Well, @Meta-Man if I'm selfish, than Barack Obama is selfish.

@cobalto The lesbian couple probably wouldn't need my money. I'm paying them due to the risk of my genetic mutation being passed down to my offspring, hence why I was kicked out of the sperm donor program. I was told my condition made me a hard sale to potential couples who wanted kids via sperm donation. Why do I need a son, daughter or kids in general? Well, the same reason Barack and Michelle Obama wanted to have kids. The same reason why the man wanted to be President of the United States. He felt he could do good in the world. He felt he could enact policies that could enrich the lives of those in dire need of enriching. Give hope to those who need it. I feel I can do for the lesbian couple and the kids what he did(or tried to do during his time in office) for the people of this country(USA). The ladies can do or fuck whoever they want to do or fuck. As long as they take care of themselves and the kids I will love them regardless of their actions and I will always have their backs. If they want to start a business and need me to look after the kids I will have their backs. If they need time to work on their marriage I will gladly take care of the kids while they focus on their issues. President Obama didn't run for President for power or free pussy. He ran for President so he could do good for the people. I want to be a sperm donor not so I can get access to free pussy(power) so I can do good for the kids. Again, the lesbian couple are my "Xfinity War" but the children they have via sperm donation will always be my "Endgame." I love them both, but one movie I will always love more than the other.

@cobalto Lesbian slaves? What the hell does that suppose to mean? You think I'm doing this to get laid? Come on man grow up. I have no intentions of having sex with these women. Hell I'm 38 years old and haven't had sex in 38 years so I think that should tell you something. ;-) All I want to do is help them raise the child(or children) to be the best they can be. I also want to help them be successful as well. If they need my help, I'll do whatever I can do to help. If you DON'T need my help than I'll stay out of their way. It's as simple as that. I have no intention of owning these ladies. These ladies aren't my slaves. I intend to sever them. Not the other way around. Do you think when Donald Trump had sex with his multiple wives to have kids his intent was spiritual? Hell no!! The man doesn't give a shit about his kids(and if you read Mary Trump's book, nor did his father). Besides what do you have against lesbians wanting children? How the hell else are they suppose to go about having them? If not me, they'll just find someone else. At least with me I'm paying them and at least with me I can be of assistance if needed. I admit, I wish I wasn't a virgin, but if I had to choose between being a virgin and having the potential to have two women raise my/our kids to be great people(i.e. Leo Gura), I'll choose being a virgin all day.

@iamthat No offense, but you sound incredibly ignorant. The scientist at the NIH literally told me I carry a mutation in GNPTAB gene that is related to stuttering. Humans aren't as black or white as you ignorantly make them out to be. We are complicated and so is our genetic makeup. Of course all stutterers have moments when they can speak fluently, for example I don't stutter when I sing, but just because I don't stutter when I sing doesn't mean the mutation does not exist. It doesn't mean I'm not a stutterer. I don't really care that I stutter. I've made peace with it. What kind of bums me out is, according to the scientist, there is a 50% chance my mutation can be passed down to my offspring. I'd still love the child regardless of his or her stutter, but it's a reality I have to accept. I've attached some literature on the issue. Hopefully it will broaden your perspective on the issue and not sound so shallow. Kang (2010) Mutations in the lysosomal enzyme-targeting pathway and persistent stuttering.pdf

Well, according to the NIH, I carry a mutation in GNPTAB gene (or the N-acetylglucosamine-1-phosphate trans- ferase gene) that is related to stuttering. So I'm pretty sure my stuttering is due to a defect in my brain rather than an emotional issue or issues triggered when I was young. Which again, is also why I was kicked out of the program. And yes, having a partner can help with our self-development. I'd just rather have two partners focus on one aspect of the relationship, while I focus on the other aspect, whether it be self-development, or stepping in to assist the two ladies if they need help. It would definitely help if two people in a traditional marriage share the same spiritual values. And if the lesbian couple (I pay or not pay) share the same spiritual interest and decide to start a family with my sperm, I will do my best(only when needed) to help support their marriage, their dreams and the child. I guess you can say I'd rather be the life raft than the ship. If that analogy makes any sense to you.

I think marriage is a loving union between two people who love each other regardless of their gender. Besides, at least half of the unions aren't so loving once the sex gets boring. I suppose in some marriages the two partners can become one body, but I think in most cases they are two faces of the same coin. Their vows(or kids) may be the metal in between keeping them together, but in a coins natural state, one side is always on the bottom and the other is on top. And with the billions of potential soulmates in this world it probably would take the power of the spirit world to find that one out of a billion to combine souls. I personally think each of us has thousands upon thousands of potential soulmates. I'd rather work with them to build a better world than limit myself to serve my own personal needs and desires.

What about the lesbian couple? Don't they deserve have kids too? Don't they deserve to start a family if that is their dream? Why can't I, the loneliness man in the world, be apart of making their dreams come true? In my opinion, I think marriage is just an excuse to have easy access to guilt free sex. When it comes to relationships, the raising and well being of the children are the Endgame. Marriage/sex is just the Infinity War. Both movies were good, but clearly one is much more important(and better) than the other.... "On your left...."

Because our fearless leader and self help gunslinger Leo Gura said fat and salt were agents of the Crimson King that must be avoided at all cost, or else, the Dark Tower will fall and all of end-world and mid-world will come to a terrifying and silent end. Unless I am mistaken...

For example, could contemplation be used to create using the following prompt: "Joe Biden is in conflict with Donald Trump over a fishing boat." Or does it have to be a question for contemplation to be most effective: "What will Joe Biden do to Donald Trump if they go fishing together in the Caspian Sea?" Or vice versa.

The ones I know of so far are: https://www.ayaquest.com/ https://santodaime.com/en/asks/ https://udvusa.org/ Are there any more churches I should know about?

drinking a doppio espresso shot? When I get home from work around 6:45am, I do an hour of "Do Nothing Meditation." I do this 7 days a week. On three of those days before I meditate, I "cheat" by drinking a double shot of espresso from starbucks. On these days my meditations are pretty damn cool and very fucking enjoyable. On the days when I meditate and I'm NOT "doppio'ed" up on espresso, my meditation experience is still enjoyable, but more challenging due to the fact that I'll sometimes tend to doze off and at certain periods of my session, I have to fight to stay awake or focused. I also notice when I doze off I tend to have mild hallucinations. Is this because when meditating my brain waves are functioning between the Alpha and Theta waves?

...INSANITY?? In 22 years, at the age of 60, I plan on enrolling in Arkana's long term immersion program: https://www.pulsetours.com/long-term-immersion-program-with-master-plant-teachers/ I plan on being their 12 months. I am going to meditate 6 days a week/10 hours a day. The first 5 hours I will do "Do Nothing Meditation"(eyes open). The last five hours I will do Mindfulness meditation(eyes closed) I will journal my thoughts and insights. On the seventh day I will take part in a Ayahuasca ceremony. The master plant I will ingest during my time at Arkana will be: Chiric Sanango I just hope climate change doesn't rear it's ugly head by the time I'm ready to embark on this journey. I would go now, but I have nowhere near the funds to take part on this incredible and possibly life changing adventure into the mind and soul of my body. Even if I had the money, I would be afraid to go. I don't think I'm mentally ready for the drastic change that would take place inside my mind, body and soul if I embarked on this type of adventure for one year. I would take part in the year long retreat in a documentary format. If the documentary made a lot of money I would want the money to a charity helping foster kids. Well folks, is this a path to enlightenment or a path to the nuthouse?

Fear my friend. I guess right now I want my cake and eat it too. I suppose I'm not ready to give up the cake completely. Which I think is what I would be doing if I decided to embark on the year long retreat in my immediate future.